Name: 走出陰影生於強姦 | BBC 新聞 (Out of the Shadows: Born from Rape | BBC News)
Uploaded: 2025-07-28T17:08:37.000Z
Duration: 16 min 40 s

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Do I look like the man who raped my birth mother?

我看起來像強姦我生母的人嗎？

他說，媽媽，我是強姦嬰兒嗎？

No-one wants to talk about what we're going through.

沒有人願意談論我們所經歷的一切。

SHE SPEAKS INDIGENOUS LANGUAGE He was my angel.

I'm putting... ..the... ..one of the hardest stories about my life out there.

我把.............我生命中最艱難的故事之一說出來

That was literally just minutes after I'd give birth to him.

那簡直就是我生下他後的幾分鐘。

I were only 14 when I met a man called Arshad Hussain.

我 14 歲時遇到了一個叫阿爾沙德-侯賽因（Arshad Hussain）的男人。

He was ten years older than me, and from that moment, he began grooming me.

他比我大十歲，從那一刻起，他開始為我梳妝打扮。

I thought, that's how love was supposed to be.

But I still remember him being in my arms.

但我仍然記得他在我懷裡的樣子。

And I just had that moment, that instant bond, that I think only a mother kind of, you know, feels.

那一刻，我覺得只有母親才能感受到那種瞬間的親情。

But as I got older, I started to understand what had happened to me.

但隨著年齡的增長，我開始明白髮生在我身上的事情。

A piece of young girls in Rotherham was deep-rooted...

羅瑟勒姆的一片少女們根深蒂固......

Arshad Hussain was the ringleader behind...

阿爾沙德-侯賽因（Arshad Hussain）是......

強姦接二連三，襲擊接二連三。

Sammy Woodhouse gave birth to a son after she was raped.

薩米-伍德豪斯（Sammy Woodhouse）在被強姦後生下了一個兒子。

I remember when those thoughts first started running through my head.

我還記得這些想法剛開始在我腦海中閃現的時候。

I thought, what am I going to tell my son?

我想，我該怎麼告訴我的兒子呢？

I couldn't see a light at the end of the tunnel.

My son were only 12 when I had to tell him that his dad had raped and abused me.

我兒子只有 12 歲時，我不得不告訴他，他爸爸強姦並虐待了我。

He didn't want to be the person who he was.

There must be others out there feeling the same way.

一定還有其他人有同樣的感受。

The worst feeling is feeling like you're alone.

最糟糕的感覺就是覺得自己孤身一人。

You're questioning everything about yourself.

Looking in the mirror, almost like I could see the man who raped my mother looking back at me.

看著鏡子裡的自己，我幾乎能看到那個強姦我母親的男人在回頭看著我。

You grow up with all these ideas of who you are.

在你成長的過程中，你會對自己的身份產生各種想法。

You're kind and you're nice and you're loving.

And then you find out you were conceived in a really violent, almost hateful way.

然後你發現自己是以一種非常暴力、近乎仇恨的方式懷上的。

它將你的心從你的世界中抽離出來。

Neil grew up adopted and Tracey's birth mother when he was 27.

尼爾從小被收養，27 歲時與特蕾西的生母相認。

It was then that he discovered he were born after she was raped by a stranger in a park.

就在那時，他發現自己是在她在公園被一個陌生人強姦後出生的。

When you hear those words, it's like somebody's... ..almost like a video game punched into your chest and ripped your inside out.

當你聽到這些話時，就像有人......就像一個視頻遊戲打進了你的胸膛，撕裂了你的內心。

So I did meet with my birth mother and one of the first things I said to her was, if I look like the man who did this to you, walk away.

所以我去見了我的生母，我對她說的第一句話就是：如果我看起來像對你做過這種事的人，你就走開。

She said, it's fine, you don't look like him.

她說，沒關係，你長得不像他。

The man who did that to my birth mother is...

You know, I can't be clear enough about this.

But, no, I wouldn't want anything to do with him.

但是，不，我不想和他有任何瓜葛。

To all intents and purposes, I don't think of myself as having a birth father.

無論如何，我都不認為自己有生父。

For me, what's kind of hard to sit here and listen to is that you had all this to deal with...

對我來說，坐在這裡聽你說這些有點困難......

而你是一個成年人，正在處理這件事。

So I'm kind of just sat here thinking, erm, I feel, in a way, like I've failed him.

所以我就坐在這裡想，嗯，我覺得，在某種程度上，我讓他失望了。

I think, by being open and honest, you've done the best by him.

我認為，你開誠佈公，對他是最好的。

So long as there is love there and you can show that love and explain that how he was conceived is the most unimportant thing in the world.

只要有愛，只要你能表現出愛，並解釋他是如何懷上的，這就是世界上最不重要的事情。

You're part of me and that's the important thing.

你是我的一部分，這才是最重要的。

And we might have to work at it more every day than most families because we're both hurting.

我們可能每天都要比大多數家庭付出更多的努力，因為我們都很痛苦。

But we're together and that's the important thing and you're my son.

但我們在一起，這才是最重要的，你是我的兒子。

I've tried so hard to be the best mum I can to my son.

我一直在努力做一個對兒子最好的媽媽。

But no matter how much I love him, he still has his shadow hanging over him.

但無論我多麼愛他，他的陰影依然籠罩著他。

And I know he has questions about his dad, but I don't know whether the reality would really help him.

我知道他有關於父親的問題，但我不知道現實是否真的能幫助他。

The next train to arrive at platform one...

I packed some nappies... ..for the child.

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走出陰影生於強姦 | BBC 新聞 (Out of the Shadows: Born from Rape | BBC News)

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