And this is that story.

這就是那個故事。

My name is Laina Morris,

我的名字是萊娜莫里斯。

but you may know me as overly attached girlfriend.

但你可能會知道我作為過度重視的女朋友。

This all started in 2012.

這一切始於2012年。

I was 20 years old in school to become a teacher.

我20歲在學校當老師。

I had actually just taken a break

其實我剛剛休息了一下

and I was working part-time at a place

我在一個地方打工

called Pack and Mail.

叫做Pack and Mail。

Just living with my college roommates,

只是和我的大學室友住在一起。

going to work, life is pretty normal.

上班，生活很正常。

In the back of my mind,

在我的腦海裡。

like if I could have done anything,

就像如果我可以做任何事情。

I would have moved to L.A. and done acting

我會搬到洛杉磯去做演員。

or writing or something like that.

或寫作或類似的東西。

But I wasn't confident enough

但我還不夠自信

in that happening for me to really take that leap.

在發生的情況下，我真正採取這種飛躍。

So I was in my apartment

所以我在我的公寓裡

looking online at just like,

在網上看就像。

you know, the daily Justin Bieber news as you do.

你知道，每天賈斯汀比伯的新聞，因為你做的。

And I came across a contest that Justin Bieber was having.

我發現賈斯汀-比伯有一個比賽。

He had a hit song at the time called "Boyfriend"

他當時有一首主打歌叫 "男朋友"

and he was releasing a new fragrance called Girlfriend.

併發布了一款名為 "女友 "的新香水。

So he asked fans to make a parody song

所以他請歌迷們做一首模仿歌。

from the girlfriend's perspective.

從女友的角度來看。

So I got really excited

所以我很興奮

and started writing lyrics right away.

並馬上開始寫歌詞。

I wasn't Justin Bieber fan.

我不是賈斯汀-比伯的粉絲。

I mean keep in mind, I was 20 years old

我的意思是記住，我是20歲的時候

and Justin Bieber was like a teenager.

而賈斯汀-比伯就像一個少年。

I wasn't really like obsessed with him.

我並不是真的喜歡迷戀他。

I think it was kind of fun,

我覺得挺好玩的。

like silly music that I enjoyed,

喜歡傻傻的音樂，我很喜歡。

but it wasn't like a real obsession

但它不像一個真正的痴迷

like of people may think it was.

像的人可能認為是。

When it came up to the lyrics of the song,

當到了這首歌的歌詞。

I knew that I wanted it to be funny.

我知道，我希望它是有趣的。

His original lyrics, I think are, I'll never let you go.

他的原創歌詞，我想是，我永遠不會讓你走。

And so I just kind of took that and made it to the extreme

所以我就把它做到了極致。

and that kind of took off from there.

而那種從那裡起飛。

♪ If I was your girlfriend, I'd drive you up the wall ♪

如果我是你的女朋友， 我會開車送你上牆？

♪ Question who you're with ♪

問題你是誰與

♪ Yeah, I'd always call and call ♪

是啊，我總是打電話和調用

I wasn't actually speaking from experience.

其實我不是憑經驗說的。

The creepy face was definitely like a last minute decision.

這張詭異的臉絕對像是最後一刻的決定。

So I was on like my fourth take of this song

所以，我是在像我的第四次採取這首歌

and I realized that there's this really long

我意識到，有這個真的很長的

instrumental period of time at the beginning of the song

句號

where I was just sitting there and not doing anything.

在那裡，我只是坐在那裡，什麼都不做。

So I just sort of decided to stare straight into my webcam

所以我決定對著我的攝像頭直勾勾地看

and make the creepiest face I could make.

並做出我所能做出的最詭異的表情。

I had no idea how profoundly this would affect my life.

我不知道這對我的生活會產生多麼深刻的影響。

I posted the video to YouTube for the contest

我把視頻上傳到YouTube上參加比賽

the night of June 6th

六月六日晚

and then I think like right after that,

然後我想就在那之後。

I shared it to my Facebook page.

我把它分享到我的Facebook頁面。

It was before I went to bed that night

那天晚上我睡覺前

that I knew people that I didn't know in real life

我認識的人，我不知道在現實生活中。

were watching it.

在看它。

I remember my roommates and I were staying up

我記得我和我的室友們都沒睡好

watching the numbers come in

拭目以待

and there was like 52 comments at one point.

並有像52評論在一個點。

And I knew that I didn't know 52 people

我知道，我不認識52個人。

that would take the time to watch

會花時間看的

and especially comment on the video.

並特別對視頻進行評論。

And then I went to bed and then I woke up

然後我就去睡覺，然後我就醒了。

and it was a lot bigger than it was the night before.

而且比前一天晚上要大很多。

My first memory of that day

我對那天的第一印象是

is walking out into my living room

正走到我的客廳

and my roommate turning their computers toward me

和我的室友把他們的電腦對著我

and saying, "You're a meme."

並說，"你是一個meme。"

And that's when I realized my face was everywhere.

這時我才發現我的臉無處不在。

All day, I was just getting like texts from my friends

整天，我只是收到朋友們的簡訊。

and seeing comments online and I couldn't get online

看到網上的評論，我卻上不了網。

without seeing my own creepy face

不看自己的臉

staring back at me.

盯著我。

Well, like my friends and I had thought

嗯，就像我和我的朋友們所想的那樣

it was mostly just funny.

它主要是隻是有趣。

Like I feel like I'm really lucky that I was in on the joke.

我覺得我真的很幸運，我是在開玩笑。

I know that's not the case for a lot of other people

我知道很多人不是這樣的。

that kind of wake up and realize their face

恍然大悟的樣子

is all over the internet and they've become a meme,

是所有的互聯網，他們已經成為一個備忘錄。

but there was no negativity at first.

但一開始並沒有負面情緒。

It was just like all really, really cool, positive,

它只是喜歡所有真的， 真的很酷，積極的。

like what's happening?

像發生了什麼？

This is crazy.

這真是瘋了。

At the time, "Call Me Maybe" by Carly Rae Jepsen

當時，Carly Rae Jepsen的《Call Me Maybe》。

was really popular.

是真的很受歡迎。

And so people were asking

所以人們都在問

for that very specific parody for me to do.

為那個非常具體的模仿我做。

And I wasn't sure like if I should keep it going

我不知道是否應該繼續下去。

or just like, let it be what it was.

或只是喜歡，讓它成為什麼。

I didn't want to milk it for too long.

我不想把它擠得太久。

I decided to go ahead and do it

我決定繼續做下去

and the second video blew up

而第二段視頻就爆炸了

and then the number one and number two top spots on YouTube

然後在YouTube上排名第一和第二的位置。

were both my videos.

都是我的視頻。

That is kind of when I realized like,

那是一種當我意識到喜歡。

okay, maybe I should kind of ride this wave

好吧，也許我應該種騎這個浪潮

and go along with this, make it into something.

並順著這一點，把它做成東西。

I was on YouTube.

我在YouTube上。

Then I did a bunch of different like sketches,

然後我做了一堆不同的喜歡的草圖。

interview type things and blogs.

採訪類的東西和博客。

I got to be on the red carpet at the American Music Awards.

我上了美國音樂獎的紅地毯。

I also got to go to Singapore

我還去了新加坡

where I had a staring contest

在那裡我有一個凝視比賽

on stage with Jessica Alba,

與傑西卡-阿爾芭同臺。

which is like simultaneously one of the coolest

這就像同時一個最酷的

and weirdest things that's ever happened to me.

和最奇怪的事情，曾經發生在我身上。

I lost during the rehearsal, but I won the real thing.

排練時我輸了，但我贏了真正的東西。

And Jeremy Piven was playing a drum,

而Jeremy Piven在打鼓。

an important side note there.

一個重要的側面說明那裡。

I got asked by Delta to be in an airline safety video.

我被達美航空邀請參加一個航空安全視頻。

I was on set with all of these like meme

我在片場和這些東西在一起，就像備忘錄一樣。

and internet people.

和互聯網人。

I think all of us were kind of thinking like, why?

我想我們大家都在想，為什麼？

Like why us, why this concept?

比如為什麼是我們，為什麼是這個概念？

And after the video was posted,

而在視頻發佈後。

I think for the entire internet

我想對於整個互聯網

kind of wonder the exact same thing,

我也是這麼想的

but it didn't take away from the fact that it was so fun.

但這並不影響它是如此有趣的事實。

But it was a cool experience to meet other people

但能認識其他的人也是一種很酷的體驗。

that had kind of gone through similar things.

曾經歷過類似的事情。

Anyone who's like become a viral meme,

誰都喜歡成為病毒性的記憶。

we all have a very similar story

人同此心，心同此理

while also being like vastly, vastly different.

同時也像極了，大相徑庭。

All of these like really cool opportunities were happening

所有這些像真的很酷的機會發生

and I was on YouTube and things were going really well,

我在YouTube上，事情進展得很順利。

but it did get to the point

但確實到了

after maybe about a year of doing this,

也許在做了一年之後。

where I started to feel just like a ton of pressure

在那裡，我開始覺得就像一個噸的壓力。

to figure out what the end goal was.

以弄清最終目標是什麼。

Did I want to pursue acting or stand up?

我是想追求演技還是想站起來？

Did I want to write, did I need to move to Los Angeles?

我想寫，我需要搬到洛杉磯去嗎？

I felt like really overwhelmed and stressed

我覺得自己真的是不堪重負，壓力很大。

if I didn't have a video idea,

如果我沒有一個視頻的想法。

then I would just be like beating myself up about it

那我就只能自責了

every day, all day

天天

and it was still really fun,

而且還是非常有趣的。

which I think is part

我想這

of why it was so difficult and confusing.

的為什麼如此困難和困惑。

I know now looking back that I sort of landed myself

我現在回想起來，我知道我有點落井下石了。

in this depression around like 2014,

在這個蕭條的2014年前後。

especially is when it got really bad,

尤其是當它變得非常糟糕。

but I didn't know it at the time.

但我當時並不知道。

You know, like I kind of thought,

你知道，就像我想的那樣

well, I have all these great opportunities

好吧，我有所有這些偉大的機會

and I have this great life and I'm making money

我有這個偉大的生活和我的賺錢

and like, I am not depressed.

和喜歡，我不鬱悶。

It's just, I'm stuck or I'm lazy or I'm not,

只是，我被卡住了，或者說我很懶，或者說我沒有。

I can't find the motivation.

我找不到動力。

I was in therapy for about nine months

我接受了九個月的治療

before I made the decision to try medication.

在我做出嘗試藥物治療的決定之前。

I had a tough time with it.

我有一段艱難的時間。

I remember when I first picked up my prescription,

我記得我第一次拿起處方的時候。

I cried in the parking lot of the pharmacy

我在藥店的停車場哭了起來

'cause I just didn't want to need it.

因為我只是不想需要它。

I didn't want to have to like rely on this pill

我不希望有喜歡依靠這個藥丸。

going into my body to feel better.

進入我的身體，感覺更好。

But at the end of the day,

但到了最後。

like I knew that anything was better

就像我知道什麼是更好的

than how I was feeling then.

比我當時的感覺。

And it worked for me.

而且它對我很有效。

And so it's important for me

所以這對我來說很重要

to kind of get that message out there

樣的資訊，以獲得該消息在那裡

that it does work for some and it doesn't work for others

有的人有效，有的人無效

and I think if that's something

我想如果這是什麼

that you need to do for yourself,

你需要為自己做的。

that it's really, really important that you remember

這真的，真的很重要，你要記住。

that all you're doing is taking care of you.

你所做的一切都是為了照顧你。

I kind of knew that if I ever walked away,

我算是知道了，如果我曾經離開過。

if I ever officially decided like,

如果我曾經正式決定像。

okay, I'm done with YouTube.

好吧，我做與YouTube。

I didn't want to leave without a goodbye video.

我不想沒有告別視頻就離開。

My story is a little bit unique, right?

我的故事有點獨特吧？

Like not everyone becomes a meme,

就像不是每個人都會成為meme一樣。

but my mental health part of that story

但我的心理健康部分的故事

is not unique at all.

根本就不是唯一的。

And in fact, since posting my video,

而事實上，自從發佈我的視頻後。

what I've learned is it's actually incredibly common

我所知道的是，這其實是非常普遍的事情。

for people to feel the way that I felt.

讓人們感受到我的感受。

I'm still online, I'm still on Instagram and Twitter

我還在網上，我還在Instagram和Twitter上。

and I still kind of look at the numbers

我還是有點看數字

and care a little bit, but it's just not,

並關心一下，但就是不。

it doesn't take over my life,

它不接管我的生活。

I guess the way that it used to.

我想，它曾經的方式。

Looking back at everything that happened,

回顧發生的一切。

I'm super, super grateful.

我超級超級感激。

My life in literally every possible way

我的生活在字面上每一個可能的方式

changed completely overnight.

一夜之間完全改變了。

And there were so many highs and there were so many lows

有這麼多的高點，也有這麼多的低點。

and I look back at that time with a lot of fondness.

而我回想當時的情景，也是感慨萬千。

I'm very happy that it happened

我很高興它發生了

and I think overly attached girlfriend

和我認為過於重視的女朋友

is like the best thing that's ever happened to me.

就像最好的事情 這是曾經發生在我身上。

(upbeat music)

(歡快的音樂)