we have a lot of subscribers who actually follow our lives a little bit

and like know stuff about us.

So Jun and I want to start sharing more of our lives with you! It's such a big step in our relationship!

uh... but

Today this video is just about me, and not about Japan.

So if you want to watch a video about Japan you should not watch this because

you're going to be disappointed.

If you watch this video, and you post a comment at the end that says

"OMG"

"This was such a waste of time!"

"There's nothing about Japan in here at all!"

Then you are really bad at making decisions because I'm telling you right

now that this is not going to be about Japan.

So a lot of you watched Jun's most recent video and he mentioned that I've had a

little bit of trouble with my heart lately.

And a lot of you left really nice comments and wished me well, and thank you so much for that.

But I'm really okay so please don't worry!

It's not a huge deal or anything.

But I'm gonna tell you the story about what happened with that.

So,

sometimes when I get stressed out,

which happens a lot right now because I've been apart from Jun for three years,

aside from visiting each other. We just had our 3rd year anniversary.

And it sucks and it's stressful.

So sometimes when I get stressed out I like to go on a drive.

And here in America we have a lot of like really open

highways and expressways and especially if you're in a more rural area,

then there really aren't any other cars around at all, and you can

kinda drive as fast as you want.

So sometimes when I get stressed out that's what I do.

I just go for a drive and I listen to really loud music

and especially if I'm like really upset, I listen to like angry rock music

and I sing along/yell.

And so that's what I did one Friday afternoon.

And then when I was laying down for bed that Friday night my lungs started hurting

really badly and I was like, "Wow!"

"Did I really yell that much that I did something to my lungs? Is that even possible?"

Okay...

So I was gonna give myself a couple days to let my lungs heal

for like being ridiculous and yelling too much in my car.

And by Sunday morning it still wasn't any better and I started to actually think about it,

and I was like,

this is really dumb.

I couldn't have possibly yelled so much that I damaged my lungs.

Like that's,

that's really absurd and I--at that point I kinda realized that it wasn't just my lungs,

like actually my chest was hurting, too, and I was like, "Oh crap!"

So I took an aspirin and I went to the emergency room.

And I walked in and I was like,

"I'M HAVING CHEST PAIN."

And they were like,

"You're 24 years old..."

"But okay..."

"We'll run some tests anyway."

And

so they did. They took me in and they did like an ECG and like they x-rayed my heart and

did a bunch of blood tests. And when they came back with the results for the blood tests

the nurse was like,

"Wow, you actually really do have chest pain."

For those of you who know what it is, there's something called troponin

in your blood level, which-

I'm not like a health person. I don't really know that much about it,

but when you have heart damage

your heart releases

these cells into your bloodstream and so they can detect your troponin levels

after you've had heart damage.

Usually they do that when you've had a heart attack and stuff like that.

And my troponin was elevated and so

they were like, "Okay! You actually do have some heart damage."

"This is kinda crazy; we're going to keep you here for a couple days because we

don't know what's going on."

So they checked me in

and I stayed for two days, and I did a whole bunch more tests and

I watched Spongebob and Colbert for two days.

And it wasn't that bad.

But they checked me into the cardiac unit, which is like this whole

big ward at the hospital

that is just for patients who have issues with their heart.

Like you have to sleep with a heart monitor on and everything.

And like every single person

in that unit was like 70 years old, except for me.

Like they were all

had heart attacks or they were dying and their family was there and it was really sad,

and then there was me...

And I was just watching Spongebob in my bed for two days.

So it wasn't that bad but

anyway what I had was myopericarditis, which is... uh, like sometimes if you get like

a specific virus that virus will sometimes attack your heart as well and so

it causes a little bit of heart damage and like inflammation in your heart.

And it's not-

Mine wasn't bad at all. So there's no permanent damage or anything.

I'm just supposed to take it easy for a little bit to let my heart heal itself.

But everything should be fine.

It wasn't that bad at all.

But the thing about that is that

because of everything that happened with my heart my job was like,

"We're not gonna send you to Korea anymore,

because we don't think you're healthy enough to go."

And they told me this literally the day before I was supposed to leave.

Like I had prepared everything to move!

Like I turned off my internet and everything.

And I shipped almost all of my worldly possessions to Korea already

and they couldn't turn it back around so

right now almost everything I own is sailing across the Pacific Ocean

to Korea

to a place that I'm not going to anymore.

So,

that's kinda how my life is going right now.

Um...

But I kept a couple of suitcases of stuff.

And fortunately I'm really good at prioritizing and only keeping the things that

are absolutely necessary for me to survive.

Like my giant sun hat.

And 15 pairs of shoes!

So that's kinda where I'm at with my life right now.

I really don't know what's gonna happen because my job doesn't know either.

So I don't know when I'll be able to move again or see my husband again.

Um... so there's that.

But I do have a lot more free time right now so I should be able to make videos more often.

So please look forward to that!

And I'll see you guys again next time! Bye!

Hey gu- I just hit myself in the nose...

No, not you! Not you. NOT YOU. NOT YOU!!

I can't hold all my shoes!