So I thoughtthiswas a brilliantwaytobeheldaccountableforchurningoutmaterial.
是以,我認為這是一個出色的方式,可以讓人對攪動材料的行為負責。
I havefeltincrediblyinsecureas a solowriterfor a longtime.
很久以來,我作為一個單獨的作家感到無比的不安全。
I veryoftenhideinwritingpartnershipsbecausethatwayyoucelebratetogetherandyoucanalsobedemoralizedtogetherversuswhen I have a pieceofworkthat's purelymyown.
I don't feellike I havesomeoneelsetoalsohidebehind.
我不覺得我還有人可以躲在後面。
Soitwasreallyimportanttomelastyearthat I strengthenedmyconfidenceas a solowriter.
是以,去年對我來說非常重要的是,我加強了我作為一個獨立作家的信心。
So I adoptedthisRedditear's ruleeverythreemonths I turnout a script.
所以我採用了這個Reddit耳朵的規則,每三個月我就翻出一個劇本。
It's beenamazing.
這已經很了不起了。
I willsayhavingthedisciplinetowrite.
我想說的是,要有寫作的紀律。
Makingit a habit, youknow, hasbeenreallyempowering.
把它變成一種習慣,你知道,這真的很有力量。
I thinkcreativelythere's a coupleofscripts I'vecomeoutwithwhere I'm like, okay, I don't really, I don't reallyseethepointinthat I don't think I needtoworkonthatanymore.
Telluswhatgamewe'replaying, we'replaying, settlersofCatan, which I'veonlylostattwiceinteresting.
告訴我們在玩什麼遊戲,我們在玩,卡坦島的定居者,我只輸過兩次,很有意思。
Okay, youmadeitseemlikeand I wanttohaveanyeveryothertimeit's whatitseemedlike.
好吧,你讓它看起來像和我想有任何其他的時間,它是它看起來像什麼。
I wishyouwouldn't understand I losttwice, but I'veonlyplayeditonce.
我希望你不要理解我輸了兩次,但我只玩過一次。
Let's go.
我們走吧。
Yeah.
是的。
Okay.
好的。
Youknowwhat I justrealizedismynightmaresaregettingsosneakyandadvanced.
你知道我剛剛意識到的是我的噩夢變得如此偷偷摸摸和先進。
So I'm a prettyluciddreamer.
所以我是一個相當清醒的夢者。
If I amhaving a nightmare, I cannormallyfindsomethingtoread, realizeit's gibberishandthenwakemyselfupalmostallofmynightmaresinthelastyearhaveoccurredwhere I'm righthere.
I think I'm awakeand I think I'm experiencingsomethinghorrifyingandso I havenoreasontosuspect I mightactuallybeasleep.
我認為我是清醒的,我認為我正在經歷一些可怕的事情,所以我沒有理由懷疑我可能真的在睡覺。
Although I willsayonetime I had a dream, I wasparalyzedinbed.
雖然我要說,有一次我做了一個夢,我癱瘓在床上。
A lotofparalysisactually.
實際上有很多癱瘓的情況。
And I calledmyfriendMichelleandJasonwholivedcloseby, I waslikestrugglingtogetthephoneandcallthembecausetheywere, there's someoneaftermeortherewassomeoneinmyhouseandsaid, heypleasehelp, there's someoneinmyhouse, pleasehelp.
Getup, thepolicearecomingand I waslikethat's toomean, Jasonwouldneverspeaktomethatway.
起來,警察來了,我覺得這太卑鄙了,傑森不會這樣對我說話。
Absolutelynot.
絕對不是。
Thisis a dream.
這是個夢想。
And I wokeupso I thinkmybarometerfordreamsnowhastobe, where's Jason?
我醒了,所以我想我現在做夢的晴雨表必須是,傑森在哪裡?
Letmetalktohimifhe's, ifhe's anythingevenremotelyunlikeTedlasso, thisis a fuckingdream, I'm outofhere.
讓我和他談談,如果他是,如果他是什麼甚至遠程不像泰德-拉索,這是一個他媽的夢,我離開這裡。
Butno, actually I'm veryterrifiedby, bymydreamsevolving, I don't likethat, I don't likemynightmaresevolving, no, thankyou, I don't wantthat, I don't wantthat.