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  • I am Liang Zhi.

  • It has been six years since I accepted God's salvation of the last days.

  • At a democratic election of the church,

  • I was elected as a church leader.

  • On hearing this news,

  • I was taken by surprise and excited,

  • thinking to myself:

  • To have been elected as a leader from among so many brothers and sisters

  • to have responsibility for all of the church's work,

  • this shows that I'm better than other brothers and sisters!

  • With this thought, in spite of myself, a sense of superiority welled up within me.

  • I walked about with head high and chest out,

  • and I was very confident in communications with brothers and sisters at gatherings.

  • However, after some time,

  • I saw that a sister who worked with me was of high caliber,

  • with a clear train of thought in communicating the truth.

  • She was able to come to grips with the questions posed by brothers and sisters

  • and communicate and resolve them,

  • as well as point out a practical path.

  • The brothers and sisters all wanted to hear her communication.

  • Seeing this, I felt envious and jealous.

  • Unwilling to be outdone,

  • before each gathering, I homed in on the condition of the brothers and sisters

  • and had to do meticulous preparation.

  • I racked my brains to figure out ways to communicate that were more complete

  • and shed more light than the sister's.

  • When I finished communicating,

  • and I saw the brothers and sisters nodding with approval,

  • I was very pleased with myself and felt a sense of achievement.

  • If I saw that the reaction of the brothers and sisters was flat,

  • I felt distressed and lost.

  • Later on,

  • I discovered that a brother who partnered with me

  • was relatively familiar with knowledge of the film industry

  • and had good computer skills.

  • I saw that the brothers and sisters who worked together in making gospel films

  • would often discuss some questions of a professional nature with him,

  • and I, a responsible church member, couldn't get a word in edgewise.

  • I felt that I was superfluous to requirements, pushed to one side.

  • I felt that I had worked very hard, and I was left with a bad taste.

  • I suspected that the brothers and sisters all communicated with him

  • whenever something came up.

  • Did they feel that I wasn't as good as he was?

  • If only I had this professional knowledge, it would be a lot better.

  • Wouldn't the brothers and sisters then come to me to discuss any problems they had?

  • And so,

  • I would work from dawn to dusk searching for related materials,

  • studying to gain film knowledge.

  • While I never grew tired of seeking and keeping busy for the sake of status,

  • problems appeared continuously in the work of each of the church's teams.

  • No matter how I set up meetings and communicated, it was all in vain.

  • I was under so much pressure.

  • I could scarcely catch my breath.

  • I thought:

  • What will the brothers and sisters think of me?

  • Won't they feel that I as their leader have no qualifications,

  • that I'm not up to the duty at all?

  • It appears that my position as leader can't be maintained.

  • The more I thought about it, the worse I felt.

  • I was feeling like a deflated rubber ball.

  • I no longer had the old vigor.

  • Because I was constantly in a slack, negative state,

  • I eventually lost the work of the Holy Spirit.

  • I was replaced because I couldn't do practical work.

  • At that moment, I felt thoroughly discredited,

  • dying to find some crevice to crawl into.

  • At the same time I was suspicious:

  • Could the brothers and sisters be saying behind my back that I'm a false leader,

  • scrambling for fame and gain and not doing practical work?

  • The more I thought along these lines, the more distressed I became,

  • as if a chorus of critical voices were echoing in my ears.

  • As evening came,

  • I would lie in bed tossing and turning, unable to sleep a wink.

  • All I could do was to repeatedly pray to God,

  • appealing to Him to lead me, to guide me.

  • I read that God has said:

  • The word of God exposed the substance of my pursuit of fame, gain, and status,

  • and I felt pricked in the heart.

  • I saw that in my own belief in God,

  • I had not been seeking the truth,

  • but instead pursuing fame, gain, and status.

  • This was entirely under the control of my own satanic nature of arrogance and conceit.

  • I thought that in carrying out my leadership duties with the church,

  • I had worked for status all along.

  • Every time I met with brothers and sisters to communicate the word of God,

  • it was not to hold God up high, to bear witness to God,

  • to enable brothers and sisters to understand the truth of God's word,

  • to understand God's intentions,

  • to know how to practice and enter into the reality of God's words.

  • Instead, it was to rack my brains:

  • How could I do a better job of communicating than my partner sister

  • so that I could get the brothers and sisters to praise and admire me?

  • I tried to plant my own image in the minds of the brothers and sisters,

  • so that my status could be more secure.

  • I saw that my partner brother's professional abilities were superior to mine

  • and that whatever questions the brothers and sisters had,

  • they would seek out and communicate with him.

  • Obviously, they weren't picking me;

  • I felt jealous of him, so I excluded him,

  • desperately fearing that the brother would steal my thunder, hog the limelight.

  • Whenever problems emerged in the church which I could not resolve,

  • I did not come before God to pray and to rely on God, to look up to God,

  • nor did I seek the truth together with the brothers and sisters to resolve the problem.

  • I spent the whole day worrying about changes in my own status.

  • I feared that if I did not do my work well,

  • my leadership position would be in jeopardy.

  • I saw that I was not fulfilling my duty

  • to pursue the truth and satisfy the intentions of God,

  • nor was I seeking dispositional change while carrying out my duties,

  • but instead I turned my duties into a sort of career,

  • to make myself a cut above the rest,

  • as a means of making a name for myself.

  • Therefore, all I could think of was how to show myself off and affirm myself,

  • to be thought highly of, appreciated,

  • to fully satisfy my own desire to be held above others.

  • How was this fulfilling my duties or doing good deeds?

  • This was completely living for fame, gain, and status!

  • I saw the words of God:

  • Reading the word of God, I understood God's intentions.

  • In setting down a man's outcome,

  • God does not base it on how high his status is

  • or how noble his achievements,

  • or on how much work he has done for God,

  • how much he has suffered.

  • Instead, God considers whether or not a man pursues the truth, man gains the truth,

  • whether his life disposition has changed.

  • This is most crucial.

  • I thought about my own belief in God for several years.

  • I had not worked at all toward seeking the truth and practicing the word of God.

  • Instead, I had sought fame, gain, and status.

  • My outlook on what to pursue ran completely counter to the demands of God.

  • This had led me to not entering the reality of the truth

  • despite believing in God for several years.

  • My life disposition had not changed at all.

  • At gatherings with brothers and sisters,

  • I spoke little of experience and knowledge of God's word.

  • I often spoke a few letters and doctrines to fool people.

  • In the end I lost the work of the Holy Spirit.

  • There were no results in carrying out my duties.

  • If I continued to follow a mistaken path,

  • eventually, I could only be revealed by God and eliminated,

  • losing the opportunity to receive God's salvation.

  • Now when I think of my removal as a leader of the church,

  • I see God's righteous judgment and chastisement.

  • It is meant to purify the ambitions and desires within me to seek fame and gain,

  • to lead me to the correct path, seeking the truth.

  • This is God's salvation of me!

  • At this time, I couldn't help but come before God to pray:

  • Oh, God,

  • thanks be to You for judging and chastising me,

  • making me recognize the mistaken road down which I have walked

  • and the consequences of pursuing fame, gain, and status.

  • Oh, God, I wish to turn back to You,

  • to put aside fame, gain, and status,

  • and to choose the path of seeking the truth to comfort Your heart.

  • After a period of spiritual devotion and self-reflection,

  • my state began gradually to improve.

  • Church leaders arranged for me to work,

  • watering brothers and sisters new in their belief.

  • I was particularly grateful to God for the chance to fulfill my duty.

  • I secretly resolved:

  • I must certainly treasure this opportunity to carry out my duty.

  • I cannot go down the same road to ruin by seeking fame, gain, and status!

  • In carrying out my duties afterwards,

  • whenever I encountered any problems,

  • I would discuss them with the brothers and sisters, and listen to their suggestions.

  • When the state of scrambling for fame and gain came out,

  • I prayed to God.

  • I consciously read more of God's words on judging man's corrupted essence

  • and acted according to the word of God.

  • After experiencing a period in this way,

  • I felt I had put aside somewhat the desires for fame, gain, and status.

  • However, because I had been deeply corrupted by Satan,

  • even though I could for the moment forsake the flesh and practice the truth.

  • This certainly did not represent real change in my life disposition.

  • The satanic nature within me of scrambling for fame and gain,

  • seeking to be high above others,

  • could not be thoroughly resolved simply by having a little knowledge.

  • Before I could be cleansed and changed,

  • I needed to undergo even more of God's judgment and chastisement.

  • After several months,

  • God once again set up the environment to reveal and save me.

  • Because more people were investigating and receiving God's work of the last days,

  • the work of watering and supporting new people became more busy.

  • The leaders said that it was necessary to select a team leader

  • to be responsible for arranging the work.

  • As soon as I heard this, I began to take stock of myself:

  • Of the seven brothers and sisters in the team,

  • I felt that Brother Zhang's work ability was outstanding.

  • He also had a sense of justice.

  • He was relatively practical in communicating the truth.

  • He could positively safeguard the work of the church.

  • It was most likely that the brother would be chosen team leader.

  • But then I thought about how I had arranged all of Brother Zhang's work previously

  • when I was a church leader.

  • If this time he was selected as team leader,

  • then I would have to follow his arrangements.

  • Isn't it obvious then that I'm inferior to him?

  • What about my face in that case?

  • As soon as I thought about this, I felt bad.

  • Come the day of the election,

  • I tensed up in spite of myself.

  • There was an endless battle within me:

  • Who should I vote for? … Brother Zhang?

  • As soon as I thought about how

  • brothers and sisters had any difficulties in carrying out their duties,

  • they would discuss them with him,

  • I felt very jealous,

  • and I didn't want to choose him.

  • What if I vote for myself?

  • My work ability is not quite up to Brother Zhang's.

  • If the brothers and sisters don't choose me,

  • then I can't be the team leader.

  • At this time, I felt extremely lost.

  • I even had a malicious thought come into my mind:

  • I won't be team leader, and I won't let you do it, either.

  • And so,

  • I voted for Brother Li with whom I usually got on well,

  • even though his work ability was somewhat lacking.

  • But in the end,

  • Brother Zhang was voted in as team leader.

  • I was very unhappy when I saw this result,

  • but later on, I had an unsettled kind of feeling.

  • On the way home,

  • I reflected on my thoughts and ideas that had slipped out during the election.

  • I realized that once again I had fallen into scrambling for fame and gain,

  • and I felt very worried.

  • I didn't intend to seek fame and gain,

  • but whenever something comes up, why do I always fall back into my bad old ways?

  • I prayed to God in my heart,

  • beseeching God to enlighten me,

  • to make me able to find the source of the problem in this matter.

  • When I returned home,

  • I saw the words of God:

  • When I tried to ponder the words of God

  • I understood the fame, gain, and status that I had pursued all along

  • was after all the invisible shackles with which Satan binds man.

  • It was Satan's poison deceiving and corrupting man!

  • I thought of the earlier time when I hadn't believed in God.

  • "A man leaves his name behind wherever he stays,

  • just as a goose utters its cry wherever it flies."

  • "Men should always strive to be better than their contemporaries."

  • "The more you suffer, the more you will succeed."

  • "Man moves toward higher places, water flows toward the lowest."

  • I had made these satanic thoughts and viewpoints into my own rules for existence and maxims.

  • Having received these satanic thoughts,

  • I had become particularly arrogant and conceited, enamored of power and status.

  • I had taken pursuit of fame, gain, and status, and outdoing all others

  • as the aim of human life,

  • and battled and worked all out for these.

  • As long as I could obtain fame, gain, and status,

  • I could endure pain and exhaustion if needed.

  • After believing in God, I still pursued fame, gain, and status,

  • and sought to be superior to others, relying on Satan's poisons.

  • These had become my nature.

  • Under the control of a satanic nature,

  • despite myself, I had rebelled against God and resisted God.

  • When I thought back on my thoughts and actions during the election,

  • I felt too ashamed to show my face,

  • a shame beyond words.

  • I knew that it was beneficial to the work of the church for Brother Zhang to be team leader,

  • but I envied the talented and the able, and greatly feared to be surpassed.

  • And so as to safeguard my own status and face,

  • I had not given my vote to him.

  • For me, it would have been better that no suitable person assumed this duty

  • and the work of the church suffered loss,

  • than to have elected Brother Zhang.

  • I saw that I had been profoundly corrupted by Satan.

  • In order to safeguard my own face and status,

  • I had adopted vile methods to exclude him,

  • not in the least accepting God's scrutiny,

  • having not in the slightest a heart that revered God.

  • When something came up, I only considered my own face and status,

  • and I did not in the least safeguard the work of the church.

  • I was so selfish and vile.

  • I did not have the slightest humanity.

  • How could God not be sickened and repulsed?

  • I thought of what God has said:

  • I felt that my own state was extremely perilous.

  • If I went on like this,

  • I would be an object of cold dismissal and elimination by God.

  • I thought of the Pharisees who had resisted the Lord Jesus.

  • In order to protect their status and power in the sacred temple,

  • they did not in the slightest seek the appearance of the Lord Jesus

  • and the truth that He expressed.

  • They blindly resisted and condemned the Lord Jesus.

  • They even nailed the Lord Jesus to the cross,

  • with the result that they incurred God's punishment and damnation.

  • I saw clearly, in my belief in God,

  • I had not attached importance to seeking the truth, entering into the truth,

  • but rather I had put all my effort into pursuit of fame, gain, and status.

  • This was taking the path of the Pharisees resisting God!

  • When I had thought this far,

  • I could not help feeling frightened by the mistaken path that I had taken.

  • I was determined to rid myself of the bonds

  • and terrible harm to me of fame, gain, and status,

  • to walk the path of pursuit of the truth and devotion to fulfilling my duties,

  • and to obtain God's praise.

  • Afterward, I read God's word:

  • These words clearly pointed out to me

  • the aim and direction of conducting myself in life.

  • My heart was particularly enlightened,

  • and I knew how to practice complying with God's intentions.

  • Afterward,

  • I took the initiative to open up to Brother Zhang

  • about how I had been living in a state of scrambling for fame and gain,

  • and envious of him.

  • I revealed my vile intentions that had slipped out during the election.

  • After the brother had heard me out,

  • he certainly did not look down upon me,

  • but he communicated the truth directed to my state.

  • He also opened up to me,

  • talking about his experience and knowledge.

  • After the communication,

  • the distance between the brother and I dissipated,

  • and I felt released and steadfast in my heart.

  • Later on,

  • whenever I had any difficulties or problems

  • that I could not understand in carrying out my duties,

  • I would actively seek out the brother,

  • and the brother would patiently communicate and explain things for me.

  • After a period of time, the results of carrying out my duties improved.

  • I truly comprehended that

  • putting aside fame, gain, and status, living by God's word,

  • facing toward God to accomplish one's own duties

  • will be blessed by God.

  • Living in this way is just and honorable.

  • The heart is steadfast and at peace.

  • My relationship with God has grown increasingly close.

  • In October 2017,

  • the church's annual elections started.

  • I was elected as a candidate for church leadership.

  • When I learned this news,

  • I was not so excited as before,

  • but instead I adjusted my state of mind to experience God's work.

  • Taking part in the election was not in order to contend for leadership,

  • but rather the process of election was an exercise of my own responsibility.

  • According to the church's principles for selection of leaders,

  • suitable persons should be elected to the leadership.

  • If I were elected as a leader,

  • I would only wish with all sincerity and honesty

  • to fulfill the duties of created beings to satisfy God.

  • I would not grieve God's heart as in the past by scrambling for fame and gain.

  • If I lost the election, I would not blame God.

  • I would continue to cooperate with God,

  • and devote all my energies to fulfilling my own duty,

  • to obey God's orchestration and arrangements.

  • Because I am originally a created being,

  • regardless of what duties I undertake they are my responsibility.

  • I must complete them with all my heart and all my strength.

  • When the results of the election came out,

  • I had been voted in as a leader of the church,

  • but I was not complacent any more.

  • I no longer felt that I had done well,

  • that I was better than the brothers and sisters.

  • On the contrary,

  • I felt that this was a weighty entrustment and responsibility.

  • I sensed the expectation that God had placed on me.

  • I definitely must conscientiously pursue the truth

  • and cooperate with God to carry out my duties to God's satisfaction

  • and not fall short of God's love and salvation of me.

  • The word of God says:

  • From practical experience, I truly realized:

  • God's judgment and chastisement are the light that saves man,

  • and they are God's most true love.

  • It was the judgment and chastisement, the reproach of God's words

  • that made me see clearly the grievous harm to me of fame, gain, and status

  • and stimulated my courage and resolve to seek the truth.

  • When I put aside fame, gain, and status,

  • I felt that what I had put aside was not only status,

  • but also the shackles that Satan had covered my body with.

  • The deepest parts of my heart obtained

  • unprecedented peace, joy, relaxation, and release.

  • Although I now still reveal a corrupted disposition of scrambling for fame and gain,

  • I am no longer controlled and bound up by it.

  • I have realized that practicing the truth

  • enables ridding oneself of the corrupt satanic disposition.

  • And the more you practice the truth,

  • the more you are able to live out the likeness of a man and receive God's blessings.

  • I truly feel

  • that every tiny bit that God does on me

  • is the painstaking price God pays for me.

  • God's salvation to me is so practical.

  • God's love is enormous and so real!

  • From now on, I desire to experience God's judgment and chastisement even more,

  • and to seek the truth,

  • and as soon as possible to cast off the corrupt satanic disposition,

  • to comfort God's heart by living out the likeness of a real man.

  • Thanks be to God for having saved me!

  • All glory be to Almighty God! Amen!

I am Liang Zhi.

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