This is a personal choice that I made to document this first trimester.

這是我為記錄這頭三個月而做出的個人選擇。

It's a very vulnerable time, especially if you're a content creator and you're posting things online and telling your friends and telling your family.

這是一個非常脆弱的時期，特別是如果你是一個內容創作者，你在網上發佈東西，告訴你的朋友，告訴你的家人。

I told my family right away why.

我馬上告訴我的家人原因。

Hello, everyone from the past.

大家好，來自過去的人。

I don't have all my makeup on, but that's fine.

我沒有化好所有的妝，但這很好。

But I really wanted to discuss some things on here because there's this unspoken rule in pregnancy and everything like that, especially if you're a content creator and you're posting things online and telling your friends and telling your family.

但我真的想在這裡討論一些事情，因為在懷孕和諸如此類的事情上有這樣的潛規則，特別是如果你是一個內容創作者，你在網上發佈東西，告訴你的朋友和家人。

I told my family right away why?

我馬上告訴我的家人，為什麼？

Because I felt ready to tell them when you live abroad.

因為我覺得已經準備好告訴他們，當你生活在國外時。

It's a very different journey.

這是一個非常不同的旅程。

It's a very lonely journey because you don't have family here.

這是一個非常孤獨的旅程，因為你在這裡沒有家人。

You don't have close friends here.

你在這裡沒有親密的朋友。

So I wanted my family to know right away egg exactly what was going on with me.

所以我想讓我的家人馬上知道雞蛋到底是怎麼回事。

So they could go on this journey with me together because the first trimester is the hardest one of the hardest trimesters.

所以他們可以和我一起走這段旅程，因為前三個月是最艱難的一個階段。

I'm sure trimester is pretty hard to, but I think mentally the first trimester is pretty difficult.

我確信三個月是相當困難的，但我認為在精神上，第一個三個月是相當困難的。

You have a lot of fears, you have a lot of worries.

你有很多恐懼，你有很多憂慮。

There's potential for miscarriage.

有流產的可能。

There's potential for complications in the very beginning.

在一開始就有可能出現複雜的情況。

But the truth is, there is potential for all of these things throughout the entire pregnancy and being aware of that is really important.

但事實是，在整個孕期都有可能發生所有這些事情，意識到這一點真的很重要。

I searched and searched on social media and I haven't found anyone who was documenting this real time.

我在社交媒體上搜索了又搜索，還沒有發現有誰在實時記錄這種情況。

It was always like this is what happened during my first trimester.

在我懷孕的前三個月，總是像這樣。

I'm now 13 weeks pregnant and I feel brave enough and I I want to put this out there because there's a lot of women that are going through this, they're having their first child and they're going through these changes in their body.

我現在懷孕13周了，我覺得自己足夠勇敢，我想把這些說出來，因為有很多婦女正在經歷這些，她們正在生第一個孩子，她們正在經歷身體的這些變化。

I know I'm going through these changes and I have no idea what to expect.

我知道我正在經歷這些變化，我不知道該期待什麼。

I don't know what I'm supposed to be feeling, but I do want to share this and document this not only for other people, but for myself to look back on in the future.

我不知道我應該有什麼感覺，但我確實想分享這些，記錄這些，不僅是為了其他人，也是為了我自己將來能回顧一下。

I believe that this is a personal choice whether you tell your family, friends, other people, the internet.

我相信這是一個個人選擇，無論你是否告訴你的家人、朋友、其他人、互聯網。

This is a personal choice on someone during their journey and this is my journey and I want to share the ups and downs and I want to share the things that happen.

這是在某人的旅程中的個人選擇，這是我的旅程，我想分享起伏，我想分享發生的事情。

And the reason why people don't share it is because they have that fear of miscarriage.

而人們不分享它的原因是他們對流產有那種恐懼。

And this is something that isn't talked about a lot miscarriage is quite common.

而這是不常談及的事情，流產是很常見的。

Um a lot of people think, oh that's so rare, that's never gonna happen.

嗯，很多人認為，哦，這太罕見了，這永遠不會發生。

But it can happen, complications can happen, but that should never, and I believe 100% that that should never ever take away, that fear should never overcome you and take away from the excitement that's happening in the current moment in the present moment because what you feed your mind, you feed your body and what you feed your body and your mind feed your baby and I think it's really unhealthy to always think of the worst case scenario and stay there and be there.

但它可能發生，併發症可能發生，但這永遠不應該，而且我100%相信，這永遠不應該奪走，恐懼永遠不應該戰勝你，奪走當下正在發生的興奮，因為你餵養你的頭腦，你餵養你的身體，你的身體和頭腦餵養你的寶寶，我認為總是想著最壞的情況，呆在那裡，真的是不健康的。

I learned from a monk here in Japan a few years ago.

幾年前，我從日本這裡的一個和尚那裡學到了。

Sit with those emotions when they come out.

當這些情緒出來的時候，要和它們坐在一起。

That fear, that doubt that anger, that sadness, acknowledge.

那種恐懼，那種懷疑，那種憤怒，那種悲傷，承認。

Those emotions know that they are there and know that they are not bad and that they are human emotions and part of the human experience, but do not sit with them and serve them tea.

這些情緒知道它們的存在，知道它們並不壞，它們是人類的情緒，是人類經驗的一部分，但不要和它們坐在一起，為它們端茶倒水。

I do not sit with my fears and serve at t.

我沒有坐在我的恐懼中，在T處服務。

I do not have conversations with my fears.

我不與我的恐懼進行對話。

I acknowledge it, I'm gentle with it.

我承認它，我對它很溫和。

I'm compassionate to myself during these vulnerable moments.

在這些脆弱的時刻，我對自己很有同情心。

And I know I sound like I'm like yelling, I'm not I'm just very passionate about this.

我知道我聽起來像是在大喊大叫，我沒有，我只是對這個非常有激情。

But if there's anything that I learned through this journey, this inner journey, it's to acknowledge and feel your emotions, I never tell people, never feel doubt, never feel fear.

但是，如果說我通過這個旅程學到了什麼，這個內心的旅程，那就是承認和感受你的情緒，我從不告訴人們，永遠不要感到懷疑，永遠不要感到恐懼。

You shouldn't feel this way that way.

你不應該有這樣那樣的感覺。

Negative emotions are bad.

負面的情緒是不好的。

I would never tell anybody that ever because in order to purge those emotions, you need to feel the emotions and then let them go.

我永遠不會告訴任何人，因為為了清除這些情緒，你需要感受這些情緒，然後讓它們消失。

It's all about resilience, it's about knowing the tools of awareness and bringing yourself back to center.

這都是關於復原力的問題，是關於瞭解意識的工具和把自己帶回中心的問題。

So the healthiest thing that I can do in this early, the early stages of pregnancy is to enjoy it because there are so many mothers that had told me when I first, not that I was pregnant because I have a lot of friends that have our mothers or have been pregnant before.

是以，在這個早期，懷孕的早期階段，我能做的最健康的事情是享受它，因為有這麼多母親在我第一次，不是說我懷孕的時候告訴我，因為我有很多朋友有我們的母親或以前懷孕過。

I have a lot of nurses amongst my friends and my family.

我的朋友和家人中，有很多護士。

And they told me the one thing that they wish when they were pregnant was that they soaked up that first trimester and enjoyed those moments and we're excited because while it's true that something can happen, that doesn't mean it will, this isn't taking away from people who have had miscarriages or complications.

他們告訴我，他們在懷孕時希望的一件事是，他們浸泡在前三個月，享受那些時刻，我們很興奮，因為雖然事情確實可能發生，但並不意味著會發生，這並不是在剝奪那些有流產或併發症的人。

And there's a grieving process and it's valid your feelings through during that time is valid.

而且有一個悲傷的過程，你在這段時間的感受是有效的。

But all I can think about right now is now what's happening now?

但我現在能想到的是，現在正在發生什麼？

I am safe in my own body.

我在自己的身體裡是安全的。

My baby is safe.

我的寶寶是安全的。

Things are looking good.

事情看起來不錯。

I feel okay.

我感覺還好。

And to bring yourself back to those emotions and to meditate on those emotions is what's going to help my child grow.

而讓自己回到這些情緒中去，對這些情緒進行冥想，就是幫助我的孩子成長。

Here's an example.

這裡有一個例子。

If you plant a seed, your plants going to grow faster and stronger and this is proven.

如果你種下一粒種子，你的植物就會生長得更快、更強壯，這已被證實。

If you feed it good energy, your energy determines the life that's happening inside of you determines the outcome of the plant and the growth of the plant and the strength of the plant.

如果你給它餵食好的能量，你的能量決定了你體內發生的生命決定了植物的結果和植物的生長以及植物的力量。

This is scientifically proven.

這是有科學依據的。

And so yes, I had those fears.

是以，是的，我有這些恐懼。

I have those doubts.

我有這些疑慮。

I worry, this is the first time I've been pregnant.

我擔心，這是我第一次懷孕。

But I cannot let anything that happens in this journey?

但我不能讓這個旅程中發生的任何事情？

Mean anything that doesn't mean I'm a bad person.

指任何不意味著我是個壞人的事情。

I'm doing anything wrong.

我做錯了什麼。

That my body isn't good enough.

我的身體還不夠好。

I can't think of that because it hasn't happened.

我想不出來，因為還沒有發生。

There's so many people time leaping and staying there.

有那麼多人的時間跳躍和停留在那裡。

You cannot stay there.

你不能呆在那裡。

So hopefully if there are women out there that are just having their first child and are worried or any women out there that are having their second or third child, this is something that you really need to be to train your mind for two.

是以，希望如果外面有剛生完第一個孩子而又擔心的婦女，或者外面有任何有第二個或第三個孩子的婦女，這是你真正需要的東西，以訓練你的頭腦，為兩個孩子服務。

It's not just about the physical things, it's not just about eating a salad and a smoothie or whatever.

這不僅僅是身體上的事情，這不僅僅是吃沙拉和冰沙或其他東西。

It's about feeding your mind good things and understanding that those bad feelings and emotions will come up along the way and know that that's a human human feeling.

這是關於給你的頭腦餵食好的東西，並理解那些不好的感覺和情緒會沿途出現，並知道那是人類的一種感覺。

Human emotion, that's part of the human process.

人類的情感，那是人類進程的一部分。

And you need to embrace that and be gentle to that emotion and not stay there with it and invite it in and let it consume you.

你需要擁抱它，溫柔地對待這種情緒，不要和它呆在一起，邀請它進來，讓它吞噬你。

I feel like this is partly me reassuring.

我覺得這在一定程度上是我在安撫。

Those mothers out there that are in their first trimester.

那些正處於前三個月的母親們。

That paranoia.

這種偏執狂。

That fear is never going to go away throughout the entire pregnancy because your maternal instincts kick in.

這種恐懼在整個孕期都不會消失，因為你的母性本能會啟動。

It's it's almost like you go from all the stresses and problems and other things in your life, your business, your career, whatever, to protect the child at all costs.

這幾乎就像你從所有的壓力和問題以及你生活中的其他事情，你的生意，你的事業，不管是什麼，去不惜一切代價保護孩子。

And so how am I going to feed it?

那麼我怎樣才能養活它呢？

Not just physically, but mentally as well and how am I going to be gentle and kind to myself when those fears do come up, it's a maternal instinct.

不僅僅是身體上的，還有精神上的，當這些恐懼真的出現時，我怎樣才能對自己溫柔和友善，這是一種母性的本能。

You're always going to be worried about your child even when it's born.

即使你的孩子出生了，你也會一直為他擔心。

So the only thing that I can do is use the tools that I've learned through my life journey to bring myself back to center and train myself and rewire my brain so that I can give my baby good energy even when it's out outside the womb.

是以，我唯一能做的就是利用我在人生旅途中所學到的工具，讓自己回到中心，訓練自己，重新連接我的大腦，這樣即使我的孩子在子宮外，我也能給他良好的能量。

This is a personal choice that I made to document this first trimester.

這是我為記錄這頭三個月而做出的個人選擇。

It's a very vulnerable time.

這是一個非常脆弱的時期。

I think it's going to help a lot of people, no matter what happens.

我認為，無論發生什麼，它都會幫助很多人。

I hope that you'll come with me on this journey and week by week, I'll share updates and my feelings.

我希望你能和我一起走過這段旅程，每週我都會分享最新情況和我的感受。

I know it's going to get harder from here.

我知道以後會越來越難。

The thing that I can do the most right now is to really strengthen my mind and know that right now everything is going as planned and being aware that those things can happen, those complications can happen.

我現在最能做的事情是真正加強我的思想，知道現在一切都在按計劃進行，並意識到那些事情可能發生，那些併發症可能發生。

But not to feed into them as if they're a reality right now.

但不要把它們當作現在的現實來養活。

This is how manifestation works right.

這就是顯靈的工作方式吧。

If you're constantly feeding that thought it affects your body, it affects your energy.

如果你不斷地餵養這種思想，它就會影響你的身體，影響你的能量。

This is a lesson for everybody, not just for pregnant women, but for everybody is to really think of what's happening right now, I am safe right now, my body is healthy right now.

這對每個人都是一個教訓，不僅僅是對孕婦，而是對每個人都是一個教訓，就是要真正思考現在發生了什麼，我現在很安全，我的身體現在很健康。

I'm working with a diet.

我正在配合飲食。

I have great doctors.

我有很好的醫生。

I believe in my body, I have affirmations and I think this is going to help a lot of people who are pregnant and that is I trust my body.

我相信我的身體，我有肯定的說法，我認為這將幫助很多懷孕的人，那就是我相信我的身體。

You have to tell yourself this every single morning.

你必須在每一個早晨告訴自己這一點。

I trust my body knows what it's doing.

我相信我的身體知道自己在做什麼。

I trust that it's feeding my child the right nutrition.

我相信它為我的孩子提供了正確的營養。

I know and believe that my body is strong enough to grow a human.

我知道並相信，我的身體足夠強壯，可以長出一個人。

So, you have have to feed yourself these good affirmations every single morning and it does change you.

所以，你必須每天早上給自己餵食這些好的肯定，它確實會改變你。

It does rewire your brain.

它確實能重新連接你的大腦。

That's what affirmations are for people think that it's lying to yourself.

這就是申明的作用，人們認為這是在欺騙自己。

You're not lying to yourself because your brain doesn't know the difference between imagination and reality.

你沒有對自己撒謊，因為你的大腦不知道想象和現實之間的區別。

That's scientifically true.

這在科學上是真實的。

And it's helped me a lot in my journey.

而且它在我的旅程中對我幫助很大。

So, I know that there's a lot of people are like, oh, don't say anything and you should worry about this and you should be worried about that.

所以，我知道有很多人都喜歡，哦，不要說什麼，你應該擔心這個，你應該擔心那個。

What's the point of worrying when nothing is happening, be aware and understand that those things are real and can happen, but think about what's happening now.

當什麼都沒有發生時，擔心有什麼意義呢？要意識到並理解那些事情是真實的，可能會發生，但要想想現在正在發生的事情。

Cortisol is not good for this early stage of pregnancy.

皮質醇對這個懷孕的早期階段是不利的。

So, all I can do is my best every single day.

是以，我所能做的就是每一天都盡我所能。

But know that my feelings of fear and doubt are valid.

但要知道，我的恐懼和懷疑的感覺是有道理的。

I love my emotions, negative and positive.

我愛我的情緒，無論是消極的還是積極的。

That's the ultimate self love is If you have compassion for whatever emotions come up in your body and know that in order to purge those emotions and let them go, you have to acknowledge them and show love to those to whatever you're feeling right now.

這就是最終的自愛，如果你對你身體裡出現的任何情緒都有同情心，並知道為了清除這些情緒並讓它們離開，你必須承認它們，並對那些你現在的感覺表示愛。

If you're a mother to be or it's your first trimester, I give you good vibes and be compassionate to yourself and your feelings.

如果你是一個即將成為母親的人，或者這是你的頭三個月，我給你一個好的祝願，對你自己和你的感受要有同情心。

That's why I decided to share early and I am giving myself permission and you should too to be excited and to be joyful in this moment right now, there's no point in me being anywhere else.

這就是為什麼我決定提前分享，我給自己允許，你也應該允許我在此刻興奮和喜悅，我在其他地方沒有意義。

But now, but here, that's where I get my strength.

但現在，但在這裡，這就是我的力量所在。

That's where I've been able to manifest everything in my life up until this day, I'm very lucky to have a life that I live today and I've been able to manifest amazing things into my life and that is how I did it.

這就是我能夠在我的生活中表現出一切，直到今天，我非常幸運地擁有今天的生活，我能夠在我的生活中表現出驚人的事情，這就是我的做法。

And that is how you can to let me know below your experiences as well.

這就是你如何能讓我知道你的經驗。

I think women are so incredible.

我認為女性是如此不可思議。

Growing a human is hard.

培養一個人是很難的。

It's not an easy task.

這不是一項容易的任務。

Can't wait to see you guys in the next video.

迫不及待地想在下一個視頻中看到你們。