I'm leaving Smosh.

其實到了今天，應該說我已經正式離開Smosh

Or I guess as of today, I've left Smosh.

天哪

Oh, God.

Wow

Wow.

這是一件，我已經

This has been that something that I've been

仔細思考很久很久的事

contemplating for a really, really long time.

我真的很難面對，我真的要離開了

And it's hard for me to admit to myself that it's

終於要發生了

finally happening.

我知道很多人可能會覺得很難過

I know that a lot of you may be upset, or,

或者會非常困惑

confused by all this.

然後

And

我 希望

I just hope that by

坦承地向您們解釋個人感受

being honest with you and explaining how I feel and how I've been feeling will

也許可以讓你們

help

稍微能夠理解？

make you understand, a little bit?

Smosh 一直都是我人生很重要的一部分

Smosh has been a huge part of my life

幾乎是從我有印象開始

for as long as I can remember.

Smosh 創立宗旨本來只是個網站...

It started as a website that I made

我跟 Ian 和朋友可以在放學後，聊天打屁

for me and my friends to hang out and talk to each other after school.

幾年之後，Smosh變成了

And a few years later, Smosh became

一個YouTube頻道，我和Ian一起製作影片

a YouTube channel where Ian and I made videos together

因為我們喜歡讓彼此開心

just because we liked to make each other laugh.

還記得我和Ian第一次去洛杉磯玩

I still remember Ian and my first trip down to LA

有人邀請我們去洛杉磯

someone invited us down to LA

只是一個業配討論

just for a random business meeting,

我們根本不知道那是甚麼

and we didn't necessarily know what that meant,

只是想說「好啊！走啊！」

we were just like, "alright, let's do it!"

我們就跳上車

We hopped in the car

當時根本沒差， 因為我們是摯友，相互相挺

and it didn't matter, because we were best friends and we had each other,

我們知道，無論如何

and we knew that no matter what would happen,

我們都會互相支持

we'd be there with each other.

這些回憶是....

These memories, are

讓我這麼難去認知到...

the reason it's been so difficult for me to admit

東西會變...

that

我一直珍惜著這些回憶 希望有天

things change.

Smosh 仍可以是變成當時初衷一樣

I've been holding on to these memories and hoping that someday

在Smosh變成一個品牌、成為一個公司的資產前

Smosh should be like how it was from we first started,

而我必須妥協，在Smosh是個公司資產後

before Smosh was a brand, owned by a company.

必須篩選我每一項的創意和決策

And I had to come to terms with the fact that Smosh, being part of a company,

來判斷哪些是有利於 Smosh 這個品牌的

has put all of my creative decisions through a filter of what's appropriate for the

我懷念當年純粹的幸福

Smosh brand, as deemed by the company. I need to feel that happiness again. I need

我希望每天起床都有動力，去追求那種快樂

to be doing what makes me happiest to wake up each morning. Right now that's

現在，對我來說 就是自己創作，而且是自由無慮的

for me to do things on my own again with complete creative freedom, to be able to

讓我可以隨時想做、任何都可以做

make whatever I want, whenever I want, to walk away from something that I created

要我離開當年與好朋友一起創作的

as a teenager with my best friend, which has now become something bigger than I'd

東西卻已經龐大到我完全無法想像

ever imagined. And it's terrifying. I've never made anything on my own really. I've

其實很可怕 我過去從來沒有獨自完成過什麼

never made things without Ian by my side. I'm feeling so many things right now, I'm

我一向都跟 Ian 再一起 真的五味雜陳

scared, but I'm also excited. I'm so excited about creating things again that

我既害怕又興奮 我興奮又可以創作一些新的東西

won't have to pass through a filter. I am really really sad that I'll be walking

不需要經過別人的篩選審核 但我真的很難過

away from this thing that I made with my best friend, but I have to remember that

必須離開和自己最好的朋友一起創造的東西 但我必須記得

you know I might be walking away from Smosh but I'm not walking away from Ian,

就算我離開Smosh 我並沒有意圖要離開Ian

we're still friends and he lives like two miles away so I could see him all

我們還是朋友 我們住的地方只離兩英里遠

the time, and I'm honestly so grateful for you always being there, supporting me

所以我隨時可以碰到他 然後我真的非常感激大家對我的支持

over all these years and allowing me to even make Smosh in the first place, and I

經過這些年 甚至您們才是創造 Smosh 初始推手

really hope that you'll follow me in this new chapter in my life. I mean you

真的很希望你們可以參與我人生的新篇

already found my channel so, here it is! I'll be making stuff here consistently

你們都已經在這了

and I really hope you'll support me in this transition. All right well, I guess,

我會持續在這裡創作新的東西

I guess that's all I wanted to say. Thank you, and I'll see you soon, right here on

我真的很希望你們可以支持我做這個轉變

this channel. Bye

好吧 這些就是我要說的了 謝謝 我們很快會再次見面