Name: 創傷後應激障礙到底是什麼樣子 (What PTSD Is Really Like)
Uploaded: 2021-01-14T06:55:14.000Z
Duration: 3 min 57 s

動名詞

It's like living with like a leash on, a little bit.

情態助動詞 A2

but every now and then you remember that "it's" there.

I was living in Japan during the earthquake in 2011.

2011年我住在日本，當年發生了大地震

A few weeks and months of political unrest while I was living overseas.

我住在海外的時候，發生了數週至數月的政治動盪

We lived with bags by the door, ready to go, in case we needed to get out.

我們總把背包放在門口，為逃難做準備

I found out in 2008 I had PTSD, Complex PTSD,

2008年我發現自己患有創傷後壓力症候群，複雜性創傷後壓力症候群

but I think the diagnosis should have probably been made when I was 14 years old.

但我認為應該要在我十四歲時就診斷出來

I was raped and as a result I live with PTSD.

我因為被強暴而罹患了創傷後壓力症候群

The civil war in Lebanon broke out in 1975.

伴隨著內戰，我就那樣生活了十二年

As it kind of sunk in, I started to feel really guilty,

創傷後壓力症候群真正影響我後，我開始感到罪惡

because I had always associated PTSD with people who had been to war,

因為我一直以為創傷後壓力症候群和參與戰爭的人才有關係

創傷後壓力症候群的刺激會突襲你

It's with the unknown everyday you wake up

每天起床你都不知道什麼時候會發作

and you don't know if you are going to have a trigger today.

也不知道今天一整天會不會發作

and there's a part where this woman got trapped in a car.

有一幕場景是一位女性被困在車裡

There's a song that was talking about like, shooting and armed robbery.

And just hearing that song, like, that was all it took.

只是聽到那首歌就足以讓我發作

and when my trigger happens, in that moment,

Usuallly the sounds of jet planes overhead would trigger off the memory for me of those days.

通常是戰鬥機從頭頂飛過的聲音刺激我回想起那些日子

trying to look after my children when they were little and protect them.

試著在孩子年幼的時候照顧、保護他們

At times it has literally felt like I'm dying.

You feel like you're never going to get past this.

One of the things that's helped me a lot was group therapy.

團體治療是其中一個幫助我很多的療法

This happens to more people than you think.

其實創傷後症候群患者比你想像的還多

I start to have a conversation with this thing that you have.

I did counseling for two years in college.

It felt like that got my life into a pretty manageable place.

那感覺很像人生回到了可以掌控的狀態

I am trying to build up the courage to attend a support group.

I would have these days where you're just like,

you know, there's nothing I can do to do anything that you're supposed to do.

有某些你該做卻束手無策的事情

In group therapy, someone called it a lost day.

團體治療中，有些人會稱這些日子「消失的日子」

but putting the words "lost day" to those days helped me, like, overcome.

但用「消失的日子」這個詞幫助我克服

And I think accepting that is really important,

我認為接受自己有創傷後壓力症候群很重要

and to just be, like, it's OK to, like, freak out.

And just be, like, this is scary, because it's scary.

明白這是可怕的事情，而事實也是如此

It takes practice, and it takes patience,

You have to know that the fact that you've been through something so traumatic,

You are much stronger than you think you are.

Don't feel guilty when you have a good day.

It'll never be the same, but it can get better.

縱使無法回到原本的樣子，但一切肯定可以更好

And it's worth whatever it's going to take.

You've just got to find the right thing that works for you.

And getting help is not a sign of weakness.

It takes a lot of strength and a lot of courage.

And you deserve the happiness that comes with getting better.

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