每日口說挑戰人生課題：我不喜歡我的樣子，怎麼辦？ (Not Liking One's Look)

謝謝 Ingrid :)

**僅此留言紀念 Day 777
說說開始使用這個平台的契機好了

不知道從什麼時候開始，
英文已經漸漸跟不上大家的程度，
自己也逐漸習慣暑假補考、重修的輪迴，
好像是從高中開始的

其實，
國中我的英文並沒有這麼爛，
雖說並不突出，但考試結果也尚可接受

升上高中發現英文比起國中課本困難許多，
經過一兩輪的考試也清楚認知到自己英文不是太好，
於是就跟同學一樣，花很多時間去背單字、讀課文、好好寫回家作業，
但無奈
成績依然沒有絲毫起色，依然被高中英文壓在地板磨蹭，
自己也從一開始看到不及格會痛哭、暗自落淚、
為自己的付出感到憤恨不平，
到後來漸漸的
習慣這一切。

學測，我吃盡苦頭

因為英文只有後標，
儘管其他科目都是頂標或前標
也沒有選擇，大部分科系都有英文門檻

英文只有後標的我，
只能站在門檻外對著那些科系乾瞪眼，
這是一次慘痛的經驗。

勉強上了大學，
學測那時血淋淋的經驗歷歷在目，
我暗自發誓要在大學扭轉自己的劣勢

但對大一新生來說，何嘗容易?
新生的生活中充滿了活動，滿滿的活動，
有活寶、創舞、動組、營隊、系隊、社團，數不清的活動等著你去參加
我也不例外
一股腦地栽了進去

大一的我除了玩活動還參加了兩個系隊
周一到周日根本都滿滿滿，
上課、練球、活動、練球...
何況大學跟高中不一樣，退學、留級是玩真的
因此每次考試也都戰戰兢兢，全力以赴

但與此同時，
想要趁大學補強英文的熱血
也隨著每周滿滿的行程表
慢慢淡去了

直到大二的一個偶然機會
緣分讓我遇到了幾位讓我重新喜歡上英文的老師，
他們的熱血、真誠及樂觀感染到我，
使我又慢慢重拾對這份學習英文的初心

那段時間因緣際會之下接觸到VoiceTube，
平台免費提供豐富的英文學習資源，
而我身為窮學生又想練英文，
一拍即合

剛開始雖然常常聽不懂，
一個短短的口說挑戰經常要聽半個小時以上才能聽得清楚原文
但隨著時間拉長，漸漸發現自己要聽懂口說挑戰的影片內容已是輕鬆許多
不知不覺，打開口說挑戰已經變成每天的習慣

現在，研究所也快畢業了，
錄音的天數來到777，雖然有時候時間上可能不允許我慢慢聽完主持人或是大家的錄音，
但我還是會努力保持這個習慣的

最後，
謝謝至今以來的主持群，陪伴我度過許多練習英文的時光
也謝謝在這裡每天堅持不懈的大家，你們有些人是我學習發音的學習榜樣、有些人是一起奮鬥的戰友、
有些人則是唱歌非常好聽，每次聽到你們唱歌都覺得非常厲害^^

未來也請多多指教 :)

今天唱的是來自 Glee 的 I Feel Pretty/Unpretty ，以下附上歌詞：
（To skip the song, go to 1:54! 覺得 Ingrid 唱歌超煩人，可以跳到 1:54! ）

I wish I could tie you up in my shoes
Make you feel unpretty too
I was told I was beautiful
But what does that mean to you
Look into the mirror who's inside there
The one with the long hair
Same old me again today

My outsides are cool
My insides are blue
Every time I think I'm through
It's because of you
I've tried different ways
But it's all the same
At the end of the day
I have myself to blame
I'm just trippin'

You can buy your hair if it won't grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make-up that MAC can make
But if you can't look inside you
Find out who am I too
Be in a position to make me feel so damn unpretty
I feel pretty
Oh so pretty
I feel pretty and witty and bright

Today’s theme is lightly more serious, so instead of talking about it, I’m going to share a song with you that fits this theme. After the song, there’s a sentence of the day, and after that, be sure to go watch the video. At the end of today’s episode, there will be further explanations of what this song is about. So be sure to listen if you want to know.

1-1. gaze (v./n.)凝視，注視，盯著看
*For the last exercise, I want you to gaze into your partners’ eyes and tell them you love them.

1-2. stare (v./n.)盯著看
*Stop staring! You’re burning a hole through her head.

1-3. glance (v./n.)快速地看一眼
*That guy over at the table kept glancing this way. Do you know him?

1-4. glare (v./n.)怒視，瞪眼
*What’s up with that glare? Did(That?) I do something wrong?

2-1. brief (adj.)短暫的，簡短的
*The teacher asked us to give a brief 30-second self introduction, not an hour long speech about yourself.

2-2. briefs 內褲

3. planet (n.)行星
*My friend Katie is such a unique person. It’s like she’s from another planet sometimes.

The song at the beginning is talking how people see themselves by other people’s judgments resulting in(導致) you feeling ugly because someone said so. This is an issue that we should really think about it. Today’s video also talks a lot about this and provides some solutions you need to know.

☺Yet, you gaze in the bathroom mirror and think: Why in my brief existence on this planet does this have to be me?
但當你在廁所看著鏡中的自己時，不禁會想著：「為什麼在我短暫存在於這個星球上的期間，還非得要生成這副模樣？」
【心得】我是低調的路人甲，完全無法靠臉吃飯:p (這系列的影片似乎都走悲情淒涼風XD)
■gaze [gez] (尤指因為驚奇、羡慕或心不在焉而)凝視、注視、盯[(+at/on/upon/into)]
凝視、注視
■stare [stɛr] (尤指驚訝、害怕或思考時)盯著看、凝視、注視
凝視、注視；瞪眼
■glance [glæns] (粗略地)看一下、一瞥、掃視[(+at/round/over/through)] ；簡略提及、影射[(+at)]；閃爍、閃耀
(使)擦過；掃視、瞥見
瞥一眼、迅速地看一眼、掃視 [(+at/into/over/through)]；擦過、掠過；爍、閃耀、閃光
■glare [glɛr] 怒目注視[（+at）]；眩目地照射；顯眼、引人注目
用憤怒的目光表示
瞪眼、怒視
刺眼的強光；引人注目、顯眼
■brief [brif]< adj.>短暫的；簡短的；短距離的；(衣著)短而裸露的
概要；訴書；(律師的)當事人；訟案；簡介；簡報
briefs短而緊的內褲
簡報；作…的提要；向…介紹情況
■planet [ˋplænɪt] 行星

需要他人肯定的話，就去早餐店尋求慰藉吧！

以前念書的時候，的確會看著鏡子，對自己的頭髮、痘痘、臉型…都很有意見。

不過，醜久了，看久了，也就習慣了…

For the last exercise（在最後ㄧ個練習）, I want you to gaze (凝視）into your partner’s eyes and tell them you love them.

Stop staring（不要再盯著看）! You’re burning a hole （你視線要燒出ㄧ個洞）through her head.

That guy over at the tables kept glancing （撇看；掃視）this way. Do you know him?

What’s up with that glare(怒視）？Did I do something wrong?

True teacher asked us to give a brief 30-second self-introduction. Not an hour long speech about ourselves.

My friend Katie is such a unique person. It’s like she’s from another planet(星球） sometimes.

【male gaze】男性凝視（指從男人的角度來看事件或者看待女人）
- the fact of showing or watching events or looking at women from a man's point of view
■ A recent series of feminist music videos attempted to challenge the male gaze. 最近的一系列女權主義音樂視訊作品試圖對「男性凝視」做出挑戰。

Yet, you gaze in the bathroom mirror and think: Why? In my brief existence on this planet does this have to be me?

歡慶Day200～感謝大家200天來的陪伴！請小心音量過大～To be continued...

✿gaze
--(n.v.)to look at something or someone for a long time, especially in surprise or admiration, or because you are thinking about something else
✿stare
--(v.n.)to look for a long time with the eyes wide open, especially when surprised, frightened, or thinking
✿glance
--(v.n.)to give a quick short look [She glanced around/round the room to see who was there.]
--(v.)to shine, reflect light, or sparkle [The sunlight glanced on the lake.]
-- ✿at a glance=immediately [He could tell at a glance that something was wrong.]
--✿at first glance=when first looking [At first glance I thought it was a dog (but I was mistaken).]
--✿glance off (sth)掠過 to hit or touch something quickly and lightly at an angle and move away in another direction [The bullets glanced off the car.]
✿glare
--(n.v.)a long, angry look
--(n.v.)unpleasantly bright or strong light/to shine too brightly [This screen gives off a lot of glare.]
--✿the/a glare of sth an occasion when something receives a very large amount of public attention [The actor's wedding took place in the full glare of the media.]
✿brief
--(adj.)lasting only a short time or containing few words/used to express how quickly time goes past
--(adj.)(of clothes) very short
--(v.n.)to give someone detailed instructions or information [We had already been briefed on what the job would entail.]
--✿in brief If something is said in brief, it is said in a very short form, with very few details.簡而言之
✿planet
--(n.)an extremely large, round mass of rock and metal, such as Earth, or of gas, such as Jupiter, that moves in a circular path around the sun or another star

Yet, you gaze in the bathroom mirror and think: Why? In my brief existence on this planet does this have to be me?
但當你在廁所看著鏡中的自己，不禁會想著：「為什麼？在我短暫存於這顆星球的期間，我一定要是這樣嗎？」