Name: TED】Dena Simmons:有色人種學生如何面對冒名頂替綜合症（How students of color confront impostor syndrome | Dena Simmons）。 (【TED】Dena Simmons: How students of color confront impostor syndrome (How students of color confront impostor syndrome | Dena Simmons))
Uploaded: 2021-01-14T07:31:35.000Z
Duration: 10 min 21 s

Translator: Joseph Geni Reviewer: Camille Martínez

譯者: Melody Tang 審譯者: 易帆 余

So, my journey began in the Bronx, New York,

我的生命旅途， 是從紐約布朗克斯區的一間

with my two sisters and immigrant mother.

and animated conversations over domino playing.

玩骨牌時參雜著生動活潑的對話。

In fact, everyone at school knew the block where we lived,

事實上，學校的每個人 都知道我們住的那個區域，

because it was where people came to buy weed and other drugs.

因為大家都知道那裡 可以買到大麻和其他的毒品。

而伴隨著毒品交易 就一定有衝突事件，

so we often went to sleep to the sound of gunshots.

She worried that the violence we witnessed would overtake our lives;

她擔心我們目睹的暴力行為， 會在我們的生命裡留下陰影；

that the neighbors with whom we lived and shared space

我們的整個生活圈都在布朗克斯區，

but my mother's anxiety spurred her into action,

但是我母親的憂慮 促使她採取行動。

and soon we were driving so fast to Connecticut --

不久後，我們驅車前往 康乃狄克州，一路狂飆，

to boarding school campuses, with full scholarships in tow.

去到一所有全額獎學金的寄宿學校。

Man, don't underestimate the power of a mother

老兄，千萬不要低估 一個母親的能力，

尤其是當她決心 保護孩子的安全的時候。

and look up to see a night sky full of stars.

Very quickly, I felt like I didn't belong.

I learned that I didn't speak the right way,

我發現我說話的方式 和其他人不一樣，

and to demonstrate the proper ways of speaking,

my teachers gave me frequent lessons, in public,

on the appropriate way to enunciate certain words.

A teacher once instructed me in the hallway:

有一次，老師直接在走廊上教我：

"Dena, it's not 'axing,' like you're running around with an axe.

「蒂娜，不是『axing』 那是你拿著一把斧頭到處走。

Now at this point, you can imagine the snickers of my classmates,

在那時，你可想像 我的同班同學都在竊笑，

"Think about breaking the word into 'ass' and 'king,'

「試試把這個字分成『ass』 和『king』兩個字，

and then put the two together to say it correctly --

然後把這兩個字連起來， 正確地唸出來——

There were some other moments that reminded me that I didn't belong.

其它時候我也經常覺得格格不入。

Once, I walked into a classmate's dorm room,

有一次，我走進一個 同學的宿舍房間，

and I watched her watch her valuables around me.

我注意到她一直在注意 在我身邊的貴重物品。

Like, why would she do that? I thought to myself.

我那時想，她為什麼會這樣呢？

when another classmate walked into my dorm room,

有另一位同學走進我的宿舍房間，

and yelled, "Ew!" as I was applying hair grease to my scalp.

當她看到我在頭髮上抹油。 她大聲叫，「噁！」

There is emotional damage done when young people can't be themselves,

年輕人會有情緒傷害， 如果他不能做他自己，

when they are forced to edit who they are in order to be acceptable.

或是他被迫改變自己 來讓別人接納他們。

Ultimately, I'm a quintessential success story.

終究，我是一個典型的成功故事。

I attended boarding school and college in New England,

我就學於新英格蘭州的 寄宿學校和大學，

and returned to the Bronx to be a middle school teacher.

然後我回到布朗柯斯區 當一位中學老師。

富布萊特獎學金、和索羅斯獎學金。

I earned my doctorate at Columbia University.

我從哥倫比亞大學得到博士學位。

然後從耶魯大學拿到一個工作。

I am proud of everything that I've been able to accomplish

Either I've been invited because I'm a token,

我被邀請的原因， 是因為我象徵著某一群人，

but rather, about a box someone needed to check off.

又或者因為我在別人的待辦事項上。

which means I've had to leave the people I love behind.

是因為我必須拋下我深愛的人。

It's the price that I and so many others pay for learning while black.

但這些是我和其他許多黑人 為了學習所付出的代價。

我應該把頭髮盤上去 或是讓它自然蓬鬆？

or will the power of my words be reduced to: "She's angry"?

或者我說話的力道是否 被解讀為「她生氣了」？

And why, in the process of getting that better education,

還有為什麼， 為了得到更好的教育過程當中，

did I have to endure the trauma of erasing what made me, me --

我必須忍受不能當自己的創傷？

a black girl from the Bronx, raised by an Antiguan mother?

不能當一位來自布朗克斯區， 由安提瓜母親所養大的黑人女孩？

TED】Dena Simmons:有色人種學生如何面對冒名頂替綜合症（How students of color confront impostor syndrome | Dena Simmons）。 (【TED】Dena Simmons: How students of color confront impostor syndrome (How students of color confront impostor syndrome | Dena Simmons))

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