I was, I believe, fiveatthetime, andmymotherwasinthefilmalongwithBurtReynoldsandotheramazingcastofactors, andtheyhaddressedmetodo a backgroundwalkby.
But I, becauseoftrauma, forcedmyselfintothemoviebecause I waswatchingand a mancomestowardmymotherholding a shotgun, and I panickedandstartedrunningandgrabbedherlegtoprotecther.
Soit's a devastatingstory.
I gotmygotmystartinpicturesbybeingtraumatizedandtryingtoprotectmymother.
Yourwalkliketoseeyouagain.
When I wasaboutseven, I wasanextrain a filmmymotherwasinforMartinScorsesecalledPalacesandLiveranymore, andthentherightpidgeofseven.
I knew I wantedtobeanactress.
Ultimately, fromthatexperiencestartedstudying.
I rememberwatchingmymotherandEllenBurstynhave a scenein a bathroomtogether, twowomentalkingandwatchingScorseseimproviseandcreateandnavigatehumanemotionwiththem.
And I fellinlovewiththatidea, andmydadthatsummerwasmaking a filmwithHitchcock.
I gotus a roomattheCapeFearandguesswhatParamisplayingattheHurricaneWildatheartwasevenMaurovenimmersionintoDavid's visionandthrowingmyselfoffthedeepend.
Andhegavemeanopportunitytoplaythepolaroppositecharacterthan I justhadforhimonly a fewyearsbeforeinBlueVelvet.
AndNicolasCagewassuch a brave, radicalactortoepartnerwith, andweweretruepartnersonthatmovieandweloveditsomuch.
I mean, itwasgreatasanactor, I wasn't lookingatnothing.
Thismonsterwascomingafterme, butthetrySarahTopswasalsoreallythere, and I fellsoinlovewithhimandSamNeill's solovelyinthatscenewhenhelaysonitandfeelsitsbreath.
And I feelsohonoredtohavebeenalongforthatridewasamazing.
She'd seenthefilmCitizenRuththat I did, andbasedonthat, sheaskedmetodoitbecauseshewantedtohavethatfeelingwhereyougo.
OhmyGod, thispersonismybestfriend.
Soulmadejustlikeme.
Oh, myGodam I attractedthispersonlikethatwaspartoftheturnfortheshow.
Buttobepartofthespecificmoment I willneverforget.
I literallywasholdingherasshesaidthewordsand I feltherwholebodystartshakingandvoicestarttocrackandtoliterallybestaringintheperson's eyesandholdingtheirhandsastheysay, Okay, forthefirsttime, beyondart, beyondanythingbutfortheirlifechangedmylife.
Youwanttobeinit, buthedescribedwho I wouldplay, andthen I signed a bunchofpaperworkso I couldnevertellanyonewho I wasplaying, andthatsecretwaskeptuntilpeoplesawitwhichishardbecauseitwassoexcitingtoplayDianeintermsof a look.
Davidwassospecificandclear, andwehavesuch a greatrelationshipaboutbuildingcharacterand, youknow, hejustlovedbuildingittothepointthathesawherlipsbe a veryspecificcolor.
Andhewaslike, No, it's spaceAnd I said, I know, I hearthat I getitas a parallel, youknow, Butlike, whereisitinsmalltownAmericaarelikeis a Nono, no, it's StarWars.
You'remaking a stardid 10 minutesdescribing a StarWarsmovie, and I thoughthewastellingmeaboutsomeindiemovie.
Andthen I gottosetandtheyrolledcameraand I openedmyeyesandtheycalledactionand I wasstaringatSeeThreepioand I starttocry.
I literally I hadtocut.
I couldn't.
Itwassoshockingbecausewe'veallpretendedinourroomsatsix, youknow, have a lightsaber.
Andsoit's magic.
Whatanamazingthingtobepartofthat.
When I thinkbackonmydifferentrolesandandprojectforwardintothefuture, I praywonderfulchoicesthataregiventomeand, um, tohopefullycontinuetoplaycharacters I havenoideaabout.