at everything.

在任何事情上

at anything, really.

真的，不管是什麼事

Hey, how have you been?

嘿，你最近怎麼樣？

Hey.

嘿

Ah, I'm good.

啊，我很好

Actually, I just showed my teacher my dissertation and she...

其實，我剛剛給我的老師看了我的論文，然後她...

I'm sorry.

對不起

I'm so sorry.

我很抱歉

That was such a shitty greeting on my part.

我剛才打招呼的那部分太糟了

Do you mind if we just, uh,

你介意我們，呃

rewind and start over?

倒帶然後重新開始嗎？

Uh...Okay?

呃…好吧？

Okay. Okay.

好，很好

*clears throat*

* 清喉嚨 *

*takes deep breath*

* 深呼吸 *

Hi! How've you been?

嗨！你最近怎麼樣？

I'm good.

我很好

As I was saying...

就像我剛才說的…

I turned in my dissertation and...

我交出我的論文，然後...

Oh my God.

噢，我的天啊

Oh.

噢

My.

我的

Freaking God.

老天爺啊

I don't know what's wrong with me today.

我不知道我今天怎麼了

Um.

嗯

I didn't believe that at all.

我簡直不敢相信

Did you believe it? Was it believable?

你相信嗎？這能信嗎？

Do you mind if I just do it one more time?

你介意我們再重新一次嗎？

Just like.

就是

Another take.

再拍一次

Okay. Cool cool cool.

好，非常好

*vocal exercises*

* 練習發聲 *

I'm obviously a huge advocate

我很明顯是個提倡

of self improvement.

改變自我的人

Over the last seven years,

在過去的七年裡

I've made 400 videos

我做了 400 部影片

and the majority of those

而且大部分的影片

have been devoted to becoming

都致力於成為

a better version of yourself.

一個更好的自己

Whether it's physical tricks

無論是身體技巧

to increasing confidence

來提升自信

or promoting emotional vulnerability

或促進情緒的脆弱性

or encouraging radical honesty.

或鼓勵絕對誠實

I have always been on the side that if you can do better, you should do better.

我一直都認為，如果你可以做到更好，你就應該做到更好

What the hell is this, Bob?

這到底是什麼，Bob？

What?

什麼？

This form.

這個表單

Why did you do this?

你為什麼要這麼做？

Look at the name space.

看看姓名的欄位空間

Now look at the address space.

再看地址的欄位空間

Bob.

Bob

I really need you to take your job as form-maker seriously.

我真的需要你認真做好製作表單的工作

People already hate filling out forms.

人們已經很討厭填寫表單了

If you give them this impossible shit

如果你給他們這種爛東西

they're gonna lose their minds.

他們會發瘋

No one even knows who makes

沒人知道是誰做了

all the forms they fill out.

這些表單要他們填寫

I know, Bob.

我知道，Bob

I know.

我知道

And I want the satisfaction of knowing

我想要

that all over the world

全世界的人們

people are filling out forms with smiles on their faces

填寫表單時都面帶微笑

because they have adequate line space

因為他們有適當的填寫空間

for the corresponding prompt.

可以立刻對應

Damn it, Bob.

可惡，Bob

We have a thankless job in a corporate-run world,

在一個企業經營的世界裡，我們有一份吃力不討好的工作

but that doesn't mean we have to give up!

但這不表示我們必須放棄！

No!

不！

That means we are only accountable to ourselves.

這表示我們必須對我們自己負責

That means the only way to bring purpose

唯一的方法是將決心

and life into our meaningless, mundane existence

和生命力帶入我們豪無意義的世俗生活中

is to have a work ethic that we're proud of.

擁有讓我驕傲的職業道德

It means having the BEST DAMN FORMS we can possibly create!

這表示我們要做出最完美的表單！

Be the ART that we pour our HEARTS and MINDS into!

成為我們傾注心思的藝術！

Um.

嗯

Okay.

好吧

I-I'm sorry. I'll do it again.

我 — 我很抱歉，我會再做一次

That's more like it, Bob.

這才像話，Bob

That's more

那樣

God damn

他媽的

like it.

好多了

And though I love self improvement as a tool

雖然我喜歡把改變自我當作工具

it's something that can be utilized incorrectly

但這個工具可能被使用錯誤

if you're taking it to incredible extremes.

如果你用在不可能的極端上

Like if you are trying to strive for unattainable perfection.

就像你在努力追求高不可攀的完美

You will be my magnum opus murder.

你會成為我的謀殺案傑作

*muffled*

* 低沉 *

Yes!

沒錯！

When you assume there's something inherently broken in yourself.

當你認為你自己天生就有缺陷

I mean is it me?

這是我嗎？

You know I keep trying to do such beautiful works of art

我一直在努力做這些美麗的藝術品

and it just comes out looking like a total mess.

但看起來就是一團糟

*sobs*

* 啜泣 *

*sobs*

* 嗚咽 *

Maybe I'm just not meant to be an artist.

也許我注定無法成為藝術家

Or when you don't make a realistic distinction between what you can and can't control.

或者當你無法在你能控制和不能控制的事物之間做出現實的區分時

You know just once I want a murder without so much blood. You know?

我只想有一次殺人不會有這麼多血。你懂嗎？

I always used to think that any form of self acceptance was being lazy or being complacent.

我過去總是認為任何形式的接納自我都是懶惰或自滿

And that if I wasn't growing, I was just remaining stagnant.

我覺得如果我沒有成長，那我就只是停滯不動

But self acceptance is just having that distinction

但接納自我只是在

between the things you can and can't control and really accepting what you can't.

你能控制和不能控制的事物之間進行區分，然後真正接受你不能做到的

It's about loving the flaws that make you unique and being really okay with

愛上讓你與眾不同的瑕疵，而且欣然接受

where you are at in the process of growth.

在成長的過程中的處境

It's a very delicate balance, and I don't have it figured out all the time.

這是一個非常微妙的平衡，我一直沒有弄清楚

But I'm really, really working on having more self acceptance in my life.

但我真的、真的很努力在我的生活中更接納自我

I've been very extreme on the self improvement side, and I've kind of realized lately how unhealthy that can be.

我在提升自我的方面非常極端，最近我才意識到這很不健康

So trying to be really okay and at peace with where I am in the moment in growing.

所以我嘗試在成長的時刻處於和睦狀態

But what about you?

但你呢？

Let me know if you struggle with the balance of these two

如果你在這兩者之間掙扎，請告訴我

or if you don't have either of them

或者你沒有這種問題

or if you tend to lean one way or the other.

或者你傾向於其中一邊

I'm Anna Akana.

我是 Anna Akana

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我想要對 Squarespace 今天這部影片的贊助表示感謝

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無論你是藝術家、攝影師，或是任何職業

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