But one year later,

五年前，我在TED的臺上 分享了我的作品。

I had a terrible accident as I left a pub one dark night with friends,

但一年後我在蘇格蘭， 遇到了一次可怕的意外。

in Scotland.

那天夜色昏暗， 我和朋友離開了酒吧。

As we followed the path through a forest, I suddenly felt a massive thud,

我们順著小路穿過一片樹林， 我突然感覺猛轟的一聲，

then a second thud,

又轟的一聲，

and I fell to the ground.

然後我就跌在了地上。

I had no idea what had hit me.

我完全不知道是什麽擊中了我，

I later found out that when the gate was opened on a garden,

後來我才知道有個公園忘了關門，

a wild stag stampeded along the path and ran straight into me.

一頭牡鹿竄了出來， 結果就撞上了我。

Its antler penetrated my trachea and my esophagus

鹿角穿過我的氣管和食管， 直到我的脊椎。

and stopped at my spinal cord and fractured my neck.

我的脖子也因此骨折。

My best friend found me lying on the floor,

我好朋友發現我時，我躺在地上，

gurgling for help through a hole in my neck.

從喉嚨的破洞中傳出咯咯聲求救。

And we locked eyes, and although I couldn't speak,

我們四目交投，我說不出話，

she could understand what I was thinking.

但她能明白我在想些什麼。

And she told me, "Just breathe."

她和我說，「深呼吸就好」。

And so, whilst focusing on my breath, I had a strong sense of calmness,

我一心想著呼吸，頓時平靜了許多。

but I was certain that I was going to die.

但我很肯定，我這次死定了。

Somehow, I was content with this,

但不知怎地，我竟滿足於此。

because I've always tried to do my best in life whenever I can.

或許是因為我這一生 凡事都盡力而為吧。

So I just continued to enjoy each breath as one more moment --

所以接下來的每次呼吸 我都格外珍惜——

one breath in and one breath out.

吸進。呼出。

An ambulance came, I was still fully conscious,

救護車來的時候， 我依然神智清醒。

and I analyzed everything on the journey, because I'm a scientist:

因為我是科學家， 我一路上不停分析著：

the sound of the tires on the road, the frequency of the street lights

輪胎在路上的聲音， 街燈閃過的次數，

and eventually, the city street lights.

最後望見了城市的街燈，

And I thought, "Maybe I will survive."

我想：「或許我還能活下來。」

And then I passed out.

然後我就暈過去了。

I was stabilized at a local hospital and then airlifted to Glasgow,

我在當地醫院穩定下來後， 就被空運去了格拉斯哥。

where they reconstructed my throat and put me in a coma.

他們需要重建我的喉嚨， 所以再次讓我昏睡過去。

And while I was in the coma, I had many alternate realities.

我在昏睡中經歷了許多另類現實。

It was like a crazy mix of "Westworld" and "Black Mirror."

感覺有點像《西部世界》 和《黑鏡》的瘋狂結合，

But that's a whole other story.

但這裡我就不細說了。

My local TV station reported live from outside the hospital

我們本地的電視台在醫院外直播：

of a Cambridge scientist who was in a coma,

劍橋科學家陷入昏迷，生死未卜。

and they didn't know if she would live or die or walk or talk.

他們也不太確定 我還能不能走動或講話。

And a week later, I woke up from that coma.

一週後，我從昏迷中醒過來了。

And that was the first gift.

那是我收到的第一件禮物。

Then I had the gift to think, the gift to move,

我收到了更多大禮——

the gift to breathe

重獲了我思考、行動、 呼吸和吃喝的能力。

and the gift to eat and to drink.

這花了我大概三個半月的時間。

That took three and a half months.

但有件東西我卻拿不回來了，

But there was one thing that I never got back, though,

那就是我的隱私。

and that was my privacy.

一些小報社開始拿我的性別來說事。

The tabloid press made the story about gender.

瞧，我是個跨性別者， 那沒什麼大不了。

Look -- I'm transgender, it's not that big a deal.

也許我頭髮的顏色 或我鞋子的大小都比這有趣。

Like, my hair color or my shoe size is way more interesting.

我上次在這裡發言時——

When I last spoke here --

（掌聲）

(Applause)

我上次在這裡發言時——

When I last spoke here --

（掌聲）

(Applause)

上次我在 TED 我沒提這事， 因為這很無聊。

at TED, I didn't talk about it, because it's boring.

一家蘇格蘭報紙 卻打出了以下標題：

And one Scottish newspaper ran with the headline:

「變性科學家遭牡鹿抵傷」。

"Sex Swap Scientist Gored by Stag."

另外五家報紙打的也是類似標題。

And five others did similar things.

看到這些標題時我很生氣， 但很快地我就冷靜下來。

And for a minute, I was angry.

我想：「他們惹錯人了， 到時可能連怎麼死都不知道。」

But then I found my calm place.

（笑聲）

And what ran through my head was, "They've crossed the wrong woman,

我是個善良的忍者。

and they're not going to know what's hit them."

我並不真的知道忍者是幹什麼的，

(Laughter)

但對我而言， 他們飛簷走壁，來去無蹤，

I'm a kindness ninja.

而且神出鬼沒，叫人防不勝防。

I don't really know what a ninja does,

他們獨來獨往，從無怨言， 一心只專注於他們的計劃。

but to me, they slip through the shadows, crawl through the sewers,

所以我躺在醫院的床上時，

skip across the rooftops,

我就計劃著要如何利用既有的體制，

and before you know it, they're behind you.

讓媒體不再有機會這樣地去傷害別人。

They don't turn up with an army or complain,

我決定賠上我自己的隱私。

and they're laser-focused on a plan.

他們告訴一百萬人的事， 我會跟一千萬人說。

So when I lay in my hospital bed,

你越是生氣攻擊，對方就越是防禦。

I thought of my plan to help reduce the chances

所以我不攻擊他們， 他們也就無從防衛。

of them doing this to somebody else,

我寫了一些溫良平和的信給這些報社。

by using the system as is, and paying the price of sacrificing my privacy.

結果我們英國的《太陽報》， 相當於你們美國的《福斯新聞》吧，

What they told one million people, I will tell 10 million people.

對我的「理性處理」表示感謝。

Because when you're angry, people defend themselves.

我既不要求對方道歉或收回言論， 也不要求金錢賠償。

So I didn't attack them,

我只要求他們承認自己壞了規矩，

and they were defenseless.

並認清他們自己犯錯的事實。

I wrote kind and calm letters to these newspapers.

在這過程中，我開始了解他們， 他們也開始了解我。

And The Sun newspaper, the kind of "Fox News" of the UK,

然後我們居然還成了朋友。

thanked me for my "reasoned approach."

那之後我甚至還和太陽報的 菲莉帕一起喝過幾杯酒。

I asked for no apology, no retraction, no money,

三個月過後，他們一致同意了，

just an acknowledgment that they broke their own rules,

並在星期五發表了聲明， 整件事也就告一段落了。

and what they did was just wrong.

至少他們認為是告一段落了。

And on this journey, I started to learn who they are,

隔天星期六，我上了晚間新聞，

and they began to learn who I am.

新聞的標題打著： 「六家全國性報社認錯了」。

And we actually became friends.

主持人問我：

I've even had a few glasses of wine with Philippa from The Sun since then.

「但你不覺得我們記者也有責任 把故事說得生動一些嗎？」

And after three months, they all agreed,

我回答：「我被牡鹿抵傷， 躺在森林裡，這難道還不夠生動？」

and the statements were published on a Friday,

（笑聲）

and that was the end of that.

我現在也寫標題了， 我最得意的是這個：

Or so they thought.

「牡鹿踐踏我喉嚨，報社踐踏我隱私」。

On the Saturday, I went on the evening news,

這是當天最多人閱讀的 BBC 在線新聞。

with the headline "Six National Newspapers Admit They Were Wrong."

這麼做我其實有點樂在其中。

And the anchor said to me,

經過我這「媒體瘋狂炒作的一週」後，

"But don't you think it's our job as journalists

我開始用我新發現的聲音與平台 來散播關於愛與善良的訊息。

to sensationalize a story?"

每當我對報社或記者又有所憤恨時，

And I said, "I was laying on a forest floor, gored by a stag.

我就要找出自己內心對他們的偏見，

Is that not sensational enough?"

並不帶偏見地與這些人見面及對話。

(Laughter)

我需要讓自己更了解他們， 反過來他們也會開始了解我。

And I was now writing the headlines.

六個月過後，他們邀我 加入監管報社的委員會。

My favorite one was,

然後，我一年至少會有好幾次 都會和那些媒體人喝茶聊天。

"The stag trampled on my throat, and the press trampled on my privacy."

比如，每日郵報的編輯 保羅·戴克，他問過我：

It was the most read piece of BBC News online that day.

「凱特啊，你最近幾個月過得怎樣？」

And I was kind of having fun.

我尊重他們。

And by the end of my week of media,

我現在之所以是委員會裡的 三個公眾代表之一，

I started to use my newfound voice and platform

並不是因為我有什麼與眾不同，

to spread a message of love and kindness.

而是因為我和每個人一樣， 都有一把值得重視的聲音。

And when I had the minute of anger and hatred

諷刺的是，

towards those press and journalists,

現在不時地還會有人 邀請我去參觀印刷廠，

I had to identify my inner bigotry towards them.

這是個正在衰退的行業。

And I had to meet and speak with these people

因爲我上次在 TED 提到了 互動列印的技術，

without judgment.

因此有些人認為 那或許可以拯救這行業。

I had to let myself understand them,

所以呢，察覺你內心的偏執， 嘗試化敵為友吧。

and in return, they began to understand me.

謝謝。

Well, six months later, they asked me to join the committee

（掌聲）

that regulates the press.

And a few times a year, I sip tea and dip biscuits

with the likes of Daily Mail editor Paul Dacre, who says to me,

"So, Kate, how have your last few months been?"

And I respect them.

And I'm now one of three members of the public

who has a seat at the table --

not because I'm different,

but because my voice counts, just like anybody else.

And the irony is,

every now and again, I'm asked to visit those printing presses

of this declining industry,

because some people think

that the technology I spoke about here, last time at TED, my interactive print,

might actually help save them.

So beware of your inner bigot,

and make friends from your enemies.

Thank you.

(Applause)