A lot of people want to because they don't want to be an inconvenience to others.

很多人之所以想，是因為不想給別人帶來不便。

And I definitely think that that was a case for me.

而我絕對認為，這是我的一個案例。

But if you open up, chances are someone can relate to you and give you advice and tell you all the reasons you are incredibly beautiful, whether or not you think so yourself.

但如果你敞開心扉，有機會有人能與你共鳴，給你建議，告訴你所有你難以置信的美麗的原因，不管你自己是否這麼認為。

When I did ballet for like all my life, I would just see myself in mirrors constantly.

當我跳芭蕾舞的時候，就像我的一生，我只是不斷地在鏡子裡看到自己。

So I think that was my most unhealthy.

所以我覺得這是我最不健康的地方。

And I think honestly, when I stopped, like, doing valet and doing classes, I felt like that was the beginning of where I could start working on the body dysmorphia that it's just when you see yourself in the mirror is constantly and you're like wearing nothing.

我想說實話，當我停止， 喜歡，做代客泊車和做類， 我覺得這是開始的地方 我可以開始工作 在身體畸形，它只是當你看到自己 在鏡子裡是不斷 你像穿什麼。

You can really just like nit pick yourself to death, which is so unhealthy.

你真的可以就像挑剔自己一樣，把自己挑剔得要死，這太不健康了。

But I think when I stopped dancing was the beginning of like okay, I definitely need to heal because the way that I thought about myself when I was dancing was not healthy.

但我認為，當我停止跳舞的時候，是像好的開始，我肯定需要療傷，因為我跳舞時對自己的想法是不健康的。

I'm not in a place where I can say like Oh yeah, it's over.

我不是在一個地方，我可以說像 哦，是的，它結束了。

You know, I think, is an everyday like healing every day and reminding, like being so gentle with yourself.

你知道嗎，我想，就是每天像治癒每天，提醒，像對自己那麼溫柔。

I think you have to work on it every at least I have to work on it every single day.

我想你必須每至少我每天都要努力。

I do think working out in a healthy way has helped a lot because it makes me feel good, makes me feel stronger.

我確實認為以健康的方式鍛鍊對我有很大的幫助，因為它讓我感覺良好，讓我感覺更強壯。

But I used to work out constantly.

但我以前經常鍛鍊身體。

So now I'm trying to do things that I just generally love and not in like an over like a burnout way.

所以，現在我試圖做的事情，我只是一般的愛，而不是在像一個過像燒燬的方式。

Anthony and I my boyfriend, we're gonna start doing, like, dance like zoom bas.

安東尼和我... ...我的男朋友，我們要開始做的，就像，跳舞，像zoom bas。

It feels joyful to me, so I think that that's the main thing that's been helping.

我覺得很快樂，所以我覺得這是最主要的幫助。

It's like doing classes that are like fun or my trainer is great.

就像做課一樣，是喜歡好玩的，或者我的教練很厲害。

For example, he makes my training fun and doesn't push me to a place of burnout, which I think is important because once you have burnout, then it's all over.

比如，他讓我的訓練變得有趣，不會把我逼到倦怠的地步，我認為這一點很重要，因為一旦你有了倦怠，那麼一切就都結束了。

You're like, Oh man, every every bad thing that I say takes up so much more space in my head, then it should.

你就像，哦，夥計，每一個每一個壞事，我說佔據了這麼多的空間在我的頭上，那麼它應該。

So it's been such a like every day is up and you know it's very much a whirlwind.

所以，它一直是這樣的喜歡每一天是起來，你知道這是非常多的旋風。

And I like when I talk to my friends about this and everyone, a lot of people just say the same thing, But I think that I have really had to, like, double down in the mental health area of it, because I think just the unknowing of everything can get you if you don't really focus on your mental health, can get you really kind of jazzed up.

我喜歡當我跟我的朋友談論這個和每個人， 很多人只是說同樣的事情， 但我認為，我真的不得不一樣， 雙下在心理健康領域， 因為我認為只是未知的一切 可以讓你，如果你不真正專注於你的心理健康， 可以讓你真的有點迷糊了。

Um, so it's been like I've actively had to make sure that I'm taking care of myself every day because there are days, definitely that I'm like just I just lay in bed and won't do anything.

嗯，所以它一直像我積極 不得不確保 我照顧自己的每一天 因為有天，絕對 我喜歡只是我只是躺在床上 並不會做任何事情。

And then I realized like, Oh, I need to do something like meditate or read or whatnot.

然後我意識到，哦，我需要做一些事情，比如冥想或閱讀或什麼的。

And then physically, I was just talking about this, That right when the pandemic it I we all just stopped working, and I know for so many of us we were just work, work, work constantly, And so you didn't, at least for me.

然後身體上，我剛才說到，當大流行的時候，我們都停止了工作，我知道對我們很多人來說，我們只是工作，工作，不斷地工作，所以你沒有，至少對我來說是這樣。

I didn't have time to really sit and like with myself, and as soon as the pandemic it like I just stopped working, and then I feel like I just was like, Well, the world is over and so I just truly was like, I'll be cash potato forever.

我沒有時間真正坐下來 和喜歡與自己， 並儘快流行 它像我只是停止工作， 然後我覺得我只是喜歡， 好了，世界已經結束了，所以我只是 真正的是喜歡，我會永遠是現金馬鈴薯。

And then it was only two, like recently where I started like, No, the world will keep going.

然後只有兩個，就像最近我開始喜歡，不，世界會繼續前進。

And so now I'm like working out and doing all this stuff, but it's definitely not I'm not going to stay here and say, Oh, yeah, it's been, like, awesome myself.

所以，現在我喜歡工作了，做這些東西，但它絕對不是我不會留在這裡說，哦，是的，它已經一樣，真棒自己。

Care has been great because I don't know if it truly has up until, like, you know, the plastic, maybe three months where I'm like, Okay, the world isn't going to end now.

護理一直很好，因為我不知道它是否真的有，直到，像，你知道，塑膠，也許三個月，我想，好吧，世界不會結束了。

I feel like we're going to be I feel like there's hope, but who knows I for myself.

我覺得我們會... ...我覺得有希望，但誰知道我為自己。

It's like sometimes when you're feeling very low, you just kind of binge, and that's how it is in the moment.

就像有時候當你感覺很低落的時候，你就會有點狂歡，當下就是這樣。

Like I know I've talked about it publicly, but it's like something I think that's feels so private to me.

就像我知道我已經談到了它公開， 但它就像我認為的東西 這是感覺如此私人給我。

And then I just like, have this moment.

然後我只是喜歡，有這個時刻。

This particularly this year.

這尤其是今年。

I was like, not alone in this, you know, This year has given us the space, at least myself.

我當時想，不是一個人在這，你知道，今年已經給了我們空間，至少我自己。

I'll always speak for myself, has given me the space to see what really truly matters.

我永遠為自己說話，已經給了我一個空間，讓我看到真正真正重要的東西。

Like at the end of the day, I'm so like I love my dog, you know?

就像在一天結束的時候，我很喜歡 我愛我的狗，你知道嗎？

And I know now the times that I've abandoned myself, and I don't want to ever feel like that again.

而我現在知道我拋棄了自己的時候，我不想再有這樣的感覺。

I don't feel the need to be like I have to say yes to every single thing because mentally that's not healthy.

我不覺得有必要像我必須對每一件事都說好，因為從心理上來說，這是不健康的。

My ultimate self care for me is being with my pup.

對我來說，我最終的自我關懷是和我的小狗在一起。

Well, it's not a puppy anymore about Call her a puppy forever being with my dog Emmy, Um, reading a thriller and not talking to anyone, I think there's like Another thing I've realized this year is I think I'm very much an introvert more than I ever thought, because I thought to myself like, Oh, I'm an introvert that I charge as an introvert And then I expel extroverted energy.

好了，它不是一隻小狗了 關於叫她一隻小狗，永遠與我的狗艾美，嗯，閱讀一本驚悚小說，不說話的人，我認為有像另一件事，我已經意識到今年是我覺得我非常多一個內向比我曾經認為，因為我想自己喜歡，哦，我是一個內向，我充電作為一個內向，然後我排出外向的能量。

But no, I think I'm like, truly like That's why I say, like, I don't mind being alone.

但不，我想我喜歡，真正的喜歡 這就是為什麼我說，喜歡，我不介意孤獨。

I'm not talking to anyone.

我不跟任何人說話。

So that's another thing I've learned this year, and I think that's okay.

所以這是我今年學到的另一個東西，我覺得還不錯。

But as a performer, you have to expel energy and and be brighter or bigger than I think you are in real life because I remember talking to my boyfriend being like Oh my God, I'm exhausted after work, like a year ago or whatever.

但作為一個表演者，你必須排出能量和和比我認為你在現實生活中更明亮或更大，因為我記得和我的男朋友說話是像哦，我的上帝，我累了工作後，像一年前或什麼。

I'm so exhausted after work and I think it's because I'm just like I feel like I'm putting out so much energy and like trying to be so bright and all these things and like trying to entertain people when I'm not in front of the camera and all these different things, and I'm so tired.

我工作後很疲憊，我認為這是因為我只是喜歡我覺得我把這麼多的能量，像試圖成為如此明亮和所有這些東西，像試圖娛樂的人，當我不在鏡頭前，所有這些不同的事情，我很累。

But that's because I was like, I think, you know, insecure who I am just as Lana.

但那是因為我喜歡，我想，你知道，不安全 我是誰，就像拉娜。

So that's something that again coming back into, like, shooting and working Now it's like, Mm, I know the way that I acted on set before covid, but it feels different now, and I don't know if it's a good or bad, but I feel great, so I'm just gonna roll with it.

所以這也是再次回到拍攝和工作中去的原因，就像，嗯，我知道在科維德之前我在片場的表現，但現在感覺不一樣了，我不知道這是好是壞，但我感覺很好，所以我就順其自然吧。

People are speaking their truth during the pandemic.

疫情期間，人們都在講真話。

I honestly couldn't tell you why I decided to like, be more outspoken, I think I mean, I would like to like my little cousins are dealing with the same things.

說實話，我不能告訴你為什麼我決定喜歡，更直言不諱，我想我的意思是，我想喜歡我的小表弟們正在處理同樣的事情。

I want them to know that they're not alone.

我想讓他們知道，他們並不孤單。

Like if you're 12 right now, growing up right As a kid, you just like you look up to like I don't tiktok.

就像你現在12歲，長大了吧 作為一個孩子，你只是喜歡你仰望 像我不Tiktok。

But I will.

但我會的

Maybe tiktok.

也許是tiktok。

But like all these people look so perfect.

但像這些人看起來都很完美。

I'm 23 I'm influenced by it.

我23歲我受它的影響。

And I'm like, Oh my God!

我想，哦，我的上帝！

Like all these models and everyone looks so great, What do I do?

像這些模特，每個人看起來都很好，我該怎麼辦？

But we have to do a better job being kind to ourselves, for sure.

但我們一定要做得更好，對自己好一點。

I've seen people that I look up to share their mental health journey, particularly recently, and that has helped me feel stronger about talking about where I can feel more confident.

我看到我所仰望的人分享他們的心理健康歷程，特別是最近，這幫助我更堅定地談論我可以更自信的地方。

But it's a journey.

但這是一個旅程。

That's why they call it a journey.

這就是為什麼他們稱它為旅程。

I think if someone would have come to me asking for advice about yeah, about body dysmorphia and just any sort of mental health, I would just say you have to treat yourself like your best friend and you have to talk to yourself like your your best friend.

我想，如果有人會來找我詢問意見，關於是的，關於身體畸形和只是任何種類的心理健康，我會只是說你必須像你最好的朋友對待自己，你必須跟自己像你最好的朋友。

You would never tell your best friend like the things that you say to yourself and your darkest times.

你絕對不會像對自己說的那些話和你最黑暗的時候，告訴你最好的朋友。

You would never in a million years, and I think that we have to talk to ourselves kindly and gently and treat ourselves like our best friends.

你一萬年也不會，我覺得我們要善意地、溫柔地和自己說話，把自己當成最好的朋友。

Because this is like all we have.

因為這就像我們所擁有的一切。

Like, this is this mind.

就像，這就是這個心態。

And this body is like the one we get.

而這個身體就像我們得到的。

Yeah.

是啊。