We'regoingtobetalkingabouthow I lost $350,000 anditwasactuallyevenmorethanthatandwhatthatfeltlikethiscoffeetime.
Nowthisis a storythat I'venevershareduntilnow, notbecauseit's sodeeplypersonalandpainful, butreally, becausethere's justneverbeenanygoodopportunitiesatdinnertimewhere I couldjustcomeupandsay, Hey, guys, I lost $350,000.
Oneoftheworstthingsaboutthisloss, I wouldsay, isthatthere's notmuchtolearnfromit.
ItwasthroughstocksDaytrading, andit's notlike a firetobuild a businesswith a bunchofmoneyintow.
Have a bunchoflearningisthatbusinessfails.
I lose a bunchofmoney, butstill I comeoutofthatwith a bunchofgoodlessons.
Somethings I couldwriteonmyresume, somenicestories.
I cantellthefutureemployers.
No, thiswasessentiallyskilledthisright?
I justwentinthere.
I thought I couldmakesomemoney.
I didn't Don't reallyknowwhy.
Read a bunchofnews, triedtofigureoutwhatwasgoingon.
I have a fewtheorieshereandthere.
Thiswasespeciallypainfultomebecause I hadspentactually, like, a yeartryingtogetgoodatdaytrading.
I havelearnedallabouttechnicalanalysis.
I havebeenreadinguponnews, stayinguptodatewiththeEconomistregionthateveryweek, andyet I stillmanagetolosesomuchmoneythatitjustmademewonder, like, Whatam I evendoinghere?
Personally, I reallylikethecoursesinstatisticsandprobability, becausealltechcompaniesthesedaysthey'reverymetricsbasedtherealwaysanalyzingtonsofdataonexperiments, metrics, analyticsAndthat's just a highlysoughtafterskillforengineers.
I couldspendthewholemonthstressingoutoverstock's checkingeverysinglepricemovereadingothernews, making a tonofdifferenttrades.
Or I couldspendthewholemonthonthelongtermbuyandholdstrategy, andthere's notellingwhichmethodisgoingtoreallycomeoutahead.
So I keptthisstoryshort, butwhathappenedwas I havebought a bunchofcommodities.
Youcouldseemytaxreturn.
I haveawesome R J I R J a g p a d B c somepreciousmetalslikeGoetheSilver, theseairmostlystocksthatrepresentunderlyingcommoditiesandcommoditiesarelikeagriculture, grain, rice, cornbasedrawmaterials, industrialmetals, copper, thingslikethat.
Andthereason I havebought a lotofthisstuffwasbecausecommoditieshavehadthegoodrunupinthefirsthalfof 2014 andalsobecause I feltthatthedollarwasweakand I justthoughtitwasgooddiversification.
And I thoughtcommoditieswererelativelystable, perhapsbecausetheyrepresentedRiophysicalmaterialsunderneath.
Butwhathappenedwasthatinthelaterhalfof 2014 commoditiesdropped 40% andthiswasknownas a commoditypriceshockof 2014.
Andsothisbyothernewsasreadingthetechnicalanalysisthat I wasdoingmessingaroundwithbowlingdrippans, simplemovingaverages, Fibonaccilines.
Noneofthatreallyworked.
And I justlostmyshirtinthatwholegameandtherewouldbedays I wouldbelosing 2030 $40,000 intheday.
Andmeanwhile, myjobwaspayingmelike, a few 100 bucksthatday.
And I thinkitwasthataroundthattimethat I hadbeenquitting a lotofmyjobsbecause I justdidn't seethemeaningofthat.
And I reallywantedtogetmorefocusedondaytradingbecause I feltthatthathadmorefinancialimpact.
Butforme, despitehowmuch I tried, I don't knowifanyofmyeffortsandstocksreallyhadanyimpact, right.
Someofitcouldhavejustbeenimaginary.
Maybe I wasmakingmoneyjustbecause I wasluckysometimes.
But I think I canattributemylossesto a fewfactorsandthesemaybegoodtakeaways.
Whenisthat?
I hadbeennewtothegameand I felt a littleoverconfidentand I wasstartingtomakemoneyrightoffthebatand I thoughtthatthiswholethingcouldcontinue, butyoucanonlybeluckyforsolong.
Soduringthistime I woulddo a lotofleveragedinvestingwhere I wouldtakeoutloansfromthebrokerageatthelowerinterestrate.
Andthen I wouldinvestinthestockmarket, believingthat I couldbeattheinterestrate, atleast, andfor a while, thisactuallyworkedoutokay.
Tome, thereasoningwasthenumberone.
I didnotintendtobuy a houseright?
Mostpeople, they'llgobuy a housethat's like 30 exleverage.
Andso I feltthatif I wasgoingtoinvestintothemarkets, I needtodoalsohavesomeleveragesothat I couldkeeppacewithalltheotherpeoplewhomaybebuyinghomes.
Andyoucanseethatbasedonthischart, youknow, after I havehad a goodrunup, itjuststarteddropping, andtheywouldjustdropeverysingledayandgodowninthem, and I keptbelievingthatmaybeitwouldgoupandtherewasn't a steepdrop.
Itwasjust a gradualdecline, thetypethatreallycatchesyoubysurpriseover a longperiodoftimeandyoujustkeepthinkingWell, maybeit's goingtogoup.
I wassoconfidentbecause I wasonlyreadingthenewsthat I wantedtoread.
Afterthiswholeexperience, I actuallystartedputtingmoremainstreamnewslikeYahoofinanceontothebookmuchthat I wouldcheckjustbecause I wantedsomemorebalance.
Bytheendoftheyear, I loggedinandcametothehardconclusiontojustcutmylosses.
Youknow, I didn't believeincommoditiesorgothereanymore.
Atthatpoint, I hadseenthattheSNPstockswereallgoingup, oratleastneutral, and I feltthat I hadbeenjadedandbrainwashedbythenewsitesthathavebeenreadingthesedays.
What I didafterthatwas I lookedintousingalgorithmictrading, so I usedthisplatformquant o p indotcom, which I'm notsponsoredby, andthere's a fewotherplatformslikethiswhereyoucanactuallywritepythonscriptstodotradingforyouAndso I wouldtry a fewdifferentalgorithms.
Youknow, I wouldtradebasedonearningsreports, andiftheirearningsreportbeattheforecast, then I wouldhavethealgorithmautomaticallybuythatstock, holditforthreedaysandthensellit.
I alsostoppedshortingstocks, which I usedtodo a lotof, but I realizedthatthenaturalmovementofthestocksistogoupwards.
It's notlike a stockhas a 50 50 chanceofgoingupordown.
Itactuallyhas a higherchance.
I wasgoingup.
Sousingquantumpeon, I wasabletocomeupwithanalgorithmbacktestagainsthistoricaldates, seehowthealgorithmwouldhaveperformed.
Andthen I actuallyranthealgorithmandtrieditout, anditmademelike 2000 buckshereandthere.
Itwasn't much, though, andwhathappenedisitwouldactuallygenerate a bunchoffeesandbrokerages.
I eventuallyjuststoppedthatanddecided I'm goingtogotowardsmoreassetatlocation, so I mightsay, I want 10% go.
The 20% bonds, 20% commodities, 20% techstocksorsomethinglikethat.
Theanalogy I liketothinkaboutisimagineif I werejustlike a sailor, right?
Withoutinthecountry, and I'm goingarounddoingwork.
Andwherever I go, peoplepaymeso I mightgosomewhereandsomeonejustsaystheydon't reallyhaveany U S dollars, buttheyhave a bunchofcorn, sotheypaymecornorsomethingelsemaycomeandsaytheyonlyhaveMicrosoftstock.
Solet's talkaboutwhatthisfeltliketome, and I oftenequatedinmymindtolosing a Lamborghini.
And, youknow, maybethat's why I don't drive a Lamborghini, becauseinmymind, I'vealreadylostone.
Andotherthanthat, itsentmeback a numberofyearsintermsofincome, and I canimaginethatif I wasthetypeofpersontobestrugglingreallyhardeverysingleyearinthejobthat I hateit, thenitwouldtotallynotbeworthitright.
I wouldfeelprettybad.
I wouldfeeldespairthat I hadjustgivenupyearsofmylifeforthisandstruggledandtherewaspainfuland I thought I wouldgetmoney.
Youmightloseitinthenumberofwaysandtomakesurethatyou'rehaving a goodtimehavingfunasyou'reearningthatbecausethat's goingtoendupbeingyourlifeaswell.
It's notjustsimply a tradeofyourtime, youreffortformoney.
You'regivingawayyourlifestyleaswell.
Whichiskindofwhy I enjoypersonallyworkinginreallyniceCosright, likeniceofficesdoesoneofthetopthings I actuallylookforwhen I applyforjobs.
I lookforjust a good, clean, comfortableworkingenvironment, youknow, personally, forme, I wouldnotbeworkinginofficelike a reallycrummyhot, stuffystartedenvironmentinwhichpeopletreatmelikegarbage.
I wouldnotdosomethinglikethatbecauseit's notworthit, evenifthere's moneytobemadebecausemoneycanbelostaswellandactuallydesertofexperiencewithhappenoverandoverforme.
Youknow, I'm notsureif I learnedanythingfromit, becauseevenafterthat, I continuetolosemoneyinthestockmarketeventoday.
Sothesedays I tendtostayawayfromplayingtoomanygameswiththestockmarketandthenspendmyeffortsonother, moreinteresting, morefulfillingthingsthatyouknow I canactuallybuildskillsfromlearnfromSothatgoforme.