Um, you know when that might be a reflection of my general state of mind, which is very unsettled at the moment for the reasons that I told you Well, because of off of everything that's happened over the last few years, But to get a taste of the depth of despair that that could be ameliorated with with not much more than, you know, some some words of encouragement, some some statement that you know you as a human being aren't intrinsically worthless, worthless, and that you have, ah, spirit worth preserving and that the things that you do in your life that you do correctly are important.