I could be stressed out right now, but none of this matters.

我壓力大到不行，但這些都不重要。

And then there are times.

然後有的時候也是會這樣。

So it's been 14 years since I've experienced death and I remember that the first few years were just like so full of pain.

我離上一次經歷死亡已經 14 年了，我記得頭幾年感覺充滿了痛苦。

And then after that there was motivation and inspiration to live my life for the both of us.

然後在那之後，為了我們的生活有了動力和靈感。

And then after that, there was excitement as I was pursuing my dreams and making art.

然後在那之後，我很興奮，因為我在追求我的夢想和創造藝術。

And then after that, mundane reality set in. Stress and happiness, pettiness, obsession with the material world and not feeling fulfilled.

然後在那之後，世俗的現實到來。壓力和快樂、瑣碎的事物、對物質世界的迷戀和不滿足。

And ultimately, I feel like we can't really help this because humans adapt and as much as we want to remember that "hey, we're gonna die someday." our brains keep telling us maybe you'll be uploaded into the cloud.

最終，我覺得我們真的無能為力，因為人類會適應，而且就算我們想記住自己總有一天會死，我們的大腦不斷告訴我們，也許我們會被上傳到雲端。

- Anna is that you? - Welcome my friend, don't cry for me.

- Anna 是你嗎？- 你好我的朋友，不要為我哭泣。

Though my mortal body perished. I am now one with Mac Os.

雖然我的肉身滅亡了。我現在是 Mac Os 的一部分。

Oh my God, you did it, you cheated death.

我的上帝，你做到了，你騙過了死亡。

Indeed I did.

的確，我確實

- Anna, play brutal by Olivia Rodrigo. - Hold up, I'm not your freaking bluetooth...

- Anna，請播放 Olivia Rodrigo 的 brutal 這首歌。- 等等，我才不是你該死的藍芽⋯⋯

I have this really annoying habit. Whenever anyone complains about like being old on their birthday, I always say,

我有一個很討人厭的習慣。就是別人在自己的生日抱怨他們老了的時候，我總是會說：

happy birthday.

「生日快樂。」

No, I feel so old.

不要，我覺得自己太老了。

- 14. - Ages are a privilege. - No.

- 我 14 歲了。- 年紀是個特權。- 才不是。

Not because I'm trying to be annoying, but mostly because I want to remember that too, you know, not everybody gets to grow older.

不是因為我想讓人討厭，而是主要是因為我也想記住這一點，你知道，不是每個人都有機會變老。

And though, yes, aging as a woman in this country and industry is its own hellscape. In terms of being a human being, getting older makes you pretty lucky.

雖然身為女人，變老在這個國家和這個行業中，是一種地獄。 就作為一個人而言，變老這件事會讓你非常幸運。

People used to die at 30.

以前的人在 30 歲時就會死亡。

Now The Top Five Regrets of the Dying was a blog post written in 2009 by Bronnie Ware based on her experience giving palliative care.

《臨終者的五大遺憾》是 Bronnie Ware在 2009 年根據她安寧照護的經驗寫的一篇部落格文章。

She eventually expanded her post into a memoir in 2012 because the blog went insanely viral worldwide.

她最終在 2012 年將她的貼文擴展為一本回憶錄，因為這個部落格在全世界瘋狂地轉發。

And personally, I like to revisit The Top Five Regrets of the Dying from time to time as a reminder of how I should be steering my life and where I'm potentially going wrong.

而就我個人而言，我喜歡不時地重溫《臨終者的五大遺憾》，以此來提醒我應該如何引導我的生活，以及我可能會在哪些方面出錯。

So they are:

以下是五個遺憾：

Regret number one, I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.

遺憾一，我希望我有勇氣過真正屬於自己的生活，而不是別人期望的生活。

Regret number two, I wish I hadn't worked so hard.

遺憾二，我希望我沒有那麼辛苦。

Regret number three, I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings.

遺憾三，我希望我有勇氣表達我的感受。

Regret number four, I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.

遺憾四，我希望我和我的朋友們保持聯繫。

Regret number five, I wish that I had let myself be happier.

遺憾五，我希望我當時讓自己更快樂。

And I've always found the wording of regret number five to be so interesting, right?

而我一直覺得第五個遺憾的措辭很趣，不覺得嗎？

I wish that I had let myself be happier.

我希望我當時能「讓」自己更快樂。

The dying really acknowledge that happiness is a choice or a feeling that we often don't allow ourselves and why is it so hard to be happy? Why do we resist it so much?

瀕臨死亡的人明白幸福是一種選擇，或者說是一種我們經常不允許自己去感受的感覺，為什麼幸福如此之難？為什麼我們如此抵制它？

I know that for me, I'm like very worried at the moment.

我知道對我來說，我此刻感覺非常擔心。

I am happy or grateful.

我很高興或感激。

Like everything good will just go away which doesn't make any sense at all.

好像一切美好的東西都會消失，但這根本沒有任何意義。

But alas, humans are contradictions.

但可惜的是，人類是矛盾的。

So which regrets do you feel like would apply to you today if you died?

那麼，如果你死了，你覺得哪些遺憾會適用於今天的你？

I'm definitely number two and number five.

我肯定是第二個和第五個。

And I'm gonna be putting some awareness towards that moving forward.

在我的生活前進的路上，我會將它們銘記在心。

And if you're wondering if this is still relevant, given that the blog post is over a decade old, a 2018 study reached similar conclusions.

如果你想知道這是否仍然相關，有鑑於這篇部落格文章已有十多年的歷史，2018 年的一項研究得出了類似的結論。

So people were more likely to express ideal-related regrets such as failing to follow their dreams and live up to their full potential.

人們更有可能表達與理想有關的遺憾，像是未能追隨夢想和充分發揮自己的潛力。

Now I don't know you or when you're going to die but you will eventually.

我不認識你，也不知道你什麼時候會死，但你最終會死。

So think on these five regrets and how you can avoid them.

所以，請思考這五個遺憾，以及你如何避免它們。

I'm Anna Akana, thank you the patrons for supporting today's video, and as always thank you to my daddy, Squarespace for sponsoring today's episode.

我是 Anna Akana，感謝大家贊助今天的影片，並一如既往地感謝我的乾爹 Squarespace 贊助今天的節目。

My daddy has an all-in-one platform to put a beautiful online presence and run your business complete with marketing tools and analytics to have your website or online store be the best it can be.

我的乾爹有一個所有功能集於一身的平臺，可以建立漂亮的網路形象，並通過營銷工具和分析來運營你的業務，讓你的網站或線上商店成為最好的。

For all of you who love to create audio content, you can use audio blocks which allows you to embed audio on your site and then tag the audio for iTunes when your audio block is placed into a blog.

你可以使用語音內容，它允許你在你的網站上嵌入音檔，然後當你的音檔被放置到部落格中時，為 iTunes 標記音檔。

Plus you can have multiple contributors, receive selective access to your sites website manager and don't worry, you own all the content that you put on the daddy Squarespace platform.

另外，你可以有多個貢獻者，選擇性地訪問你的網站網站管理員，不用擔心，你擁有放置在乾爹 Squarespace 平台上的所有內容。

He offers one click daddy portability.

它提供了一鍵式的便利性。

You can head to squarespac.com for a free trial and whenever you're ready to launch, go to squarespace.com/anna to save 10% off your first purchase of a website or domain until you're dead squared.

你可以前往 squarespace.com 進行免費試用，當你準備推出時，前往 squarespace.com/anna，在首次購買網站或域名時可節省1 0% 的費用，直到你死了。