But then, the very end of the day, Jun and Yuka--

they decide that they wanted to do the teacups again.

That was something they were really excited about for some reason.

So they go get on the teacups and I'm like, I don't want to be left alone! I wanna do it do.

So I go get on the teacups. And they're like,

"You know, we're gonna go really fast. We like going really fast on the teacups."

And I'm like, "Well, you know... it'll probably be okay."

Like, I get dizzy, but you know,

it's just dizziness. It'll just go away in a couple minutes.

So that's not anything to worry about.

So I'll handle it! And they're like,

"You know, you can really sit this out." And I'm like,

"No..."

"That's really awkward, I don't wanna be left alone. I'm just gonna come with you guys!"

So we get on the teacups.

And

like immediately my sister-in-law is like super excited, and she's like spinning the teacups really fast.

And I'm like... Wow...

this is kinda fast. I'm getting a little dizzy. But you know, I'll just manage it.

And I'll be fine.

And like both Jun and my sister-in-law, they're like sitting straight up.

And they're like smiling and laughing and they're having

so much fun and they're just like spinning the teacups

And it's going so fast, and they're just, they're sitting straight up!

And I'm like plastered to the back and I can't even move.

And they're just like smiling away! "Hahaha, teacups!"

And I'm in the back, I can't even like lift my neck up.

And I'm like sliding down the teacup. because I can't even control anything.

I'm SOOO dizzy at this point.

Like I'm starting to feel so sick, and I'm like, "NO, okay, you guys,"

"I can't do this." But they're not paying attention, they're like laughing so hard

and they're having such a good time.

I'm just like,

laying down in the teacup, and I'm like,

this has to stop.

This has to--I'm gonna die.

I dunno what's happening. This is gonna kill me, you guys, you guys have to stop.

Eventually the teacup stops and I'm like, "Guys..."

"I can't move."

"I don't know what's happening. I'm gonna like throw up."

"This is... so bad, I can't see, everything is spinning."

And they're like, they're having a grand time.

They're just walking off, and I'm like, "I can't... Guys, help me!"

"Help me! Jun please help me."

And so like, Jun helps me get up and walk out of the teacups.

And I'm like doubled over, like my head is between my knees.

And I'm like walking completely bent over,

kind of stumbling away from the teacups.

And he takes me over to a bench, and they're like,

"Okay, well we're gonna go find the rest of our family."

So I just kinda sit there on the bench and I am SOO nauseous and dizzy.

And everything is spinning.

I've never felt this way in my entire life.

And eventually I'm like, I can't, I'm gonna throw up.

So there's a bathroom that's like, like thirty feet away or something,

so I just kind of stumble over to the bathroom and then like I collapse into a toilet

and I throw up from being so dizzy.

And I just kinda stay there for like ten minutes.

And eventually my sister-in-law comes in and she's like, "Hey... We're leaving."

"Everyone's ready to go... are you okay?"

"Why don't you... come out now?"

And I'm like, I can't walk. I... nope.

No, I can't come out of this toilet right now.

This is a really bad idea.

So Jun has to come and get me.

And, I'm like no

I need to stay in front of the toilet because I'm going to throw up again.

And, well everyone's ready to leave, so we just start the walk back to the car.

It's like, the car's like 3/4ths of a mile or a mile away. It's like a really long walk.

Because we have to walk all the way to the front of the gate,

and then we parked really far around the side of the park.

So it's like a really long walk.

And it's like... really excruciating.

Like a really excruciating walk for me.

And like halfway through, Jun and my father-in-law, they go off

'cause they're gonna buy souvenirs,

and Jun's gonna buy a hat for my grandpa that I wanted him to get.

And so I'm just,

I'm now left with my mother-in-law and my sister-in-law.

And we're walking back to the car by ourselves.

And I'm still so nauseous and I'm like walking with my head down, and I can't see anything.

Like the ground's spinning for me. I'm so dizzy.

It's terrible.

And we finally get back to the car.

And we're parked next to-- We're parked in a--

It's a nice little parking lot, and there's like a tree right next to us,

like a fancy park tree or whatever.

And as soon as we get back to the car and we stop walking

I immediately throw up into the tree

right in front of my sister-in-law and my mother-in-law.

And they're like freaking out. They're like, "Oh my gosh!"

And they're like rummaging through everything in the back of the car.

And they get like a cup and some like drink for me so I can rinse my mouth out.

And then I just get in the car and sit down because I'm feeling so bad.

We start driving

and instead of going back to the hotel like I had hoped we would,

we start driving toward a restaurant.

It's like a really nice, fancy, Japanese restaurant.

And the car is actually like completely silent, except for there's like some kpop on the radio

becasuse my mother-in-law and my sister-in-law love kpop.

So they're playing some of that music,

just like really low, like a low a volume.

And I'm just sitting in the back. I am soo miserable.

I'm feeling so bad.

And I am so embarrassed

that I had to throw up in front of my mother-in-law and my sister-in-law.

And I'm like, this can't possibly get any worse.

But you, maybe, MAYBE somehow I could recover from this.

Maybe it could get better.

But then

I just start throwing up again...

into my cup.

Like in my little cup in this completely silent car while everyone's driving.

And it's like so loud and everyone is so quiet

and no one is saying anything.

And like everything that I've done for my in-laws is flashing before my eyes.

Because

the whole time that I've gotten to know my in laws, it's only been like a year,

since I've gotten to know them.

And like with my family, when I told them, "I'm gonna get married," like, "I love Jun."

Like, "Hey guys, I'm engaged to this guy from Japan. It's so great! I'm gonna get married!"

And if anyone was ever like,

"No. No, you can't do that." I would have just been like,

"Okay, I don't care!"

"Whatever."

"Guess I'm not gonna talk to you again."

You know, that's the kind of attitude we have in America.

But for Jun it's so important to get along with his family.

Like this is--

I mean, I'm not going to say every Japanese person is like this,

but it's really important in Japan. Family is much more important in Japan.

So he really wanted his family's approval.

And so I had been- I understand this. I had been trying SO hard

to, like, make a good impression.

Like, I wanted them to think like, "Oh, I'm really happy

that my son is marrying this woman who has a good job.

She's really polite. She's like such a nice woman. She's so feminine and mature.

And like, I had spent a year building up all of this, like this image

and I worked so hard to get their approval.

And now I'm VOMITING IN THEIR CAR.

In front of everyone. It's so awkward. I have no idea what to do at this point.

And like I don't even know what to say in Japanese, like

my Japanese is not good enough at this point to explain how sorry I am.

So like the only thing I can think to say in Japanese is "Gomennasai! I'm so sorry!"

And eventually we get to the restaurant.

And they're like, "Hey! Come inside. Get some food."

I'm just like,

"Okay, maybe if I sit here for like ten or fifteen minutes then

like my brain will calm down and I won't be as nauseous and I'll be able to eat, so I'm like,

"You guys go ahead. I'll come in in a little bit. I just need

to rest here a little bit because I'm so nauseous and dizzy.

I can't see and everything so please let me just sit here for a little bit."

So they go inside.

And they like wait to order and everything.

And eventually Jun comes back out, and he's like, "Hey, We're gonna start ordering."

And I'm still- Everything is still spinning for me.

I'm like, "No. I'm sorry. I can't come inside, I need to stay here in the car.

I will throw up if I try to move. and go inside this restaurant.

And that's, no. That's bad. I'm not gonna do that. That's not gonna happen."

And he's like, "Oh, well why don't you just come try?"

And I'm like, "No."

And he's like, "Do you want us to bring you something?

Like, we can order something and take it back to the hotel for you."

And I'm like, "No. No, I don't think you understand.

Like putting food in my body is not a good idea right now.

So I'm just gonna stay here in the car. You guys please go enjoy your meal."

And I'm sure they're sitting inside the restaurant just like feeling really guilty, like

"Okay, so

our daughter-in-law is out in the car 'cause she's nauseous,

and we're sitting in here trying to enjoy our meal."

And I'm like ruining everything.

Like I ruined the whole day for them at the amusement park and I'm ruining their meal now.

But I can't help it because I just can't do anything 'cause I'm so nauseous.

And so I'm sitting in the car,

and I'm still so dizzy, and even though the car's not moving anymore I throw up AGAIN into my cup.

My little vomit cup.

And at this point it's getting like precariously full.

Like I don't want to start driving anymore because I'm afraid

if we hit a bump or something there could be like vomit splash out of the cup,

which would be the worst possible thing in the world.

So I open the door. I don't even know what I did with it.

I don't even remember if I got out of the car, or if I just like dumped it out from inside the car.

Pretty sure I tried to go find a place like a vent in the floor.

Like a grating where I could like dump it.

Anyway, I emptied my vomit cup.

And eventually everyone comes back out to the car and we start on our way to the hotel.

And I'm like "Yay! Finally hotel!"

But we're like driving to the hotel and this whole area's like

really mountainous, so all of the turns are like really

sharp and like spinny, and turny and stuff.

I feel like my father-in-law's drifting everything.

And for my state of nausea it's so beyond what I can handle.

And so I throw up again

into my cup.

Finally we get to the hotel and it's the Hilton Hotel.

It's the nicest place I've ever been in my life. Like I've never been to a hotel like this before.

And we sit down in this lobby, and it's like a really grand and spacious lobby.

And we're waiting to get checked in.

There's like people all around us, and I'm sure they're thinking that I'm the

most wasted, trashy white girl they have ever seen in their entire lives.

Like I'm sure they were going crazy trying to figure out what I was doing with this

all-Japanese family.

And there's not even any trash cans anywhere

so I can't even throw away my cup of vomit.

Like do you know how humiliating it is to carry a cup of vomit with you somewhere.

In Japan! Trying to make a good impression on your in-laws.

Oh my gosh.

And so we get back to the room and I just go to sleep like immediately

because I can't handle anything at all.

And we wake up the next day and this is the 2nd day of our vacation, the last day of our vacation.

And we'd been planning on going around to see like all of the sights and the mountains and