she's proud of my weight loss.

你減了磅，我感到自豪

She still doesn't know I'm anorexic.

她並不知道，我患上了厭食症

What it's like to struggle with anorexia.

患上厭食症會怎樣呢？

Anorexia nervosa is an eating disorder that causes people to become fixated in their diet and not gaining weight.

厭食症是一種飲食失調，以致病人對飲食和體重的增加有病態的固執

The Whisper app allows people to share stories anonymously. Here are some actual confessions from people struggling with anorexia.

一些私隠度高的流動應用程序，讓人們可以匿名分享自己的故事，以下是一些厭食症患者的告白

- [Voiceover] Whenever my boyfriend sees my body,

(旁白)每當我男朋友看到我的身體，

I'm scared that he'll notice I'm anorexic.

我總擔心，他會知道我患上厭食症

- [Voiceover] I tell people I'm on a liquid diet.

（旁白）我告訴別人，我在減肥，我只吃流質食物

What they don't realize is that I'm anorexic,

別人沒有意識到我有厭食症

and the only liquid in my diet is water.

實際上，我的流質食物只是水

- [Voiceover] I have anorexia.

（旁白）我患上了厭食症．

My head keeps telling me, pretty girls don't eat.

我的大腦不停地告訴我：漂亮的姑娘是不吃食物的

- [Voiceover] I'm anorexic.

（旁白）我患上了厭食症，

I hate myself with a passion.

我着魔似的討厭自己，

The only time I eat is when I'm going drinking,

我只在喝酒的時候吃東西，

because being drunk is the only thing

惟有醉酒，才能

that takes away the pain.

帶走我的痛苦，

- [Voiceover] I only eat in front of my parents

（旁白）我只會在我父母面前吃東西．

so they won't find out I'm anorexic

希望他們不會知道我有厭食症，

and send me to recovery.

不然他們會把我送去治療，

- [Voiceover] I tell everyone I'm losing weight

（旁白）我告訴所有人，我在減肥．

because I exercise,

因為我有在運動．

but the truth is I'm anorexic.

但真相是，我患上了厭食症，

- [Voiceover] I'm anorexic and I'm trying to get better.

（旁白）我患上了厭食症，我希望可以好起來．

I can't stand that every restaurant displays calories.

我無法忍受飯館展示食物的熱量，

It's so triggering.

我無法忍受

- [Voiceover] I denied the fact that I have anorexia.

（旁白）我拒絕承認我患上了厭食症．

Today I saw my sister start to

今天，我看到我妹妹開始

hate on her body the way I do.

討厭自己的身體，就像我一樣

She's eight, this really hit heart.

她八歲，這刺痛了我的心．

I need to change for her sake.

為了她，我必須作出改變，以身作則．

- [Voiceover] I recovered from anorexia four years ago.

（旁白）四年前，我從厭食症的陰影中走出來，恢復了健康．

I used to pray to God that he would let me die.

過去，我常常向上帝禱告，請讓我死去

But surviving has made me a stronger person.

但現在，存活讓我變得堅強

I'm proud of who I've become.

我為此而驕傲