(Laughter)

(笑聲)

I was worried.

我也很擔心,這就是為什麼我開始這作品

That's why I began this piece.

我擔心陰道, 我擔心我們怎樣看待陰道

I was worried about vaginas.

但更擔心我們沒有想起陰道

I was worried what we think about vaginas

我擔心自己的陰道

and even more worried that we don't think about them.

它的存在還需要其他陰道的存在, 還有陰道的文化, 背景, 以及陰道的社群

I was worried about my own vagina.

只是它們被很多的黑暗和秘密包圍著

It needed a context, a culture, a community of other vaginas.

就好像百慕達三角, 從來沒有人回來回報那裡的情況

There is so much darkness and secrecy surrounding them.

(笑聲)

Like the Bermuda Triangle, nobody ever reports back from there.

第一, 你其實並不容易可以找到自己的陰道

(Laughter)

女性往往年年, 月月, 日日也沒有好好的看過它

In the first place, it's not so easy to even find your vagina.

我曾訪過一個很能幹的女實業家

Women go days, weeks, months, without looking at it.

她跟我說她沒有時間

I interviewed a high-powered businesswoman;

『要看自己的陰道』, 她說: 『那要花一整天的時間呢!』

she told me she didn't have time.

(笑聲)

"Looking at your vagina," she said, "is a full day's work."

『你需要彎下你的背, 在一塊鏡子前面

(Laughter)

最好是全身鏡子。你需要找到一個完美的姿勢

"You've got to get down there on your back, in front of a mirror,

有著完美的燈光, 可是光線又很快的給你的身影遮住了

full-length preferred.

你需要扭轉你的頭, 拱起你的腰, 這真是很累人的.....』

You've got to get in the perfect position with the perfect light,

她很忙, 她沒有時間

which then becomes shadowed by the angle you're at.

所以我決定去跟不同的女性去談談她們的陰道

You're twisting your head up, arching your back, it's exhausting."

由一些很輕鬆的陰道訪談開始

She was busy; she didn't have time.

後來這些變成了『陰道獨白』

So I decided to talk to women about their vaginas.

我曾經跟超過二百位女士談過, 我跟年老的女人談

They began as casual vagina interviews,

年輕的女人, 己婚的女人, 同性戀者, 獨身的女人

and they turned into vagina monologues.

我跟公司的企業人士談, 大學教授, 演員, 性工作者

I talked with over 200 women.

我跟非裔美國女性談, 亞裔美國女性

I talked to older women, younger women,

印第安女性, 白種女性, 猶太女性

married women, lesbians, single women.

好了, 起初的時候, 他們都有點害羞, 有點不願意去講

I talked to corporate professionals, college professors, actors, sex workers.

但當她們開始了, 你便不能讓她們停止

I talked to African-American women, Asian-American women,

女人都喜歡去講關於她們的陰道, 她們是喜歡的

Native-American women, Caucasian women, Jewish women.

只是因為之前沒有人問過她們而已

OK, at first women were a little shy, a little reluctant to talk.

(笑聲)

Once they got going, you couldn't stop them.

讓我們由陰道這個字眼開始---陰道, 陰道, 陰道

Women love to talk about their vaginas, they do.

它聽起來好像是一種傳染病似的, 或好像是一件醫療用具

Mainly because no one's ever asked them before.

『喂, 快點, 護士, 拿個陰道來。』

(Laughter)

(笑聲)

Let's just start with the word "vagina" -- vagina, vagina.

陰道, 陰道, 陰道, 你把這字眼說過多少次都沒所謂

It sounds like an infection, at best.

你說這字眼, 它總不會聽起來是讓你想說的字眼

Maybe a medical instrument.

這是一個完全荒謬, 完全不性感的字眼

"Hurry, nurse, bring the vagina!"

假如你在進行性行為時運用這個字眼, 試著用最正確的語言

(Laughter)

『親愛的, 你可以撫摸我的陰道嗎?』 你一定當場讓對方失去"性"趣

Vagina, vagina, vagina.

（笑聲）

It doesn't matter how many times you say the word,

我會擔心我們叫它, 也擔心我們不提及它

it never sounds like a word you want to say.

在紐約的大內克, 他們叫它做『小貓咪』

It's a completely ridiculous, totally un-sexy word.

有一個女人告訴我, 她媽媽曾經告訴她:

If you use it during sex, trying to be politically correct,

『親愛的不要穿內褲, 在你的睡衣內

"Darling, would you stroke my vagina,"

要讓你的小貓咪透透氣。』

you kill the act right there.

（笑聲）

(Laughter)

在韋斯特切斯特, 他們叫它做卜姬, 在新澤西, 它叫做屄

I'm worried what we call them and don't call them.

還有粉盒, 私處, 下身, 豆腐,

In Great Neck, New York, they call it a Pussycat.

鮑魚, 果度, 妹妹, 梅花穴

A woman told me there her mother used to tell her,

（笑聲）

"Don't wear panties, dear, underneath your pajamas.

這是鼠溪地, 桃花洞, 私密地, 花蕊

You need to air out your Pussycat."

下面, 秘密花園, v v , 黑森林, 松林深處

(Laughter)

尿道, 生命之道, 粉盒, 在邁阿密叫做咪咪

In Westchester, they call it a Pooki,

在費城叫做『分裂了的餡餅』, 在布隆克斯區就叫做『史密迪』

in New Jersey, a twat.

（笑聲）

There's Powderbox, derriere, a Pooky, a Poochi, a Poopi,

我因為掛念陰道

a Poopelu, a Pooninana, a Padepachetchki, a Pal, and a Piche.

這就是『陰道獨白』的開始。

(Laughter)

但它也不是真正的在這裡開始, 它開始在我和一個女人的對談

There's Toadie, Dee Dee, Nishi, Dignity, Coochi Snorcher,

一個關於更年期的對談

Cooter, Labbe, Gladys Seagelman, VA,

接著便提到有關她的陰道.....

Wee wee, Horsespot, Nappy Dugout,

談到更年期, 你都會談到陰道

Mongo, Ghoulie, Powderbox, a Mimi in Miami,

她說到她的陰道, 實在讓我非常震驚

a Split Knish in Philadelphia ...

就是它會變得乾涸, 會完結和死亡, 而讓我感到震驚

(Laughter)

所以我用輕鬆的語氣問她, 『那, 你怎樣看你的陰道?』

and a Schmende in the Bronx.

那個女人就說了一些很有趣的東西

(Laughter)

接著下一個女人說了些更有趣的東西

I am worried about vaginas.

在我了解它之前, 每一個女人都跟我說

This is how the "Vagina Monologues" begins.

我需要去跟其他人談談她們的陰道, 因為每一個人都有一個有趣的陰道故事

But it really didn't begin there.

於是, 我便陷進了這個陰道的旅程之中了

It began with a conversation with a woman.

（笑聲）

We were having a conversation about menopause,

我到現在仍然未能離開這旅程, 我想如果在我年輕的時候, 你告訴我

and we got onto the subject of her vagina,

當我長大之後, 有一天在一家鞋店

which you'll do if you're talking about menopause.

有人會指著我尖叫: 『就是她, 這個陰道的女人。』

And she said things that really shocked me about her vagina --

我也不知道自己是否還會把這個變成我的人生使命

that it was dried-up and finished and dead --

（笑聲）

and I was kind of shocked.

但我仍想講一些有關我遇過的快樂, 以及認識過的人

So I said to a friend casually,

在整個陰道旅程內, 因為

"Well, what do you think about your vagina?"

這八年真是一個不平凡的旅程

And that woman said something more amazing,

我想我在開始陰道獨白之前

and then the next woman said something more amazing,

我是從不曾真正的相信這世界是有快樂的

and before I knew it, every woman was telling me

我以為只有傻瓜才會快樂, 是真的

I had to talk to somebody about their vagina

我記得當我十四年前開始學習佛教的道理

because they had an amazing story,

別人告訴我, 我修練結束後便會變得快樂

and I was sucked down the vagina trail.

我說: 『怎樣才可以在這個充滿苦難的塵世活得快樂,

(Laughter)

以及怎樣在痛苦中生存?』我錯誤的以為快樂是許多其他的東西,

And I really haven't gotten off of it.

好像是麻木, 或是頹廢, 或是自私

I think if you had told me when I was younger

而在經歷過陰道獨白的過程中所發生的事

that I was going to grow up, and be in shoe stores,

以及這個旅程, 我想我開始明白

and people would scream out, "There she is, the Vagina Lady!"

多一點有關快樂的事了。

I don't know that that would have been my life ambition.

我想談談這當中的三個特質

(Laughter)

第一是 看到你面前的東西, 和談及它

But I want to talk a little bit about happiness,

以及說明它。我想在談及陰道

and the relationship to this whole vagina journey,

以及說出陰道的過程, 我知道它是最明顯的----

because it has been an extraordinary journey

它就在我身體的中央, 也是世界的中心

that began eight years ago.

但卻是一件沒有人會談及的事

I think before I did the "Vagina Monologues,"

第二件事是, 在我們談及陰道的時候

I didn't really believe in happiness.

也是開了一扇門, 容讓我去看到

I thought that only idiots were happy, to be honest.

我可以怎樣去服侍這世界而令它變得更好

I remember when I started practicing Buddhism 14 years ago,

而這就是最深刻的快樂的來源

and I was told that the end of this practice was to be happy,

第三個快樂的原則, 我還是最近才發現的

I said, "How could you be happy and live in this world of suffering

八年前, 這股陰道的旋風和能量開始了---

and live in this world of pain?"

我只能說它是陰道旋風 因為坦白的,

I mistook happiness for a lot of other things,

我並不完全了解它, 我覺得我需要配合這旋風

like numbness or decadence or selfishness.

當這旋風開始了, 假如我去懷疑它

And what happened through the course of the "Vagina Monologues"

或是嘗試去制止它, 或是回望它

and this journey is, I think I have come to understand

我便常有一種給鞭打了

a little bit more about happiness.

或是給問吊的感覺。但假如我順著這旋風

There are three qualities I want to talk about.

我信任它, 我跟它同行, 我會到達彼岸

One is seeing what's right in front of you,

它就是如此的合理地, 有機地, 真實的在發生著

and talking about it, and stating it.

我由這裡開始, 尤其是她們的故事和描述

I think what I learned from talking about the vagina

我跟一個女人談, 然後是另一個

and speaking about the vagina, is it was the most obvious thing --

再轉到另一個, 接著我寫下她們的故事,

it was right in the center of my body and the center of the world --

並在別人面前展示出來

and yet it was the one thing nobody talked about.

每次當我表演的時候

The second thing is that what talking about the vagina did

許多女人都會在表演後自發地排成隊伍

is it opened this door which allowed me to see

因為她們都想把自己的故事告訴我

that there was a way to serve the world to make it better.

起初的時候, 我想: 『太好了, 我可以聽到絕妙的高潮,

And that's where the deepest happiness has actually come from.

很精彩的性生活, 以及她們怎樣愛惜自己的陰道。』

And the third principle of happiness, which I've realized recently:

但事實是, 這是都不是她們想排隊告訴我的事

Eight years ago, this momentum and this energy, this "V-wave" started --

她們排隊告訴我她們怎樣給別人強姦

and I can only describe it as a "V-wave" because, to be honest,

她們怎樣被虐待, 以及怎樣被毒打

I really don't understand it completely; I feel at the service of it.

她們怎樣在停車場內給輪姦

But this wave started, and if I question the wave,

以及她們被自己的叔叔亂倫強暴

or try to stop the wave or look back at the wave,

我曾想過不要再寫『陰道獨白』了

I often have the experience of whiplash

因為實在是太嚇人了。我覺得自己好像是戰地攝影師

or the potential of my neck breaking.

只在戰場上拍下可怕的照片, 但卻沒有做任何事去制止這些事情的發生

But if I go with the wave,

所以在一九九七年, 我說: 『不如我們集合女性的力量,

and I trust the wave and I move with the wave,

當我們收集了這些女性被侵犯的資料, 究竟我們可以做些什麼?』

I go to the next place, and it happens logically and organically and truthfully.

最後, 在不住的思考和研究之後

And I started this piece, particularly with stories and narratives,

我發現, 同時聯合國最近也說到 ---

and I was talking to one woman and that led to another woman

地球上有三份之一的女性,

and that led to another woman.

在她們的人生之中, 曾經遭遇過被虐打或是被強暴

And then I wrote those stories down,

這地球上最基本的性別, 最基本的資源, 就是女性

and I put them out in front of other people.

所以在一九九七年, 我們集合了所有了不起的女性, 我們說:

And every single time I did the show at the beginning,

『我們可以怎樣運用舞台劇, 這股能量, 去制止對女性的暴力?』

women would literally line up after the show,

於是, 我們在紐約舉行了一個活動, 在舞台上

because they wanted to tell me their stories.

很多出名的演員都來了 --- 由蘇珊薩蘭登,

And at first I thought, "Oh great, I'll hear about wonderful orgasms,

到格倫克洛斯, 到胡比高拔 --- 我們做了這個演出

and great sex lives, and how women love their vaginas."

這一個晚上, 也催生了這股旋風, 這股能量

But in fact, that's not what women lined up to tell me.

就在接下來的五年間, 一些很不平凡的事情發生了

What women lined up to tell me was how they were raped,

一位女士接收了這份能量然後說: 『我想把這旋風,

and how they were battered, and how they were beaten,

這能量, 帶到大學的校園裡』, 於是她負責了這個舞台劇

and how they were gang-raped in parking lots,

她也說: 『不如我們用這個演出,

and how they were incested by their uncles.

每年一次的, 為這世上每一個當地的社群籌款

And I wanted to stop doing the "Vagina Monologues,"

去制止對女性的暴力。』

because it felt too daunting.

一年之內, 曾在五十間學院裡演出, 然後再擴大

I felt like a war photographer who takes pictures of terrible events,

在過去的六年之間, 它傳出去

but doesn't intervene on their behalf.

傳出去, 傳出去, 並且傳到全世界

And so in 1997, I said, "Let's get women together.

我在當中學到兩件事, 第一, 原來這場對女性暴力的疫情

What could we do with this information

是相當驚人的, 也是全球性的

that all these women are being violated?"

它是如此的深刻, 也是如此的具有破壞力

And it turned out, after thinking and investigating,

就好像我們的每個社會的口袋裡

that I discovered -- and the UN has actually said this recently --

都有一座小火山, 我們甚至不曾發現它

that one out of every three women on this planet

就是因為它是如此的普遍。這旅程把我帶到阿富汗

will be beaten or raped in her lifetime.

隨著塔利班, 讓我有特殊的榮幸可以走到

That's essentially a gender;

阿富汗的內部---- 我穿著她們的布卡 (那種全身包裹的罩袍)

that's essentially the resource of the planet, which is women.

我也走進了那個不平凡的

So in 1997 we got all these incredible women together and we said,

阿富汗婦女革命聯盟

"How can we use the play, this energy, to stop violence against women?"

於是, 我可以第一手的看到

And we put on one event in New York City, in the theater,

當地怎樣剝削婦女的每一個權利

and all these great actors came -- from Susan Sarandon,

由被剝削受教育, 被聘用, 甚至

to Glenn Close, to Whoopi Goldberg --

被禁止吃冰淇淋

and we did one performance on one evening,

也許你們都不知道, 在塔利班統治下吃冰淇淋是犯法的

and that catalyzed this wave, this energy.

我是真的看過婦女因為被捉到吃

And within five years,

香草冰淇淋而受鞭笞

this extraordinary thing began to happen.

我曾被帶到一個在小城內秘密吃冰淇淋的地方

One woman took that energy and she said, "I want to bring this wave,

我們去到一個很隱蔽的房間, 跟著一群女人坐下

this energy, to college campuses,"

圍上了布簾, 於是她們便被分發了香草冰淇淋

and so she took the play and she said,

那些女人掀起了她們的面紗, 在吃她們自己的冰淇淋

"Let's use the play and have performances once a year,

直到那一刻, 我才明白她們的真正滿足

where we can raise money to stop violence against women

以及她們怎樣去令自己的滿足能够實現出來

in local communities all around the world."

在這個旅程, 我到了伊斯蘭馬巴德

And in one year, it went to 50 colleges, and then it expanded.

我遇過看過那些臉容被毀的婦女

And over the course of the last six years,

一星期前, 我在墨西哥的華瑞茲城,

it's spread and it's spread and it's spread around the world.

我在當地的停車場

What I have learned is two things:

發現有女性的骨頭被清洗之後, 被丟棄在

one, that the epidemic of violence towards women is shocking; it's global;

一堆可樂樽的旁邊

it is so profound and it is so devastating,

我也去到很多的大學

and it is so in every little pocket of every little crater,

看到女孩子在約會當中被強姦和下毒

of every little society that we don't even recognize it,

我看過很恐佈, 很恐佈, 很恐佈的暴力

because it's become ordinary.

但我也發現, 在看到這些暴力的過程中

This journey has taken me to Afghanistan,

除了事情的表面之外, 我更真實的看到:

where I had the extraordinary honor and privilege

在面前的, 是對個人的抑鬱

to go into parts of Afghanistan under the Taliban.

個人的沒價值感, 以及沒能力感的解藥

I was dressed in a burqa and I went in with an extraordinary group,

因為在『陰道獨白』之前

called the Revolutionary Association of the Women of Afghanistan.

我會說我八成的意識並沒有留意

And I saw firsthand how women had been stripped

現實中真正發生的事情

of every single right that was possible to strip women of --

這種跟世界隔絕的情況也封閉了我的生命力和活力

from being educated, to being employed,

這旅程也真正的在影響著我 ---

to being actually allowed to eat ice cream.

這是一件很不平凡的事-- 在世界上

For those of you who don't know,

每一個我去過的地方, 我都遇到新人類

it was illegal to eat ice cream under the Taliban.

我是真的很喜歡聽到那些新人類他們藏在海底故事

And I actually saw and met women who had been flogged

我也在想, 怎樣可以把不同的陰道故事

for being caught eating vanilla ice cream.

配合到這地球上這群不平凡的人

I was taken to the secret ice cream-eating place in a little town,

她們之間, 以及她們所超越的

where we went to a back room, and women were seated

不同的範疇。

and a curtain was pulled around us, and they were served vanilla ice cream.

（笑聲）

And women lifted their burqas and ate this ice cream.

但在這群新人類之中, 我看到一件事

And I don't think I ever understood pleasure until that moment,

這是一種新的人類, 新的典範

and how women have found a way to keep their pleasure alive.

只是新聞或媒體沒有報導過

It has taken me, this journey, to Islamabad,

因為我想好消息大概不是什麼的新聞吧

where I have witnessed and met women with their faces melted off.

同時我也想他們改變世界的故事

It has taken me to Juarez, Mexico, where I was a week ago,

也大概不能為電視節目帶來高收視

where I have literally been there in parking lots,

但每一個我去過的地方, 在過去的六年

where bones of women have washed up

我曾去過四十五個國家, 城市和小鎮,

and been dumped next to Coca-Cola bottles.

我曾見過那些我會稱為『陰道勇士』

It has taken me to universities all over this country,

『陰道勇士』可以是一個女人, 也可以是一個善待陰道的男人

where girls are date-raped and drugged.

他們看過, 或是經歷過暴力

I have seen terrible, terrible, terrible violence.

不是拿著AK-47手槍, 或是大規模破壞的武器

But I have also recognized, in the course of seeing that violence,

也不是拿著大砍刀, 他們把暴力存在身體內

that being in the face of things and seeing actually what's in front of us

他們為此傷痛, 他們經驗傷痛, 繼而他們走出去, 並且貢獻

is the antidote to depression,

自己的生命, 為的是讓這些暴力事情, 不要再在別人身上發生

and to a feeling that one is worthless and has no value.

我在地球的每一個地方都遇見過這樣的女性

Because before the "Vagina Monologues,"

我想講一些她們的故事, 因為我相信

I will say that 80 percent of my consciousness was closed off

故事是一種傳遞訊息的方法

to what was really going on in this reality,

能讓訊息走進我們的身體, 身同感受。我覺得自己

and that closing-off closed off my vitality and my life energy.

在TED 這裡, 有點有趣

What has also happened is in the course of these travels --

因為我是一個活在身體的人, 我是很少用腦來生活的

and it's been an extraordinary thing --

但這是一個十分有腦的地方

is that every single place that I have gone to in the world,

對我來說, 我覺得用腦的生活也真是特別

I have met a new species.

所以在過去的兩天, 我都是十分的迷失方向----

And I really love hearing about all these species at the bottom of the sea.

（笑聲）

And I was thinking about how being with these extraordinary people