Just no, alright?

但真的不是，好嗎？

Deep down I.. don't care!

在我內心深處，本人真的不在意

Everyone just loves to create drama behind the scene-

大家很愛幫我腦補很多內心小劇場

"Oh he's talking about this guy..

「噢他肯定是在說這傢伙...」

Or this girl.."

「或這個女的...」

I don't- I don't care!

我不，我真的不在意

Ok, I'm just..

我就是...

I don't!

我就真的不在意

This video is gonna be a little different..

這部影片會有些不同

It's gonna be about forced positivity...

它是關於「強迫性正能量」

Let's just.. let's just get this out there

我就直說了

to make it less awkward, ok?

讓這一切不會那麼尷尬，好嗎？

I struggled with happiness..

我很掙扎於快樂這回事

I think we all do.. and i don't think a lotta people talk about it

我想我們都是，但我想並沒有很多人在討論這件事

because...

因為

There's no in between!

它沒有灰色地帶

I think it's either you're happy or you're depressed!

我覺得你不是「快樂」就是「不快樂」

But what if you're just fine?

但假如你就是「還好」呢？

They ask you how you are and you say you're fine

他們會問你「感覺怎樣」？你回答說「還好」

but you're not really fine becau-

但你其實不是還好，因為...

You can't get into it they would never understand.

你很難仔細解釋，因為他們也不會懂

I would say I'm in a.. in betweener..

所以我會說我自己算是處於灰色地帶

You know?

你懂？

If someone asks: - "Hey Poodiepie, how you doing?" - I'm fine..

如果有人問「嘿Pewdiepie，你過得怎樣啊？」「我還好」

Alright?

可以嗎？

I'm fucking fine..

我就是他媽的還好

I'M FINE!! [ LAUGH ]

我還好！！！

This is a little awkward.. I-

這有點怪

These honest videos I- I can't..

這些超誠實的影片，我承受不住

I can't!

承受不住啊

I mean.. okay Put it this way:

我是說...好，這麼說好了

There's times where I feel really happy,

有時候我會覺得超開心

but it- at that time I also know this is temporary..

但是同時我也會知道，這是暫時的

If I'm gonna go back to just fine.

我會回到所謂「還好」狀態

And there's times where I- I feel unhappy!

有時候我會覺得很不開心

And I know it's..

我也會知道它

it's gonna go back to normal.

遲早會回到正常狀態

That's just.. maybe that's just my personal chemistry

也許這只是我個人起的化學作用啦

and how it works in my brain

我的腦袋是這樣運作的

I'm never CONSTANTLY FUCKING HAPPY

我永遠不會「永遠快樂」

cuz that would just be INSANE!

因為那真的就是有毛病！

I don't think anyone is constantly happy.

我不覺得有人會「永遠快樂」

That I-

那樣的話

And if that's the case, well I don't..

如果真的是那樣的話，嗯

I don't wanna know you! [ CHUCKLE ]

我一點都不想認識你（笑）

I don't think that's a good thing!

我真的覺得那不是好事啊

I don't think been happy all the time is something desirable AT ALL!

我完全不覺得「永遠快樂」是件理想的事

Now if you watch my older videos, I might seem a lot happier

假如說你有看一些我早期的影片，我可能看起來會比較快樂

I might seem a lot chipper, a lot more positive..

我可能比較活潑、比較散播正能量一點

and that's because..

而那是因為...

I faked it!

我裝出來的！

[ CHUCKLE ]

（笑）

I thought that..

我以為

for people to wanna wacth my videos,

為了讓大家想要看我的影片

I would have to be happy.

我必須表現得開心一些

I would have to force positivity..

我必須強迫自己散發正能量

And uhmm-

然後，呃

I think it's safe to say it worked!

我想說「它的確奏效」也無妨吧

I think a lotta people on YouTube are drawn to..

我覺得YouTube上面很多人會被

positivity and..

正面能量所吸引

I think a lot of YouTubers are aware of this..

而我想很多YouTuber注意到這件事

And that's why they're forcing positivity on YouTube!

這就是為什麼他們都會強迫自己要在YouTube上散播正能量

But, the thing that I realized after doing YouTube for two years..

但是，在我經營2年YouTube後，我了解到的是

Forcing positivity..

「強迫性正能量」

it's fucking exhausting!

真的超他媽累人！

There were times where I recorded myself playing videogames

有時候我會錄自己在打電動遊戲

absolutely hating the game..

根本超討厭那款遊戲

and just forcing that I would enjoy it!

卻還要逼自己說，我超愛它！

Just pretending that I'm having fun!

假裝我自己玩得很愉快！

Pretending that this game that I'm playing

假裝我在玩的那一款遊戲

isn't actually a piece of SHIT!

不是一個徹底的爛貨

But people bought it!

但人們非常買帳

You know? People love my old videos and I think people still f- feel..

你知道嗎？大家很愛我早期的影片，我想很多人

a lot of anger towards me that I'm- I-

會對我不太爽....呃

What would happen was that I would play the game and be like:

發生的事情是，當我在玩那些遊戲時，我就會

"YEAHH! Good game! [ BURP ]

「耶！！遊戲超讚啊啊啊！（打嗝）」

In minutes as I hit the stop recording button..

當我按下「停止錄影」按鈕的那個瞬間

I would just be.. in a shitty mood!

我會馬上陷入....一個超爛的情緒

You know? Because if..

懂嗎？因為

I didn't have fun at all!

我根本玩得一點都不開心欸！

And you might think: "Well.. it's his job to make videos!

你可能會想說「錄影片是他的工作」

If he have to fake.. fake it

「如果他要裝，就裝一下啊」

he should just do it!

「他就該這麼做」

Because I wanna see him play Happy Wheels!"

「我就是想要看他玩《Happy Wheels》！」

[ GROAN ]

（嘆氣）

To some extent.. I think you're right!

某種程度而言，我想你說得沒錯

But I- also what I realized was that

但我...我體會到的事情是

it's soul crushing!

這真的在折磨靈魂啊

It's extremely soul crushing to do that!

要幹這件事完全就是在折磨靈魂！

To keep that up for a longer time!

要不斷的做這件事

And I realized that if I'm gonna keep making videos

我也理解到如果我打算持續做影片

I'm just gonna have to be more honest!

我就必須誠實一點

And say: "Well, this is shit.. I'm not gonna play it!"

然後說「噢這根本狗屎，我才不要玩這個」

Or at least make that the entertainment;

或者是讓它變得很有娛樂性

the fact that the game is shit.

也就是「這遊戲根本狗屎」這回事

Which does'nt always work, you know..

它不是總是行得通，你知道的

"Bear Simulator"

《Bear Simulator》那款

But it makes me happier and less-

但這樣會讓我感覺快樂一點，也比較沒那麼....

and it makes me hate myself less so..

也會讓我比較不那麼討厭我自己，所以

Hey.. what can- what can you do?

嘿，你還能怎麼樣？

Something that I've learned now..

現在我學到一件事

after a couple of years is that

在經過這些年

Forced positivity is something that I really..

「強迫性正能量」真的讓我覺得非常...

hate!

非常討厭

Seeing these positive quotes..

看到這些正能量的名言

I hate 'em!

我恨死它們了

I mean I practically wrote a book on-

我事實上還真的寫了一本書

on parodying them..

在惡搞他們

And when I see other

然後當我看到其他

other people

其他人

other YouTubers.. forcing positivity

其他YouTuber，在強迫自己散發正能量

It's so transparent to me what they're doing!

他們到底在幹嘛，對我來說變得超級明顯

It doesn't bother me that- the fact that people are doing it.

「人們在做這件事」並不會讓我覺得很煩

I think it's just knowing why they're doing it!

那就只是知道「他們為什麼這樣做」而已

They're forcing positivity..

知道他們在強迫自己散發正能量

to get views on YouTube!

來獲得YouTube影片觀看數

And that..

然後

If you think about that..

如果你仔細想想

That's pretty fucked up!

他們根本就搞砸了

I think a lot of teens are watching YouTube and I think..

我覺得有滿多青少年在看YouTube的

We all know what it's like to be a teenager

我們都知道身為一個青少年是怎麼樣

It's a tough period for fucking everyone!

對他媽的每個人來說，都是辛苦的一段時光啊

And as a teenager you're drawn to

身為一個青少年，你很容易被

watching someone else being positive,

正能量的人所吸引

as a fly to- to light pretty much.

根本就像飛蛾撲火

And I know what you're thinking

我知道你在想什麼

Well.. if other people are watching someone else being positive

「假如說別人在看一些人散播正能量」

whether it's fake or not

「不論那是不是裝出來的」

if it makes them happier..

「如果這讓他們感覺快樂一些」

Well, then there's no harm in that, right??

「也沒什麼不好吧，對吧？」

NO!

才不！

I think- I-

我覺得....

Don't get me wrong though! I think there's people on YouTube that are

別誤會，我想的確有些在YouTube上的人

genuinely just positive people!

是發自內心、一個積極正面的人

And there's nothing wrong with that!

那也一點問題都沒有

But kind of like, when you make it part of your merchandise..

只是，如果它變成是一場交易

it kinda changes things, doesn't it?

一切就會有點改變了，對吧？

The "Smile More" store..

這種《Smile More》的商店......

THE FIGHT FOR HAPPINESS..

《為了快樂而戰》.....

'Cause if you're fat.. fuck your happiness!

「因為如果你胖，就跟快樂掰掰吧！」

[ LAUGH ]

（大笑）

You know, there's countless examples..

你知道，例子不勝枚舉

And like I said.. I'm not trying to call anyone out..

就如同我說的，我沒有要針對任何人

I'm just showing you an example!

我只是在跟你舉例！

I think the reason why it bothers me so much, it becau-

我覺得這一切會讓我這麼反感，是因為..

it's because it's fake! It's just clearly fake!

是因為他是假的啊！假到顯而易見！

You're forcing positivity.. it's not real!

你只是在強迫自己正能量，那並不是真的！

Maybe like- it's a- it might be just a pesonal thing

也許這很個人啦

but I value honesty

但我把「誠實」的價值

more.. than- than.. uhmm..

看得比....呃...

I don't know.. happiness I guess..

我不知道，看得比「快樂」更重吧！

I know I would feel better thinking:

我知道我如果想著這些東西，會覺得比較開心：

"Oh when I die.. I'm gonna go to heaven,

「喔如果我掛了，我會上天堂」

and I'm gonna see- it's gonna be awesome!

「我會看到....一切都太讚了」

I'm gonna see all my dead pets..

「我會看到所有我死掉的寵物....」

I haven't seen dead hamster in so long..

「好久沒看到我過世的小倉鼠了啊.....」

[ SAD MUSIC ]

（悲傷的音樂）

But I- And I would feel better knowing that!

知道這些事情，的確可能讓我比較開心

I would feel better not knowing that

我如果不知道

the universe is..

「喔這個宇宙.....＠＃＊＄＆＊＾」的確會比較開心

But that wouldn't be honest!

但這樣就不誠實了啊！

It would make me happier.. but it wouldn't be honest!

也許會感到快樂，但不誠實

And I think that's more important.

而我覺得那比較重要

But seeing YouTubers force positivity..

但是看到一些YouTuber硬是要散發正能量....

It doesn't just bother me for their dishonesty..

真正讓我反感的，不是他們不誠實

It bothers me because preying on people that who are alreay weak

而是因為他們在消費那些已經比較脆弱的人

To get views on YouTube..

來獲取YouTube上面的觀看數

I don't like that!

我一點都不喜歡這樣

You might be fine with it, but..

你可能覺得還好啦，但是

I think- I think it's stupid!

我覺得這樣很蠢

I think it's dumb

我覺得這樣很白癡

And I think it's doing more harm than good!

而且我覺得這樣弊大於利

"A Harvard psychologist explains why forcing positive thinking won't make you happy"

「哈佛心理學家解釋為何硬是正面思考並不會讓你比較快樂」

Hey.. how about that..

如何啊？

Someone wayyy smarter than me said it..

比我聰明一百倍的人說的...

THEN IT HAS TO BE TRUE!

就該是事實了吧！

Cause I- I know this video is gonna be met with- with

因為我知道，我知道這部影片一定會造成

with people critiquing me saying: "What's wrong with being happy.. Pewdiepie?

一些人批評我，問說「想要快樂到底有什麼不對啊，Pewdiepie？」

You've got a problem?"

「你有什麼毛病嗎？」

It's not like-

這不是像...

It's just.. every fucking movie ever

這只是....像是那些爛電影

is: You gotta be happy!

「你必須要快樂！」

That's the end goal! And if you're not happy.. THEN FUCK YOUR LIFE!

這是最終目標！而如果你不快樂，你這輩子就完了！

Okay.. let me just read this one part:

好，讓我來為你朗誦這一段：

"A lot of our cultural dialogue is fundamentally avoidant, so people will just say things like, 'just be positive and things will be fine.' 'The tyranny of positivity.' was what a friend of mine called it. She recently died of cancer, and what she meant was if being in remission was just a matter of positive thinking, then all of her friends in her breast cancer support group would be alive today"

「很多存在我們文化中的對話本質上都有逃避性，所以人們會說『保持正面，事情會好轉的』。我一個朋友把這稱為『正能量的壓迫』。她最近因為癌症過世了，她這樣講，是想要表達，假如說只要正面思考就能緩和症狀，那她在所有在乳癌互助聚會的朋友們就都還活著了。」

That's dark..

好黑暗啊...

“By sending out the message that our thoughts are responsible for creating our health, well-being and reality, we are overvaluing the power of our thoughts, while making people feel culpable when something bad happens to them. They fell it as because they weren't positive enough.”

「傳達『我們的想法會影響健康、平安與現實』這種訊息，是對於想法的力量過譽了，導致人們有什麼壞事發生時」

They feel it is because they weren't positive enough..

「他們甚至歸咎於自己不夠正面思考」

So forcing positive thinking..

所以「強迫性正能量」....

Is not.. so great! Is it?

並不十全十美，對吧？

Are you- HAVE YOU OPENED YOUR EYES YET?

你...你想通了沒啊？

“We must have some practice dealing with the bad emotions when we caught off guard.”

「為了處理我們在脆弱時面對的惡劣情緒，我們該做好練習」

.. And forcing strongly on happiness..

「而大力強迫自己快樂」

is just gonna us less resilient..

「只會讓我們更不開心」

it's what they're saying.

這是他們說的

The last point.. I feel really strongly about..

最後一點，我很有感觸

Which is.. and is- it's the same for this part-

它這一部分很像

It made me really glad that I read this from someone else for the first time..

它讓我第一次很慶幸我從別人那裡讀到它

“Emotions like sadness, guilt, grief and anger are beacons for our values. We don't get angry about stuff we don't care about. We don't feel sad or guilty about stuff we don't care about. If we push these emotions away, we are choosing not the learn about ourselves. We are choosing to ignore our values and what is important to us. And when we tell ourselves to 'think positive' and push negative or difficult emotions aside, it won't work.”

「悲傷、罪惡感、哀痛與憤怒這類的情緒體現了我們的價值觀。我們不會因為不在意的事物而憤怒，也不會因為不在意的事物而悲傷或感到罪惡。如果我們選擇對這些情緒視而不見，我們就是選擇不了解自己，也是選擇忽略自己的價值觀及真正覺得重要的事物。而如果我們只告訴自己要『正面思考』而推開那些比較負面、困難的思考，那是沒有用的」

It doesn't work! It's.. beacuse it's fake!

那沒有用，因為都是假的！

I'm not telling you

我不是在叫你

"don't go and be happy"

「不要快樂」

and I'm not gonna pretend like I know what will make anyone happy..

我也沒有打算假裝我懂每個人如果想要快樂、

if you wanna be happy!

該怎麼樣才會快樂

And if you're struggling with happiness..

而如果你正掙扎於「快樂」這回事

just know that- You're not the only one!

你只需要知道：你絕不孤單

It's fine! It's fine not being happy all the fucking time!

真的沒有關係！「不是永遠快樂」完全他媽沒關係啊！

I don't think that's reasonable..

我根本覺得那不合理

I think it's wrong to think that that's the case

我覺得把它視為事實根本大錯特錯

and I think..

我也認為

all these Hollywood movies..

所有那些好萊塢電影

all these stories that are fiction..

所有那些科幻故事

It's not a real- it's not representative of reality!

他們都不是真的，不能反映真實

And seen YouTubers aplying the same thing

然後看到那些YouTuber拿同一套東西

for their personal gain..

來獲得一己之利...

I think it's kinda gross!

我是覺得滿噁的啦！

And I'm..

而且我...

and I just wanted to give my two cents on it!

個人意見僅供參考啦

Do you agree with me? Or do you disagree?

你同意還是不同意？

Let me know in the comments!

留言讓我知道吧

And I.. I don't know if this is the kind of videos

我不知道這是不是那種

I'm really meant to be making..

我真的很想做出來的影片啦

I'm probably not qualified at all to talk about this but it's a topic that..

我可能還不夠資格來談論這個，不過這倒是

I care about!

我真正在意的議題

Don't get me wrong.. I feel great!

別誤會，我很開心

I feel fantastic.. but I also feel..

我感覺好極了，但我同時也感覺....

Very happily.. unhappy..

不開心得很開心

A lot of times when I feel bad

很多時候我會心情不好

That doesn't mean I feel bad about feeling bad!

但那不表示我會因為我心情不好而心情不好

I feel great about feeling not great.

我因為「感覺心情不好」而感覺很棒啊

What the fuck is this video about?

這部影片到底在講啥小啦

Thank you.. for watching!

感謝你的收看

I'll see you in the next one!

我們下次再見

Brofist!

擊掌

Al- Alright!

好啦

I just wanna to be clear that this video was not aimed for people with depression!

我只是想澄清，這部影片並不是為了憂鬱症的人所做的

Depression is a medical pshy-psychological.. issue!

憂鬱症是心理疾病

And this video is just a generic view..

而這部影片只是針對「關於快樂的普遍理想」

for your average ideals around happiness..

一種囊括性的觀點

So please! Don't- don't get the wrong idea!

所以拜託啦！不要搞錯重點

Oh no! I had enough drama as it is, please! [ CHUCKLE ]

喔不，我真的小劇場爆發，跪求了（笑）