three of my family members were gruesomely murdered

我的三個家庭成員

in a hate crime.

在一場仇恨犯罪中被殺害了。

It goes without saying that it's really difficult

當然，

for me to be here today,

今天我站在這裡 對我來說是非常困難的。

but my brother Deah,

但是我的弟弟，迪亞，

his wife Yusor,

和他的妻子，雨瑟，

and her sister Razan

和她的姊姊，拉贊

don't give me much of a choice.

沒有給我太多的選擇。

I'm hopeful that by the end of this talk you will make a choice,

我希望當這場演講結束後， 你會做出決定

and join me in standing up against hate.

和我一起打擊仇恨。

It's December 27, 2014:

2014年12月17號，

the morning of my brother's wedding day.

我弟弟婚禮那天的早上，

He asks me to come over and comb his hair

他叫我幫他梳頭髮，

in preparation for his wedding photo shoot.

好為他的婚紗照做準備。

A 23-year-old, six-foot-three basketball, particularly Steph Curry, fanatic --

一個23歲的，一米九高， 斯蒂芬·庫里的瘋狂粉絲－

(Laughter)

（笑聲）

An American kid in dental school ready to take on the world.

一個準備好進軍世界， 在牙醫學院學習的美國學生。

When Deah and Yusor have their first dance,

當迪亞和雨瑟跳第一次舞的時候，

I see the love in his eyes,

我看到他眼中的愛，

her reciprocated joy,

她回應給他的歡樂，

and my emotions begin to overwhelm me.

我的情緒開始湧了上來。

I move to the back of the hall and burst into tears.

我走到了走廊的後面 忍不住開始大哭起來。

And the second the song finishes playing,

當歌放完後，

he beelines towards me,

他立刻徑直走向我，

buries me into his arms

把我抱在他懷裡，

and rocks me back and forth.

然後輕輕的搖動我。

Even in that moment,

即使那個時候，

when everything was so distracting,

當所有的事情都那麼讓人分心，

he was attuned to me.

他還是對我如此細心。

He cups my face and says,

他捧起了我的臉

"Suzanne,

然後說：“蘇珊，

I am who I am because of you.

我會有今天的的成就都是因為你。

Thank you for everything.

謝謝妳。

I love you."

我愛你。“

About a month later, I'm back home in North Carolina for a short visit,

大約一個月後，我短暫的 回到北卡羅萊納的家裡。

and on the last evening, I run upstairs to Deah's room,

在最後的那個晚上，我跑上迪亞的房間，

eager to find out how he's feeling being a newly married man.

心急的想知道他對婚後有什麼感覺。

With a big boyish smile he says,

他臉上掛著大男孩的微笑，

"I'm so happy. I love her. She's an amazing girl."

說：“我好開心。我愛她。她是一名非常優秀的女孩。“

And she is.

她的確是。

At just 21, she'd recently been accepted to join Deah

僅僅21歲，她被迪亞所在的北卡羅萊納

at UNC dental school.

牙醫學院錄取了。

She shared his love for basketball, and at her urging,

她和他一樣愛籃球。她說服了他

they started their honeymoon off attending their favorite team of the NBA,

在他們蜜月時一起去觀看他們最喜歡的NBA藍球隊，

the LA Lakers.

洛杉磯湖人。

I mean, check out that form.

不是我說，你看看這個。

(Laughter)

（笑聲）

I'll never forget that moment sitting there with him --

我永遠也不會忘記和他坐在一起的時候，

how free he was in his happiness.

他沈浸在幸福裡所帶來的自由。

My littler brother, a basketball-obsessed kid,

我的弟弟，一個狂熱的籃球粉絲，

had become and transformed into an accomplished young man.

已經轉變成了一個頗有成就的男人了。

He was at the top of his dental school class,

他在他班中名列前茅。

and alongside Yusor and Razan,

他還和雨瑟和拉贊一起，

was involved in local and international community service projects

一起參與了本地和國際性的為難民和無家可歸的人

dedicated to the homeless and refugees,

社區服務項目。

including a dental relief trip they were planning

其中包括了一個去到土耳其幫助敘利亞難民的

for Syrian refugees in Turkey.

牙醫救濟之旅。

Razan, at just 19,

拉贊，在僅僅十九歲，

used her creativity as an architectural engineering student

運用了他作為一名建築工程學的學生的創意

to serve those around her,

去為她身邊的人服務：

making care packages for the local homeless,

為當地無家可歸的人做急救包，

among other projects.

和其他項目。

That is who they were.

這就是他們。

Standing there that night,

那天晚上，我站在迪亞面前，

I take a deep breath and look at Deah and tell him,

我深呼吸了一下，然後看著他告訴他：“我從來

"I have never been more proud of you than I am in this moment."

沒像現在這樣為你感到如此驕傲。“

He pulls me into his tall frame,

他把我一把抱進他懷裡，

hugs me goodnight,

抱著我說了晚安。

and I leave the next morning without waking him

我第二天早上沒有吵醒他，

to go back to San Francisco.

回去了舊金山。

That is the last time I ever hug him.

那是我最後一次抱他。

Ten days later, I'm on call at San Francisco General Hospital

十天後的，當我在舊金山總醫院待命時，

when I receive a barrage of vague text messages expressing condolences.

我接到了一堆表達著哀悼和慰問的意義模糊的信息。

Confused, I call my father, who calmly intones,

我帶著疑問打給了我父親。

"There's been a shooting in Deah's neighborhood in Chapel Hill.

他冷靜的告訴我：“在迪亞家的附近， 教堂山，有一起槍擊案。“

It's on lock-down. That's all we know."

現在被封鎖了。我們只知道這麼多。“

I hang up and quickly Google, "shooting in Chapel Hill."

我掛斷了電話後馬上 用谷歌搜索”教堂山槍擊事件“。

One hit comes up.

我看到了一個熱搜。

Quote:

上面說：“現場有

"Three people were shot in the back of the head

三個人被射中後腦勺，

and confirmed dead on the scene."

在現場已確認死亡。“

Something in me just knows.

我好像突然就想明白了。

I fling out of my chair and faint onto the gritty hospital floor,

我眩暈的從椅子上摔倒在醫院 冰冷的地板上，

wailing.

哭號著。

I take the first red-eye out of San Francisco,

我低落得不能自已的

numb and disoriented.

坐上了第一個出三藩市的過夜班機。

I walk into my childhood home and faint into my parents' arms,

我走進了我童年的家， 然後無力的倒在我父母的手臂中，

sobbing.

大哭著。

I then run up to Deah's room as I did so many times before,

我跟著跑上迪亞的房間，就像我之前那樣，

just looking for him,

尋找他在哪。

only to find a void that will never be filled.

但我只找到一個再也不會被填滿的房間。

Investigation and autopsy reports eventually revealed

調查報告和驗屍報告最終揭示了

the sequence of events.

整件事情的發生過程。

Deah had just gotten off the bus from class,

迪亞剛從上課回來的巴士上下來，

Razan was visiting for dinner,

拉贊來參加他們的晚餐，

already at home with Yusor.

和雨瑟一起在家。

As they began to eat, they heard a knock on the door.

正當他們開始吃飯時， 他們聽到了敲門聲。

When Deah opened it,

迪亞打開門時，

their neighbor proceeded to fire multiple shots at him.

他們的鄰居對他開了好幾槍。

According to 911 calls,

根據警察的通話紀錄，

the girls were heard screaming.

女孩們被聽到正在尖叫。

The man turned towards the kitchen and fired a single shot into Yusor's hip,

那個男人轉向了廚房，然後對雨瑟的臀部開了一槍，

immobilizing her.

使她不能移動。

He then approached her from behind,

然後他從她的後面接近她，

pressed the barrel of his gun against her head,

用槍管頂住她的頭，

and with a single bullet, lacerated her midbrain.

然後用一顆子彈，撕裂了她的中腦。

He then turned towards Razan, who was screaming for her life,

他又轉向正在用盡全身力氣尖叫的拉贊，

and, execution-style, with a single bullet

用行刑的方式，一顆子彈

to the back of the head,

打中後腦，

killed her.

奪走了她生命。

On his way out,

在他出去的路上，

he shot Deah one last time -- a bullet in the mouth --

他又對迪亞開了最後一槍，在嘴裡。

for a total of eight bullets:

他總共用了八發子彈：

two lodged in the head,

兩發留在頭部，

two in his chest

兩發在他的胸部，

and the rest in his extremities.

剩下的在他的四肢中。

Deah, Yusor and Razan were executed

迪亞和雨瑟和拉贊在家－ 一個對他們來說最安全的地方－

in a place that was meant to be safe: their home.

被殺害了。

For months, this man had been harassing them:

好幾個月以來，這個男人一直在騷擾他們：

knocking on their door,

敲他們的門，

brandishing his gun on a couple of occasions.

在各種情況下揮舞著他的槍。

His Facebook was cluttered with anti-religion posts.

他的臉書充滿了反宗教的貼文。

Yusor felt particularly threatened by him.

雨瑟對他感到特別的威脅感。

As she was moving in,

當她搬入時，

he told Yusor and her mom that he didn't like the way they looked.

這個男人告訴雨瑟和她的媽媽， 他不喜歡她們的樣子

In response, Yusor's mom told her to be kind to her neighbor,

作為回答，雨瑟的媽媽要善良的對待鄰居。

that as he got to know them,

當他認識他們之後，

he'd see them for who they were.

他會更深入的了解他們的為人。

I guess we've all become so numb to the hatred

我猜是因為我們對仇恨已經麻木了，

that we couldn't have ever imagined it turning into fatal violence.

所以我們從來沒有想過仇恨會變成致命的暴力。

The man who murdered my brother turned himself in to the police

那個殺害了我弟弟的男人在事情發生不久後

shortly after the murders,

去警察局自首了。

saying he killed three kids,

他說他因為停車的爭論，

execution-style,

以行刑的方式，

over a parking dispute.

殺害了三個小孩。

The police issued a premature public statement that morning,

警察在那個早上發布了一份比預期早的公開聲明，

echoing his claims without bothering to question it

重複他所聲稱的。

or further investigate.

他們並沒有做更多的提問或調查，

It turns out there was no parking dispute.

最後才發現並沒有任何因為停車而發起的爭執。

There was no argument.

並沒有發生任何爭吵，

No violation.

沒有任何違規行為。

But the damage was already done.

但是造成的傷害已經無法逆轉了。

In a 24-hour media cycle,

在24小时的媒体传播裡，

the words "parking dispute" had already become the go-to sound bite.

“停車引發的爭執”已經成為絕對的關鍵詞了。

I sit on my brother's bed and remember his words,

我坐在我弟弟的床上，想起他說過的話。

the words he gave me so freely and with so much love,

他對我說過的話是那麼的自由而且充滿愛，

"I am who I am because of you."

“我會有今天的成就都是因為你。”

That's what it takes for me to climb through my crippling grief

就是這句話幫助了我度過了難以承受的悲傷

and speak out.

和站出來發言。

I cannot let my family's deaths be diminished to a segment

我不能讓我家人的死亡被忽視成

that is barely discussed on local news.

一個連本地新聞都極少談起的小事。

They were murdered by their neighbor because of their faith,

他們是因為他們信仰而被鄰居殺害，

because of a piece of cloth they chose to don on their heads,

因為一塊他們套在頭上的一塊部，

because they were visibly Muslim.

因為人們認出他們是穆斯林。

Some of the rage I felt at the time

我當時感到的怒氣是和以下

was that if roles were reversed,

假如角色調換了之後的情況是相似的：

and an Arab, Muslim or Muslim-appearing person

三個美國白人大學生在家內被一位

had killed three white American college students execution-style,

阿拉伯人，穆斯林，或者看似穆斯林的人

in their home,

以殘忍的行刑的手法殺害了。

what would we have called it?

我們會怎麼形容這種事情？

A terrorist attack.

一次恐怖襲擊。

When white men commit acts of violence in the US,

當白人在美國事實暴力行為時，

they're lone wolves,

他們是孤狼，

mentally ill

患有精神疾病，

or driven by a parking dispute.

或者是停車爭執而導致的。

I know that I have to give my family voice,

我知道我必須幫我的家人發表他們的想法。

and I do the only thing I know how:

我唯一知道如何去做的事是：

I send a Facebook message to everyone I know in media.

我給所有我知道在媒體業工作的朋友發了一條臉書信息。

A couple of hours later,

幾個小時後，

in the midst of a chaotic house overflowing with friends and family,

在因為充滿了朋友和家人而混亂的家裡，

our neighbor Neal comes over, sits down next to my parents

我們的鄰居，尼奧來了。 他坐在我父母的旁邊，

and asks, "What can I do?"

問：“我能做些什麼？”

Neal had over two decades of experience in journalism,

尼奧有超過二十年做記者的經驗，

but he makes it clear that he's not there in his capacity as journalist,

但是他清楚的告訴我們他今天 並不能運用他作為記者的權利，

but as a neighbor who wants to help.

但是可以以鄰居的身分幫助我們。

I ask him what he thinks we should do,

因為所有本地媒體都轟炸般的想要訪問我們，

given the bombardment of local media interview requests.

所以我問他我們下一步應該怎麼做。

He offers to set up a press conference at a local community center.

他提出建議我們在本地的社區中心舉行一次媒體發布會。

Even now I don't have the words to thank him.

就算直到現在，我還是不知道如何去感謝他。

"Just tell me when, and I'll have all the news channels present," he said.

“你只要告訴我時間，我會保證 所有的本地新聞頻道都到場。”，他說。

He did for us what we could not do for ourselves

他在我們的黑暗時刻，

in a moment of devastation.

幫我們做了我們做不到的事。

I delivered the press statement,

我穿著昨晚的衣服，

still wearing scrubs from the previous night.

發表了媒體聲明。

And in under 24 hours from the murders,

在謀殺案發生的24小時內，

I'm on CNN being interviewed by Anderson Cooper.

我被有線電視新聞網（CNN）的安德森·库珀採訪了。

The following day, major newspapers --

第二天，所有的主流報刊－包括

including the New York Times, Chicago Tribune --

紐約時報，芝加哥論壇報－

published stories about Deah, Yusor and Razan,

都發表了關於迪亞和雨瑟和拉贊的故事。

allowing us to reclaim the narrative

這使得我們可以重新講述事情經過，

and call attention the mainstreaming of anti-Muslim hatred.

和引起大家對反穆斯林仇恨的注意。

These days,

現在，

it feels like Islamophobia is a socially acceptable form of bigotry.

伊斯蘭恐懼症好像已經成為了 一件能被社會接受的偏見，

We just have to put up with it and smile.

而我們能做的就只有微笑和忍受。

The nasty stares,

那些讓人討厭的注視；

the palpable fear when boarding a plane,

當我們登機時，人們明顯的恐懼感；

the random pat downs at airports that happen 99 percent of the time.

和我們在機場，百分之九十九 會被搜身檢查的經歷。

It doesn't stop there.

而且不僅僅有這些事情。

We have politicians reaping political and financial gains off our backs.

有政治家從我們身上收割利益。

Here in the US,

在美國國內，

we have presidential candidates like Donald Trump,

我們有像唐納·川普的總統候選人，

casually calling to register American Muslims,

隨意呼喚要登記美國籍穆斯林

and ban Muslim immigrants and refugees from entering this country.

和禁止穆斯林移民和難民進入美國。

It is no coincidence that hate crimes rise

當仇恨犯罪比例隨著大選進行而上升，

in parallel with election cycles.

這並不是巧合。

Just a couple months ago, Khalid Jabara,

在幾個月前，

a Lebanese-American Christian,

一個黎巴嫩裔美國基督徒，哈立德·傑巴郎

was murdered in Oklahoma by his neighbor --

在俄克拉荷馬州被他的鄰居殺害了。

a man who called him a "filthy Arab."

他的鄰居稱它為“骯髒的阿拉伯人“。

This man was previously jailed for a mere 8 months,

這個男人曾經因為嘗試開車去撞哈立德的母親

after attempting run over Khalid's mother with his car.

而進監獄。但是時間僅僅只有八個月。

Chances are you haven't heard Khalid's story,

你很有可能沒聽過哈立德的故事，

because it didn't make it to national news.

因為並沒有任何國家級的報刊報導了這件事。

The least we can do is call it what it is:

我們至少可以把它稱之為：

a hate crime.

仇恨犯罪。

The least we can do is talk about it,

我們至少可以談起它，

because violence and hatred doesn't just happen in a vacuum.

因為暴力和仇恨不會平白無故地發生。

Not long after coming back to work,

在我回到工作不久後，

I'm the senior on rounds in the hospital,

我是醫院裡的高級醫生，

when one of my patients looks over at my colleague,

我其中一個病人看著我的同事，

gestures around her face and says, "San Bernardino,"

在她身邊做手勢，然後說：“聖貝納迪諾。“

referencing a recent terrorist attack.

代表了最近的一起恐怖襲擊。

Here I am having just lost three family members to Islamophobia,

那時的我，剛因為伊斯蘭恐懼症 失去三名家庭成員，

having been a vocal advocate within my program

和作為在一個關於如何處理微侵略的

on how to deal with such microaggressions,

活躍成員，

and yet --

但是我只聽到－

silence.

沈默。

I was disheartened.

這使我徹底的灰心

Humiliated.

和感到備受屈辱。

Days later rounding on the same patient,

幾天後我在對著同一個病人，

she looks at me and says,

她看著我然後說：“你的同類

"Your people are killing people in Los Angeles."

正在洛杉磯殺害人們。“

I look around expectantly.

我充滿期待的看著周圍，

Again:

可是還是，

silence.

沈默。

I realize that yet again,

我重新意識到，

I have to speak up for myself.

我要敢於為自己說話。

I sit on her bed and gently ask her,

我坐在她床上溫柔的

"Have I ever done anything but treat you with respect and kindness?

問她：“我除了尊敬的和寬容的對待你， 我還有做過什麼其他的事嗎？

Have I done anything but give you compassionate care?"

我除了為你悉心治療，我還有做過其他事嗎？“

She looks down and realizes what she said was wrong,

她的眼神往下看了然後意識到 她所說過的是錯誤的。

and in front of the entire team,

她在所有的成員面前，

she apologizes and says,

對我道歉了，