Oh-

哦-

*sighs*

*嘆息*

Oh my god I just unironically sighed before a video.

噢，天啊，我居然在螢幕前嘆氣

Great.

很好

I feel really sad.

我覺得非常難過

I really feel down right now.

我現在真的感到非常沮喪

Uhm...

呃...

Because I-

因為我...

I-

我...

I realized last night that I can't keep doing the vlogs.

我昨晚才意識到，我沒辦法繼續完成影音日誌

It really, really sucks.

這真的真的很糟

I really wanted Birdabo to be something fun and positive and different for the channel.

因為我希望Birdabo對這個頻道來說，是個正面且特別非凡的東西

And I think it was the first week.

起初我第1個禮拜的時候是這麼覺得的

But now, it's just gotten to a point where...

但現在的情況卻變得...

Not just me is being affected by it but like other people around me.

不只是我受影響，就連我身旁的其他人也一樣

Brad and Michael who came out here to help me with the vlogs-

Brad和Michael，他們來這裡協助我做影音日誌

'Cause I was already stressed out before I came here.

因為我在來洛杉磯之前就已經壓力不小了

And...

而且...

Uhm...

呃...

I think I have a pretty high tolerance of stress, but...

我覺得我對壓力有很高的容忍度，但...

It just got worse, and I talked about this in the vlog. It just got worse when I came here.

它卻變得更糟，我在之前的影片就有談到過，我到這裡之後變得更糟

It's just been so stressful.

讓我覺得壓力好大

I'm doing the show, I'm doing the daily vlogs, uh- doing RevelMode stuff, and it's just...

我拍節目，我拍的每日影音日誌，呃... 還有RevelMode的東西，只是...

It's just been too much. And I can deal with it, like- It's just another ten days, right?

我只是覺得壓力好大，或許我可以應付得來吧，頂多再10天，對不對?

But...

但...

Like even with Marzia, it's like... forced to do all these things. It just feels forced.

即使是和Marzia一起的時候，都覺得好像... 是被強迫去做這些事，我就感覺是被逼迫的

Brad and Michael, everyone is just stressed out over the vlogs, and I think the fun disappeared somewhere.

Brad跟Michael，其實每個人對做影音日誌這件事都覺得壓力很大，我自己也覺得漸漸失去樂趣

And like if it's forced and not fun, then what's the point of continuing?

既然是被逼迫而且又不好玩的話，那還有什麼能再繼續做下去的意義可言呢?

Uhm...

呃...

It really sucks... that I'm here.

真的很討厭...... 我在這個地方

I- I- I really wanted Birdabo to be something fun and positive like I said but...

我.. 我真心希望Birdabo可以像我說的那樣兼具有趣又正面，可是...

I- I just can't keep going with it.

但我就是... 沒辦法再繼續拍下去了

Uhm...

呃...

I'm really sorry... that it's... if you expected more.

我真的很抱歉... 如果... 你原本還很期待能看到更多的影片的話

I'm really sorry I'm in this situation.

真的很抱歉，我處於這樣的狀態

It really sucks for me. Uhm...

我真的自己很糟，呃...

I've always put YouTube first.

我一直以來都把YouTube排在第1順位

Always.

一直以來都是

Even if I'm working on other projects, it doesn't matter. The videos goes first.

即使我在做其他工作，也不要緊，因為影片一定是我第1順位

You guys come first. That's my main thing.

你們粉絲也是第1順位，這是我所堅持的事情

But I- I can't do that while I'm here.

但是我... 在這裡，實在沒辦法再繼續這麼做

'Cause I have to do the show... and I have to do all these other things.

因為我要邊拍節目，還有其他一些事情

And keeping the vlogs up, it's just impossible at this point.

同時還要繼續上傳影音日誌，那真的是不可能辦到的

So I'm really sorry to you guys for not doing that. I feel really disappointed.

所以，我真的很抱歉我沒辦法再繼續拍影片，我覺得這很讓人失望

Uhm...

呃...

I wish I could just make my normal videos again.

我希望我可以再次拍我過去那些一般的影片

I wish I was home.

我希望我在家裡

I- I miss my pugs.

我想念我的哈巴狗

But I'm here for another week and uh... I don't... I don't- I don't know how I'm gonna keep doing the vlogs so-

但我還得在這裡待上1個禮拜，然後呃... 我不... 我不知道我到底要怎麼再繼續拍影音日誌，所以...

It's just not worth it.

我只是覺得這一切好不值得

I said it before, but I never want to force content, y'know?

我以前有說過，但我是真的不想再拍出這樣的內容，你們懂嗎?

I really have a lot of fun when I'm with my own setup, doing my own thing.

我真的很高興我能擁有相同的器材設備，繼續做我喜歡的事

But, I realized just like...

但我到後來才發現...

Everyone just feels forced to film these things, and it's just...

大家不過只是被逼著拍這些東西，而這真的...

I'm just really sad about it.

我真的很難過

I... I hope you understand.

我希望你們能理解。

I wish... I wish it wasn't like this- I know it's not even that big a deal. I don't know why I'm so fucking upset about it.

我希望... 我當然希望事情不要變成這樣，而且我也知道這根本不是什麼嚴重的問題，但我真的不知道為什麼他媽的我超難過的

It's just we really worked really hard on this fucking thing, and I think that's what killed it.

因為我們真的很努力在持續進行這該死的東西，但我想這也恰好是毀了一切的原因

*laughs*

*笑*

Which is such a shame.

這真的很令人惋惜

And I think that's why I'm so upset.

我想這就是為什麼我那麼難過

I'll be back in probably a week and a half to my normal videos.

我會在1個半禮拜過後，回歸到我原本那些一般的影片

I'm just need to finish what I'm doing here in L.A.

我只是得先完成我在洛杉磯必須做的事情

I need to put myself first... this time.

我這次...得把自己排在優先順位

So disappointed.

我真的很失望

No, you know what? Let's end this on a positive note.

不，你們知道嗎? 我們還是以正面的話來做個總結吧

You guys' support while doing the vlogs really carried me through, and it really means a lot.

你們在這些影音日誌中默默支持著我，也真的讓我一路撐過來了，這真的對我非常重要

Uh... Ah, fuck.

呃... 啊，幹

I don't even know why I care so much.

我不知道為什麼我會這麼在乎

It's fucking stupid.

真的感覺超蠢的

You guys have been awesome.

你們真的很棒

Thank you.

謝謝你們

I'll be back.

我會回來的 (1周後)

It's all good.

我會很好

Don't worry about me.

不用擔心我

Brofist?

兄弟拳?

*laughs*

*笑*

Yeah?

要嗎?

Alright.

好喔

Here it comes.

來吧

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