*drinks to forget*

只是... 呃

Its just... umm

我累了，我真的累了

I'm tired. I'm really tired.

哇，好一個問題

WOW, what a problem. Heh

我確定你是這世上唯一的poodiepie

I'm sure your the only one in the entire world, poodiepie

我知道，我-我- 相信我 我知道

No, I know, I, I, Trust me, I know

而且我知道那些髒話影片已經....呃

And I know these rant videos have been just uh,

已經有點久了，好吧

A little bit too far in between, alright

我很抱歉，我不是有意讓這成為一個習慣

and I'm sorry. I don't mean to make this a habit,

累了說錯話，我很努力-很努力地試著去說

Tired is not the right word. I'm struggling, I'm fuckin struggling is what I'm trying to say.

我有很深的問題

I'm having A DEEP FUCKING ISSUE

讓我來解釋... 這超粗暴的影片，接下還將會非常粗暴

Let me try to explain this in the... this so fuckin ranty this video is just going to be so ranty.

去年

*drinks more alcohol*

２０１６

Last year,

十月

2016

我整個人生中最慘的十月

October

我非常確定

Th.. uhh worst month of my life.

我-我-我想我瘋了

I'm pretty sure at least.

我想我變得神經

I, I, I think I went Insane.

可能沒有在影片上表現出來

I think I went crazy

呃

It probably didn't show on camera,

就像現在一樣

umm

我失去了理智

Like it is right now.

變的瘋狂

I lost my mind

因為我有太多事要做

I went crazy

但通常我都處理的還不錯

'cuz I had too much stuff to do,

但...

and usually I'm pretty good at taking it

有點過火了

but then umm...

我的意思是，我碰壁了

It just went overboard,

我碰壁了，非常厚的牆壁

and I then, I literally, I think i hit the wall,

喔～好難受喔 QQ，我懂

I hit the wall pretty hard.

但今年真正意識到得到太多...errm... 工作在身上

and I "oh boo hoo it's hard, it's hard for you" I get it.

而且我很肯定再次到了我的極限，我很害怕我將再次碰壁

But this year I'm just really conscious about getting too much. Errmm. Work on me.

然後我將再次發瘋

And i'm pretty sure I - em - I'm getting close to that limit again. and I'm ahhh I'm scared that I'm going to hit the wall again.

你知道，你整天製作影片

Where I'm just going to fuckin lose my mind again.

然後人們卻討厭 uhh

And ahhhh, you know e- i- e- you work all day on a video,

我沒辦法支援一點"個人投資" 好嗎?

and the people just fucking hate it, and uhh

我總是離評論很遙遠 ，所以我真的不擔心， 就像

I just can't help feeling a little bit personal invested alright.

"oh yea 我花了2天做好一部影片，我不關心

Usually i'm pretty far ahead with content so i really don't give a shit it's like:

但現在，我在後面所以我感覺就像我有一切的視頻然後我想分享

"Oh yeah that video i made that two days ago, I don't give a shit"

但所有我得到的就像，惡靈古堡 7在哪裡 pewdiepie

But now it's like I'm- I'm behind so I feel so.. like I have all this build up of this video and i want to share it

然後我他媽的就為了你去做影片，我投入所有的時間和精力

but all I get is like "Where's Resident Evil 7, Pewdiepie?"

因為我計畫最近只是做影片，很棒棒的它可以100%去忽略

and I'm like: "Motherfucker, I made this for you! this video, I put all this time and effort into it,

但現在惡靈古堡出了，開始很難跟上，我很努力， 快發瘋

'Cuz my strategy has lately been to just make videos that ar- are as good as they can be, ignore this one 100%

顯然地球上每位youtuber 現在都在玩 resident evil 7 ，它就像

But uhh, now that Resident Evil comes out it's like it's fucking hard to keep up like I'm struggling like crazy

"操! 我怎麼去跟上"

And all these- eh- like apparently every Youtuber on the planet is playing Resident Evil 7 right now and it's just like:

像2年前你可能上傳，像是10分鐘1集 ，然後你就沒事了

"Fuck man, how am I going to keep up?"

現在它就像， 你至少要上傳1小時 否則我就去看 Toby 台玩這遊戲

like two years ago you could upload like 10 minute parts and you'll be fine,

操，它就像我總是想一步一步，然後我...

Now it's like, "oh you got to upload at least an hour otherwise I'm gonna go watch Toby Turner play this shit"

...

Fuu- like it's always like I'm trying to step everything up and I'm just,

對我來說 ，這就是我最多能給的 ，然後我只希望你們能明白 ，我只是個人好嗎?

(hand gestures stepping it up)

會出錯，我只能做這麼多

For me, this is as much as I can give and I need you guys to just realize that I'm ju- I'm a person alright?

怪影片，我想說的是你應該有些規範，但

I make mistakes, I can only do so much.

這只是在浪費時...

It's a fucking weird ass video, e- e- I usually have some kinda coherent.. line of what I'm gonna say

基本上 我只想讓你們知道，我現在非常努力

but this is just fucking ba- rambling I'm just waste... *laughs at pain*

我得前進， 在我心中我總是要前進，因為

Basically, I just wanted to let you guys know that uhm.. struggling, I'm really struggling right now

我有義務 ，我有電視節目要做，我被鎖著，我得出國

uhm.. I gotta work ahead, that's always something in my mind, I always got to work ahead because there's..

然後 oh!我知道對你很難但我只是想製作影片，這是我真正關心的，它就像

I have all these other obligations that I gotta do I got TV appearances that I'm locked in to do I gotta travel and shit

" hey poodiepie你晚一點想要去吃午餐嗎?"

and oh I know, "so hard for you" but no I just want to make videos, that's all I really care about it's like

不了，謝謝你的邀請我沒有時間

"Hey, Poodiepie, you wanna go for lunch later?"

"hey poodiepie 你假日要跟我出去玩嗎?" 聽起來很棒，但是我要製作影片

Aww no, thank you though I, I don't have time

"hey poodiepie uhh 我可以吸你的屌?"好啊，不，事實上你可以，來吧

"Hey Poodiepie, you want to go on holiday with me, I'll pay for it." That's great but I, I gotta make videos

我知道每個人將要像"oh pewdiepie 為甚麼你不休息" 不要誤會我

"Hey Poodiepie, uhh can i suck your dick?" Oh yeah, no, actually you can please do...

我很感激，但同一時間如果我假日想出去，我就會去

*wtf*

我假日不想出去，我需要你們了解，如果-做一部該死的影片

and I know everyone's gonna be like "Oh Pewdiepie, why don't you just take a break relax" Don't get me wrong

只要知道我試了，好嗎?我知道 ，好了 我-我瞭解了

I appreciate that but at the same time if I want to go on holiday, I'll just do it.

這解釋在頻道上我做自嘲的笑話， 現在我想開始這樣做，然後你

I don't want to go on holiday I just need you guys to understand that if-make a piece of shit video

兄弟們和我的觀眾一起玩，但是有時它有點太多，好嗎?

this is the explanation I make self-deprecating jokes on this channel now I think I started doing that and you

有時我需要你們只是做些好的事，因為，我有感覺的，好嗎?

bros and my audience are playing along with that but sometimes it gets a little much, okay

我感受到這部影片 像某種"奇怪的名人怪咖"我沒事，就像剛說的我感覺非常疲憊，好嗎?

sometimes I need you guys to just be kind of nice about it alright because I have feelers damn it

我正在渲染一部視頻，為甚麼我錄製這個去節省時間，我沒多少時間

i feel like this video is some kind of "weird celebrity freak out" like I'm fine it says I'm feeling very tired alright

這問題是我有太多事情必須現在做，然後我真的很努力地去解決這些麻煩事

I'm literally rendering a video while I'm recording this one to save time like I'm so short on time

當我看到你們只是抱怨一些狗屁 ，因為影片不夠精彩，即使

the problem is I have too many things to do right now and I'm trying really fucking hard to juggle everything

我花了一堆時間去製作將它做到最好，很痛好嗎?我感覺個人投資

when I see you guys just come about your shit because video wasn't good enough even though

我盡可能嘗試了， 它就像每個人都" oh 我甚至上傳更多影片，他沒有"

I spent a shitload of time trying to make it as good as possible it hurts alright I feel personally invested

我關心，好吧? 我關心還有為甚麼你不關心，我不知道，我不知道，為甚麼我要去關心

im trying my fucking hardest it's like everyone's like oh I is even more uploading videos he doesn't even have to

我星期一將不會上傳影片，我曾經這樣做，現在我有太多要做

well I care alright I care and was like why do you can't I don't know I don't know why I give a shit

我想我將下定決心，我星期一不再上傳東西

I'm not gonna upload on mondays anymore but I used to do that before right now I have too much shit to do

我知道惡靈古堡，他可能只持續一星期或一半，隨便，沒什麼大不了的

I think im gonna have to make the decision that I'm not uploading on mondays anymore

我已經在短時間做續集了，甚至更多時間我想去說

I know resident evil it will probably just last like a week and a half or whatever it's not a big deal

我得到的支持uhh 當你有種感覺像是你有太多事要做的壓力

I'm already short on time and then to do these episodes it's even more time I do want to say that

我真的很感謝那些.... 當我讀了影評，當我真的需要，它意味著很多

the support that I am getting uhh when you kind of feel like shit and you have too much to do and you

還有不要以為我只是專注於所有的壞東西

stress that I really appreciate that like those when I read a comment when I really need it a it means alot

我沒有，我想為這部影片道歉因為極度抱怨

and then don't don't think I'm just focusing on all the bad stuff

我討厭有人製作抱怨影片並上傳Youtube，然後我也做一部，我只是不知道如何去做

I'm not I do want to apologize for this video for being extremely ranty

我只想說真心話，沒有腳本或類似的東西，youtube 真的推動

I fucking hate when people make rants on youtube and here I am making one I just didn't know how else to make this one

10分鐘影片，很明顯的，很多人開玩笑說他的頻道正在死去，但不是，我的頻道甚至變得更好

I just wanted to speak from my heart and without a script or anything like that youtube is really promoting

因為我開始做10分鐘影片，因為觀看時間在Youtube是王道

10 minute videos it's so obvious like a lot of people are joking like his channel is dying but it's like my channel is doing

所以你需要製作長影片，但我真的感到強烈的要保持好的內容

better than he's ever done because I started doing like 10 minute videos because watch time is is king on

即使它更長，我知道很多時候人們就像"oh 看!只做10分鐘影片，他只在乎錢"

youtube now so you have to make longer videos but I really feel strongly about keep making good content

但是 我仍然嘗試在10分鐘上抱持良好 ，不像標題釣魚

even though it's longer I know a lot we were like oh looking only makes 10 minute videos that we only cares

30秒、 10分鐘，你知道的

about money but it's like I'm still really trying to make it a good ten minutes not like fucking titled cards for

我不是抱怨，我只是更誠實地說我的感受、我討厭、我討厭被認為我在抱怨

30 seconds 10 minutes you know

我不想只那個不斷抱怨的人

and I don't mean to complain I'm just more speaking honestly how I feel and I hate it I hate for it to be

但是，這也像很多人

considered complaining I don't want to be just the guy that keeps complaining or whatever

有辦法去說 "Oh poodiepie 賺這麼多錢，為甚麼他要抱怨?" 我不喜歡看到這些

but it's also like a lot of people have

看到這些就覺得難過，因為他讓我認為"大多數的人覺得金錢大於任何事"

the approach of like "Oh poodiepie I makes so much money why does he complain?" I hate seeing that it's

讓我覺得"大家都想說是因為你有錢，所有問題都解決了"

almost sad seeing that because they make me think so it like the majority of people value money more than

也許有些人不在乎錢，你知道，我有能力生活

anything it makes me think that people think that just because you have money all your fuckin problems are solved

"舒適地" 我也不休息一下，像我不-我不想買5台藍寶，我不想要

maybe some people don't care that much about money you know it's as long as the i can afford to live

所以只是因為人們都知道要感謝媒體順便感謝很多

"comfortably" I don't give a shit about rest like I'm not I don't want to buy 5 Lambos I don't give a shit

讓我舒適的生活，我不能表達我得感覺，只是很煩

and it so just because people it's commonly known thanks to fucking media by the way thanks a fucking lot

我需要剪個頭髮，遠離下面有關我該剪甚麼髮型評論

that I make a great living like I'm not allowed to express my feelings it's fucking annoying as shit

我將採取最高影評的意見，謝謝你， 也一定要查看我其他的blog

i need to get a haircut leave a comment down below what haircut I should get

在這裡，我真的累了

top comment will get pinned and i'll pick it thank you also be sure to check out my other blogs

*Everyone say robbie rotten haircut plz*

Why do birds suddenly appear, ev'ry time you are near? Just like me, they long to be close to you. Why do stars fall down from the sky, ev'ry time you walk by? Just like me, they long to be close to you. On the day that you were born the angels got together. And decided to create a dream come true. So, they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold, And star-light in your eyes of blue. That is why all the girls in town follow you all around. Just like me, they long to be close to you... On the day that you were born the angels got together. And decided to create a dream come true. So, they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold, And star-light in your eyes of blue. That is why all the girls in town follow you all around. Just like me, they long to be close to you... Just like me, they long to be close to you...

right here. im so tired genuinely tired can you tell, like