Name: 你不是一個人在孤獨中度過的｜Jonny Sun (You are not alone in your loneliness | Jonny Sun)
Uploaded: 2021-01-14T08:19:48.000Z
Duration: 10 min 37 s

譯者: Lilian Chiu 審譯者: Bruce Sung

委婉語氣表達希望、渴望

That's "Jonny" but spelled accidentally with an "m,"

若有人在納悶，原本是「喬尼 （Jonny）」，不小心拼錯了，

who has been sent to earth with a mission to study humans.

被派來地球執行研究人類的任務。

Jomny is feeling lost and alone and far from home,

喬姆尼感到失落、 孤單、離家很遠，

I wrote this story about this alien at a moment in my life

是人生中特別感到自己像外星人 一樣隔隔不入的時候。

I had just moved to Cambridge and started my doctoral program at MIT,

那時我剛搬到劍橋， 開始在麻省理工學院讀博士班，

and I was feeling intimidated and isolated and very much like I didn't belong.

See, I was writing jokes for years and years

and I found that I was turning to doing this more and more.

Now, for many people, the internet can feel like a lonely place.

對很多人來說， 網路是個孤單的地方。

大家可能會覺得網路是 巨大、無邊際、遼闊的虛無，

where you can constantly call out to it but no one's ever listening.

在那裡，你可以經常對它大喊， 但從來沒有人會聽。

But I actually found a comfort in speaking out to the void.

但我竟然在對著虛無講出 心聲的過程中找到慰藉。

I found, in sharing my feelings with the void,

我發現，當我和虛無 分享我的感受時，

eventually the void started to speak back.

And it turns out that the void isn't this endless lonely expanse at all,

最後發現，這虛無其實完全 不是無盡、孤單的廣闊區域,

but instead it's full of all sorts of other people,

反之，虛無中有著各式各樣的人，

also staring out into it and also wanting to be heard.

Now, there have been many bad things that have come from social media.

過去，有不少鳥事 來自於社交媒體。

To be online at any given point is to feel so much sadness

在任何時候上網， 都會感受到大量的悲傷、

感覺可能就像是世界末日。 但，同時，我也很矛盾，因為

我無法否認，事實上， 我最親的朋友當中有許多

because I can't deny the fact that so many of my closest friends

一開始都是我在網路上認識的。

are people that I had met originally online.

我想，有部分原因是因為社交媒體

And I think that's partly because there's this confessional nature

感覺就像是你在寫 一本親密的個人日記，

It can feel like you are writing in this personal, intimate diary

同時，你又希望 全世界的人都能讀它。

yet at the same time you want everyone in the world to read it.

And I think part of that, the joy of that

是來自於我們能夠從和我們自己

is that we get to experience things from perspectives from people

完全不同的人的視角來體驗事物，

who are completely different from ourselves,

For example, when I first joined Twitter,

I found that so many of the people that I was following

在談論心理健康和接受治療時，

were talking about mental health and going to therapy

並沒有我們面對面談論這些議題時

in ways that had none of the stigma that they often do

when we talk about these issues in person.

透過他們，關於心理健康的 談話變得很正常，

Through them, the conversation around mental health was normalized,

他們協助我了解到， 去接受治療是對我有幫助的。

and they helped me realize that going to therapy was something

在網路上如此公開、 開放地談論這些主題

it sounds like a scary idea to be talking about all these topics

so publicly and so openly on the internet.

在你還不是完全成形之前就上網， 那是很可怕的大事。

I feel like a lot of people think that it is a big, scary thing

但我認為，網路的未知性 反而是很棒的，

to be online if you're not already perfectly and fully formed.

我認為我們能帶著興奮去看待它，

But I think the internet can be actually a great place to not know,

因為，對我來說， 重要的是要將你的不完美、

and I think we can treat that with excitement,

你的缺乏安全感、 你的脆弱分享出去

because to me there's something important about sharing your imperfections

and your insecurities and your vulnerabilities

Now, when someone shares that they feel sad or afraid

其實會讓我覺得沒有那麼孤單了，

並不是因為我擺脫了 我的任何孤單，

而是因為在感到孤單 這件事情上，我並不孤單。

not by getting rid of any of my loneliness

but by showing me that I am not alone in feeling lonely.

我非常在乎要把這種 坦承脆弱的舒適感變成是

一種公共的東西， 我們能和彼此分享的東西。

I care very much about making this comfort of being vulnerable a communal thing, something that we can share with each other.

我很興奮能夠把內在的東西外化，

I'm excited about externalizing the internal,

把那些我無法用言語 形容的無形感受

about taking those invisible personal feelings that I don't have words for,

帶到陽光底下，賦予它們字詞，

holding them to the light, putting words to them,

希望也能夠幫助其他人 找到言語來形容他們的感受。

in the hopes that it might help them find words to find their feelings as well.

Now, I know that sounds like a big thing,

但，最終，我感興趣的 是把上述所有這些

but ultimately I'm interested in putting all these things

通通放入容易取得的小包裝當中，

因為如果我們能把它們藏在 這些比較小的東西當中，

because when we can hide them into these smaller pieces,

就比較容易取得它們，比較好玩。

I think they are easier to approach, I think they're more fun.

它們就能更容易協助我們 了解我們共有的人性。

I think they can more easily help us see our shared humanness.

比如，有時用的形式是短篇故事，

Sometimes that takes the form of a short story,

有時，用的形式是 可愛的圖畫故事書。

sometimes that takes the form of a cute book of illustrations, for example.

有時，用的形式是我 丟到網路上的愚蠢笑話。

比如，幾個月前， 我張貼了一個想法，

of a silly joke that I'll throw on the internet.

For example, a few months ago, I posted this app idea

當狗出現在你家門口時， 你就得要走出門

where a dog shows up at your door and you have to get out of the house

如果觀眾當中有 應用程式開發工程師，

If there are app developers in the audience,

或者，每當我對於寄送電子郵件 感到焦慮時，我就會分享。

Or, I like to share every time I feel anxious about sending an email.

其實是「我在盡力做好 （best）」的簡寫，

也就是「請不要恨我， 我保證我在盡力而為！」的簡寫。

或者我對於傳統破冰方式的回應，

which is short for "Please don't hate me, I promise I'm trying my best!"

如果我能和任何人共進晚餐， 不論死活，我都願意。

if I could have dinner with anyone, dead or alive, I would.