Congratulations.

恭喜你。

Thank you! I'm waiting so long for this.

謝謝！我期盼很久了。

Good luck finding a job out there. [sad sniff]

真幸運可以找到工作 （啜泣）

everyone's scared of us [emotional out burst]

每個人都怕我們（情緒失控）

Oh no! Here you go; here's a scarf.

喔 不！拿去吧；手帕給你。

[crying goes on] [hilarious clown joke btw]

（一直哭）（順帶一提，這是小丑的搞笑手法）

Lately I've had more and more days where I just don't feel okay. With all the news and entertainment

最近我有越來越多日子不好過。由於報紙上的新聞，有娛樂的

And politics and life in general I feel more depressed and anxious than ever and when I usually express these feelings

政治的，我的生活變得比之前更有壓力和焦慮感，通常我表達這些感覺後

I met with the response "I know but you just have to think positively"

我得到這樣的回應「我知道但你要樂觀點」

"I mean thoughts influence your mood, so.", "Just fake it till you make it, and then eventually you'll believe that you're happy"

「你的想法會影響你的心情，所以。」，「只要假裝可以直到真的可以，到最後你會相信你很快樂。」

"Oh, honey, all you have to do is say affirmations. That's what I do, like this:

「喔，親愛的，你只要對自己說肯定的話。我就是這麼做，像這樣：」

YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL!

妳超美！

YOU'RE SMART!

很聰明！

YOU'RE WORTHY OF LOVE!

你值得被愛！

YOU'RE GONNA BE OK!

你可以的！

And though positivity and resilience has its place,

雖然樂觀和正向的適應有他們的道理在

it feels like this sentiment is coming from a discomfort with negative emotions rather than

悲傷情緒是從讓人感到不舒服的壞心情而來，而不是

prioritizing the process of healing or working through them. And to be honest, I'm just really tired of trying to mask my negative feelings

先懂得醫治或解決這些情緒，而且說實話：努力試著遮掩我的負面情緒真的很累

Hey Anna, can...

嘿 Anna，可以...

What's up dude [sad voice]

怎樣啦 （傷心的語氣）

Eh... [sad sniff from Anna] are you okay?

阿...（Anna 發出啜泣聲）妳還好嗎？

Yeah, no... I'm totally fine. I'm just like "yeah I'm hanging out, working, living my best life" [sniff]

耶，我...非常好。我只是「要消磨時間，工作，過我最棒的人生」（啜泣）

What can I do for you?

我可以幫妳甚麼呢？

Ah, I just want to know if I could borrow a highlighter?

阿，我只是想說可以跟妳借螢光筆嗎？

Oh ya, you got it.

喔耶，當然可以。

I'll get you a highlighter

我來拿螢光筆給妳

Here you go, dude.

給妳，老兄。

Thanks for stopping by

謝謝妳來這

Maybe we could get lunch later

也許我們等一下可以一起吃午餐

Alright

好

Cool, cool, catch you later, dude [voice cracking]

酷，酷，等一下見，老兄 （破音）

Every time I've run from my feelings or try to smile them away, this buzzing

每一次我克服我的情緒或試著微笑面對，這樣混亂

Feeling of my anxiety only worsens, and I don't want to live like that anymore

焦慮的感覺只會更嚴重，而我不想再像這樣子生活

I've touched my therapist a lot and and he's suggested that you want to operate inside of your feelings and

我和我的治療師討論很多次，他說妳想要治療妳內心的情緒

Successfully navigate them, you want to be fully present with them

成功地駕馭他們，妳想要跟他們共存

Then let them go. It's much healthier to be okay with not being okay, then pretend everything is okay when it's not..make sense?

那就讓他們這樣吧。這麼做會比不好還裝作一切都好還健康...對吧？

As I slowly approach the corner of being thirty years old. I've kind of started to realize that we're probably going to be

當我漸漸地要三十歲了，我好像開始了解我們也許

Not okay more than we are okay, and I have to learn to accept that and

會覺得有不好的感受多過我們覺得好的感受，而我必須學著接受這樣的感覺

Live with it and just accept that suffering is part of being alive and of course there are things that we can do on a daily

接受它吧，接受痛苦是生命的一部分，當然我們一天能夠做到且

basis for the long run that helps our mental health right like you can make sure you're getting enough sleep and

幫助我們心理健康的事情，像是充足的睡眠和

exercising and

運動

meditating and seeing your therapist regularly so many fun things and of course eating healthy cuz we all love food and

冥想和固定看治療師，很多有趣的事妳可以做，當然還要健康的吃，因為我們都愛食物

Speaking of eating healthy I do want to say today is sponsored by hellofresh. We're sponsored by food!!!

說到吃地健康，今天的影片是由 hellofresh贊助。食物的贊助!!!

I got to try Hello freshest vegetarian plan and since I do freelance work

我一定要試哈囉新鮮素食者計畫，自從我當自由工作者

You know I'm often ordering out and not eating as healthy as I want to

我常常吃外食，雖然我想吃的健康但是沒辦法

But since they deliver on the days that I want I can customize it for my schedule

但因為他們照我想的配送食物的天數，我可以安排自己的行程

and I can pause it for those weeks when I'm out of town, each recipe only takes about 30 minutes

能在某幾周出差時暫停計畫，每個食譜只要30分鐘就能完成

And it's great if you are a stickler for time management like me and it comes with this card that has like step-by-step instructions

如果你很注重時間管理像是我，這很棒，裡面還有附一張卡片，一步一步教你怎麼做

So you don't necessarily feel overwhelmed in the kitchen you can go to hellofresh.com and use the offered code

你就不必在廚房手忙腳亂，你可以到 hellofresh.com，使用提供的代碼

AKANA30 for $30 off for your first week of deliveries

AKANA30 折抵第一週的運費30元

That's hellofresh.com and AKANA30

這是 hellofresh.com 和 AKANA30

Bye [cute smile :3]

拜（可愛微笑：3）