Name: 現在在美國做 Trans 是什麼感覺？ (What it's like to be Trans in the USA right now)
Uploaded: 2025-08-05T03:18:05.000Z
Duration: 9 min 17 s

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So I wanted to talk a little bit about what it's like being a transgender person in the United States right now.

所以，我想談談變性人在美國現在的處境。

I get up every morning and I look in the mirror and I feel like I've aged.

我每天早上起來照鏡子，都覺得自己老了。

In the last six months I feel like I've aged five years just from stress alone.

在過去的六個月裡，光是壓力就讓我覺得自己老了五歲。

At any given point I have three different life plans floating around in my head with all necessary logistics.

在任何時候，我的腦子裡都會浮現出三種不同的生活計劃，以及所有必要的後勤保障。

I have plan number one, which is that somehow everything is going to be okay.

我有第一個計劃，那就是一切都會好起來的。

In which case I have to live my life normally and keep my life and my house and my family intact just in case.

在這種情況下，我必須正常生活，保持我的生活、房子和家人的完整，以防萬一。

Just in case everything somehow turns out to be okay.

Plan number two is if everything goes bad and I've got to keep my family safe but I can't leave the country.

第二個計劃是，如果一切都變糟了，我必須保證家人的安全，但我又不能離開這個國家。

In which case I'm doing whatever I can to prepare my home, making sure we have ways to grow food and we have emergency supplies.

在這種情況下，我會盡我所能為我的家做好準備，確保我們有辦法種植食物，我們有應急物資。

Making sure I know what to do if I've got to hide myself or my family.

確保我知道如果要把自己或家人藏起來該怎麼做。

Something bad happens, terrible happens, and I need to leave the country and I can leave the country and I can take my family away from the United States.

如果發生了不好的事情，可怕的事情發生了，我需要離開這個國家，我可以離開這個國家，我可以帶著我的家人離開美國。

In which case I have to think about all the logistics of moving somewhere else to a different country and making sure I can keep my job in another country.

在這種情況下，我必須考慮搬到另一個國家的所有後勤問題，並確保我能在另一個國家保住工作。

Making sure my kids are somewhere where they don't have too huge of a culture shock from having to move.

確保我的孩子們不會因為搬家而受到太大的文化衝擊。

And every day I put pieces together of each of those plans.

每天，我都會把這些計劃的各個部分拼湊在一起。

It's as if I'm having to live three different lives.

就好像我必須過三種不同的生活。

Not a fitness tracker or anything fun, but my anti-transgender legislation tracker where I have to view every day which states are enacting which discriminatory policies against transgender people and what executive orders this administration is enacting against transgender people.

這不是一個健身追蹤器或任何有趣的東西，而是我的反變性人立法追蹤器，我每天都要查看哪些州正在頒佈哪些針對變性人的歧視性政策，以及本屆政府正在頒佈哪些針對變性人的行政命令。

And while I live in a safe state, every single day I feel it getting closer.

雖然我生活在一個安全的國度，但每一天我都能感覺到它越來越近。

And I don't have a ton of hope for humanity right now, and I'll tell you why.

我現在對人類不抱什麼希望，我來告訴你為什麼。

It's because I don't blame this presidential administration or even necessarily Congress alone for why we're here.

這是因為，我並不責怪這屆總統政府，甚至不一定把我們的處境歸咎於國會。

I blame all the everyday people for us being here.

我們能來到這裡，都要歸功於所有的普通人。

Because I have to live my everyday life around people that I know did not stand up for my rights or belittled me saying that there was danger.

因為我不得不每天生活在我認識的人周圍，他們沒有站出來維護我的權利，或者輕視我，說我有危險。

I have to live every day with those people.

我每天都得和這些人生活在一起。

Not enough to actually stand up for what's right.

So my hope in humanity has really, really diminished.

所以，我對人類的希望真的真的減少了。

And if these people weren't going to stand up before, why would they stand up now?

如果這些人以前不站出來，現在為什麼還要站出來？

So, I have to go to work every day and be around people that either don't know or don't care that my life feels like it's falling apart.

所以，我每天都得去上班，身邊的人要麼不知道，要麼根本不在乎我的生活感覺正在崩潰。

I have to sit at the table with people that won't listen to what's going on because they don't want their joy stolen or they just don't care.

我不得不和那些不願意傾聽發生了什麼的人坐在一起，因為他們不希望自己的快樂被偷走，或者他們根本不在乎。

Or I honestly can't fathom what other reason.

或者說，我實在想不出還有什麼其他原因。

I have to have small talk with neighbors and friends, all whom would seemingly happily sit by as I burn in the fire.

我不得不與鄰居和朋友閒聊，他們似乎都樂意坐在一旁看著我在火中燃燒。

And that all has a significant mental load.

而這一切都會帶來巨大的精神負擔。

I don't think people in the United States are used to fighting.

And I think we're all incredibly selfish.

We will not come out of our comfort zone to fight for someone else.

我們不會走出自己的舒適區，為別人而戰。

The layers of being completely alone, I think, are...

我認為，完全孤獨的層次是......

There's just so many of them for transgender people in the United States right now.

在美國，變性人的問題太多了。

We have to keep performing our responsibilities, go to work, take care of our families, while also being around people that just are simply okay with watching what's happening to this small group of innocent people in the United States.

我們必須繼續履行我們的職責，去工作，照顧我們的家人，同時還要與那些對發生在美國這一小撮無辜者身上的事情袖手旁觀的人為伍。

And I'm infuriated by it and so disappointed by it.

And I can't even imagine what it's like for, for instance, our transgender service members who are being removed from the military right now.

我甚至無法想象，比如說，我們的變性軍人現在正被軍隊除名，他們會是什麼樣子。

Can you imagine putting your life on the line for your country and having your country tell you you are not fit and that you cost too much?

你能想象自己為國家出生入死，而國家卻說你不合適，說你代價太大嗎？

And especially being since those are all fabrications and it's not true.

尤其是因為這些都是捏造的，並不是真的。

I can't even imagine what it's like for those individuals.

我甚至無法想象那些人的感受。

And can you imagine what it's like right now for our transgender youth, where all scientific studies and literature have been obliterated and erased from the United States, and these fake studies and this, this fabricated information is being pushed forward, where the medical treatment for transgender people, for transgender youth, is conversion therapy.

你能想象變性青年現在的處境嗎？在美國，所有的科學研究和文獻都被抹去，這些虛假的研究和捏造的資訊被推向前臺，變性人和變性青年的醫療方法就是轉換療法。

Can you imagine being a young person in the United States right now?

你能想象自己現在是美國的年輕人嗎？

我不知道怎樣才能讓人們關心我。

I feel like I realize that trans people are outside of the box.

我覺得我意識到，變性人是不受約束的。

And I realize anything outside of the box is a target for hatred.

我意識到，任何不符合規則的東西都會成為仇恨的目標。

And because of that, I have worked my entire life to be a good example.

正因為如此，我一生都在努力成為一個好榜樣。

To be the person that people look at and think, maybe I should rethink my views on transgender people.

讓人們看了之後會想，也許我應該重新考慮一下我對變性人的看法。

And yet, the general mass of individuals in this country are okay to just turn their back as this group of innocent people is being targeted for eradication.

然而，這個國家的廣大民眾卻可以置之不理，任由這群無辜的人成為被剷除的目標。

我不知道如何保護家人的安全。