That was in the first wave.

那是在第一波。

In the second wave, I lost count, going home every day.

在第二波的時候，我數不清了，每天都要回家。

It was like my prayer in the United Spark outside the car.

這就像我在車外的聯合火花中的祈禱。

Lord, please get rid of all the jobs that saved me.

主啊，請把所有救我的工作都處理掉。

The last 12 months has been the most difficult in the NHS that I've ever worked.

過去的12個月是我在NHS工作過的最困難的一年。

I'll never forget things I've seen and the things I've done never.

我永遠不會忘記我見過的東西，我做過的事情永遠不會忘記。

It's impossible to speak about the last year without talking about the coronavirus pandemic and moved shortly before that started before the lockdown, You're in a new place, away from family, away from friends.

這是不可能談論去年不談論冠狀病毒大流行，並在鎖定前不久開始移動，你在一個新的地方，遠離家人，遠離朋友。

You're alone Back home.

你是一個人回家。

Everyone was like, Oh my God, You left at such the wrong time.

每個人都想，哦，我的上帝， 你在這樣的錯誤時間離開。

My name is Rachel A do so I joined the NHS in January of 2020.

我叫Rachel A do，所以我在2020年1月加入了NHS。

My name is Sheeba Sheeba Philip and one of the stroke nurse consultant working for East Lancashire teaching hospitals.

我叫Sheeba Sheeba Philip，是東蘭開夏教學醫院的中風護士顧問之一。

And I've been in my role here since 2017 Emily smack Mellon MPs Patient Services assistant.

而我自2017年以來一直在這裡擔任我的角色Emily smack Mellon議員患者服務助理。

Um and I've been with the NHS bottom rail for coming up to 12 months.

嗯，我已經與國民健康保險系統的底層軌道來了12個月。

I worked on the critical care Corvids Ward.

我在重症監護室工作。

The first time I ever went on that ward, I really didn't know what to expect.

我第一次去那個病房的時候，真的不知道會發生什麼。

Yeah, we saw it on TV.

是的，我們在電視上看到了。

We saw film camera going in.

我們看到電影攝影機進去了。

But to actually be there and actually see, it is something totally different.

但真正到了那裡，真正看到了，那就完全不一樣了。

My name is Maxine, a paramedic for Northwest Ambulance Service for the last 13 years, based in the Northwest area of Button.

我叫美心，是西北救護隊的一名醫護人員，在過去的13年裡，常駐巴頓的西北地區。

It's been the worst year that I've ever known.

這是我所知道的最糟糕的一年。

Working for the ambulance service would sign on at 7 a.m. You put all your pee pee on the vehicle, check everything off and then pretty much straight away, your radio will go off and you'll know pretty much it's going to be covid related patient.

為救護車服務工作，會在早上7點簽到，你把所有的尿尿都放在車上，把所有的東西都檢查一遍，然後差不多就可以了，你的廣播會響起，你就會知道差不多會是covid相關的病人。

We pretty much work eight hours before we get a break, and then you have half an hour and then you back out again.

我們幾乎是工作了八個小時才得到休息，然後你有半個小時的時間，然後你再出去。

The hardest thing is that thing of taking someone away from the family and thinking you're not coming, you know, they're not coming home and they're saying to you, Will that be all right?

最難的事情是，把一個人從家裡帶走，以為你不來了，你知道，他們不回家，他們對你說，這樣好嗎？

Well, I see them again and you're thinking No, I don't think you will.

好吧，我再看到他們，你就會想 不，我想你不會的。

When I started in December.

當我在12月開始。

It was so, so busy and my eyes was actually I was just like, Oh my Lord, what is going on?

它是如此，如此繁忙，我的眼睛其實我只是想，哦，我的上帝，這是怎麼回事？

I can't believe how bad it is.

我不敢相信這有多糟糕。

There was a passion, a gentleman and he think you come off into election.

有一種激情，一個紳士和他認為你來關閉進入選舉。

I'm not medically trained.

我沒有受過醫學訓練。

But I always try to you know, if if your patients then I'm cleaning around I am leases, alright to clean around and then his father of his family.

但我總是試圖你知道，如果如果你的病人，那麼我周圍的清潔我是租賃，好的清潔周圍，然後他的父親他的家庭。

And I said, Is this your family?

我說，這是你的家人嗎？

And he said, Yeah, well, thumbs up.

他說，是啊，好吧，豎起大拇指。

So I turned it so we could see it.

所以我把它轉過來，讓我們可以看到它。

And so I brought a beautiful family.

於是我帶來了一個美麗的家庭。

You have, and I'm like hanging the keep going.

你有，我就像掛著繼續走。

Keep going.

繼續走吧

And then, um But I went off letter, his family came in and he was passing, you know, and the screen with his daughter.

然後，嗯... ...但我去了信， 他的家人進來，他是通過，你知道， 和螢幕與他的女兒。

But I'll live with me forever, forever When he finally went, humbled, challenging and yet rewarding.

但我會永遠和我生活在一起，永遠當他最後走的時候，很慚愧，很有挑戰，卻很有收穫。

Tough growth, traumatic people.

艱難的成長，創傷的人。

My mom and dad's age on there, and the kids are obviously the same age as me, and I just couldn't believe it.

上面寫著我爸媽的年齡，孩子們明明和我同齡，我簡直不敢相信。

And that made me want to help instead of running away.

這讓我想幫忙，而不是逃避。

Obviously, patients aren't seeing the visitors.

很明顯，病人沒有看到來訪者。

So we've had a few end of life little requests.

所以我們有一些生命末期的小要求。

It might just be a bacon sandwich.

這可能只是一個培根三明治。

You know, it might just be the fancies and chips at the wrong time of the day.

你知道，這可能只是因為在一天中錯誤的時間裡的幻想和芯片。

But if we can do it, we will do it.

但如果我們能做到，我們就會做到。

You know, that's what's important, you know, just giving somebody a little bit of happiness with food.

你知道，這才是最重要的，你知道的，只是給別人一點快樂的食物。

My my mom has been living with me, so she actually had multiple long term conditions.

我媽媽一直和我住在一起，所以她其實有多種長期病症。

So she was diabetic, high blood pressure.

所以她有糖尿病，高血壓。

And she was also on dialysis every day.

而且她還每天都在做透析。

The thought that you could be taking home it was very difficult.

想到自己可以把它帶回家，就非常難受。

Oh, God.

哦，天啊

Sorry.

對不起，我不知道

And it was very real.

而且是非常真實的。

You knew that you you have to take precautions.

你知道你... ...你必須採取預防措施。

But you also knew that as a professional, you have a responsibility to your patients and out there.

但你也知道，作為一個專業的人，你對病人和外面有責任。

So you couldn't say that I am going to shield as well because my mom is such a high risk.

所以你不能說我也要屏蔽，因為我媽的風險太高了。

And I want to stay at home, even though my heart wanted to in a in a little bit selfishness.

而我想留在家裡，即使我的心想在在有點自私。

But I couldn't do that.

但我不能這樣做。

And you don't want to push the stuff to for make them.

你也不想把東西推給為使他們。

Um well, and just having to do extra shifts all the time, so that's been very difficult.

嗯好吧，只是不得不做 加班所有的時間，所以這是非常困難的。

And then obviously at home, it's difficult.

然後顯然在家裡，很難。

I've got three Children.

我有三個孩子

Oh, I'm very sure, Yeah, I'm not usually a crier at all.

哦，我非常肯定，是的，我通常不是一個愛哭的人。

We are worried about what it's going to be like after actually for the nurses, because it's been quite traumatic scene the things that we've seen on the unit, you're kind of going through it alone, even though the phone makes everyone seems so close.

我們很擔心，其實對於護士來說，之後會是什麼樣子，因為我們在科室裡看到的事情，已經是相當創傷性的場面了，你算是一個人在經歷，雖然電話讓大家看起來很親密。

But really, they're still far away.

但其實，他們還很遙遠。

You can see them.

你可以看到他們。

You can hug them.

你可以擁抱他們。

You can't just that physical presence is missing, so that makes it hard.

你不能只是身體上的存在缺失，所以這就很難了。

The whole family ended up having covid all of my Children, my husband.

全家最後有covid我所有的孩子，我的丈夫。

We all recovered because our health conditions was we were not having comorbidities or anything.

我們都恢復了，因為我們的健康狀況是我們沒有合併症或任何東西。

But when she got it and she had to be admitted, I think like I said, as a nurse, I knew she might not be coming home, But as a daughter, I was literally praying every day that God, if it is your will, let Mom come home.

但當她得了病不得不住院時，我想就像我說的，作為一個護士，我知道她可能不會回家，但作為一個女兒，我每天都在祈禱，上帝，如果這是你的意願，讓媽媽回家。

When she was in those last moments of her life in her mind, she was prepared and she her faith helped her a lot.

當她在生命的最後時刻，在她的心中，她已經做好了準備，她她的信仰幫了她很多。

Yes, there's been times when we've cried, but we've also had times when when we've laughed when we've talked and you know we've we've got through this through humor.

是的，有的時候，我們已經哭了， 但我們也有的時候，當我們已經笑了， 當我們已經談，你知道我們已經 我們已經通過幽默得到了這個。

Uh, we've got through this by working with each of, you know, being kind and compassionate towards each other.

呃，我們已經得到了通過這個工作 與每個，你知道，是善良和同情 對方。

I have a really good team that I work with, and that's one of the things I love about working here.

我有一個非常好的團隊，我和他們一起工作，這也是我喜歡在這裡工作的原因之一。

The team, they're amazing and they just keep going every day.

這個團隊，他們很了不起，他們每天都在前進。

Despite what's through now, they really are amazing.

儘管現在經歷了什麼，但他們真的很了不起。

Cheap.

廉價。

The department.

該部門。

I mean, it was really amazing.

我的意思是，這是真的很神奇。

People banded together.

人們聯合起來。

I've seen lots of different staff members grow through this pandemic really come out of their own, Um and really, you know, develop developed, absolutely amazing.

我已經看到很多不同的工作人員成長 通過這種流行病真正走出自己的，嗯，真的，你知道，發展發展，絕對驚人。

They really, really proud of them, have learned teamwork.

他們真的，真的很驕傲，已經學會了團隊合作。

I've learned that I'm resilient.

我已經知道了我的韌性。

Have learned that the people around me are resilience as well.

已經瞭解到，我身邊的人也是有彈性的。

You feel more confident and a bit more bold, like yes, I can face anything else that comes my way, and I'm very grateful for that faith.

你會覺得更有信心，更有底氣，就像是的，我可以面對其他任何事情，我非常感謝這種信心。

Emotional, bittersweet, Long.

感情，苦樂，長。