Name: 【TED】馬克-巴穆蒂-約瑟夫：《你有禮》（《你有禮》|馬克-巴穆蒂-約瑟夫）。 (【TED】Marc Bamuthi Joseph: "You Have the Rite" ("You Have the Rite" | Marc Bamuthi Joseph))
Uploaded: 2021-01-14T08:24:04.000Z
Duration: 7 min 15 s

譯者: Harper Chang 審譯者: Amanda Chu

He wants a pair of Air Jordan 4s for Christmas.

like a twisted Grinch-themed episode of "Black-ish."

像黑人版的鬼精靈偷走聖誕節。

I wear them like mercury on my Black man feet.

I can't get those young freedom days back fast enough.

outrunning a doorman on the Upper East Side.

但 16 歲的我，跑得飛快， 甩掉上東城區的門衛，

Of all the genders, boys are the stupidest.

Sixteen was a series of barely getting away

16 歲是三番兩次 從警察指縫溜走的日子，

I assume that my son is stewarding this tradition well.

猜想我兒子也沿襲了這優良傳統。

Sixteen was "The Low End Theory" and Marvin Gaye on repeat.

16 歲時馬文·蓋伊的旋律飄揚，

Sixteen is younger than Trayvon and older than Emmett Till.

At the DMV, my boy's in line to officially enter his prime suspect years:

比被警察無故槍殺的崔文年輕，

a moving semaphore, signaling the threat of communities from below.

比受私刑虐死的艾莫·提爾年長。

On top of the food chain, humans have no natural predator,

兒子在監理所排着隊等考駕照，

but America plays out something genetically embedded and instinctual

步向被無故列為頭號嫌疑犯的歲月；

America guns down Black bodies and then walks around them,

like laconic lions next to half-eaten gazelles,

站在食物鏈頂端，人類本無天敵，

"America and the Black Body" on some Nat Geo shit.

Well, he passes his road test at the DMV.

He does this strut C-Walk broken "Fortnite" thing

true joy and calibrated cool under the eye of my filming iPhone,

the victory dance of someone who has just salvaged a draw.

似〈國家地理〉的相片， 標題：〈美利堅與黑人屍體〉。

he can't quite let his body be fully free.

得意地邊跳著胡亂的嘻哈街舞，

Five minutes ago, I was illegally parked.

Now I'm in the back of a squad car, considering the odds that I'm going to die

像是在緊張情勢下得分的球場英雄。

here, 15 minutes away from my son who expects that in 18 minutes,

他勝利了，但太 16 歲， 還帶著太多青澀。

daddy's gonna pick him up from preschool.

There are no pocket-size cameras to capture this moment, so.

I learned a lot of big words when I was 16 getting ready for the SAT,

5 分鐘後，在警車後座 盤算著存活機率。

In the police car, the only thing that really speaks is my skin.

15 分鐘車程會到他的幼稚園， 原本會早 3 分鐘接到他，

當時沒有行動相機來捕捉這一切，

I was parked on a bus zone on 12th and Broadway,

我 16 歲準備 SAT 考試時， 學了很多高尚的詞藻，

I pull the cash out just as a police car pulls up behind me,

give him the "Aw shucks, my bad," that earnest Black man face.

He waits till I'm back in the car and then hits the siren,

我把車停在百老匯 和第 12 街的公車停靠區，

takes my license with his hand on the gun,

comes back two minutes later, gun drawn, another patrol car now, four cops now,

剛領到錢，就見一輛警車停在身後，

my face on the curb, hands behind my back, shackled.

努力擠出「啊！真抱歉」的 誠懇黑人表情。

I'm angry and humiliated, only until I'm scared and then sad.

I smell like the last gasp before my own death.

一手在腰間的槍上，一手收繳駕照，

I think how long the boy will wait before he realizes

多來了一輛巡邏車，共有四個警察。

I think his last barely formed memory of me

will be the story of how I never came for him.

In the void there is anger mushrooming in the moss at the base of my thoughts,

a fungus growing on the spine of my freedom attempts.

the spirit of an unarmed civilian in the time of civil unrest,

將是苦苦等待，爸爸卻沒有出現。

no peace, just Marvin Gaye falsettos arching like a broken-winged sparrow,

Apparently some cat from Richmond had a warrant out on him,

一片空白中， 憤怒在思考的底層醞釀，

and when the cop says my name to dispatch, dude doesn't hear "Marc Joseph,"

蠶食著我骨子裡爭取自由的希望。

動盪時代中的庶民， 一個手無寸鐵的靈魂，

I count seven cars and 18 cops on the corner now,

By the grace of God, I'm not fed to the beast today.

Magnanimously, the first cop makes sure to give me a ticket

抵抗空虛的警笛——警察之歌。

He has a license to drive in the hollow city,

數一數，七個警車，十八個警察，

全來分食這一小塊肉，還得意洋洋。

He can navigate traffic in the age of autonomous vehicles.

警察開恩，給我開了罰單： 公車停靠區違規停車，

like my memory's been erased and my internet is broken,

他有了駕照，能在空洞的城市飛馳，

強壯的大人身，懵懂的孩子心。

like today's the day that I don't love my son enough

to tell him, "Bro, I really don't care about your rights, yo.

在自動駕駛時代， 他能在車陣中穿梭自如。

黑人爸媽對孩子的那番「談話」，

談話就這一番， 好像事件只會發生一次，

好像記憶都已抹滅， 好像網路都斷了線，

Today's talk is mostly happening in my head

as he pulls onto the freeway and Marvin Gaye comes on the radio.

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【TED】馬克-巴穆蒂-約瑟夫：《你有禮》（《你有禮》|馬克-巴穆蒂-約瑟夫）。 (【TED】Marc Bamuthi Joseph: "You Have the Rite" ("You Have the Rite" | Marc Bamuthi Joseph))

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