And also I'd like to talk about some of the ways that I think these schools can maybe fix it.

此外，我還想談談我認為這些學校可以解決這個問題的一些方法。

First, what qualifies as an art school? In this video I'm talking about specifically private four-year colleges of art and design, and some of the ones that have recently closed.

首先，什麼是藝術學校？在這段視頻中，我將專門討論私立四年制藝術與設計學院，以及最近關閉的一些學院。

Those are the Pennsylvania Academy of Fine Arts, the Delaware College of Art and Design, the University of Arts in Philadelphia, the American Academy of Art in Chicago that actually just announced its closure last week, and the San Francisco Art Institute right here in the Bay Area.

這些學校包括賓夕法尼亞美術學院、特拉華藝術與設計學院、費城藝術大學、上週剛剛宣佈關閉的芝加哥美國藝術學院，以及位於灣區的舊金山藝術學院。

All of these closures have been quite shocking, especially to the faculty and students who oftentimes never saw it coming. And that's bad. Getting caught off guard by the fact that your school that you're teaching and working at is closing is very, very bad. I don't want to see layoffs like this happen to anyone, and I think especially these students probably feel so uncertain that they've gotten themselves in a bunch of debt already and their school closes. I don't wish this kind of thing upon anyone, which is why I think it's important to talk about. I have tons of respect for folks that teach in higher ed, especially in these schools. However, I think there are definitely some issues with the way they are run and some things around administration that I'm going to talk about in this video. So let's go ahead and wade into the depths of why these art schools keep closing. One of the main reasons these schools keep closing is cost. Quite frankly, they have gotten way too expensive. Tuition is truly blooming. When I went to the Kansas City

所有這些關閉事件都令人震驚，尤其是對於那些往往從未預見到這一切的教師和學生來說。這很糟糕。如果你正在任教和工作的學校要關閉了，你會措手不及，這是非常非常糟糕的。我不希望看到裁員這樣的事情發生在任何人身上，我想尤其是這些學生，他們可能會感到非常不確定，以至於他們已經欠了一屁股債，而他們的學校卻關閉了。我不希望這樣的事情發生在任何人身上，這就是為什麼我認為有必要談談這件事。我非常尊重在高校任教的人，尤其是在這些學校任教的人。但是，我認為他們的管理方式和行政管理方面肯定存在一些問題，我將在本視頻中談談這些問題。

Art Institute, I started in 2009, and back then tuition was $28,000 a year. I managed to receive a half-tuition scholarship and some other financial aid packages, and so I paid a little bit less than $14,000 a year, meaning that I walked away with a Bachelor of Fine Arts in Painting for less than $56,000. Pretty good. In order to help keep my cost of living low, I worked the entire time that I was in school, much to the dismay of my professors. I would spend loads and loads of time on my summers and weekends working a retail job, so that way I could pay my rent, afford food, and afford the really expensive supplies that you're required to buy in art school.

我於 2009 年進入藝術學院學習，當時的學費是每年 2.8 萬美元。我獲得了學費減半的獎學金和一些其他的經濟援助，所以我每年只花了不到 1.4 萬美元，也就是說，我只花了不到 5.6 萬美元就拿到了繪畫專業的藝術學士學位。相當不錯。為了降低生活成本，我在校期間一直在工作，這讓我的教授們大失所望。我會在暑假和週末花大量時間做零售工作，這樣我就能付得起房租、吃得起飯、買得起藝術學校要求購買的昂貴用品。

But this ended up having a negative impact on my grades. I actually had one particular professor in my foundation's year that I went to his office hours because I got to be in his class.

但這最終對我的成績產生了負面影響。實際上，在我打基礎的那一年，有一位特別的教授，我去了他的辦公時間，因為我可以上他的課。

I thought that the work that I did was exceptional, and I just wanted to know his feedback. What did

我認為我的工作非常出色，我只想知道他的反饋意見。他的反饋

I do wrong? And he told me, point blank, that having a job was keeping me out of the studio.

我做錯了嗎？他直截了當地告訴我，因為有工作，我不能去工作室。

And to me, that made no sense. Looking back now to my little 18-year-old self, I was starting to see the classism that exists in the art world play out right in front of me in this professor, who had a job in order to support his practice. But working through college is a normal thing.

對我來說，這毫無意義。現在回想 18 歲時的自己，我開始看到藝術界存在的階級歧視就在我面前的這位教授身上上演，他有一份工作來支持他的實踐。但在大學裡打工是一件很正常的事。

Most students work through college. It's a really great way to avoid taking out private, high-interest student loans. Those private loans can be really scary because oftentimes they also come with variable interest rates. And to me, the companies that run those private student loans are very fraudulent, and they're taking advantage of children. But I want to go back to my school, right? I went there in 2009. That's 15 years ago. But inflation is truly mad because that same school

大多數學生在大學期間都會打工。這是避免申請私人高息學生貸款的好方法。這些私人貸款真的很嚇人，因為很多時候它們還帶有浮動利率。在我看來，經營這些私人學生貸款的公司非常具有欺騙性，他們在利用孩子們。但我想回到我的學校，對嗎？我是2009年去的那是 15 年前的事了。但通貨膨脹真的很瘋狂，因為那所學校

I went to is now $43,000 a year. I put that into a calculator, and that is a 53.6% increase in cost.

我現在的年薪是 43,000 美元。我用計算器算了一下，費用增加了 53.6%。

Now, that's honestly a little bit higher than current inflation, and that number is truly crazy.

老實說，這比目前的通貨膨脹率還要高一點，這個數字確實太瘋狂了。

That means that you're essentially looking at $172,000 for a four-year degree in art and design.

也就是說，四年制藝術與設計專業的學費為 17.2 萬美元。

And unfortunately, that school's kind of cheap compared to some of the other big players in the game. Let's take, for example, RISD, the Rhode Island School of Design. That school right now is currently $61,564 a year. But they actually estimate the total amount that it costs per year to attend is $85,986 a year, meaning that it's a general cost between $246,000 and $343,944 to go get a BFA. What? Like, I just, that is criminal. That should not be the case. Like, you should not pay that much for a degree. Okay. I looked into a little bit more data, and I looked into what was my dream school. I really, really badly wanted to go to CalArts.

不幸的是，與其他一些大學校相比，這所學校的學費有點低。就拿羅德島設計學院（RISD）來說吧。該校目前的學費為每年61,564美元。但實際上，他們估計每年的學費總額為85,986美元，也就是說，要想獲得藝術學士學位，一般需要花費246,000美元到343,944美元。什麼？這簡直就是犯罪。不應該是這樣的。你不應該為一個學位花那麼多錢好吧，我又查閱了一些資料，瞭解了我的夢想學校。我非常非常想去加州藝術學院

And back in 2009, it was $42,000 a year, and I said, I can't afford that. That's gonna be a mortgage payment when I get out of school. Like, I just, I can't see myself living and going to that college. It is now $77,300 a year to go there. That means that for four years, it's $309,000 for a four-year degree. These are not doctors we are talking about. These are people studying painting. And honestly, these estimates are even higher because tuition increases between 2% and 5% every year. And truly, if I'm being honest, the math is not mathing here.

2009 年的時候，一年的學費是 42,000 美元，我說我付不起。我說，我付不起，等我畢業了，那得還房貸。我無法想象自己在那所大學裡生活和學習。現在上大學一年的學費是 77300 美元。也就是說，四年的學費是 30.9 萬美元。我們說的可不是醫生。他們是學習繪畫的人。老實說，這些估價甚至更高，因為學費每年增長 2% 到 5%。說真的，如果我是誠實的，這裡的數學是不計算的。

I don't know how we can justify selling this to students. If you're working in admissions in these schools, how are you justifying this? Like, what is the cost-benefit analysis here? Because that math is not logical. To really illustrate this point, I need to talk about the financial consequences. So what I did is I took them and I put each of these assumed loans of between 70 and 80 grand into a student loan payment calculator. And what I got was between $2,400 and $3,400 a month, which is more than the average two-bedroom apartment in the San Francisco Bay Area.

我不知道我們該如何向學生們解釋這一點。如果你在這些學校從事招生工作，你如何證明這一點？成本效益分析是什麼？因為這種計算方法不符合邏輯。為了真正說明這一點，我需要談談經濟後果。是以，我做的是，我把他們和我把每個這些假設的貸款7至8萬之間的學生貸款支付計算器。我得到的結果是每月 2400 到 3400 美元，這比舊金山灣區平均一套兩居室的公寓還要貴。

How can you justify paying this for college and having that kind of a payment? I think taking on this level of debt for any degree should not be the case. I truly think the American educational system is fundamentally broken if this is the way we're doing things. But I don't think these young kids who are 18, who are signing these loan papers away, who have been conditioned to believe that going to college is the way forward, are going to be okay when they get into their late 20s and their 30s and their 40s and they can't do things like buy a house, buy a car. They are just trapped by that debt. I truly would be in so much financial trouble if I had a payment like that every single month. Plus, these loans are carrying a 6.8 or higher interest rate, which means that while the government's giving you the money to go to school, they're also profiting on your debt, which is a whole nother problem. Okay, okay, let's be optimistic. Let's say you get a ton of scholarships. You get like almost a full ride to go to one of these schools. Maybe you find some like work study and you graduate with like almost no debt. Then is it a good idea to go to one of these institutions? It is important to remember what your payment is going to be after. So when you're figuring this out, putting things into a loan calculator and actually finding out what it is you're going to have to make to make that payment at the end is the smartest thing to do before you sign on the dotted line. I do think these are good schools. I met some of my best friends at art school, I felt really lucky that I was able to spend all of this time honing and focusing my craft and be able to really use that. Because that's opened up a lot of doors for me, especially as a teacher. Now, I got a good education from mostly compassionate people who had most of my best interests at heart. But I did not learn the skills of entrepreneurship.

你怎麼能證明支付這樣的大學學費和這樣的付款方式是合理的呢？我認為任何學位都不應該揹負如此沉重的債務。我真的認為，如果我們的教育體制是這樣的，那麼美國的教育體制就從根本上壞掉了。但是，我不認為這些 18 歲的年輕孩子在簽署這些貸款文件後，就會相信上大學是未來的出路，當他們到了 20 多歲、30 多歲和 40 多歲時，就會沒事了，因為他們不能做買房子、買車之類的事情。他們只是被債務所困。如果我每個月都要償還這樣的債務，我真的會陷入很大的財務困境。另外，這些貸款的利率高達 6.8 或更高，這意味著政府在給你錢去

Like at all. I did not learn how to run a business. I did not learn how to be a freelancer.

根本不喜歡。我沒有學過如何做生意。我沒有學會如何成為一名自由職業者。

I did not learn the skills that I now need in order to pay my bills. And I think the fact that

我沒有學到現在需要的技能來支付賬單。我認為

I had to learn most of that on my own, or in order to learn that on my own, I actually had to intentionally unlearn some of the ways that I was taught in order to get to where I am now is a problem. So let's go into that. So these four-year private art colleges, the School of the Art Institute of Chicago, RISD, CalArts, all of these schools take two paths, essentially, with their students. You can either focus on applied arts, like graphic design, illustration, I would even say filmmaking is kind of an applied art. And my friends who studied in these majors were perfectly set up for roles that were creative in their fields, which is amazing.

我不得不自學大部分知識，或者說，為了自學這些知識，我實際上不得不有意識地放棄一些教給我的方法，以達到我現在的境界，這是一個問題。讓我們來談談這個問題。這些四年制私立藝術學院、芝加哥藝術學院、RISD、加州藝術學院，所有這些學校的學生基本上都有兩條路可走。你可以專注於應用藝術，比如平面設計、插畫，我甚至認為電影製作也是一種應用藝術。我那些學習這些專業的朋友們，完全可以在自己的領域裡發揮創造力，這太不可思議了。

They graduated, a lot of them got well paying jobs, and some of them were even offered roles at different illustration firms. And that was huge. That was really cool to see. It was awesome seeing people get the same degree as me and not struggle as much as I did. However, I did learn, as of this morning on threads, that not all schools that teach these particular majors prepare people for careers in the field. So ask real hard questions of current students when you are thinking about going to these educational programs. If you take a second path, though, the path that I did towards a fine art major, something like painting, sculpture, ceramics, photography, the schools are often operating from outdated models that are based on the rules of the art world. I personally felt trapped by unhealthy thought patterns and art world propaganda that made me make decisions that were not in my best interest. You're essentially pitted between working on your craft and making work that performs and speaks to the expectations and rules of the art world. And the art world is mostly a bad place. There are some exceptions.

他們畢業後，很多人都找到了高薪工作，有些人甚至獲得了不同插畫公司的職位。這非常了不起。這真的很酷。看到別人和我獲得同樣的學位，卻沒有像我一樣掙扎，這真是太棒了。不過，從今天早上的線程上，我確實瞭解到，並不是所有教授這些特殊專業的學校都能培養出在該領域工作的人才。是以，當你考慮進入這些教育項目時，要向在校學生提出真正的難題。不過，如果你選擇第二條路，也就是我選擇的美術專業，比如繪畫、雕塑、陶藝、攝影，那麼這些學校往往是按照藝術界的陳舊模式來運作的。我個人覺得自己被不健康的思維模式和藝術界的宣傳所困，這讓我做

There are some good arts nonprofits. I can think of two big ones in Kansas City, the Kansas City

有一些不錯的非營利藝術機構。我能想到的有堪薩斯城的兩家大機構，堪薩斯城藝術協會和堪薩斯城文化協會。

Artists Coalition and Charlotte Street. There are artist-run galleries, if those still exist, the ones that survived the pandemic. In Kansas City, I think of Kiosk Gallery as a great example.

藝術家聯盟和夏洛特街。還有藝術家經營的畫廊，如果這些畫廊還存在的話，那些在大流行病中倖存下來的畫廊。在堪薩斯城，我認為 Kiosk Gallery 就是一個很好的例子。

There are also some small, mid-tier gallery spaces that have real client lists that want to help you sell your work. But those are rare. They're kind of like unicorns. And the problem is these are often situations that are not run by artists for artists. A lot of times, arts organizations like museums are run by boards. And those boards are made up of people who are often big art collectors. But the board is the one who gets to say what happens and what doesn't.

還有一些小型的中級畫廊，他們有真正的客戶名單，希望幫助你銷售作品。但這種情況很少見。它們有點像獨角獸。問題是，這些地方往往不是由藝術家為藝術家經營的。很多時候，像博物館這樣的藝術機構都是由董事會管理的。董事會成員通常都是藝術品大收藏家。但董事會說了算。

And these board members can have really scary views sometimes. Before I go further, I want to show you how I've been deeply entrenched in this. I'm going to show you my artist resume.

而這些董事會成員的觀點有時真的很可怕。在我繼續說下去之前，我想讓你們看看我是如何深陷其中的。我要向你們展示我的藝術家履歷。

Now, when I was going to school, I was somewhat of a star pupil. I took every piece of advice that my professors gave me to the letter. I was a straight-A student. I was a rule follower.

上學時，我是個明星學生。我嚴格遵守教授們給我的每一條建議。我是個成績優秀的學生我是個循規蹈矩的人

I even started teaching in my school's community extension the month I graduated. I wanted so badly to be a professor of fine art. I wanted to be a professional artist. That was my dream. Those were my goals. But I got duped. So here is my resume. I'm going to put it on the screen here and scroll through it. So the first thing that you see here, these are projects that I did for free or that I paid to do. These next things, teaching, this is where I've made most of my money as an artist. And still, it's the thing that pays most of my bills. Then next up, we've got awards, grants, and residencies. I was really, really lucky in these spaces. And I felt great. The drugstore was amazing. Charlotte Street was incredible with their Rocket Grants program, which is actually funded by the Andy Warhol Foundation. I got lots of really cool opportunities like with the Oklahoma Visual Artists Coalition to do a little fellowship on art writing and curatorial studies. And those things kept me from going to graduate school. It ended up saving me tons of money. And while these were small, they were really special. But then let's talk about exhibitions. So these are all things that I had to pay to do. Every single exhibition that you do as an artist is going to usually have a fee that you pay to apply to be in the exhibition. You have to frame your work, and that cost me hundreds of dollars each time. Eventually, I learned that

畢業的那個月，我甚至開始在學校的社區推廣中心教書。我非常想成為一名美術教授。我想成為一名職業藝術家。這是我的夢想。這些都是我的目標。但我被騙了這是我的履歷我把它放到螢幕上 然後滾動瀏覽你看到的第一件事，是我免費或花錢做的項目。接下來是教學，這是我作為藝術家賺到最多錢的地方。現在，這仍然是我支付大部分賬單的地方。接下來是獲獎、資助和實習。在這些地方，我真的非常非常幸運。我感覺很棒藥店太棒了夏洛特街的 "火箭補助金 "項目也非常棒，該項目實際上是由安迪-沃霍爾基金會資助的。我還得到了很多非常棒的機會，比如在俄

Ikea frames are a really, really great way to go if you want to look professional, but you can't afford it. And I don't think that there's enough conversation about how much artists spend to be a part of exhibitions. But then next up, here are some times that I was written up in the press.

如果你想讓自己的作品看起來更專業，但又負擔不起，宜家畫框真的是個不錯的選擇。我認為，關於藝術家為參加展覽花費多少的話題還不夠多。接下來是我在媒體上的一些報道。

I didn't necessarily get paid for this, but I got some prestige points. I also was paid to be a lecturer at different schools or give critiques to students, both at my alma mater and at other schools in the region. Some of those payments were 50 bucks or 75 to come in and give a talk.

我不一定是以得到報酬，但我得到了一些聲望分。我還在母校和本地區其他學校擔任講師，或給學生做評論。有些報酬是 50 美元或 75 美元，讓我去做講座。

Here are some shows I curated. And when I say curating shows, I was mostly volunteering. This was unpaid work or work that I paid to do. Here next are articles that I published. I ran an arts and culture blog called Informality from 2013 to 2020 in Kansas City. And it was my baby. And I just wanted to give back to my community and write about everybody's art. But I really wasn't paying myself for that. Occasionally, we got grants, but I always prioritized giving that money to other writers and paying other people first, not necessarily valuing myself like I should have.

以下是我策劃的一些展覽。我說的策劃展覽，主要是指志願工作。這些都是沒有報酬的工作，或者是我花錢做的工作。接下來是我發表的文章。從 2013 年到 2020 年，我在堪薩斯城營運著一個名為 Informality 的藝術文化博客。這是我的寶貝。我只是想回饋我的社區，寫寫大家的藝術。但我真的沒有為此付給自己報酬。偶爾，我們也會得到資助，但我總是優先把錢給其他作家，先付錢給別人，而不一定像我應該做的那樣重視自己。

This CV that I shared with you was used by my school as an example for their current students.

我與你們分享的這份履歷被我所在的學校用作學生的範例。

But to be honest, it was really hard when I would have students come up to me and be like, oh, my teacher used your resume as an example. How do you do what you do? And I'd be like,

但老實說，當有學生跑來跟我說："哦，我的老師用你的履歷做例子，這真的很難。你是怎麼做到的？我會說

I sell shoes at Nordstrom. That's how I do what I do. I have a day job. And that day job is what allows me and enables me to do all of these other things. And some of those projects that I had done,

我在 Nordstrom 賣鞋。這就是我的工作。我有一份日常工作。白天的工作讓我能夠做其他的事情。我做過的一些項目

I got myself into more debt in order to do. I was convinced that the only way that I could be successful or get to my goal of being a professor was to continue to collect these prestige points on my CV. And it wasn't serving me. It just wasn't. However, when I was at Nordstrom,

為此，我欠下了更多的債。我深信，要想成功或實現當教授的目標，唯一的辦法就是繼續在履歷上收集這些聲望分。但這對我沒有任何幫助。就是不行。然而，當我在諾德斯特龍（Nordstrom、

I got to learn some really cool things. I got to learn how to sell stuff, which is hard. I got to learn how to build a business because everybody there works on commission. So I had to actually think about building customer relationships and what that was going to look like for me.

我學到了很多很酷的東西。我學會了如何賣東西，這很難。我還要學習如何建立業務，因為那裡的每個人都靠佣金工作。是以，我不得不真正思考如何建立客戶關係，以及這對我來說會是什麼樣子。

And it was a great lesson in running a business, even though there were mentors that I had that didn't think that job was very prestigious. But who cares? What I think is cruel about teaching students that this is the way forward is that it relies on luck and prestige as methods of accessing your ability to make a living. And that is not all right. You know, I couldn't afford to move to

雖然我的導師們認為這份工作沒什麼名氣，但這也是經營企業的重要一課。但誰在乎呢？我認為，教導學生這是未來的出路，其殘酷之處在於，它依賴運氣和聲望作為獲取謀生能力的方法。這是不對的。你知道，我沒錢搬到

New York, like some of my classmates, and just go like hobnob and make friends with and network with gallery owners and people who are connected to the New York art scene or the LA art scene.

紐約，就像我的一些同學一樣，去和畫廊老闆以及與紐約藝術界或洛杉磯藝術界有聯繫的人交朋友，建立聯繫。

I don't think that there's enough discussion about how much money is behind a lot of people who find success in the art world. And those are the success stories that we are told about.

我認為，對於很多在藝術界獲得成功的人背後有多少錢的討論還不夠。而這些都是我們耳熟能詳的成功故事。

And that's not okay. This is not the way. And when I had my falling out with my mentor that I talked about in my recent video about quitting art multiple times, it was honestly a moment for me, a reckoning for me, to realize that the way I was working was not working. It was not going to ever set me free and allow me to make my work. When that happened. The other thing was I lost my community, I lost my support network that was enabling me making a lot of the choices I was making in the community. And I it was devastating. I needed though, to see that the vision of success that my school had for me was not going to be the way forward. I had to get out of the art school rat race in order to find the work that I'm making now in order to find myself again. I really had to go through it. Remember that lines on a CV only mean something to a very specific kind of person to a very specific way of working and making in the arts. And you don't need that in order to be a valid artist. You don't need to do stuff for free. You don't need to just collect all of those lines, because what's it going to get you? Maybe $1,000 off your graduate degree, or maybe that'll get you on a hiring panel for a full-time tenure track position. These are becoming more and more scarce, especially as these schools are closing. And that should not be the path that everyone is looking towards, because it is truly unsustainable. Never once when I was in art school was I taught to consider the audience of my work as a real person. That thing that they often teach in business and marketing, which is called the ideal customer profile? We did none of that. I was instead taught to write in the language of museum texts and art forum, aka international art English, which is mostly gobbledygook. It uses way too many words that are overcomplicated when simple ones would do. And I don't think there's a real way that artists are taught to connect to potential collectors, customers, or see themselves as a business. But y'all, when you're selling work, you're selling $1,000 paintings, you are essentially running a luxury business. And you are selling luxury products. But no one in the art world wants to acknowledge this at all. They just want to pretend that it's like fairyland. And like, I am not Mickey Mouse. Like, I can't live like that. It wasn't until 2020, when I watched as the MoMA laid off most of their staff, especially their education staff, that I realized, wait a minute, I don't like this organization.

這是不對的。這不是辦法。當我和我的導師鬧翻時，我在最近關於多次放棄藝術創作的視頻中談到了這一點，老實說，那一刻對我來說是一個清算，讓我意識到我的工作方式是行不通的。它無法讓我獲得自由，無法讓我創作出自己的作品。當這一切發生時另一件事是，我失去了我的社區，失去了我的支持網絡，而這個網絡讓我能夠在社區中做出很多選擇。這對我來說是毀滅性的打擊。但我需要明白，學校為我設定的成功願景並不是我前進的方向。我必須擺脫藝術學校的 "老鼠賽跑"，才能找到現在的工作，才能重新找回自我。我真的必須經歷這一切。請記住，履歷上的幾

And then just after that, it was like the following week, the San Francisco Art Institute, which I had looked at for graduate school, was closing its doors. And I was like, wait a minute, all of these institutions that I put on pedestals are crumbling. I can start to actually ask questions as to why I think that this is valuable. Why do I want to operate in this way? What is the alternative? And what might that look like? I think that because these schools are teaching this one way of working, this one way of working as an artist that starts in galleries and ends in museum shows, that isn't right. If 99% of students graduate from an art school, and they can't make it in that path, they're just going to build resentment. And every single time that I post about these things on threads, I see that seething resentment come forward. And I know you probably have it too. So let me know in the comments. I also want to bring up that this way of working only serves the wealthiest class of art collector. And I can make a whole other video sometime about how the art world is basically just a speculative economy for billionaires and other members of the ultra wealthy to dodge taxes. But let's be real, like, do you want to make deeply personal work about your identity, and then have it be collected by some C-suite executive at Halliburton, and then have it sit in a storage unit for years, only for him to wait for it to go up in value and sell it off like a stock in his portfolio? Is that what you want for your life? Because that's not what I want. I think that's gross. This way of teaching that only serves artists that can land a museum show or professorship or recognition in art forum, those artists who can maybe land amongst their mentors and get that full time tenure track job.

就在那之後，好像是下個星期，我曾想去讀研究所學生的舊金山藝術學院要關門了。我當時想，等一下，所有這些被我放在神壇上的機構都要倒塌了。我可以開始問一些問題，為什麼我認為這是有價值的？我為什麼要以這種方式運作？另一種選擇是什麼？它又是什麼樣子的？我認為，因為這些學校教授的是一種工作方式，一種以畫廊為起點、以博物館展覽為終點的藝術家工作方式，這是不對的。如果99%的學生從藝術院校畢業後都無法在這條道路上走下去，他們就會產生怨恨。每當我在主題上發表關於這些事情的帖子時，我都會看到這種怨恨湧上心頭。我知道你可能也有

It's not real. That's, that's, this is just this is this is a fiction that we are that we are operating from. And when it comes to those loans that I talked about earlier, I had professors who were like, yeah, if you want to get all that loans, all those loans forgiven, you know, all you need to do is get a job like mine where you're a full time tenure track instructor, you do that for 10 years, and then it's public student loan forgiveness, baby, you get all of that forgiven.

這不是真的。這就是，這就是，這就是我們的虛構，我們的操作。說到我之前提到的那些貸款，我的教授們都說，是的，如果你想得到所有的貸款，所有的貸款免除，你知道，你需要做的就是找一份像我這樣的工作，在那裡你是一個全職的終身教員，你做了10年，然後它就是公共學生貸款免除，寶貝，你得到了所有的免除。

But like, to me now, as a person in their early 30s, I hear that. And as a person from the Midwest, and I hear multi level marketing, I hear a promise of something for your down levels that is never going to come true. And this should not be the way we are teaching students that is uncompassionate, and truly, truly dark. If you have had an experience like this, and you're relating to the things that I'm saying, let's start a little conversation down in the comments. Because I want to make more videos about the struggles y'all are having, because we are in this together, like, we're allowed to be angry. And I want to help you overcome that anger and resentment that you have, and get you back to making and creating.