Myattentionhasbecomeextremelyfractured, and I feelthisconstantpulltowardchecking, refreshingandrefreshing, asifsomethingtrulyfreshisjustoverthehorizon.
I alsodon't likethewaypassivelyingestinginformationontheInternetmakesmefeel, butontheotherhand, I can't stopdoingit.
Hank, hesaidonTwitter a fewdaysagothatyoulovedCocaColabutwishitdidn't exist.
Andthat's how I feelaboutTwitter.
Like, I reallybelievethatmyattentionisall I have, and I'm veryuncomfortablewiththewaythatsocialInternetcompanieshavehackedmybraintocapturethatattentionandmonetizeit.
NoneofwhichistosaythatFacebookcreditinstagramTwitterarelikecapital B badorwhatever.
I justthinkmybrainisunusuallysusceptibletobeinghacked, notleastbecause I have a mentalhealthdisorderthatpredisposesmetowardrepetitivecheckingandcircularthought.
Infact, I thinklotsofpeopleareabletouseFacebook, reddit, instagramTwitterinwaysthatareproductiveandfulfilling, andthatthoseplatformsconnectustoeachotherandallowmorepeopletohave a voiceinpublicdiscourse.
Also, forwhateverreason, I don't have a terriblerelationshipwithothersocialmediaplatformslikehereonYouTube, forinstance, I'm abletobefairlyintentionalaboutwhat I watchandparticipateinthecommunityinwaysthatmakemehappy.
So, yeah, I'm nottryingtosaythatyourInternetisn't workingorthattheInternetisn't workingonLee, thatmyInternetisn't working.
I havetwoproblems.
First, I don't have, likethewillpowertoresisttheallureofFacebookcreditinstagramTwitterandsecondly, thecorporationsthatruntheSocialInternetarenotincentivizedtoprovidemewithinformationthatisaccurateorhelpful.
Theyareincentivizedtoprovidemewithinformationthatwillholdmyattentionandkeepmeontheirplatformwhile I ingestadvertising.
Andinmycase, theinformationthatholdsmyattentionBestisthatwhichshocksandorappallsandorfascinatesmelike a horrifyingstorybreaksand I keeprefreshingandrefreshinglookingfornewfactsbutfaxtaketimetoestablishand I can't wait.
Soinstead I skimthroughspeculationandguessworkandhottakes.
I'm sofortunatethatthiscommunitycontinuestobe a reallylovelyandfulfillingplaceformetohangout.
And I hopeyoufeelthesameway.
Soyeah, I'llbehere.
I justyouknowwon't beinsomeoftheotherplaces I'd beinterestedtohearfromanyofyouwhohavetried a versionofthisOrifyouhaveanytipsforme, I lookforward, asalways, tocontinuingtheconversationandcomments.