Russell Wilson, fourth-round pick to the Colorado Rockies baseball.

2010 年 6 月 8 日，

I'm fired up,

羅素威爾遜，在第四輪 選進了科羅拉多洛磯棒球隊。

one of the highest moments of my life.

我好激動，這是我人生中 最興奮的時刻之一。

Every kid's dream to be drafted by a Major League Baseball team.

每個孩子的夢想就是 被大聯盟球隊給相中。

June 8, 2010.

2010 年 6 月 8 日。

June 9, 2010 --

2010 年 6 月 9 日——

(Imitating flatline sound)

（模仿心電圖成直線的聲音）

The line goes flat.

那條線變成了水平線。

My dad passes away.

我爸爸過世了。

The highest of the high

從興奮之最

to the lowest of the low.

掉到了低潮之最。

Just like that.

只在轉眼間。

My dad laying in his deathbed,

我爸爸躺在他臨終的床上，

just tears running down my face,

我潸然淚下，

you know, what do I do next?

接下來要怎麼辦？

My mind racing, memories, flashbacks, moments,

我的大腦轉個不停、記憶、 往事重現、各種時刻、

early mornings, getting up,

一大早、起床、

taking grounders and throwing,

接滾地球和傳球、

speed outs and deep post routes to my brother and my dad,

美式足球跑位長傳給我兄弟和爸爸、

to early morning car rides to AAU baseball,

一大早搭車到業餘運動聯盟棒球場，

to my dad being the third-base coach.

到我爸爸當三壘教練。

Fast-forward to the championship high of winning a Super Bowl,

快轉到贏得超級盃冠軍的興奮，

holding up the Lombardi Trophy

把蘭巴迪獎座高高舉起， 還有滿滿的情緒和激動，

and the emotions and the excitement of it all,

到處都是藍色和綠色的碎紙片， 知道你剛贏得了超級盃，

blue and green confetti all over the place

到一年後，比賽的壓力，

and knowing that you just won the Super Bowl,

一碼線上的球，

to a year later, the pressure of the game,

這是贏得比賽的機會，結果還是輸了。

the ball on the one-yard line,

全世界有數百萬人在觀看。

and this is the chance to win the game, and it doesn't work.

我得走向媒體，

And however many millions and millions of people

我接下來要說什麼、 要做什麼、要想什麼？

all over the world watching.

很年輕時就結婚，

And having to walk to the media,

才剛從大學畢業等等，

and what do I say next, what do I do, what do I think?

沒多久，婚姻走不下去了，

Being married at a young age

知道我接著了解到什麼嗎？

and just coming out of college and everything else,

這就是人生。

to, you know, shortly after, marriage not working out

這就是人生，每個人都會經歷的。

and realizing, you know what?

失去家人、離婚、

Life happens.

恐懼、痛苦、沮喪、擔憂、操心。

Life happens, life happens to all of us.

若要說超級正面—— 是，我天生很正面，

Loss of family members, divorce,

但，要知道，正面不見得一定都有用，

fear, pain, depression, concerns, worries.

因為，在國家聯會冠軍賽中 比數是十六比零時，

When you think about being superpositive --

大家都在說：「羅素， 我們贏不了這場比賽，

yes, I'm positive by nature,

老兄，現在的情況真的不妙。」

but positivity, you know, it doesn't always work,

或者，當你面臨癌症，

because when you're down 16-nothing in an NFC championship game,

或者你得要處理某些事情，

and people are like,

或者財務上，還有其他種種， 我們要怎麼處理？

"Russ, we're not going to be able to win this game, man,

在這些情況下很難保持正面。

it's not a great situation right now,"

我能很肯定知道的是： 任何情況下，負面都有影響力。

or when you're facing cancer,

負面對我完全沒幫助。

or when you have things you have to deal with

我開始告訴自己： 「神的慈悲每晨都會更新。」

or finances and this and that,

新的開端，新的開始。

like, how do we deal with it?

儘管有辛苦、痛苦、 擔心、想要撐過這一切，

It's hard to be positive in the midst of it all.

我該怎麼做？我開始想開車的情況。

And what I definitely knew was this:

我知道開手排車時，怎麼排到空檔？

that negativity works 100 percent of the time.

你知道怎麼從一檔到二檔， 一直換到五檔？

Negativity was going to get me nowhere.

你必須要知道如何換到空檔。

I started saying to myself, "New are his mercies every morning,"

我需要在撞車之前馬上換到空檔。

new beginnings, new starts.

超級盃結束之後，我得做一個決定：

And despite hardship and pain and worries and wanting to get through it

我要讓它定義我的職涯和人生嗎？

and "How do I do this?",

當然不要。

I started thinking about a car.

我發現的是：心態是一種技能，

You know how when you drive a car, you've got stick shift

是可以教導和習得的。

and you want to shift to neutral?

十年前我開始訓練我的心智，

You go from first gear to second gear, all the way to fifth?

心智訓練教練是崔佛莫瓦， 十年來一直在協助我。

You've got to know how to shift to neutral.

從那時起我們就一直是好友和夥伴。

And I needed to shift to neutral immediately, before I crashed.

我們運動員會訓練身體，

Sitting there after the Super Bowl,

訓練自己跑得更快、 丟得更遠、跳得更高，

I had a decision to make:

做到各種不同的事，

Will I let this define my career? Will I let it define my life?

但何不訓練我們的心智？

Hell, no.

你想要怎樣的人生？

What I found out was this: that mindset is a skill.

寫出來、講出來、說出來。

It can be taught and learned.

我們會怎麼表達？怎麼描繪？

I started 10 years ago, training my mind,

羅素，看看你假想人生中 最美好時刻的精彩片段。

with this guy named Trevor Moawad, my mental conditioning coach.

看起來是什麼樣子？

He's been with me for 10 years,

就照那樣做、那樣生活、那樣說話。

and we've been best friends and partners ever since.

最棒的罰球手失手了不會再去多想。

As athletes, we train the body,

他們只想著這次射門、 這次推桿、這次投球、這次進攻。

we train ourselves to be able to run fast, throw farther, jump higher

接著我遇到了十九歲的米爾頓萊特，

and do these different things,

他得了癌症三次。

but why don't we train our mind?

我去看他的那天，他很挫折：

What do you want your life to look like?

「羅素，到此為止， 我不想繼續了，我該走了。」

Write it out, talk about it, say it.

我開始告訴他我爸爸的故事，

What's our language, what does it look like,

他以前會說：「兒子，你也可以呀！

watch these highlights, Russell, when you're in your best moments.

你為什麼不能提早畢業， 去打職業美式足球和籃球？

What does that look like?

你也可以呀！你也可以呀！」

And be that, live that, sound like that.

我說：「米爾頓，你也可以呀！

The best free throw shooters,

如果你試過 T 細胞治療，

they don't worry about the shot they just missed.

結果行不通，你也不會記得。」

They think about this shot,

米爾頓微笑著說：「你說的沒錯。

this putt, this throw, this first down.

是的，我確實有癌症，羅素。

Then I met this kid Milton Wright, 19 years old,

但我可以讓它擊敗我，

he had cancer three different times.

不只是身體上，

This day when I went to see him, he was frustrated,

我也可以讓它在情緒上 和心理上擊敗我。

"Russ, I'm done, I don't want to do this anymore,

現在我得做選擇，

it's my time to go."

身在這個問題、這場風暴當中，

I started telling him this story about my dad,

我得決定要去克服。」

how he used to say, "Son, why not you?

我常常會被問到打空檔思考的問題：

Why don't you graduate early, play pro football and pro baseball?

那是否表示我不會有任何情緒？

Why not you, why not you?"

我總是回答：絕非如此。 我們會有情緒。

I said, "Milton, why not you?

我們要面對、處理真實人生，

If you tried T-cell therapy,

但你可以持續專注在當下，

and you try this and it doesn't work,

不要過度情緒化。

you won't remember it."

可以有情緒沒關係，但不要情緒化。

So Milton got a smile on his face and said,

別人看我時，

"You're exactly right.

看到是國家美式足球聯盟 最高薪的球員，

Yes, I do have cancer, Russ.

看到我有女兒、有席亞拉、 我有家庭等等。

But I can either let this kill me,

但我仍然要面對真實人生的狀況。

not just physically,

大家都一樣；

but I can also let it kill me emotionally and mentally.

我們都會有悲傷、失去、 沮喪、擔憂、恐懼。

And I have a choice right now, in the midst of the problem,

我不是一步登天。

in the midst of the storm,

真相是什麼？

to decide to overcome."

我要怎麼用較好的方式度過它？

One of the questions I always get asked about neutral thinking is this:

某種程度我是因此開始轉念的。

"Does that mean I don't have any emotion?"

並不是在成功的時刻或失敗的時刻，

And I always say, absolutely not.

而是在過程中，比如：

Yeah, we have emotions,

下一步是什麼？

we have real-life situations,

此時此刻我要怎麼做這件事？

we have things to deal with.

在人生中我們要做選擇。

But what you have to be able to do is to stay focused on the moment

對我來說，當我很年輕 且尚未擁有很多時，

and to not be superemotional.

我做了個選擇， 要去相信會有好事發生，

It's OK to have emotions, but don't be emotional.

相信我會找到對的心態，

When people look at me,

我會說出對的話，去想對的事，

they see that I'm the highest-paid player in the NFL,

這些協助了我成就今日。

they see that I have the girl and Ciara,

因為我是凡人。

that I have the family and this and that.

只是有能力可以把球丟得很遠，

But I still have real-life situations.

跑來跑去做一些很酷的傳球，

We all do.

讓一些人微笑。

We all have, you know, sadness and loss

但，現實是，我仍然有壓力，

and depression and worries and fear.

我仍然有憂慮，我仍然有恐懼， 我仍然有狀況會發生。

I didn't just get here.

我仍然會失去。

What's the truth,

正面思考可能會很危險，

and how do I come through this better?

而負面總是會有不好的影響。

And that's really, kind of, how my mind started shifting.

我從來就不想活在負面中，

It was not just on the success of it all or the failure of it,

所以我保持在空檔。

it was on the process, like:

我把我的排檔放在空檔。

What is the next step, how do I do this right here, right now?

那就是我所處的位置，

We have a choice to make in life.

我從此也就一直處在那個位置。

And for me, when I was young and I didn't have much,

I made a choice.

I made a choice that I was going to believe

that great things were going to happen,

that I was going to have my mindset right,

and I was going to have the right language

and the right things to think about,

which helped prepare me for today.

Because I'm just human.

I just have the ability to throw the ball a long way

and run around and make some cool and fun throws

and make some people smile.

But the reality is that I still have pressure,

I still have worries, I still have fears,

I still have things that happen.

Still have loss.

Positivity can be dangerous.

But what always works is negativity.

I never wanted to live in negativity,

so I stayed in neutral.

I kept my shift in neutral.

And so that's where I lived,

and that's where I've been living ever since.