Name: 活著的意義 (Why Am I Even Alive? | Muniba Mazari)
Uploaded: 2017-11-16T10:23:40.000Z
Duration: 6 min 38 s

good daughters never say no to their parents.

這樣的家庭中好女兒絕不會對父母回嘴"不要"

and all I said was, "If that makes you happy,

我只說：“如果我嫁人會令你開心”

And of course, it was never a happy marriage.

當然啦那是一段從來沒有開心過的婚姻

Just about after two years of getting married,

about nine years ago, I made a car accident.

不知怎麼的我的前夫被睡意擊垮

他想辦法跳出車外來救他自己的命

The radius and ulna of my right arm were fractured,

我右手臂的橈骨與尺骨兩處斷裂

shoulder bone and collar bone were fractured,

但這一整個傷害中徹底地改變我與我的生命

and my life completely was the spine injury.

Many people came to rescue, that gave me CPR,

有好多人前來拯救他們幫我施行CPR心肺復甦術

I got the complete transaction of my spinal cord.

Those two and a half months in the hospital were dreadful.

One day, a doctor came came to me and he said,

"Well, I heard that you wanted to be an artist,

The next day, the doctor came to me and said,

I took a deep breath, and I said, "It's all right."

我深深地吸了一口氣我說：“沒關係"

"and the fixation that you have in your back,

"you won't be able to give birth to a child again."

So what kept me going was, one day I asked my brothers,

讓我能繼續活著的是有一天我跟我兄弟們說

"but I'm tired of looking at these white walls

“但是我厭倦了一直看到這些醫院裡的白牆”

"in the hospital, and wearing these white scrubs.

"Bring me some colors, bring me some small canvas.

"帶一些顏料給我帶一些小畫布給我”

So the very first painting I made was on my deathbed,

就這樣，我的第一幅畫是在我的死亡之床上

People used to come and say, "What lovely painting.

許多人來了會說：“好可愛的畫喔”

I am not going to be that perfect person for someone.

我不打算去當某個人眼中的完美人士

並且為了我自己讓每個時刻是完美的

So, I wrote down, one by one, all those fears,

所以我一個一個寫下了所有的恐懼

and I decided that I'm going to overcome those fears

But the day I decided that this is nothing but my fear,

但當我決定了離婚並不是什麼大事不過就是我的恐懼而已，在那一天

透過令他回復自由之身我解放了我自己

同時我讓我自己在情緒上堅毅到

that the day I got the news that he's getting married,

I sent him a text that I'm so happy for you,

我發了訊息給他，”我很為你高興“

一直到今天，他知道我為他祈禱著

Number two was I won't be able to be a mother again,

第二是我無法再成為一個母親了

那對我來說，是相當具有摧毀力的

just go and adopt one, and that's what I did.

就去領養一位吧！那就是我後來做的事

I gave my name in different organizations,

00:03:52,670 --> 00:03:54,567我在不同的機構與孤兒院提出申請

different orphanages, and I waited patiently.

I got a call and they said, "Are you Muniba Mazari?

我接起電話，他們問：”你是穆妮芭•瑪札芮小姐嗎？“

"There is a baby boy, and would you like to adopt?"

”有個小男嬰，你願意領養嗎？“

我幾乎可以感覺到分娩時的陣痛

”是的！是的！我願意領養！“

You know when you end up being on the wheelchair,

你知道當你後來得坐在輪椅上過日子時

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