is about to meet my dad

就要見我爸了

for the first time.

第一次。

I grew up with two moms,

我和兩個媽媽一起長大。

Kathleen and Betsy.

Kathleen和Betsy

And I really don't

而且我真的不

miss having a dad

想爸爸

because they both

因為他們都

completed a different area

完成不同領域

of me.

的我。

This is the family.

這就是家族。

My sister, Sarah, and I have always just had each other.

我的妹妹，莎拉，和我一直都只是擁有對方。

And I love Sarah to pieces.

而且我愛莎拉的碎片。

I always knew that I was donor conceived.

我一直都知道我是受捐者。

We were imagining you

我們在想象你

18 years from now

18年後

meeting this guy

遇到這個人

and we wanted you to like him.

我們希望你能喜歡他。

I don't think

我不認為

I ever

我曾經

imagined that there could be so many siblings.

想到會有這麼多兄弟姐妹。

I thought maybe if I'm lucky I'll find one

我想，如果我幸運的話，也許會找到一個。

or two.

或兩個。

I think we're still trying to

我想我們還在努力。

feel around

摸索

and figure out how we're family.

並弄清楚我們是如何'家庭。

It's

它的

completely uncharted territory.

完全未知的領域。

We're going to go visit Carolyn,

我們要去拜訪卡洛琳。

my half sister.

我同父異母的妹妹。

Carolyn was the first sibling that I made contact with.

卡羅琳是我接觸的第一個兄弟姐妹。

So I guess she's just the introduction,

所以我想她只是介紹。

my introduction to the donor sibling world.

我對捐贈者兄弟姐妹世界的介紹。

Carolyn!

卡洛琳！

What up, what up?

怎麼了，怎麼了？

Your haircut, when did that happen?

你的髮型，什麼時候發生的？

That happened like a month ago.

這事發生在一個月前

I love it.

我喜歡它。

Thank you.

謝謝你了

It's adorable.

太可愛了

When I was growing up, I thought that

在我成長的過程中，我認為

maybe I have donor siblings.

也許我有捐贈的兄弟姐妹。

But then your mom was the first person to contact me!

但後來你媽媽是第一個聯繫我的人!

So that was the like first time I was like:

所以，這是像第一次 我很喜歡。

'Oh, I have a donor sibling!

'哦，我有一個捐獻的兄弟姐妹!

And it's you!'

而且是你！&#39。

So I thought it was just 19 of us,

所以我以為只有我們19個人。

and then Sam popped up,

然後薩姆突然出現了。

and we were like,

我們很喜歡。

'Oh, Sam is another one we didn't know about.'

＆#39;哦，山姆是另一個我們不知道的。 ＆#39。

There's definitely 20 of us.

我們肯定有20個人。

And my mom has an Excel spreadsheet.

而我媽媽有一個Excel電子表格。

She does?

她有嗎？

Yeah, with everybody that we have to date

是啊，與每個人，我們有日期

and their parents and contact info.

以及他們的父母和聯繫方式。

This is the sperm pipette...

這是吸精器... ...

is that the word? -

是這個詞嗎？-

that my mother used.

我媽媽用的。

And here you can see that it says 1317.

在這裡你可以看到，它說1317。

I guess she got this on June 6 of 1995

我猜她是在1995年6月6日得到這個的

So she used a little vial and

所以她用一個小瓶子和

syringe to self-inseminate,

注射器進行自我授精。

and it came in the mail, it was frozen, she said

她說，它是在郵件裡寄來的，它被凍結了。

that she warmed it up like so.

她把它暖成這樣。

I found out my mom was actually in contact

我發現我媽媽其實是有聯繫的

my entire childhood

小時候

and even before I was born with other moms.

甚至在我出生前就和其他媽媽一起。

Now that I'm 18, the rest of us are also adults.

現在我已經18歲了，剩下的也都是成年人了。

We have established our own relationships with each other.

我們彼此之間建立了自己的關係。

She had these probably in her freezer for four to five months before she decided:

她大概在冰箱裡放了四到五個月才決定。

today's the day that I'm going to get pregnant.

今天是我要懷孕的日子。

Donor 1317 was originally approved for donation in November 1993,

1317號捐贈者最初是在1993年11月被準許捐贈的。

since the release of his semen,

自從他的精液被釋放後。

we have achieved six confirmed pregnancies.

我們已經實現了六次確認懷孕。

The donor continues to be healthy.

捐贈者繼續健康。

That is so medical and scientific!

這真是太醫學、太科學了!

This necklace, it says 1-3-1-7.

這條項鍊，上面寫著1-3-1-7。

And my moms gave it to me

我媽媽給我的

for my 18th birthday.

為我的18歲生日。

And I think the number represents less of

而我認為這個數字代表了較少的

the donor 1-3-1-7 and more of my moms

捐獻者1-3-1-7和更多的我的媽媽。

and my half siblings and that - just my family,

和我同父異母的兄弟姐妹，還有那--只是我的家人。

it's all different parts of my family.

它'都是我家庭的不同部分。

When we were starting this process first of all

當我們開始這個過程時，首先

there were two known sperm banks we were aware of,

據我們所知，有兩個已知的精子庫。

both in California, that had a known donor programme.

兩者都在加利福尼亞，有一個已知的捐助方案。

So this is the questionnaire we got from the sperm bank

這是精子庫給我們的調查問卷。

about your donor.

關於您的捐贈者。

'Why do you want to be a sperm donor?'

'你為什麼要做捐精者？

'Besides the money, which was definitely an incentive since I am strapped for cash,

'除了錢，這絕對是一種激勵，因為我的資金緊張。

I think that it would be a very rewarding experience.

我想，這將是一次非常有意義的經歷。

If I never have kids then I would want to know

如果我不生孩子，我就會想知道

that I have given that opportunity to another couple.'

我已經把這個機會給了另一對夫婦'。

'Which option did you choose?'

'你選擇了哪個選項？

'Identity release.'

'身份釋放.&#39。

'And explain why you chose this option.'

＆#39;並解釋為什麼你選擇了這個選項.＆#39。

'It may be interesting to meet my unknown child to see what effects

'如果能見到我那不知名的孩子，看看有什麼效果，也許會很有趣。

environmental and genetic have played a role in his or her development.'

環境和遺傳在他或她的發展中起了作用'。

'If we could pass a message to the recipient of your semen, what would that message be?'

'如果我們能給你精液的接受者傳遞一個資訊，這個資訊會是什麼呢？

'Hold your head high and be considerate of others.'

'昂首挺胸，體貼他人.&#39。

I mean he just seems like a really nice guy.

我的意思是，他只是看起來像一個真正的好人。

so that's why we chose him.

所以，這就是為什麼我們選擇了他。

We were imagining you

我們在想象你

18 years from now meeting this guy

18年後遇到這個人

and we wanted you to like him

我們希望你能喜歡他

and, yeah

而且，是的

think he was a good guy, so that was kind of our process.

覺得他是個好人，所以這是我們的一種過程。

You glad we picked him?

你很高興我們選擇了他？

I mean yeah!

我的意思是，是的！

I love you.

我愛你

I love you, too.

我也愛你

You're so special.

你太特別了

Kathleen and I got together when we were 23 years old.

我和凱瑟琳在23歲的時候就在一起了。

So we were quite young at the time.

所以我們當時還很年輕。

She was the kind of person that would walk in the room

她是那種會走進房間的人。

and light it up.

並點亮它。

Oh my gosh mom, you're so young.

哦，我的天哪，媽媽，你這麼年輕。

Thank you? I think.

謝謝你？我想是的

Not that you're old now, but like…

不是說你現在老了，而是... ...

for the three months that she lived

在她生活的三個月裡

after her diagnosis,

診斷後，她。

she did more living than most people do

生不如死

in a decade - if not more.

在十年內--如果不是更多的話。

Julia, this was when we were on vacation,

茱莉亞，這是在我們度假的時候。

a week before your mummy died.

在你媽咪去世前一個星期

And she played the song she'd learned,

她還彈起了她學過的那首歌。

she taught herself to play the ukulele

她教自己彈四絃琴

in the last two months of her life and

在她生命的最後兩個月和

played the song for the whole family.

為全家人播放了這首歌。

Love you girls.

愛你的女孩。

You ok?

你還好嗎？

Kathleen was very insistent on making sure

Kathleen非常堅持要確保。

that we used the sperm bank of California,

我們使用加州的精子庫。

because we were allowed to have a 'Known Donor Programme' from that.

因為我們被允許有一個'已知捐贈者計劃&39;，從。

We didn't have any rights to the donor,

我們對捐贈者沒有任何權利。

and he didn't have any rights to us, either.

他也沒有任何權利給我們。

Julia was the only person that could make contact.

茱莉亞是唯一能聯繫的人。

Julia was born in 1999 in January,

茱莉亞出生於1999年1月。

and she was conceived

而她是懷孕了

five months before Google was founded.

谷歌成立前五個月。

So there was no chance in our minds

所以在我們看來，沒有機會

that any of the diblings would ever be part of the picture.

任何一個兄弟姐妹都會成為畫面的一部分。

It wasn't that we didn't want them, it just never crossed our mind.

我們不是不想要他們，只是從來沒有想過。

Oh honey pie, I love you so much.

哦，親愛的派，我好愛你。

I love you, too.

我也愛你

Have a great trip

一路順風

and I want to hear all about it when you get home.

等你回家後，我想聽聽你的意見。

We are on the road to Syracuse, New York,

我們在去紐約雪城的路上。

where I'm going to meet up

在哪裡見面

with three of my siblings,

與我的三個兄弟姐妹。

George, Mari and Samantha.

喬治，瑪麗和薩曼莎。

And I've met George before,

而且我以前見過喬治。

and I haven't met Mari or Samantha.

我還沒見過瑪麗和薩曼莎呢

What's up!

怎麼了？

Hi.

嗨，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說，我是說。

I'm Mari.

我是瑪麗

Do you see what I mean?

你明白我的意思嗎？

I think they look so similar.

我覺得他們看起來很像。

The eyes.

眼睛。

Yeah.

是啊。

Yeah and the nose and the bone structure.

是啊，還有鼻子和骨骼結構。

Already?

已經有了？

And your nose.

還有你的鼻子

I have small hands.

我的手很小

I have huge hands.

我的手很大

I have bigger hands than my brother.

我的手比我哥哥大

We have the exact same size hands.

我們的手大小完全一樣。

I never really wondered about

我從來沒有真正想知道

the fact that I might have these half siblings -

事實上，我可能有 這些同父異母的兄弟姐妹 -

diblings.

兄妹倆。

I like more calling them like sisters and brothers,

我更喜歡稱他們為姐弟。

because I'm trying to get more used to the fact that they are like my sisters and brothers.

因為我在努力讓自己更習慣他們就像我的姐妹和兄弟一樣的事實。

Now it's really become a much bigger part

現在，它真的成了一個更大的一部分。

of this whole sperm donor story to me than

這整個精子捐贈者的故事，我比

the father aspect of it.

的父親方面。

It's so grody that other people's parents had to have sex.

真是太槽糕了，別人的父母都要做愛。

I was a double donor conception,

我是雙捐受孕。

which means that a donor egg and then

這意味著，一個捐贈卵子，然後

a donor sperm was used.

使用了捐贈精子。

I felt very alien, I felt very like

我覺得很陌生，我覺得很像

in a hole,

洞裡。

and 50 years ago I wouldn't have been able to exist at all.

而50年前，我根本不可能存在。

I felt like I was kind of forced on to the earth a little bit.

我覺得自己有點被逼上絕路的感覺。

It wasn't natural at all.

這根本就不是自然的。

There was a period that I was just

有一段時間，我只是

I wished I hadn't been born in this way,

我希望自己不是以這種方式出生的。

really at all.

真的一點也不。

And I almost kind of blamed her,

我幾乎有點責怪她。

because I knew that she wanted a child so bad.

因為我知道她非常想要一個孩子。

People don't report when the pregnancies are successful.

懷孕成功的時候，大家都不報。

So the sperm banks don't get a lot of information in return from the families

所以精子庫並不能從家庭中得到很多資訊的回報。

apparently there's a problem with

顯然，有一個問題

lack of regulation around that or something.

圍繞著這一點缺乏監管什麼的。

I don't know, should they have 20-something kids?

我不知道，他們該不該生20多歲的孩子？

Sperm donation is around to stay.

捐精是要留下來的。

So, for someday it might only be this.

所以，對於某一天來說，可能只有這個。

We don't know the future of any of that.

我們不知道這些的未來。

I really want to get to know you better. I'm down to be like a brother.

我真的很想多瞭解你。我願意像哥哥一樣。

I want you guys too. There's a lot, you know?

我也想要你們。有很多，你知道嗎？

Welcome to the family kind of thing.

歡迎來到這個大家庭的那種。

We're not brothers and sisters in name only,

我們不是名義上的兄弟姐妹。

I kind of want to make it more than that.

我有點想讓它更多。

I think it's definitely possible to have a few

我覺得絕對可以有幾個

people, or a lot of people maybe, even,

人，或者說很多人也許，甚至。

if I'm good with time management,

如果我'時間管理好的話。

who I can have really deep relationships with

我可以有真正深入的關係

who feel like my brother and sister.

誰覺得像我的兄弟姐妹。

I think it's important to do something

我覺得做一些事情是很重要的。

every once in a while with these people

偶爾和這些人

to grow these connections.

來發展這些聯繫。

I don't think it necessarily has to be something

我覺得不一定非得是什麼東西。

where you need to talk to them all the time,

在那裡你需要一直和他們說話。

or even having one person that you talk to all the time

或甚至有一個人，你所有的時間說話。

because we're not accustomed to that in our lives,

因為我們在生活中不習慣這樣的生活。

but I think that this can be a family.

但我認為，這可以成為一個家庭。

And I'm really excited about that.

我真的很興奮。

My half sister came up to me and gave me a

我那同父異母的妹妹走到我面前，給了我一個。

hug today,

擁抱今天。

and I was the first blood relative she's ever touched

而我是她第一個接觸過的親戚

and it's a Thursday.

而且今天是星期四

Just a random Thursday.

只是一個隨機的星期四。

The whole experience is always shocking and

整個經歷總是令人震驚和

bewildering, but in a really beautiful way.

令人困惑的，但在一個非常美麗的方式。

And really touching way.

而且真的很感人的方式。

Hugging George, it was like,

抱著喬治，就像。

I don't know, a strange sort of homecoming,

我不知道，一種奇怪的歸宿。

it was like someone I should've been hugging throughout my childhood but never did.

就像我從小到大都應該擁抱的人，卻從來沒有擁抱過。

I wish I could've told younger me about this day.

我希望我可以告訴年輕的我這一天。

I wish I could go back and tell her that you'll find them.

我希望我能回去告訴她，你會找到他們。

You'll find those people that understand.

你會發現那些理解的人。

It'll definitely

它一定會

keep me warm for a very long time, you know?

讓我溫暖了很久，你知道嗎？

We're still figuring out how family works,

我們還在摸索家庭的運作方式。

and how our family works.

以及我們的家庭如何運作。

I don't know where we are in that, but I like

我不知道我們在哪裡，但我喜歡

where it is. Wherever it is, I like it.

它在哪裡，就在哪裡。無論它在哪裡，我都喜歡它。

Really only about 3-5% of all potential donors

真的只佔所有潛在捐助者的3-5%。

actually become donors. It's kind of an exclusive club.

實際上成為捐助者。這是一種專屬俱樂部。

So these are the samples

所以這些都是樣品

and they're attached to canes, like this.

他們連接到手杖，像這樣。

And we just lay them here.

而我們只是把它們放在這裡。

We limit the number of vials that we allow a donor to produce.

我們限制了一個捐贈者可以生產的小瓶數量。

If we allow a donor to collect 500 vials,

如果我們允許一個捐贈者收集500個小瓶。

If you do some calculations,

如果你計算一下。

that would be approximately between 10 and 15 pregnancies.

這將是大約10至15次懷孕。

It's not what I expected, I expected it to be some

這不是我所期望的，我期望它是一些。

crazy, scientific,

瘋狂，科學。

all these people with masks on,

所有這些人與面具上。

running everywhere, and kind of scary, but it's very normal.

到處跑，有點嚇人，但很正常。

If we go down the hallway this way

如果我們沿著走廊走下去