I'm doing great.

很好啊

You know, just, um...

你知道的，就是，呃…

um...

嗯…

just doing what needs to be done.

就做該做的

What does that mean?

那是什麼意思？

I'm sorry, dad.

我很抱歉，爸

Um...

嗯…

Why don't we just have lunch and talk?

我們邊吃午餐邊聊吧？

We can do that, right?

我們可以邊吃邊聊吧？

Please.

拜託

You think that you have this under control?

你認為你可以掌握一切嗎？

I understand why I do things.

我知道自己在做什麼

It doesn't make me any different.

這對我而言都一樣

You're just embarrassed because I was like...

你只是在丟自己的臉，因為我就像…

...you know, I was like this amazing thing, like your special creation or something...

…你知道的，我就像這個神奇的東西，就像你的獨特創造之類的…

and you don't like who I am now!

你就是不喜歡現在的我！

Yeah, who are you, Nic?

沒錯，你是誰？尼克？

This is me, dad.

我還是我啊，爸

Here.

我就在這裡

This is who I am.

我就是我

This is not you.

這不是你

This is not you, Nic.

這並不是你，尼克

What are you doing, huh?!

你在做什麼？啊？！

You always got to be controlling everything all the time.

你總是想要掌握所有事

Let me...

讓我…

let me book you a room...

讓我幫你訂間房…

No, dad.

不用了，爸

at a hotel for a couple of nights.

訂幾個晚上的旅館

No, dad!

不用了，爸！

I want it to go like this.

我想要這樣做

My son has gone missing.

我兒子不見了，

Nicholas Sheff.

尼可拉斯雪夫，

S-H-E-FF.

S-H-E-FF

There's no one by that name, sir.

這裡沒有這個名字的紀錄，先生

There are moments...

有很多時候…

that I look at him...

我看著他…

this kid that I raised...

我一手養大的孩子…

who I thought I knew inside and out...

我自認為我瞭解他的一切…

and I wonder who he is.

現在我卻懷疑他是誰了

I thought we were close!

我以為我們很親密的！

I thought we were closer than most fathers and sons!

我自以為我們比大多數的父子都來得親密！

Why?

為什麼？

I felt better than ever I had, so...

我從來沒有這麼好的感覺，那麼…

I just kept on doing it.

就繼續這樣吧

This isn't us!

這不是真正的我們！

This is not who we are!

我們不是這樣的！

My son is out there somewhere and I don't know what he's doing!

我的兒子在外面的某個地方，我不知道他現在在做什麼！

I don't know how to help him!

我不知道如何幫助他！

You can't!

你沒辦法幫他！

I don't feel like I have a disease.

我不覺得自己生病了

This isn't like cancer.

這不像是癌症，

This is my choice.

這是我的選擇，

I put myself here.

我讓我自己走到這個地步的

I failed.

我失敗了。

I can't do it alone.

我無法獨自克服，

I need to find a way...

我必須要找到一個方法…

to fill this...

來填補這個…

black...

內心的…

hole in me.

黑洞

I still have a family.

我還是有家人的，

I want them to be proud of me.

我希望他們對我感到驕傲

What you have...

你所擁有的是…

You're gonna find it again.

你會再次尋找到它的，

You're gonna get it back.

你會把它找回來的

Do you know how much I love you?

你知道我有多愛你嗎？

I love you more than everything.

我愛你勝過一切

Everything?

勝過一切？

Everything.

勝過一切

Everything.

勝過一切