I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life to put to rout all that was not life.

我想深居簡出，吸盡生命的骨髓，把所有不是生命的東西都擊潰。

And not when I had come to die discover that I had not lived.

而當我死後才發現自己並沒有活著。

If you become a better person, then you start to be good for things you know you can fix problem.

如果你成為一個更好的人，那麼你開始對你知道你可以解決問題的事情好。

Yeah, They were going to be plenty of times in your life when you're not happy, there might be years and so it's a shallow boat in a very rough ocean.

是的，他們將是大量的時間在你的生活中，當你不快樂，有可能是多年，所以它是一個淺淺的船在一個非常粗糙的海洋。

Happiness is something that descends upon you.

幸福是降臨在你身上的東西。

Everyone knows that it comes upon you.

大家都知道，它在你身上。

Suddenly, happiness will descend upon you from time to time.

突然間，幸福會不時地降臨到你身上。

And that's the best you've got.

而這是你最好的選擇。

And then also, perhaps during sorrowful times or worse, evil times, people that are depressed or just realistically reacting to a crummy circumstance in their life, realistic reaction to a bad spot in your life, the fact that you've strengthened your character and that you're aiming at the highest that you can conceptualize that will give you the moral fortitude to endure without becoming corrupted during those times and to be someone who could be relied upon in a crisis.

然後也是，也許在悲傷的時候，或者更糟糕的時候，邪惡的時候，人們是沮喪的，或者只是現實地反應了他們生活中的一個糟糕的環境，現實地反應了你生活中的一個不好的地方，事實上，你已經加強了你的性格，你的目標是你可以概念化的最高的，這將給你的道德毅力，在那些時候忍受而不成為腐敗，併成為一個可以在危機中依靠的人。

I think I see a lot of depressed people that in a sense, it makes sense.

我想我看到很多抑鬱症患者，從某種意義上說，這是有道理的。

E mean, you look at their life and you say, Well, if you're not down about this, you should be Let's have a dream which isn't under control.

你看著他們的生活，你會說："好吧，如果你不沮喪，你應該讓我們做一個不受控制的夢。

Well, something is gonna happen to me that I don't know what it's gonna be.

嗯，有些事情會發生在我身上，我不知道會是什麼。

You would dig that and come out of that and say, Wow, that was a close shave, wasn't it?

你會挖出來，然後說，哇，那是一個近距離的剃鬚，不是嗎？

Then you would get more and more adventurous and you would make further and further out gambles as to what you would dream.

然後你會越來越冒險，你會越賭越遠，你會夢想什麼。

And finally you would dream where you are now.

最後你會夢到你現在的位置。

You would dream the dream of living the life that you were actually living today.

你會做夢，夢見自己今天實際過著的生活。

You should be pursuing who you could be and be the first thing because you're not who you could be, and you know it.

你應該追求你能成為誰，做第一件事，因為你不是你能成為的人，你知道這一點。

You have guilt and shame and regret.

你有愧疚，有羞恥，有後悔。

What do you reacting to that you're depressed about?

你在反應什麼，你在鬱悶什麼？

Let's put that on it to do list and start like you said, Write it down and start crossing those things off.

讓我們把它放在它做列表，並開始像你說的，寫下來，並開始劃掉這些事情。

Let's figure what's an action plan to change this, actually plan to change the next yourself for your lack of discipline in your procrastination and all your bad habits.

我們來想一想，改變這個的行動計劃是什麼，其實是計劃改變下自己對自己的拖延症和所有的壞習慣缺乏約束。

You know perfectly well that you're not who you could be, and God only knows who you could be.

你很清楚，你不是你能成為的人，只有上帝知道你能成為誰。

And so that's how you should be striving.

所以你應該這樣去努力。

That's what you should be striving for.

這才是你應該努力的方向。

Pain is a motivator.

痛苦是一種動力。

Pain is not necessarily always bad.

痛苦不一定都是壞事。

If you're in pain, it's gonna motivate you toe move to change something.

如果你在痛苦中，它會激勵你腳趾動起來，去改變一些東西。

And to mash that with drugs to dull that pain with drugs is not necessarily a good thing.

而用藥物來搗鼓，用藥物來消磨這種痛苦，未必是一件好事。

It's Murphy's law.

這是墨菲定律。

Women things go wrong.

女人的事情出了問題。

They always seem to happen at once, and they just compound on top of each other.

它們似乎總是同時發生，而且它們只是在彼此之上覆合。

So they all hit you at the same time.

所以，他們都在同一時間打你。

It's that any justifiable reason for my heart being broken?

這就是我心碎的任何合理理由嗎？

Is there any purpose in my pain?

我的痛苦有什麼目的嗎？

Can you contextualized my crisis?

你能把我的危機背景化嗎？

Can you make sense out of my sadness?

你能從我的悲傷中解脫出來嗎？

Or did I just go through all of that for nothing?

還是我白白經歷了這麼多？

That doesn't mean give up.

這並不意味著放棄。

Yeah, In fact, it means the opposite.

是的，事實上，它的意思正好相反。

It means it's time for you to fight harder, to dig in needs a time for you to go on the warpath, and that starts with one of the fundamental laws of combat leadership.

這意味著你要更加努力的戰鬥了，挖潛需要你去戰鬥的時間，這要從戰鬥領導力的一個基本規律說起。

Prioritize.

優先考慮。

Next, What's the biggest part?

其次，最大的部分是什麼？

What's causing the most stress could be attempting to formulate some conception of the highest good that you can conceive of that you can articulate.

造成最大壓力的可能是試圖制定一些你能想象到的最高善的概念，你能表達出來。

Because why not aim for that?

因為為什麼不以此為目標呢？

It's like your life is short and it's troublesome.

好像你的生命很短暫，很麻煩。

And perhaps you need to do something worthwhile with.

也許你需要做一些有價值的事情。

And if so, then you should do the most worthwhile finger, and you should figure out what that is for you.

如果是這樣，那你就應該做最有價值的手指，你應該弄清楚這對你來說是什麼。

Everybody is fundamental.

每個人都是根本。

The ultimate reality.

最終的現實。

Not God in a politically king, any sense but God in the sense of being the self that deep down basic, whatever there is on your all that only you're pretending.

不是政治上王者的神，任何意義上的神，而是深藏在基本的自我，無論你的所有上有什麼，只有你在裝。

Wow!

哇！

Did you let discover a purpose that gave me so much weight?

你讓發現了一個目的，給了我這麼多的重量嗎？

Why did you let me lost somebody was crazy or help somebody that would pay me back or invested all these Children that wish the had a parent.

你為什麼讓我失去了某人是瘋了，或幫助某人，會還給我，或投資所有這些孩子，希望有一個父母。

Why did you put me in an environment where I would be appreciated?

你為什麼要把我放在一個會被人欣賞的環境裡？

Why didn't you give me a nice, neat life?

你為什麼不給我一個美好、整潔的生活？

They may sense Why is my life so complicated.

他們可能會感覺到為什麼我的生活如此複雜。

Let's have a dream which isn't under control.

讓我們做一個不受控制的夢。

Well, something is gonna happen to me that I don't know what it's gonna be.

嗯，有些事情會發生在我身上，我不知道會是什麼。

You would dream the dream of living the life that you are actually living today.

你會做夢，夢見自己過著今天實際的生活。