When I was in high school, I was a teenager that was up to no good.

我在高中時是一個愛做壞事的青少年。

I would skip class, have some cigarettes, drink some alcohol.

我會翹課、抽點菸、喝點酒。

It was just, one day, my friend told me, "Let's have a cigarette."

就是有一天，我朋友跟我說：「我們抽根菸吧。」

He handed me a bottle of pineapple juice and said, "This would really f*** you up."

他遞給我一瓶鳳梨汁，然後說：「這會徹底搞砸你。」

It didn't feel like anything until I went to first period.

它感覺一直沒什麼，到了我去上第一堂課時。

When I got to first period, I started seeing blurred vision and I had stomach pains.

當我去上第一節課時，我開始視線模糊、肚子痛。

Felt like somebody was grabbing a machete and stabbing me in the stomach repeatedly.

感覺好像有人拿著把彎刀，不斷捅著我的肚子。

All I remember was just turning back and looking at one of my classmates, and I was just like,

我只記得自己回頭看向一個同學，然後說：

I'm... I'm... I'm in trouble; I can't see anything.

我⋯⋯我慘了，我什麼都看不到。

I'm... I'm blind, I'm going blind.

我⋯⋯我瞎了，我要失明了。

That class ends, and I was walking with⏤like a totally blind person, my arms out.

課堂結束後，我像個盲人一樣，雙臂伸直地走著。

I... I thought it was just something that it will come and go and I blacked out.

我⋯⋯我以為那只是一陣子的感覺，結果我就昏倒了。

Turns out that pineapple just had rubbing alcohol.

結果發現鳳梨汁裡只有外用酒精。

Now, this next part might sound insane.

那接下來這個部分聽起來可能很瘋狂。

The doctors called my mom and my father to let them know that I wasn't gonna make it.

醫生打了電話給我爸媽，跟他們說我活不下去了。

I died.

我死了。

All I remember was waking up in a place that was so peaceful, where everything was so beautiful.

我只記得在一個非常祥和的地方醒來，那裡一切都很美。

I saw people that I'd never even knew in my... in my life, my grandpa and my grandma there, my loved ones.

我看到了我人生中從沒見過的人，像是爺爺奶奶等親人。

Saying it wasn't my time yet.

祂們都說我的時機未到。

I remember from that day is waking up in the hospital, and seeing shadows that weren't there, scenarios that felt so real.

我對於那天的記憶只有在醫院裡醒來，看到不應該存在的影子、感覺很真實的場景。

Doctor just shocked, my parents were shocked, and that's only the beginning of the story.

醫生和我的父母都很震驚，而那還只是故事的開端。

And these voices kept coming months after I was released from the hospital.

我出院的幾個月後，那些聲音還是繼續出現。

The more I try to ignore the... the voices, they became screams of just people in pain.

我越想不理會這些聲音，它們就變得越像痛苦人們的尖叫聲。

It drove me to the point where I was afraid to go to sleep 'cause I... every time I would go to bed, I would see myself out of my body.

那讓我到了不敢睡覺的程度，因為我只要一上床，就會離開身體、靈魂出竅的體驗。

My soul would just be lingering around my body and these shadow people would still be there.

我的靈魂會在我的軀體邊流連，而那些影子人依然還是在那裡。

I was just terrified.

我完全嚇壞了。

I got to the point where I felt completely drained.

我到了徹底精疲力竭的程度。

So, I had to ask my mom for help.

所以我不得不向媽媽求助。

I told my mom, I was like, I've been seeing my body⏤my soul's been out of my body, and I've been seeing him laying down⏤and I've seen these people around my body.

我跟我媽媽說，我的靈魂一直出竅，然後一直看到我的軀體躺在那裡，然後看到一堆人圍繞我的身體。

My mom is an extremely religious person.

我媽媽是宗教信仰很虔誠的人。

So, she decided to take me to church as a spiritual guidance.

所以她決定帶我到教堂，作為精神引導。

That's what they call it.

他們是這麼稱呼它。

Spiritual guidance.

精神引導。

Some of you may know it as an exorcism.

你們一些人可能將它視為驅魔儀式。

I didn't want to seek help.

我當時不想尋求幫助。

You know, when you're 16 year old, you're rebellious and keep stuff to yourself.

你知道的，當你 16 歲時，你會很叛逆然後把事情放心裡。

I didn't want to be seen as a crazy person.

我不想被視為一個瘋子。

I didn't want to be put in a mental institute.

我不想被關進精神病院。

Some of you hear exorcisms, and you guys automatically think what you see in movies.

你們一些人聽到驅魔儀式時，會馬上想到電影裡面看到的。

It's not that.

不是那樣的。

There's no holy water being tossed at you.

並不會有聖水被灑在你身上。

There's no screams, there's no levitating chairs.

沒有尖叫聲、沒有漂浮的椅子。

There isn't any of that.

沒有任何那種情況。

Exorcisms are not allowed to be practiced in the United States.

驅魔儀式在美國是不被允許的。

Some people do, but they do it in the down-low.

有些人還是會進行，只不過他們會低調。

And I remember immediately the moment I got to that church, my body started feeling hot.

我記得當我走進教堂的那一刻，我的身體開始感覺很熱。

All I remember was they walked me into the kitchen⏤there's a chair there⏤sit me down at the chair, and just⏤the floor felt like clouds and I felt heavy.

我只記得他們引導我走進廚房，讓我坐在裡面的一張椅子上，然後地板感覺像雲朵，而我覺得自己很沉重。

I felt like I was falling through the floor, and the man proceeds to open up the Bible and says prayers, and there's another lady that was right behind me speaking in tongues.

我感覺自己好像要墜落到地板中，而一位男子接著翻開《聖經》開始禱告，另一位在我身後的女子用方言說著話。

All I remember was just hearing this huge banging coming from the door, just...

我只記得聽到門外的大聲響。

These noises were unignorable; they became so loud it felt like somebody grabbed the sledgehammer and was repeatedly hitting the door.

這些聲音是無法忽視的，它們大聲到好像有人拿著大槌子重複地敲擊著門。

Felt like somebody was there trying to break in to get into me.

感覺好像有人試圖想破門而入抓我。

I'm not sure.

我不確定。

The moment the prayer was done⏤really, really weird⏤the whole room when completely silent.

非常、非常奇怪的，禱告結束的那一刻，整間房間變得死寂。

The guy with the Bible that was reading the prayers looked at me and said, "You're saved."

拿著《聖經》唸禱文的男子看著我說：「你被救贖了。」

Then when the moment that finished, it just felt like I was myself again.

接著，在結束的那一刻，我再次感覺像是自己了。

This experience didn't make me more spiritual, but this exorcism had a silver lining.

這次經驗並沒有讓我對宗教更有感覺，但這次驅魔儀式有個好處。

Like, I recently lost my father not too long ago; I experienced after life.

例如，我不久前才失去父親，之後就經歷了死後生活。

I know it's real.

我知道它是真實的。

So, I knew that my dad was at peace, so I didn't have anything to worry about.

所以我知道我爸爸正在安息，所以我沒有任何需要擔心的事。