That's really deep. Damn. I wish I came out earlier, but I was just like too

這個問題很深。唉。我希望我能夠早一點出櫃，但我實在是太

scared. Going to prison when my daughter was 2 that is my biggest regret. I regret

害怕了。我最大的遺憾是在我女兒兩歲的時候去坐牢。在 911 事件發生期間

that I wasn't in the military during 9/11. Not getting mental help sooner. It's

沒能在軍隊裡是我的遺憾。沒有早一點接受精神治療。這很難

tough, I have a lot of regrets. My biggest regret is telling my mom that I hate her

回答，我有很多後悔的事。我最後悔的事是和我媽媽說我恨她

that I love her and that's my bitch. I cheated. Cheating. Cheating on my kid's

我愛她，她是我的。我出軌。偷吃。我對孩子的母親

mother that's it that's a good one. Getting into a relationship with a

不忠，夠蠢吧。和一個已婚男人

married man. My baby's father he's the biggest regret of my life. I wish I would

交往。我孩子的父親是我人生中最大的遺憾。我希望可以

have met the love of my life forever. There was one gentleman that I met I

遇見我一生的至愛。我認識一位紳士

regret not having a relationship with him and I wish I could find him, I can't

我後悔沒和他交往，而我希望我能夠找到他，我找不到

find him Reggie if you remember me, I would love to see you again. Biggest life

他，Reggie 如果你還記得我，我想要再見你一面。人生中最大

regret? God, these are big questions. My biggest, biggest, biggest regret in life

的遺憾？老天，這是個很大的問題。我最大、最大、人生最大的遺憾

One time I bought the 1984 toyota cressida and that was $5,000 down the

有一次我買了一台 1984 年的豐田 Cressida 轎車，我的 5 千美元就這樣

drain. I wish I got in a better habit of flossing. I regret my one-night stand and

血本無歸了。我希望我有一個使用牙線的好習慣。我後悔一夜情，當

I think the thing about him that kind of freaked me out is and the course of the

我想到他時讓我感到害怕的點是他在性交時

sex he had a hat on, okay. I think my biggest regret was any time that I've

還戴著帽子，哦。我想我最後悔的事是，在任何時候去

hurt somebody, this haunts me to this day when I was in grade eight I made a very

傷害到任何人，在八年級時我對另一個小孩做了一個非常

nasty racial reference to another kid. I remember a kid we had all bullied we

惡劣的種族指涉，這件事直到今天都不斷的困擾著我。我記得一個被大家霸凌的小孩，我們

didn't like her that much and we convinced her that if she stepped in

就是那麼不喜歡她所以我們讓她相信如果光腳踏在狗屎上

this dog poop with her bare foot that it would be some kind of moisturizer and

就會像是潤膚乳一樣，當我

then I was just thinking about it I was like oh my gosh I was a bully. I guess I

想起這件事時，我就會想到天啊我當時是一個霸凌者。我想我

regret not standing up for myself more as a

後悔在我年輕時沒能更捍衛

young woman. I wish I had told somebody I used to work for to just fuck off. My

自己多一點。我希望我當時有叫前同事理我遠一點。我

biggest regret I probably wouldn't have gotten as drunk in college as I did. Not

最後悔的事或許是不該在大學時經常爛醉。沒能

getting sober sooner. I got too plastered at my sister's wedding. I do regret that

早點戒酒。我後悔在姐姐的婚禮上醉得不省人事。我確實感到後悔

I think that was a bad decision. I regret going at this house party when

我認為那是一個錯誤的決定。我後悔在 17 歲時去參加一個

I was 17. Blacked out most of the evening. I regret ever having smoked a cigarette.

家庭派對。在大部分的夜晚都處於斷片的情況。我後悔曾經抽煙。

Smoking weeds. What's your biggest regret? Texting and driving. Drinking and driving.

抽大麻。你最大的遺憾是什麼？開車時傳訊息。喝酒開車。

I had to do some jail time I lost my license. I guess I regret getting into

我因此坐牢並吊銷駕照。我想我後悔和我的前夫

the car with my ex-husband, he drove us into a tree. Spun the car

同車，他開車撞樹。車子打轉

around a couple of times. There were two bullet holes in my windshield. My arm

好幾次。在我的擋風玻璃上有兩個彈孔。我的胳膊

broke I wish I never would have gotten that car. I have some things I regret

斷了，我希望我從沒有那輛車。我有一些後悔的事情

that I don't want to talk about. How do I say this taking French instead of

是我不想要談到的。我要怎麼說好呢，在高中時學法文而不是

Spanish in high school. Falling in with the wrong crowd in high

西班牙文。在高中時和不良份子混

school. High school. High school. I was cool in high school. what kind of high

在一起。高中。高中。什麼樣的

school. In seventh grade I was playing basketball and this guy smacked the ball

高中。我在七年級時打籃球，有一個傢伙從我手裡把球

out of my hands and he just said to me you just got stuffed like a chicken and

拍掉，他就只是告訴我，解決你是輕而易舉的

I wish I had like said something come back to him. Not continue in college

我希望當時我有作出反擊。沒有繼續念大學

College. College. I regret going to college I can't regret. Not becoming a

大學。大學。我後悔念大學。我不能後悔。沒有成為一個

doctor. Not going to nursing school. I wish I continued playing soccer. I wanted

醫生。沒有就讀護校。我希望我有繼續打足球。我希望

to sing opera. Why didn't you? I got married. Married.

唱歌劇。妳為什麼沒有這麼做？我結婚了。結婚。

Married. Getting married early. I hate to say it but my marriage. I ended up going

結婚。太早結婚。我不願意這麼說，不過就是我的婚姻。我最後經歷

through a painful divorce. Staying with a relationship that's toxic and not good.

一場痛苦的離婚。留在一段不健康的毒性關係裡。

Taking back an old boyfriend. Dating men. I don't believe in regrets, no. Not

回收前男友。和男人約會。我不相信後悔這件事，不。沒有

getting out of my hometown sooner than I did. I wish that I would have stayed in

及早離開我的家鄉。我希望我當時留在

Maui. China. In New York. Argentina. I regret moving to Seattle. Having sex so

毛伊島。中國。紐約。阿根廷。我後悔搬到西雅圖。太早發生

young. Partied a lot when I probably should have spent more time with my kid.

性行為。太多的社交活動，我應該要多花時間和我的孩子相處。

Saved more for my kids education. I'm not being very present in my daughter's

為了小孩的教育多存一點錢。我在女兒的生命中經常

lives. And not listening to my dad. Running away from home when I was 16.

缺席。不聽我父親的話。在我 16 歲時離家出走。

Living recklessly. I wish I would have talked to my father more he

輕率地過日子。我希望我有和我父親多說說話，他

meant the world to me and when he ended up passing away I

是我的全世界。而當他過世時

really regret that I didn't talk to him more. I regret. Not learning more Korean at

我真的非常遺憾沒有和他多聊聊。我後悔。沒有在年輕時學習

younger age because my parents are immigrants and it's kind of hard to talk

更多韓語，因為我的父母是移民而現在要和他們交談

to them. Though it's been years since I've seen my family and it kinda you

並不容易。我已經有好幾年沒有見到我的家人，你知道這件事

know weighs on me. Regrets in life. Probably not going over to my best

讓我感到很沈重。人生中遺憾的事。應該是在下班後沒有去

friend's house right after I got off work because he passed away shortly

我最好的朋友家，因為他在不久後就

after that. I went into preterm labor, they had told me that if she wasn't over

過世了。我經歷了早產，他們告訴我如果她不超過

a pound, they wouldn't be able to do anything to save her. When the time came

一磅重，他們將無法採取任何的措施來挽救她。當時

I wasn't strong enough to hold my daughter when she died. I had a sister

我不夠堅強的去抱抱我死去的女兒。我有一個妹妹

that passed away she only lived two weeks, sometimes I regret not being there

在生下兩週以後就過世了，有時我會後悔當時沒有多花一些

with my family more. I think it's probably not spending enough time with

時間陪伴我的家人。我想應該是沒有在哥哥過世之前

my brother before he passed away. I think I understood it was serious but I didn't

和他共度多一些時光，我想我知道他很嚴重，不過我並不

understand the definition of terminal. I've had to like forgive myself for it I

了解末期的定義是什麼。我想我必須要

think.

原諒自己。