and I kind of shrugged it off because The Field Museum is very supportive of women in science.

我其實不太以為然因為菲爾德博物館非常得支持攝域科學領域的女性

We even have a "Women in Science" group here at The Field Museum made of both men and women and members of the community

在菲爾德博物館我們甚至有一個由科學領域的男性、女性組成的「科學女性」組織

where we come together and figure out ways we can best promote the work of female researchers in this male-dominated field.

在「科學女性」，我們討論如何在這男性主導的領域裡促進與推廣女性從事科學研究

The more I thought about it though, along with another question of is there any part of my job that I don't look forward to,

可是加上另一個問題「你不喜歡你的工作的哪個部分？」，我想了一想

I would have to say it would be the frustratingly negative and sexist comments

我覺得會是我每天從我各個信箱中過濾掉的

that I have to sift through in my various inboxes on a daily basis.

一些令人沮喪的負面、性別歧視留言

Now don't get me wrong: the overwhelming majority of comments I receive are positive and encouraging,

別誤會了，我收到絕大部分的留言都充滿了正向與鼓勵

but there are still a lot of nastiness that I have to deal with on a daily basis in trying to make these positive, encouraging videos.

可是為了做這些正向與鼓勵性的影片，我每天還是需要處理一堆噁心的東西

This is especially obvious when I happen to host an episode or co-host with another person on somebody else's channel

尤其是我在別人的頻道上主持或是共同主持的時候

for an audience that isn't as familiar with me or my work or Soon Raccoon.

面對不熟悉我或是我的工作或是快了浣熊的觀眾

It made me wonder - is there anyone else going through this?

這讓我懷疑：其他人也經歷過這樣的處境嗎？

Who are the other women who have STEM channels -

還有哪些是由女性主持的STEM頻道——

those that primarily focus on Science, Technology, Engineering, or Math?

注重於科學(Science)、科技(Technology)、工程(Engineering)或是數學(Math)？

I spent an embarrassingly long amount of time just trying to think of a handful of these people.

令人覺得難堪的，我花了非常非常久的時間才想到一些這樣的人物

What I found out is that while there are at least 13 STEM channels hosted by men

我找到至少有13個由男性主持的STEM頻道

with more than 400,000 subscribers— and 7 of those 13 which have topped a million—

他們各有超過40萬個訂閱者，其中7個頻道擁有超過百萬個訂閱者

there are only 4 channels hosted by women that even have more than 160,000. None of us have more than a million.

然而只有4個由女性主持的STEM頻道有超過16萬的訂閱，沒有人超過百萬

When I asked my Twitter followers to name their favorite STEM women, they said, quote:

而當我要我Twitter follower提供他們喜歡的STEM女性的時候，他們說：

"There are others besides you and Vi Hart? Hmm, must do research!"

「除了你跟Vi Hart還有其他人喔？嗯... 需要研究研究！」

and, "You and Vi Hart are both awesome, though sadly you're the only two I know."

還有「你和Vi Hart都超棒的！可惜我只知道你們兩個。」

This isn't an us versus them, and it's not a numbers game. I'm just trying to make the point that there are

這不是男女之間的大戰，更不是數字遊戲。我只想提出我的觀點：

significantly and noticeably less women making science and technology themed educational channels on YouTube.

在YouTube上提供科學科技主題教育頻道的女性明顯少了很多

I'm also not saying the men that I looked at don't deserve the numbers that they have because I do think that their content it good and it should be celebrated.

我也不是在說我找到的那些男主持人不值得他們的訂閱人數，我覺得他們的內容很棒而且需要被表揚

But what is preventing women from reaching the same number of people?

但是是什麼在阻礙女性達到相同的訂閱人數呢？

I feel like in general, women don't have enough time to do these things because of the pressure that every episode has to be flawless in execution.

我覺得通常女性沒時間做這些東西，是因為被期待每一集的製作都需要是完美無瑕而來的壓力

This could be a deterrent for both men and women but I feel like women are going to give up more easily because of comments like this:

這壓力當然同時能影響男性與女性，但是我覺得女性會比較容易放棄因為像這樣的留言：

"I'd still totally do her."

「我還是超想做她。」

We have a fear of the feedback from our subscribers and commenters because we're afraid that

我們會害怕我們的訂閱者與評論者的留言，因為我們害怕

our audience is more focused on our appearance than the quality of our content.

我們的觀眾只注意我們的外表，而不是內容的品質

Even more than that, we're not convinced that the content has to be good or factual

甚至我們不覺得內容需要是好的或是是事實

because we're not convinced that people are watching for the content in the first place.

因為我們不覺得看我們影片的人在乎的是內容

"Finally I've saw her body... oh my god!!! How can a woman be hotter than Emily?

「我終於看到她的身體... 天啊！！！還有比愛蜜莉更火辣的女人嗎？

"If you ever need a safe place to stay while you study the Patagonia in Argentina, please...

...如果你在阿根廷的巴塔哥尼亞研究時需要一個安全的住所，

"feel free to get in touch with me, I will sponsor your whole journey just to stare at you!!!"

...請聯絡我，我會贊助你整趟旅行，只為了盯著你看！！！」

There's a fear of the awkwardness that comes with being onscreen with anybody else

我同時會害怕和別人一起出現在節目上的尷尬場面

because some assume that there must be some sort of personal relationship happening,

因為有些人會以為你們一定有什麼發生什麼私人關係

which makes work with that person later on awkward. And on top of that it makes me feel awkward

以後要和那人合作就會變得有點尷尬。同時，邀請其他人上我的節目

having somebody on my show because I'm afraid they're going to see those kind of comments.

變得更尷尬因為我怕他們會看到那些留言

"This is the weirdest lesbian porn I've ever seen."

「這是我看過最奇怪的女同性戀A片。」

"For the first 7 minutes I thought how Emily and Hank should totally hook up.

「前7分鐘我覺得艾蜜莉和漢客應該要愛愛

"Then the Animal Wonders girl came out, I thought they should totally have a threesome."

...然後那個Animal Wonders女孩出現了，我覺得他們應該要來個3P。」

That brings on self criticism, like, I'm not intelligent, or funny, or engaging enough on my own.

接著又是人身批評，像是我自己不夠聰明、好笑、有參與感似的

"She just needs some sexier glasses."

「他只需要一副性感一點的眼鏡。」

"I can't stop looking at her nose... It looks so weird. It kinda makes her look like a nerdy pig."

「我不停地盯著她的鼻子看... 長的好奇怪。她的鼻子讓她看起來像隻書呆子豬。」

There's a pressure to be the whole package.

有種壓力要求你要樣樣具到

Not only do you have to be intelligent and articulate, but you also have to be attractive.

你不止要聰明、流利，你同時還要漂亮

"Emily, even though the clothes you're wearing kinda disguise it, you look like you might be pretty hot under them,

「艾蜜莉，雖然你穿的衣服有點遮住了，你衣服下的身體看起來還滿辣地，

"perhaps you should consider wearing slightly racier clothing;

...或許你該穿些撩人一點的衣服，

"besides obviously pleasing to straight males and gay females, it might boost your self-esteem."

...不止取悅男人和女同性戀，同時可以增強自信心喔。」

"She is really cute, but as if she made herself unattractive on purpose.

「她好可愛，可是她好像故意把自己搞得不好看的樣子。

"She could easily keep us focused just by changing her clothes.... I would really like to see her again with new looks."

...她只要換一下穿著就能得到我們的注意力，當她改變造型後我會再回來看的。」

The lack of acknowledgement from others around you towards these negative comments,

當你周遭的人對這些負面評語不以為然

being like, "ah, it's just YouTube," "oh, they're just anonymous comments. Don't listen to them."

像是「喔，只是YouTube而已嘛。」跟「喔，只是些匿名的留言。不要理他們。」

But when they're so personal...

可是當他們到達人身攻擊的境界...

"i don't know what kind of people get offended or insulted by compliments.

「我不知道哪種人會被讚美冒犯或羞辱。

"Maybe he should have said that she's ugly and should go die."

...他應該說她很醜，醜到應該去死一死。」

And then there's just blatant, general sexism.

然後還有公然的性別歧視

"youd think this was a mans job, not 2 beautiful ladies'"

「這應該是男人的工作，不是給兩個美麗的小姐。」

"Thumbs up for the Skyrim reference, it made me chortle. I assume that was written by Michael?"

「引用上古卷軸 5： 無界天際，給個讚，害我整個撲哧笑出來。稿子是麥可寫的吧？」

That was not written by me.

那不是我寫的

I've heard from male colleagues that while they certainly don't support sexism and they think it's awful,

我的男性同事表示雖然他們絕對不支持性別歧視爾且覺得性別歧視很不好

they feel as though they have nothing to contribute to the conversation.

但他們也覺得不知道從何幫助起

But it starts with an acknowledgment from both men and women that these are serious issues that need to be discussed.

但是改變從認知到這是個嚴重的問題而且需要被討論開始

We can't idly sit by and tolerate internet bullying in any form.

我們不能袖手旁觀而包容各種形式的網路霸陵

Because that's what this is, this is internet bullying.

因為這是，這是網路霸陵！

Help us make it widely known that this kind of apathetic attitude is detrimental and unacceptable.

幫我們讓大家知道這種可憐的態度是有害的且不可接受的

We need to make sure we're making it possible for people of all genders to feel acknowledged for their contributions

我們需要確定我們承認各種性別的人所做的貢獻

and not feel held back by something as arbitrary as their genetics or appearance.

而且不會感覺被一些抽象的東西限制住，像是他們的基因或長相

But how do we encourage more women to be content creators?

但是我們如何鼓勵更多女性成為內容創作者呢？

It starts by supporting our fellow creators, recognize we're all going to undergo a learning curve in the beginning,

從支持我們的創作者開始，知道說剛開始時我們會經歷一段成長期

and to not let it end there because of unnecessary pressure or negativity. In the end we stay committed to a mission

而且不能因為一些不必要的負面壓力。最後，我們堅守於我們製作優質教育內容的任務

of making quality educational content in order provide for more women role-models to fill these spaces.

來提供更多女性榜樣來填補這些空缺

And ladies, it gets better.

女孩們，明天會更好