I don't know bro.

我不知道，兄弟。

I don't want to do it, bro I don't want to do it, bro.

我不想這麼做，兄弟 我不想這麼做，兄弟

I don't want to do it.

我不想這麼做。

I don't want to do it Yeah, I'm done I'm done bro, I'm done I'm done, bro I'm done.

我不想幹了 是啊，我不幹了，我不幹了，兄弟，我不幹了，兄弟，我不幹了。

I'm done.

我不玩了

I'm done.

我不玩了

I'm done.

我不玩了

I'm done I'm done I'm done I'm done I'm done.

我受夠了，我受夠了，我受夠了，我受夠了。

I'm done.

我不玩了

I'm done.

我不玩了

I'm done.

我不玩了

I'm done done.

我受夠了

It's not worth it, bro.

不值得，兄弟

It's Christmas Bro, listen, it's not worth it, bro.

今天是聖誕節 兄弟 聽著 這不值得 兄弟

I'm I'm actually I'm done I'm not playing this game anymore.

我真的不玩了，我再也不玩這個遊戲了。

And I want to see I'm honestly just I don't even know what I'm doing The entire reason why I started this shit bro was to stream mood a thon 24-7 until I get rank 1 on twitch And in the last in the last 10 days in the last 12 days I Got to rank 2 1 game off rank 1 twice twice twice Lost them both to stream snipers slash queue snipers.

我想看看，老實說，我只是不知道我在做什麼，我開始這個狗屎兄弟的全部原因是流心情一個thon 24-7，直到我在twitch上排名1，並在最後在過去的10天，在過去的12天，我得到了排名2 1場比賽排名1兩次兩次兩次失去了他們都流狙擊手斜線隊列狙擊手。

Um, I Got banned on the platform that I'm supposed to be doing the mood a thon on I'm getting can't I don't give again cancel on Twitter, bro But honestly, like I can't do it bro.

嗯，我被禁止在平臺上，我應該做的心情一個thon上，我越來越不能 我不給再次取消在Twitter上，兄弟，但說實話，像我不能這樣做，兄弟。

John.

約翰

I can't do it, bro.

我做不到，兄弟

I can't do it.

我做不到

I can't do it Does this mean I'm quitting maybe it does mean I'm quitting just for now.

我做不到 這是否意味著我要退出？

Um, I gave it my absolute fucking best I hope you guys understand that bro.

我他媽已經盡力了，希望你們能理解，兄弟。

I don't know how I'll live of myself to be honest Uh, I mean, I think I did a pretty good job bro.

老實說，我都不知道自己該怎麼活下去 我是說，我覺得我做得很好，兄弟

It's Christmas I hit a hundred K today and I don't even feel like I'm winning bro I don't even feel like I'm winning in life.

今天是聖誕節，我今天打了 100 K，但我甚至不覺得我贏了，兄弟，我甚至不覺得我贏了人生。

I picked up 14,000 viewers on twitch and I don't even feel good about myself, bro.

我在 twitch 上有 14000 名觀眾，但我自己都不覺得好，兄弟。

This shit is ass.

真他媽操蛋

I don't like this at all I don't I don't know.

我一點也不喜歡這樣，我不喜歡，我不知道。

I don't know bro.

我不知道，兄弟。

I got to rank 2 1 game off rank 1 dot stream sniped slash Q sniped Twice twice Twice bro twice and a hundred thousand subscribers on YouTube today.

我從 1 級點射流狙擊斜線 Q 狙擊兩次兩次兄弟兩次，今天在 YouTube 上的訂閱人數達到了十萬。

I had 14,000 twitch live streamers on on twitch two days ago three days ago before my account got banned and I feel like I'm not winning bro.

兩天前、三天前，在我的賬戶被封禁之前，我在 twitch 上有 14000 名直播流媒體，我覺得我沒有贏，兄弟。

I feel like I'm not winning I feel like I'm too hard on myself and I can't do this bro The entire reason why I wanted to do rank one to begin with was for my audience on Twitch for my audience for all around the people and all around the world and I got banned It's not even on my mom not even near my own community right now.

我覺得我沒有贏，我覺得我對自己太苛刻了，我做不到，兄弟，我一開始想做排名第一的全部原因都是為了我在 Twitch 上的觀眾，為了我在世界各地的觀眾，但我被禁言了，甚至不在我媽媽身上，甚至不在我自己的社區附近。

I Got I'm getting stream snipers crypto throwers and Q snipers not trying to see me win right now Does this mean that I'm giving up bro, maybe I don't know if it's called if I'm giving up bro Well, I have no idea bro.

我得到了我得到了流狙擊手加密投擲手和Q狙擊手不試圖看到我贏現在這是否意味著我放棄了兄弟，也許我不知道這是否叫做如果我放棄了兄弟嗯，我不知道兄弟。

You can say that I gave up You can say that I'm not the chosen one.

你可以說我放棄了，你可以說我不是被選中的人。

You can say it You know, I just say all of my accomplishments don't matter because I didn't make this accomplishment That means all my other accomplishments go away.

你可以這麼說 你知道，我只是說我所有的成就都不重要，因為我沒有取得這個成就 這意味著我所有其他的成就都不重要了。

I don't know what you guys want from me, bro Walla, but I'm telling you in my mind.

我不知道你們想從我這裡得到什麼，瓦拉兄弟，但我在心裡告訴你。

I'm not mentally.

我沒有精神。

Okay.

好的

I am NOT meant to I have never been this I have never I have never felt this way before my entire life one game away from rank one Twice and getting stream sniped and Q sniped twice Twice bro, and then getting bland on your platform and then I got banned on my platform, bro I got bland on my platform.

我不是故意的，我從來沒有過這種感覺，我從來沒有過這種感覺，在我的整個人生中，我只差一場比賽就能升到一級，兩次被狙擊手流狙殺，兩次被 Q 狙擊手狙殺，兩次被兄弟狙殺，然後在你的平臺上變得平淡無奇，然後我在我的平臺上被禁言，兄弟，我在我的平臺上變得平淡無奇。

I haven't seen my family.

我還沒見過我的家人。

I haven't seen anyone in 14 days, bro I haven't seen my family in 14 days, bro 14 days.

我已經 14 天沒見到任何人了，兄弟 我已經 14 天沒見到我的家人了，兄弟 14 天了

I barely see them.

我幾乎看不到他們。

You guys see me shower on stream.

你們看我在直播時洗澡。

You guys see me go to the gym on stream I haven't had a self thought for the last 14 days forever, bro, I Do it anymore, bro.

你們看我去健身房的時候，我已經14天沒有自我思考了，兄弟，我已經做到了，兄弟。

I can't do it at this point.

我現在做不到。

It's like I'm trying to hang on by a thread bomb Hang on by a thread on the hanging on by a thread bro.

這就像我試圖用一根線來支撐炸彈 用一根線來支撐 "用一根線來支撐兄弟"。

I'm dead ass hanging on by a thread I'm hanging on by a fucking thread bow.

我死死地拽著一根線，我死死地拽著一根線，我死死地拽著一根線，我死死地拽著一根線，我死死地拽著一根線。

I'm hanging on by a key thread by a key thread bow I'm hanging on by a thread.

我被一根關鍵的線牽著，我被一根關鍵的線牽著，我被一根關鍵的線牽著。

I Can't do it.

我做不到

I can't do it.

我做不到

I can't do it.

我做不到

Not now.

現在不行

I just can't do it now I can't do it now.

我現在做不到，我現在做不到。

I just that ask it you could call me I'm not the chosen one you call me a failure You can say that all everything I did in six months didn't count you can say whatever the fuck you want, bro I actually don't give a fuck.

你可以說我不是被選中的人，你可以說我是個失敗者，你可以說我在六個月裡做的一切都不算數，你他媽想怎麼說都行，兄弟，其實我他媽不在乎。

I know it's a mental state.

我知道這是一種心理狀態。

I'm in right now, and it's not good I had a hundred thousand subscribers, and I'm not even happy about it.

我現在就在其中，但情況並不好，我有十萬個訂閱者，但我並不為此感到高興。

I had 14,000 live streamers are live viewers on twitch in six fucking months and six months I don't even feel good about it Bro, I dead ass haven't seen my parents.

我有 14000 個直播流媒體都在 twitch 上直播觀眾在他媽的六個月和六個月我什至不覺得好吧兄弟，我死屁股還沒有看到我的父母。

I haven't showered I haven't had a self-thought in the last 14 fucking days, bro I actually just cannot do it bro and to begin with the entire reason why I started stream was to entertain my viewers Why am I on a 25 second delay chewing ranked?

我還沒有洗澡，我還沒有一個自我思考在過去14天他媽的，兄弟，我其實只是不能做到這一點，兄弟，並開始的全部原因，我開始流是為了娛樂我的觀眾，為什麼我在25秒的延遲咀嚼排名？

Why am I on a 25 second delay chewing ranked for rank one?

我為什麼要在 25 秒的延遲時間內咀嚼排名第一？

I don't give a fuck about ranked if I give a fuck about ranked I would have went pro I don't want to go pro.

我才不在乎排名，如果我在乎排名，我早就成為職業選手了，我不想成為職業選手。

I turned down every pro contract that I've ever got I don't want to go pro.

我拒絕了所有的職業合同，我不想成為職業球員。

I don't want to go pro, but I'm trying to do rank one for some stupid ass The reason I was one game off twice, and I'm getting Q snipers stream snipers and crypto throwers and all my game It's like the entire world is against me right now from doing this shit, and you know what bro all I can say is It was a good.

我不想成為職業選手，但我想為一些愚蠢的屁股做排名一的原因，我是一個遊戲了兩次，我得到Q狙擊手流狙擊手和加密投擲器和我所有的遊戲，這就像整個世界都反對我現在做這個狗屎，你知道嗎兄弟，我只能說這是一個很好的。

It was a good run bro 14 days.

這 14 天裡，我過得很充實。

I hope to God I entertained a lot of you, bro I'm sorry that I didn't get rank one, but the chosen one is dead-ass dying in the inside of his fucking brain I can't do it, bro.

我希望上帝讓我娛樂了你們中的很多人，兄弟 很抱歉我沒有得到第一名，但那個被選中的人已經死在他的大腦裡了 我做不到，兄弟

I can't do I have every Valorant pussy on my dick right now Muda's toxic, but I would slap the shit out of all of them in Minecraft, but I dead-ass right now I cannot do the Muda-thon 24-7 you could call me a failure you call me a giver-upper You know what bro I gave it my best and I will say I gave it my best cuz I got ranked to one game off break one Twice and lost it twice.

I can't do I have every Valorant pussy on my dick right now Muda's toxic, but I would slap the shit out of all of them in Minecraft, but I dead-ass right now I cannot do the Muda-thon 24-7 you could call me a failure you call me a giver-upper You know wha

I have crypto throwers stream snipers and Q snipers and 99.9% of my games I got banned on my platform.

我有加密投擲器流狙擊手和 Q 狙擊手，99.9% 的遊戲都在我的平臺上被禁。

Oh, there's a thousand things going on right now And I just cannot do it will I be back one day for rank one?

哦，現在有千頭萬緒的事情要做，我實在做不下去了 有一天我會回來參加排名嗎？

Absolutely well I get rank one that day Absolutely, but right now for the first time in my life I can confidently say that I gave it my best.

絕對好，那天我獲得了第一名 絕對好，但現在我有生以來第一次可以自信地說，我已經盡了全力。

I gave streaming my best.

我盡了最大努力。

I tried my best That's why I have a hundred thousand subscribers in six months.

我已經盡力了，這就是為什麼我在六個月內擁有十萬用戶的原因。

That's why I have I picked up 14,000 viewers on Twitch I tried my best.

這就是為什麼我在 Twitch 上有 14000 名觀眾，我已經盡力了。

I tried my best.

我已經盡力了。

I tried my best and sometimes best isn't good enough Do I keep going at it and lose my love for streaming also probably not it's not worth it cuz my streaming was my Main goal my number one goal was to just become a streamer was to become a streamer I remember I used to be out four years old Recording on my iPhone camera playing Xbox 360 zombies on black ops 1 bro.

我已經盡力了，但有時盡力還不夠，如果我繼續這樣做，就會失去對流媒體的熱愛，也可能不會，這不值得，因為我的流媒體是我的主要目標，我的首要目標是成為一名流媒體，成為一名流媒體，我記得我曾經在我的 iPhone 相機上錄製了四歲玩 Xbox 360 黑色行動 1 兄弟殭屍。

I wanted to be a youtuber slash streamer I never wanted to be a pro player all I wanted to do was to make you guys laugh and at this point Bro, it's getting to me mentally.

我只想逗你們笑，但現在，兄弟，我的精神已經崩潰了。

I actually cannot do it, bro I actually cannot fucking do it, bro And it kills my ego and it kills me mentally that I had that I didn't get to put your current complex here aside But I don't know there is a Latin saying per aspera ad astra translated as through thorns to the stars You feel that way because you are constantly live everything will return to normal the fans.

我真的做不到，兄弟，我真的他媽的做不到，兄弟，它殺死了我的自我，它殺死了我的精神，我有，我沒有得到把你目前在這裡的情結放在一邊，但我不知道有一個拉丁語說：per aspera ad astra翻譯為通過荊棘的星星，你覺得這種方式，因為你是不斷的生活，一切都將恢復正常的球迷。

Love you TCO And honestly, I don't want to cry on stream to be honest, but I'm gonna be honest, bro Walla on my life I can confidently say I tried my best bro You know what?

愛你的 TCO 說實話，我不想在流媒體上哭泣，但我要實話實說，兄弟 Walla 對我的生活，我可以自信地說，我盡力了，兄弟，你知道嗎？

Maybe I am a pussy for giving up, bro Maybe I am a pussy for giving up, but I think I think anyone in my shoes right now I think I don't want to say that but I just I'm going through a lot bro.

也許我是個放棄的娘娘腔，兄弟 也許我是個放棄的娘娘腔，但我想，我想任何人在我的鞋子現在，我想我不想說，但我只是我經歷了很多兄弟。

I got banned on my platform I'm not even it was never even about the money bro.

我在我的平臺上被禁言了，我甚至都不知道，這根本不是錢的問題，兄弟。

I'm streaming on YouTube trying to do my dream on YouTube With zero ad revenue and just zero everything.

我在 YouTube 上做流媒體，試圖在 YouTube 上實現我的夢想，但廣告收入為零，一切都為零。

I don't give a fuck about the money on my life.

我才不在乎我生命中的那點錢。

I don't give up both the money But I got banned on my platform There's just so much fucking shit happening at the same time and my dream wasn't to get rank one My dream was to just become a streamer and I became the streamer and I tried to get rank one, bro And there's just maybe too much shit right now when I come back for rank one.

我沒有放棄錢，但我在我的平臺上被禁言了，同時發生了太多該死的事，我的夢想不是獲得第一名，我的夢想只是成為一名流媒體人，我成為了流媒體人，我想獲得第一名，兄弟，但現在當我回來獲得第一名時，可能有太多的事了。

I will come back for rank one I'll come back for rank one at a better time.

我會在更好的時候再回來參加一級比賽。

I don't know when I'll get rank one I don't know if it'll be in a month from now.

我不知道我什麼時候能拿到軍銜，我不知道是否會在一個月後。

I don't know if it'll be a Week from now.

我不知道從現在起是否還有一週的時間。

I don't know if there'll be a couple days from now I don't know when I'll try to get rank one again, but I will get rank one.

我不知道從現在起幾天後，我不知道什麼時候才能再試著拿到一級，但我一定會拿到一級的。

I put it on my life I put it on my soul, but I will get rank one one day, bro Not even for me not even for you guys But just for old muda that just said in that fucking video that he wanted to rank one But right now getting banned on my platform Switching platforms to try to continue it bro and trying to inspire and trying to do as much as I possibly can bro I dead ass just can't do it anymore, bro.

我把它放在我的生命裡，我把它放在我的靈魂裡，但總有一天我會得到排名的，兄弟，甚至不是為了我，甚至不是為了你們，只是為了老穆達，他剛剛在那個該死的視頻裡說他想得第一名，但現在在我的平臺上被禁了，我在轉換平臺，試圖繼續下去，兄弟，試圖激勵自己，試圖盡我所能，兄弟，我真的做不到了，兄弟。

I can't do it, bro I don't know if the chosen one has fallen bro wallah.

我做不到，兄弟，我不知道天命之子是否已經隕落，兄弟瓦拉。

I'm just telling you guys.

我只是想告訴你們

I'm trying my best, bro Every single time you guys open up my stream, bro It's always me and it's always just me trying to make you guys laugh and for the first time in my life, bro I can't even make you guys laugh because I'm not me.

我在盡力而為，兄弟 每次你們打開我的信息流，兄弟 總是我，總是我在試圖逗你們笑，而這是我有生以來第一次，兄弟 我甚至不能逗你們笑，因為我不是我自己。

I am doing something that I Don't even want to do bro you you Bro, I don't want to say goodbye bro.

我在做一件我根本不想做的事，兄弟，我不想說再見，兄弟。

I don't want to say goodbye, bro I'm not gonna Lie broke The reason why I even started streaming was for you guys to have someone always want know you're working really hard right now So please take care of yourself and your family before you worry about us.

我不想說再見，兄弟，我不會破產的 我之所以開始做流媒體，就是為了你們能有一個永遠想知道的人 你們現在工作很辛苦，所以在擔心我們之前，請照顧好自己和家人

Oh boy.

哦，天哪

You guys are family, bro Be the entertainer, you know, you can be but only if you're healthy I don't want to say goodbye bro, but i'm not gonna lie if I have to bro I'm not gonna lie.

你們是一家人，兄弟，做個藝人吧，你知道，你可以的，但前提是你要健康 我不想說再見，兄弟，但我不會撒謊，如果我不得不這麼做，兄弟，我不會撒謊的。

I tried my best bro I tried my best bro.

我盡力了，兄弟 我盡力了，兄弟

I swear on my life.

我用生命發誓

I tried my best.

我已經盡力了。

I swear to god.

我發誓

I tried my best I tried my best bro.

我盡力了，我盡力了，兄弟。

I miss the happy mood Back on me.

我懷念回到我身上的快樂心情。

Take your time.

慢慢來

I fuck with you.

我他媽的跟你。

That's why I spend my money on you.

這就是我把錢花在你身上的原因。

Enjoy your break I love you guys, bro And i'm sorry.

祝你們休息愉快 我愛你們，兄弟 我很抱歉

It's goodbye for now, bro I will try my best to get rank one when the time comes bro And I don't want to say goodbye, bro, but i'm not gonna lie, bro I might have to bro I might have to bro.

我不想說再見，但我不會撒謊 我可能不得不說再見，我可能不得不說再見

I'm not gonna lie.

我不想撒謊。

I might have felt this kind of burnout in life at some point Me I lost everything I loved at some point.

我可能在生活中的某個時刻感受到過這種倦怠，我曾在某個時刻失去了我所愛的一切。

I've lost my lover I've been implicated in a lot of things that could have simply ended my life Now i'm just glad to be here.

我失去了我的夫妻，我被捲入了很多事情，這些事情本可以結束我的生命，現在我很高興能來到這裡。

So should you love you?

那麼，你應該愛你嗎？

I'm not gonna lie.

我不想撒謊。

I love you guys, bro You guys are my family, bro wallah, you guys are my family, bro, and the only reason why I tried streaming or wanted to stream to begin with was because my dream was always to entertain people and Inspire people around the world bro, and i'm not gonna lie.

我愛你們，兄弟 你們是我的家人，兄弟 瓦拉，你們是我的家人，兄弟 我嘗試流媒體或想要流媒體的唯一原因是，我的夢想一直是娛樂全世界的人，激勵全世界的人，兄弟，我不會撒謊。

I think I I think I did a pretty good job at that and i'm, sorry, I have to say goodbye, bro, but This shit was hard bro and these past couple days were very very hard bro, and i'm not gonna lie I haven't seen family.

我覺得我做得很好，對不起，我得說再見了，兄弟，但這很難兄弟，過去的幾天非常非常難兄弟，我不會撒謊，我還沒有看到家人。

I haven't talked to family I was two games off rank one so many times and I got and I didn't get it bro And everything and I hit a hundred thousand subscribers on youtube And I had peaked at fourteen thousand viewers all in six months and honestly chat i've been working so fucking hard But I don't even fucking feel like i've been doing good recently.

我沒跟家裡人說過話，差兩場比賽就排名第一了，好多次都是這樣，我得到了，又沒得到，兄弟，還有所有的一切，我在youtube上的訂閱量達到了十萬，六個月內的觀看人數達到了一萬四千人的頂峰，老實說，我一直在努力工作，但我甚至不覺得我最近做得很好。

I mean, I know i'm doing good But not getting ranked one is just killing my ego and it's killing me bro But if there's one thing to know about me chat is that I always come back and I always come back stronger And i'll never fucking stop until the day I die, bro I'm, sorry for all the people that I didn't get rank one with i'm, sorry, bro And i'm, sorry for all the people that were rooting for me and telling me not to give up I know i'm the chosen one bro, and I know that the chosen one isn't supposed to give up But i'll be leaving this battle bro for Just a different day bro.

我的意思是，我知道我做得很好 但沒有拿到第一名讓我很自卑，也讓我很痛苦，兄弟 但如果有一件事是關於我哈拉的 那就是，我總是會回來的，而且總是會更強大 直到我死的那一天，我都不會停止，兄弟我很抱歉，所有的人，我沒有得到排名第一 我很抱歉，兄弟，我很抱歉，所有的人 誰是支持我的，告訴我不要放棄 我知道我是天命之子，兄弟，我知道 天命之子是不應該放棄 但我會離開這場戰鬥，兄弟 只是不同的一天，兄弟。

I promise you the war will be won in the end, bro I will get rank one.

我向你保證，戰爭最終會勝利的，兄弟我一定會拿到一級軍銜的。

I promise to god I get rank one.

我向上帝保證，我一定會得到一個排名。

This is not a goodbye This is a see you later be proud of what you did and recollect yourself We will be eagerly waiting for the return of the tco You are inspiring you are loved be safe.

這不是道別，這是再見，請為自己的所作所為感到驕傲，並好好檢討自己。我們將熱切地等待 Tco 的歸來，你們鼓舞人心，你們受到愛戴，請注意安全。

We will be here the moment you return I love you guys, bro.

你們一回來，我們就會在這裡 我愛你，兄弟們

I love you guys.

我愛你們

I love you guys so much, bro I love you guys so much, bro.

我太愛你們了，兄弟 我太愛你們了，兄弟

We all love you mooda.

我們都愛你，mooda。

Have a good one I Love you chat and I and everything is telling me not to press the end button Everything is telling me not to press the end button.

祝您玩得開心，我愛你哈拉，我和一切都告訴我不要按結束鍵，一切都告訴我不要按結束鍵。

Everything is just telling me to just keep on going everything is just telling me to keep on going bro, but I think sometimes I just need to chill out bro.

一切都在告訴我繼續前進，一切都在告訴我繼續前進，但我覺得有時候我需要冷靜一下。

I've been working too hard recently, bro and honestly not getting rank one is killing me, bro, and I'm not gonna lie, bro.

我最近工作太忙了，兄弟，老實說，拿不到第一名讓我很難受，兄弟，我不想撒謊，兄弟。

This shit is hurting a lot more than I thought it would so i'm not gonna lie chat You know buddha will always bounce back buddha always bounces back And I love all of you guys I will see you guys when I see you bro I will see you guys when I see you I promise to god and I promise on my life and I promise on my life and I promise on my soul And I promise to god that I will be back for that fucking rank one and I will get fucking rank one No matter how much it doesn't fucking mean to me.

我向上帝保證，我向我的生命保證，我向我的靈魂保證，我向上帝保證，我會回來拿那該死的第一名，我會拿到那該死的第一名，不管它對我意味著什麼。

I know it means a lot to you guys I know it means a lot to the young buddha the baby mood and I just wanted rank one for some fucking reason I will be back and I will fucking die trying I will fucking die trying before I fucking give up on that shit.

我知道這對你們意味著很多，我知道這對小菩薩意味著很多，我只是想排名第一，因為一些該死的原因，我會回來的，我會他媽的死努力，我會他媽的死努力之前，我他媽的放棄了狗屎。

I will get fucking rank one I love all of you.

我愛你們所有人。

I don't know what my next stream will be bro, but just know when i'm back I'm back for that fucking rank one Peace the fuck out

我不知道我的下一個節目是什麼，但只要知道當我回來的時候，我回來了，他媽的一級和平他媽的了