I'm an actor, producer and philanthropist.

我是一個演員、製片人和慈善家。

I'll be opening up my little black book

我將打開我的小黑書

and bringing you into my world.

並把你帶入我的世界。

(upbeat music)

(歡快的音樂)

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訂閱芭莎頻道

so you don't miss an episode.

這樣你就不會錯過任何一集。

(upbeat music)

(歡快的音樂)

So first stop, we're gonna talk about mental health

所以第一站，我們要談談心理健康的問題

because that is a topic that's very, very close to my heart

因為這是一個非常，非常接近我的心臟的話題。

and something that I've been working on

和我一直在努力的東西

very, very actively in that last couple of years.

在過去的幾年裡，非常非常積極。

And that's because I experienced

那是因為我經歷了

anxiety and depression in 2014.

2014年的焦慮和抑鬱症。

So I've seen it up close and personal

所以我近距離地看到了它

and I probably define it as the worst experience of my life.

而我可能把它定義為我一生中最糟糕的經歷。

I think a huge part of my little black book

我想我的小黑本里有很大一部分是我的小黑本

is my mother, so we live in different cities,

是我的母親，所以我們住在不同的城市。

so they visit me every now and then.

所以他們每隔一段時間就會來看我。

And on one such visit, I remember it was time

而在一次這樣的訪問中，我記得是時候了

for her to pack her bags and leave

讓她收拾行李離開

and she was, you know, ready to go to the airport.

她是，你知道， 準備去機場。

And I was sitting in her room watching her,

而我就坐在她的房間裡看著她。

just sort of, packing and putting her things together

只是有點，包裝和把她的東西在一起。

when I suddenly broke down.

當我突然崩潰的時候。

And to her it seemed strange because, you know,

對她來說，這似乎很奇怪，因為，你知道。

we sort of go through this saying goodbye to each other

我們經歷了這種互相告別的過程。

every few months, pretty often.

每隔幾個月，相當頻繁。

And of course she asked me the routine questions

當然她也問了我一些常規問題

about, you know, is everything okay at work?

關於，你知道，是一切都還好嗎 在工作？

Was it a relationship issue?

是關係問題嗎？

I feel like as a mother she needed to ask me those questions

我覺得作為一個母親 她需要問我這些問題。

but I think somewhere deep down inside she knew

但我想她內心深處的某個地方知道

that it wasn't the usual sort of crying, it was different.

這不是一般的哭泣，而是不同的。

Whenever I've not been okay, I always feel like

每當我不順心的時候，我總是覺得

I want to keep that away from my parents

我想讓我的父母遠離這些東西

because they live away from me and I feel like they'd worry.

因為他們住在遠離我的地方，我覺得他們會擔心。

So I hadn't told them about feeling this way for a while

所以我很久沒有跟他們說過這種感覺了

and then she caught this moment.

然後她抓住了這個時機。

But today when I look back, I'm so grateful for that moment

但今天當我回首往事時，我很感激那一刻

because she was the one who called it

因為她才是那個叫它的人

and she immediately realized

她馬上意識到

that I needed professional help.

我需要專業的幫助。

And that's when Anna Chandy and Dr. Shyam,

而這時，安娜-錢迪和希亞姆博士。

the reason I am able to run this foundation today

我今天之所以能經營這個基金會

is because of their passion and enthusiasm

是因為他們的激情和熱情

and both are a very integral part of my life

兩者都是我生活中不可缺少的一部分。

and my little black book.

和我的小黑本。

Yeah, I think waking up was tough

是啊，我覺得醒來後很難受

because I didn't want to face a day.

因為我不想面對一天。

When the doctor said that this is clinical depression,

當醫生說這是臨床抑鬱症。

I felt like I already started feeling much better

我覺得我已經開始感覺好多了

versus the times when I didn't know

相對於我不知道的時候。

what was happening to me.

在我身上發生了什麼。

I remember those moments being a struggle, not knowing.

我記得那些時刻是掙扎的，不知道。

2014, post the experience, and post coming

2014年，發佈經驗，併發布來

out with my experience with the depression,

出了我的經歷與抑鬱症。

I also felt like I didn't want to stop there,

我也覺得自己不想就此罷休。

I felt like I wanted to give back

我覺得我想回報

and I wanted to help people.

我想幫助人們。

And so, for me, coming out and speaking out openly

所以，對我來說，出來，並公開說出來

was to sort of help people understand

是為了幫助人們理解

what depression is because you don't really see

什麼是抑鬱症，因為你沒有真正看到

very obvious physical signs or symptoms,

非常明顯的體徵或症狀；

unlike certain other illnesses.

不像某些其他疾病。

And I felt like by coming out and sharing

我覺得通過出來分享

my experience with the world, if I could help

我的閱歷，如果可以的話

even one life, I felt like the purpose would be served.

哪怕是一條命，我也覺得目的達到了。

That's when we set up the Live, Love, Laugh foundation.

這時我們成立了 "活、愛、笑 "基金會。

It's been more than three years

已經三年多了

since we set up the foundation.

既然我們建立了基礎。

I feel every single day for everything

我每天都在感受著一切

that I have in my life, if there's one thing

我的生活，如果有一件事

that feels the most rewarding or the one thing

最有意義的事，或者說是唯一的事

that I'm most grateful for is the fact

我最感激的是...

that I've been able to speak out.

我已經能夠說出來。

But through the foundation, also,

但通過基礎，也。

be positively able to impact peoples lives.

能夠對人們的生活產生積極的影響；

(piano music)

(鋼琴曲)

I'm not ashamed.

我並不感到羞愧。

I think if there's one thing that anxiety and depression

我想，如果有一件事，焦慮和抑鬱症

has taught me is self awareness.

教會了我的是自我意識。

And while I'd like to believe that I've always been

雖然我願意相信我一直都是...

pretty aware of my feelings and emotions, I feel like

很清楚我的感覺和情緒，我覺得像

this experience sort of just amplified that for me.

這種經驗有點只是放大了我。

I often feel like, and women especially,

我常常覺得，尤其是女人。

feel like when they take care of themselves

的感覺

or take time out for themselves,

或為自己抽出時間。

it often comes with an element of guilt.

它往往帶有內疚的成分。

And I feel like that's the one thing I stopped doing.

而我覺得那是我不再做的一件事。

I feel like if I want to rest, if I want a massage,

我覺得如果我想休息，如果我想按摩。

if I want to sleep, I've started enjoying

如果我想睡覺，我就開始享受。

those moments without the guilt.

那些沒有罪惡感的時刻。

And I think self care is the one thing that has really

我認為自我關懷是一件事，真正的

helped me on this journey, you know, to recovery.

幫助我在這個旅程中， 你知道，恢復。

You know, it works differently for different people

你知道，這對不同的人有不同的作用。

so I think it's really about listening to yourself

所以我認為這真的是關於傾聽自己的聲音。

and finding your own inner balance.

並找到自己內心的平衡。

(soft calming music)

(柔和平靜的音樂)