I now live in Maryland and

I'm the type of guy, I feel like I'm

sitting on a winning lottery ticket.

I mean I have a beautiful wife, two

beautiful girls, and beautiful family.

I have a job that I love. Yeah life is so great.

But you know it wasn't always like that.

When I was ten years old I was on

the computer and I remember looking at a little pop-up

and that was like the

first spiral... I remember my first video

that I watched in fifth grade and every day

I would just go back to my room

after school, after the bus ride and look at porn.

That's like my whole middle school...

Up until February 2011

Valentine's Day showed up and coincidentally

my computer also broke.

Around that time and I stopped watching porn.

I couldn't look at look at porn for a

good six months and only then I

realized what a porn-free life was like.

My head like physically felt lighter.

I could think clearer, I was less

anxious, I was more confident, I was less

jealous of other people. I remember only

thinking about just getting through

the day so I could look at porn and

and that be my high. And then post-porn

the whole day can be a high. You know,

I'll wake up and life is good.

And I'd take out my guitar or go riding or hang out

my friends or just enjoy the sun, just

enjoy people compared to like being in my room

by myself. I just remember what

a black-and-white moment that was for me.

Then MiMi and I got married,

had a honeymoon and a week after

our honeymoon we had just moved to a

new place, I had a new job and yeah, one day

I was just off my guard and clicked on a porn website.

One thing led to another and I had a

fall and I remember being so confused because

we just got married and just had our

honeymoon and life is supposed to be good

and all of a sudden I'm looking at porn again.

And I just couldn't believe it.

She could just tell there was a difference in me.

I'd go two months and fall, another two months

and fall and we went through a whole

year of this craziness.

One day she said, "Look, you talk

sometimes about how porn can ruin marriages.

Well it can ruin our marriage...

It can end our marriage."

This reality hit so I started thinking about

what what was working

when I wasn't looking at porn, before we

were married? I was actively fighting for

my future bride. And what happened when we

got married is that I stopped because of the pride.

I had accomplished my goal and

that's when I realized the fight doesn't end

on the wedding day. The fight continues

every single day. Fighting for her and our love

and fighting for each other and our future family

is what saved me. And that's the kind

of love that I fight for.