Name: TED】一個關於精神疾病的故事 - Elyn Saks | TED Talks - TED Talks (【TED】A Tale of Mental Illness | Elyn Saks | TED Talks)
Uploaded: 2021-01-14T05:46:56.000Z
Duration: 14 min 53 s

So I'm a woman with chronic schizophrenia.

我是一位患有慢性思覺失調症的女性。

most of my life on the back ward of a hospital,

In fact, I've managed to stay clear of hospitals

That's not to say that I've remained clear

After I graduated from the Yale Law School and

got my first law job, my New Haven analyst, Dr. White,

得到我的第一份法律工作， 我的紐哈芬分析師懷特博士

announced to me that he was going to close his practice

這離我計畫離開紐哈芬早了幾年。

sensing that something was terribly wrong,

Now I'm going to quote from some of my writings:

現在我要引用一些我寫的東西：

"I opened the door to my studio apartment.

for all the times he had seen me psychotic, nothing

could have prepared him for what he saw that day.

沒有一次能預備他那天所見的狀況。

約莫一個禮拜或更久，我幾乎沒有進食。

我的臉看起來、 感覺起來都像一張面具。

I had closed all the curtains in the apartment, so

the apartment was in near total darkness.

Steve, both a lawyer and a psychologist, has treated

many patients with severe mental illness, and to this day

曾治療許多患有精神重症的病患，

he'll say I was as bad as any he had ever seen.

至今，他還是會說我是他看過最嚴重的。

'Hi,' I said, and then I returned to the couch,

『嗨！』我說，然後回到長沙發上，

where I sat in silence for several moments.

我坐在那裡不發一語好一陣子。

『 懷特要離開了 』，史提夫悶悶地說。

'I'm being pushed into a grave. The situation is grave,' I moan.

我悲嘆： 『 我正被推進墳墓，這情況就如墳墓。』

As a young woman, I was in a psychiatric hospital

on three different occasions for lengthy periods.

My doctors diagnosed me with chronic schizophrenia,

我的醫師診斷我患有慢性思覺失調症，

That is, at best, I was expected to live in a board and care,

也就是說： 我頂多是預計住在護理機構

Instead, I'm a chaired Professor of Law, Psychology

取而代之的，我是法學、心理學

and Psychiatry at the USC Gould School of Law,

與精神病學首席教授，任職於南加大古爾德法學院。

and I have a beloved husband, Will, who's here with us today.

還有心愛的先生威爾， 他今天也在現場。

I'd like to share with you how that happened, and also

describe my experience of being psychotic.

because everyone becomes psychotic in his or her own way.

因為每個人轉變成病患的狀況不同。

Let's start with the definition of schizophrenia.

讓我們從思覺失調症的定義開始。

Its defining feature is psychosis, or being

Delusions are fixed and false beliefs that aren't responsive

妄想是牢固且不真實的信念，與證據不符，

to evidence, and hallucinations are false sensory experiences.

而幻覺則是不真實的感知經驗。

For example, when I'm psychotic I often have

the delusion that I've killed hundreds of thousands

nuclear explosions are about to be set off in my brain.

like one time I turned around and saw a man

Imagine having a nightmare while you're awake.

Often, speech and thinking become disorganized

通常，說話與思維變得雜亂無章

Loose associations involves putting together words

that may sound a lot alike but don't make sense,

將聽起來很像的詞語組合起來，但並無意義。

and if the words get jumbled up enough, it's called "word salad."

如果字詞夠紊亂，那稱為「語詞沙拉」。

Contrary to what many people think, schizophrenia is not

the same as multiple personality disorder or split personality.

The schizophrenic mind is not split, but shattered.

病患的心智不是分裂的， 而是粉碎的。

standing outside of an office building muttering

This person is likely to have some form of schizophrenia.

那人可能患有某種思覺失調症。

But schizophrenia presents itself across a wide array

of socioeconomic status, and there are people

with the illness who are full-time professionals