We are ruminating pondering exploring catastrophic scenarios, scanning our past, attacking ourselves for things we have done and not done, questioning our legitimacy, talking to ourselves about how repulsive we are paying attention to strange voices, recommending that we are evil and sick and headed for the worst and wondering how and whether we should kill ourselves.
我們在思考探索災難性的情景,掃描我們的過去,為我們已經做的和沒有做的事情攻擊自己,質疑我們的合法性,自言自語我們是多麼令人厭惡地關注奇怪的聲音,建議我們是邪惡的和生病的,走向最壞的情況,想知道我們應該如何和是否應該自殺。