No manual that told you to become a step mom.

This is a scary scenario to walk into.

There's so many dynamics that confer you off like other kids gonna like me.

Do the kids want me here before she thinks about me?

But the kid's gonna like, do they want me?

I'm gonna get on with them and we're gonna be compared to their mom all the time.

I'm getting things wrong, what they like.

What did I do when they wake up in the middle?

Kind of disappear him had about this minute.

Is it two fires that too little?

What did Mom do?

Like there's so much to think about so many questions.

It's no easy.

So you almost learned on the job?

The whole transition after Becker has been a really tough, But also we were getting kind of road.

It's great that the kids they love talking about him or hearing stories about that's like a giant step forward.

It's Mother's Day.

This weekend, the Children work hards to their mom and their non.

We laminate them so that when they're at the cemetery, they obviously could last longer rather than getting wet and damage so much she just laminating them now.

Yeah, I always write a message from May because after a while I'm looking after him bringing up her Children with Rio.

So this is my one to Rebecca.

I say to Rebecca, Happy Mother's Day.

We're all thinking of you today, especially the Children.

I wish you were here to see how far they have come.

I know it's foreign.

I don't know why it makes me so sad.

I feel like I'm grieving for someone that I didn't know.

It was really weird because I'm tacking on the Children and Rios emotion.

I wish you were here to see how far they have come.

I know you are and would be so proud of them.

We are celebrating you today.

I hope I'm doing a good job of looking after them for you.

It's a bloody hard job, but I wouldn't have it any other way.

I'm always thinking of you.

Lots of love, Kate.

I feel like fighting a lot, and people say this is Rebecca's house.

Is Rebecca's house.

Oh, no, no, no.

You don't do like this.

Doesn't how Rebecca likes it.

And I think, but I'm not Rebecca.

I got it wrong quite a few times and it was like, Oh, she can't cook.

Rebecca could do this and do that, but I I can't.

I feel like I was being picked on by a lot of close people.

I just thought, I just don't know what's day.

But I love Rio and I love the kids.

I'm never gonna be good enough.

I need to know that I'm doing the right thing and meet other people so that it could help me with the kids.

It's not just about everyone else.

If it's us five with strangers, I'll say that my kids, it's when, like, family go, they're not your kids.

Yeah, and I'm not old and then I feel bad.

But I don't have to say I don't love your kids more than what the actual expression.

I feel bad, but I do feel like they're my kids.

I love them like that.

You're not lying a step moment as a newer step mom.

You feel like you're being judged.

Even if they're not judging the five of us.

I'm completely myself, and I think we all are ourselves with five here.

You get a I think something they really notices when their mom was here that on loads of fun things together.

And then when When she passed away, they didn't do any of that.

So when I call him, we started doing fun things again.

And Dad was happy and they were happy.

And it just felt like a family unit again because I don't think it felt like that for a while.

I didn't feel this could happen.

I said, I'll never meet anyone off said I'm never gonna be happy again.

That wasn't settle this.

I mean, it was saying and I and I feel happiest man about I'm happy again.

If we've been dealt a terrible hand and you have your luck can change.

And from what I've seen, it does happen to other people as well.

So be confident that can happen, is gonna go through rocky times and bad times but can come from the other side.

Congratulations, decay.

And that I love you boys so much.

And I'm so happy that we find that he reached the wedding day.

You told me four years ago I would have been here all the laughed and Fort nothing off it but because I'm here.

I'm very happy on Dad on so glad that you've come so far from what we have been through, two K.

You're very, very special.

You help me with lots of different things, especially when I have a problem.

And I need to talk, Thio.