Name: 在日本的懷孕日記1 | 丈夫被禁止赴約和分娩，懷孕初期的內疚感 (Pregnant in Japan Diary 1 | Husbands Banned From Appointments & Birth, Early Pregnancy Guilt)
Uploaded: 2022-09-06T17:40:17.000Z
Duration: 11 min 57 s

hey everyone, so this is like super unprofessional.

嘿，大家好，所以這就像超級不專業的。

頻率副詞

I don't usually film videos with like the front camera and like I don't know, just randomly like this, like it's never this is kind of like an update and I feel like I'm gonna be doing a lot of these, this first trimester because let's be honest like this is very mentally and physically taxing on my body.

我通常不會用前面的攝像頭拍攝視頻，就像我不知道，只是隨機地這樣，就像從來沒有這樣，這有點像更新，我覺得我會做很多這樣的事情，這個前三個月，因為說實話，像這樣對我的身體來說是非常精神和身體上的負擔。

不是每個人的懷孕都是一樣的。

Some people I'm really grateful because I, you know, I'm not like actually like vomiting like some of my pregnant friends right now and it's just been really overwhelming trying to get in with this system and like understand the protocols here and it's definitely overwhelming because I am foreign and um my husband can't come into the hospital even with me to my appointments um and but in fact the other day the doctor said if he comes in the evening around closing time then um it's totally fine if he comes to my appointments, which was, it's a relief to hear my doctor is super nice and everybody is still caring there.

有些人我真的很感激，因為我，你知道，我現在並不像我的一些懷孕的朋友那樣嘔吐，只是試圖進入這個系統，瞭解這裡的協議，這絕對是壓倒性的，因為我是外國人，嗯，我的丈夫不能進入醫院，甚至與我的約會嗯，但事實上，有一天，醫生說如果他在晚上關門的時候來，那麼嗯，如果他來參加我的約會是完全沒有問題的。聽到我的醫生人很好，大家都很關心我，這讓我很欣慰。

We chose a private hospital to give birth because they take really good care of you.

我們選擇了一傢俬人醫院來生產，因為他們對你的照顧真的很周到。

It's a very cozy hospital, very european looking very homey, it's very popular, the doctor is very popular and very good at what he does and um I did a lot of research here and asked a lot of people their experiences and they've had nothing but good experiences and good things to say about this place, so I'm really grateful for it, but you know like this is my first pregnancy and so I honestly, like I didn't expect, I kept thinking like I would be, it would be a very easy first trimester for me because I have a pretty strong stomach since a few years ago when I had a lot of gut issues and things like that, I have a lot of strength in my gut now, so I was like, oh I'm gonna be fine, I'm not gonna be woozy or nauseous, but no, like I have so many food aversions, I have been sitting on the couch most days.

這是一家非常舒適的醫院，看起來很有歐式風格，非常溫馨，非常受歡迎，醫生非常受歡迎，而且非常擅長他的工作，嗯，我在這裡做了很多研究，問了很多人的經驗，他們對這個地方只有好的經驗和好的評價，所以我真的很感激，但是你知道，這是我第一次懷孕，所以說實話。我沒想到，我一直以為我會，對我來說，這將是一個非常容易的前三個月，因為我有一個相當強大的胃，因為幾年前我有很多腸道問題和類似的東西，我現在的腸道有很多力量，所以我想，哦，我會沒事的，我不會暈眩或噁心，但沒有，像我有這麼多食物厭惡，我已經坐在沙發上大多數天。

I'm very first of all, I'm very grateful that I can stay home um because I got sick a lot when I was working with kids and with Covid, it's very dangerous.

首先，我非常感謝我可以呆在家裡，因為我在和孩子們一起工作的時候經常生病，而且用Covid，這非常危險。

I'm very high risk because of my asthma, my severe asthma and that scares me a lot.

我的風險很高，因為我有哮喘，嚴重的哮喘，這讓我很害怕。

So I'm sacrificing a lot of social time with people and friends because I don't want to get it.

所以我犧牲了很多與人和朋友的社交時間，因為我不想得到它。

Two of my pregnant friends have gotten Covid and that scares me because so far they're not doing very well.

我的兩個懷孕的朋友已經得到了Covid，這讓我感到害怕，因為到目前為止，他們的情況並不是很好。

Um and that can be very dangerous for the baby.

嗯，這對嬰兒來說可能是非常危險的。

Um So I'm taking it very slow and kind of self isolating for the next seven months.

是以，在接下來的七個月裡，我採取了非常緩慢和有點自我隔離的方式。

Um that sounds really sad, but I am still trying to get out and do things alone and with my husband because I know that he's fine and I'm really grateful that my husband can stay home and work and things like that and um you know, I've been so motivated to create and make videos and I have more time now before the baby comes.

嗯，這聽起來真的很悲哀，但我仍在努力走出去，獨自和我丈夫一起做事情，因為我知道他很好，我真的很感激我丈夫可以留在家裡工作和類似的事情，嗯，你知道，我一直很有動力去創作和製作視頻，在孩子出生前我現在有更多的時間。

So I was just like I'm gonna dish out all these videos these next few weeks and just really document and I have been documenting, I just haven't been editing because whenever I sit up I just want to throw up and whenever I feel like it's getting better it gets worse.

所以我就想，在接下來的幾周裡，我要把所有這些視頻整理出來，並真正記錄下來，我一直在記錄，只是沒有編輯，因為每當我坐起來的時候，我就想吐，每當我覺得情況好轉的時候，就變得更糟。

And so I've been battling a lot of depression with that because I've been just kind of battling with myself like why am I just being lazy all day today?

所以我一直在與很多抑鬱症作鬥爭，因為我一直在與自己作鬥爭，比如我今天為什麼整天都在偷懶？

I need to do something, I need to hustle, I need to go because that's just who I am.

我需要做一些事情，我需要努力，我需要去，因為這就是我的身份。

I'm just very, I like to do things and I like to accomplish things and um I haven't been able to and you know like there's a lot of responsibilities that have been neglected.

我只是非常，我喜歡做事情，我喜歡完成事情，嗯，我還沒有能力，你知道像有很多責任被忽視了。

I keep having to worry about responding to family and friends on social media and um not to take that personally, but I just don't want to look at my phone, I don't want to answer people and it's not because of anxiety or depression, it's just, I have this craving to just be just be just exist and just dial down a bit and unplug a bit, might be a little bit slower with videos coming out just because I'm trying to listen to my body and I'm trying to just get more sleep because I haven't been sleeping really well and I think it's because I have a hard time unplugging at night.

我一直擔心在社交媒體上回應家人和朋友，嗯，不是針對你，但我只是不想看我的手機，不想回答別人，這不是因為焦慮或抑鬱，這只是。我有這種渴望，只是只是存在，只是調低一點，拔掉一點插頭，可能會有一點慢的視頻出來，只是因為我試圖聽從我的身體，我試圖得到更多的睡眠，因為我一直沒有睡得很好，我想這是因為我在晚上很難拔掉插頭。

Um So I need to get into a better routine of like shutting off.

嗯，所以我需要進入一個更好的例行程序，比如關閉。

I usually go to bed way earlier and earlier now it's like nine or 10, I fall asleep and that's very unheard of for me and usually in bed at 11 30 or 12 sometimes one.

我通常上床睡覺的時間越來越早，現在好像是九點或十點，我就睡著了，這對我來說是非常少見的，通常在11點半或12點睡覺，有時是一點。

Um And that's very new for me so to kind of shut off like at least an hour before like eight p.m. That's what's going to be good for me but I keep getting so many messages and so many like things popping up my phone and well yeah you can kind of turn those notifications off.

這對我來說很新鮮，所以至少在晚上八點之前關閉，這對我來說是好事，但我一直收到這麼多資訊，這麼多像彈出我手機的東西，好吧，你可以把這些通知關掉。

I just have this like anxiety in the back of my mind of like okay I need to like responding to answer and it's just it's not really healthy because it's causing me a lot of like stress, like unnecessary stress and my doctor said you really need to take care of your nervous system and since I've been out of routine for so long I used to like wake up eat a healthy breakfast, I used to do a little impact workout in the morning.

我只是在腦海中有這樣的焦慮，就像好吧，我需要像回答一樣，這只是它不是真的健康，因為它給我帶來了很多像壓力，像不必要的壓力，我的醫生說你真的需要照顧你的神經系統，因為我已經離開常規這麼久了，我曾經像醒來吃一個健康的早餐，我曾經在早上做一個小的影響鍛鍊。

Um I used to have so much energy and it's just gone and I know it's just the first trimester.

我以前有那麼多精力，現在卻沒有了，我知道這只是前三個月的問題。

I just wanted to like share these things because I haven't been able to talk to you guys um in a while and it does take time to really edit the way that I do um but I do want to like update you on what's happening at first, like I was just kind of like been on a shape because my husband couldn't be in the hospital to see the baby and like all these things, luckily I can speak japanese, so it's been a lot easier for me than some of the other foreigners in there.

我只是想分享這些東西，因為我已經有一段時間沒能和你們說話了，而且確實需要時間來真正編輯我的方式，嗯，但我確實想向你們介紹一下最初發生的事情，比如我只是有點像一直處於一種狀態，因為我丈夫不能在醫院看孩子，而且像所有這些事情，幸運的是我能說日語，所以對我來說比其他一些外國人在那裡容易得多。

They do have people that speak english, like some of the nurses, but some of them aren't available right now my doctor can speak some english, so that's been a little bit easier and I really take medical stuff very seriously, especially when you're pregnant, it's exhausting trying to translate things and like speak japanese and speak another language when you're tired and so sick and just overwhelmed and trying to understand the medical terms because there's a lot of medical terms that I don't know.

他們確實有會說英語的人，比如一些護士，但他們中的一些人現在不在，我的醫生可以說一些英語，所以這已經有點容易了，我真的非常重視醫療東西，特別是當你懷孕的時候，當你累了，病了，只是不知所措，試圖理解醫療術語，因為有很多醫療術語我不知道，試圖翻譯東西，比如說日語和說另一種語言是很累的。

Um but luckily I've been able to get through it a lot smoother than some of the other foreigners in there because I remember there was this one girl and I think she was pretty upset because first of all, her husband couldn't come in and she learned that she looked like she was just like newly pregnant um and she couldn't communicate at all, so I did help her out um but you know, I never have to use like a translating app, which I'm very proud of, but it is very tiring when you have to really focus on like what people are saying and things like that, so, but we chose this hospital because it is very good and they are very patient and understanding and they make sure that I do understand and they do have some information in english and and all that stuff, so I just want to make sure it's very smooth and it's very um just everything goes really well, but that's the one thing that I'm very grateful for is that I can speak and understand japanese pretty well, so I never really needed my husband for the appointments he had did have to come one time because the doctor wanted to make sure that I got all the information just in case I had something called gestational diabetes, um they would have had to go through like a bunch of different protocols and like help me understand like what I need to do for that, but luckily I don't have that they tested me so early, I don't know why, but I'm really glad that they're overly cautious about these things past 10 weeks and like 10.5 weeks now and baby is super healthy.

但幸運的是，我比其他一些在那裡的外國人要順利得多，因為我記得有一個女孩，我想她很不高興，因為首先，她的丈夫不能進來，她得知她看起來就像剛懷孕一樣，嗯，她根本無法溝通，所以我確實幫了她，嗯，但你知道。我從來沒有使用過翻譯軟件，這一點我很自豪，但當你必須真正專注於人們所說的事情時，這是非常累人的，所以，但我們選擇了這家醫院，因為它非常好，他們非常耐心和理解，他們確保我理解，他們確實有一些英文資訊和所有這些東西。所以我只是想確保一切都很順利，一切都很順利，但有一點我很感激，那就是我的日語說得很好，聽得很明白，所

We saw our little child yesterday, which was amazing and it's funny because before it looked like a little chicken nugget and now it looks like a human has a big head, it has arms and legs and everything, and I'm just like, oh my God, I can't believe that's inside of me.

我們昨天看到了我們的小孩子，這很神奇，很有趣，因為之前它看起來像一個小雞塊，現在它看起來像一個人有一個大頭，它有胳膊和腿，還有所有的東西，我就想，哦，我的上帝，我不敢相信這是在我的身體裡。

We got to actually hear the heartbeat, there was a time where we saw the heartbeat and we could see little sound waves, but this time we got to hear it, which was super cool, have just been watching my favorite tv shows, watching movies, um playing some games, reading, doing those types of things, and I'm just not used to that because I'm like, wow, I'm so lazy, like, why don't I just get up and do something and I pushed myself and I'm exhausted.

我們實際上聽到了心跳，有一次我們看到了心跳，我們可以看到小聲波，但這次我們聽到了，這超級酷，一直在看我喜歡的電視節目，看電影，嗯，玩一些遊戲，閱讀，做這些類型的事情，我只是不習慣，因為我喜歡，哇，我太懶了，比如，我為什麼不起來做一些事情，我推著自己，我很疲憊。

I actually went out to meet a friend the other day and um I just, my energy level just dipped so fast and um it was such an enjoyable lunch.

實際上，前幾天我出去見一個朋友，嗯，我只是，我的能量水準下降得很快，嗯，這是一個非常愉快的午餐。

I'm so glad I got to see my friend because she's leaving Japan, but like, halfway through, I was just like, I do not feel good, I was trying not to throw up on the bus when I was going to where I needed to meet her and I was just like, this is awful, like, it's just a forever, like, I don't want to say sickness.

我很高興能見到我的朋友，因為她要離開日本了，但是，就像，在中途，我只是想，我感覺不好，當我要去我需要去見她的地方時，我試圖不在公共汽車上嘔吐，我只是想，這太可怕了，就像，這只是一個永遠，就像，我不想說病了。

I say it a lot, but it's not a sickness, I'm just pregnant and this is the part, this is part of pregnancy and it's so beautiful and so horrible at the same time.

我說了很多，但這不是病，我只是懷孕了，這是一部分，這是懷孕的一部分，它是如此美麗，同時也是如此可怕。

是的，就像我不渴求任何甜食一樣。

But I do want to eat a lot of, again, mexican food and like just like carbs and things like that.

但我確實想吃很多，再次，墨西哥食品和像只是喜歡碳水化合物和類似的東西。

So I have to be very careful with my diet.

所以我必須非常小心地處理我的飲食。

It's been really hard with the food aversions to cook.

由於對食物的厭惡，做飯真的很難。

Like the smell of things is really strong when we do the ultrasounds, it's so quick.

像我們做超聲檢查時，東西的氣味真的很濃，它是如此之快。

So I haven't been able to um just like film or like pull out my phone and there's just a lot of people like nurses in there and stuff like that and just like, I don't, I don't want to like infringe on anybody's privacy.

是以，我一直不能嗯就像電影或像拉出我的手機，只是有很多人像護士在那裡和類似的東西，只是像，我不，我不想像侵犯任何人的隱私。

Um but I'm sure you guys have seen people get ultrasounds before youtube and things like that.

嗯，但我相信你們在Youtube和類似的東西之前，已經看到有人做超音波檢查。

I just wanted to kind of like post something because I was just like, I really want to like share this journey as best as I can.

我只是想發表一些東西，因為我只是想，我真的想盡可能地分享這個旅程。

I promise you the next video will be more edited.

我向你保證，下一個視頻將更多地被編輯。

It's more of my journey and when I'm like um you know, eating what I bought and I herb and like our plans and all that stuff and I do want to talk about the differences of being pregnant here versus the States because I have friends who are pregnant in the States right now to just wanna, I just wanna keep updating.

這更多的是我的旅程，當我像嗯，你知道，吃我買的東西和我的草藥，像我們的計劃和所有的東西，我確實想談談在這裡與美國懷孕的區別，因為我有朋友現在在美國懷孕，只是想，我只是想繼續更新。

I still want to keep posting, I want to look back on this and be like yeah I remember that you know, so this is like super unprofessional but um I do promise some really great video my husband and I are going on a little bit of a romantic trip in Yamanashi away from the city.

我還是想繼續發帖，我想回過頭來看看這個，就像是的，我記得你知道，所以這就像超級不專業的，但嗯，我確實承諾了一些非常棒的視頻，我和我丈夫要在山梨進行一次遠離城市的浪漫之旅。

So that'll be really nice and relaxing, I'll be filming that for sure because I wouldn't remember these things um but I'm sure the second trimester will be better but until I get into a routine again and I refresh myself and um just kind of get my thoughts together because I didn't allow myself to do that and then I'll start posting again and what I mean by that, it's probably gonna be like a week later when I post, I'm just skipping a week so I can just get my stuff in order.

是以，這將是非常好的和放鬆的，我肯定會拍下來，因為我不會記得這些事情，嗯，但我相信第二個三個月會更好，但直到我再次進入一個常規，我刷新自己，嗯只是一種讓我的想法，因為我不允許自己這樣做，然後我將開始再次發佈，我的意思是，它可能會像一個星期後，當我發佈，我只是跳過一個星期，所以我可以只是讓我的東西在秩序。

But this is like this is tough, like it's it's a lot more tough than I really imagined but it's all worth it in the end.

但這就像這是艱難的，就像它是比我真正想象的要艱難得多，但最後都是值得的。

 So anyway, if you guys watch this entire thing, thank you so much um and I'll be still posting on my instagram and things like that but just dialing it down a little bit so I can like get myself in order again. 

所以，無論如何，如果你們看完了這整個過程，非常感謝你們，嗯，我仍然會在我的Instagram和類似的東西上發帖，但只是把它調低一點，這樣我就能像讓自己重新有秩序。