And I come from a long way.

我叫做Emmanuel Jal

I've been telling a story that has been so painful for me.

我經歷過許多事

It's been a tough journey for me, traveling the world,

長期以來，我向大眾述說那些痛苦的往事

telling my story in form of a book.

對我來說，這是個辛苦的過程，我拜訪各國演說

And also telling it like now.

將我的故事撰寫成書

And also, the easiest one was

也像現在這樣演講

when I was doing it in form of a music.

還有，最輕鬆的方式是

So I have branded myself as a war child.

透過音樂來傳達我的想法

I'm doing this

我替自己取了個綽號，叫做戰地兒童

because of an old lady in my village now,

我這麼做

who have lost her children.

是因為和我同個村莊的老婦人

There is no newspaper to cover her pain,

失去了她的孩子

and what she wants to change in this society.

沒有新聞願意報導她的苦痛

And I'm doing it for a young man

以及她想為社會做的改變

who want to create a change and has no way to project his voice

我這麼做，也是為了一個年輕人

because he can't write.

他想要改變，卻無處發聲

Or there is no Internet, like Facebook, MySpace,

因為他不會寫字

YouTube, for them to talk.

也沒有網路，沒有Facebook、Myspace

Also one thing that kept me pushing this story,

或是YouTube等平台讓他們發聲

this painful stories out, the dreams I have,

另一個無形鞭策我這麼努力地說故事

sometimes, is like the voices of the dead,

四處分享這痛苦歷程的動力，就是我的夢想

that I have seen

有時候就像是，我會聽到

would tell me, "Don't give up. Keep on going."

那些不幸喪命的人的聲音

Because sometime I feel like stopping and not doing it,

告訴我，「別放棄，堅持下去」

because I didn't know what I was putting myself into.

因為我曾經幾度想放棄

Well I was born in the most difficult time,

我不曉得這麼做會把自己推向什麼境地

when my country was at war.

我出生時，正好是生活最艱困的時刻

I saw my village burned down.

我的國家承受戰火摧殘

The world that meant a lot to me, I saw it

我看著我的村莊被燒毀

vanish in my face.

這個對我意義非凡的世界，

I saw my aunt in rape when I was only five.

從我眼前消失

My mother was claimed by the war.

我五歲時，看到我阿姨被強姦

My brothers and sisters were scattered.

母親死於戰爭

And up to now, me and my father

我的兄弟姐妹們四散各處

were detached and I still have issues with him.

到現在，即使我和我的父親已不在一起

Seeing people die every day,

我對他還是心懷芥蒂

my mother crying,

我每天目睹死亡

it's like I was raised in a violence.

看著母親哭泣

And that made me call myself a war child.

就像是被暴戾之氣扶養帶大一樣

And not only that, when I was eight

所以我自稱戰地兒童

I became a child soldier.

不只如此，在我八歲時

I didn't know what was the war for.

我成了童兵

But one thing I knew

我不知道打仗是為了什麼

was an image that I saw that stuck in my head.

我只知道

When I went to the training camp I say,

那些在我腦中、揮之不去的畫面

"I want to kill as many Muslims,

當我到了童兵訓練營，我說

and as many Arabs, as possible."

我想要儘可能

The training wasn't easy, but that was the driving force,

殺光所有的回教徒和阿拉伯人

because I wanted to revenge for my family.

裡面的訓練很辛苦，但那是我支撐下去的動力

I wanted to revenge for my village.

因為我想替家人復仇

Luckily now things have changed

我想為村民復仇

because I came to discover the truth.

幸運地，現在一切有了轉機

What was actually killing us wasn't the Muslims,

因為我發現了事實

wasn't the Arabs.

殺我們的並不是回教徒

It was somebody sitting somewhere manipulating the system,

不是阿拉伯人

and using religion to get what they want to get out of us,

而是某些藏在暗處、操縱我們的人

which is the oil, the diamond,

他們利用我們的信仰，獲得他想要的

the gold and the land.

也就是石油、鑽石

So realizing the truth gave me a position to choose:

黃金和土地

should I continue to hate, or let it go?

理解到這個事實，讓我有能力選擇

So I happened to forgive. Now I sing

我該繼續憤怒，還是放下？

music with the Muslims. I dance with them.

而我選擇原諒。現在我和回教徒

I even had a movie out called "War Child,"

一起高歌、一塊跳舞

funded by Muslim people.

我甚至還拍了一部由回教徒贊助的電影

So that pain has gone out.

叫做「戰地兒童」

But my story is huge.

痛苦已漸漸離去

So I'm just going to go into a different step now,

但我的故事是很龐雜的

which is easier for me.

所以現在，我要用一個不同的作法

I'm going to give you poem

一個對我來說簡單一點的方式

called "Forced to Sin,"

我想朗誦一首詩

which is from my album "War Child."

叫做「被迫犯罪」

I talk about my story.

選自我的專輯《戰地兒童》

One of the journey that I tread

它在說我的故事

when I was tempted to eat my friend because we had no food

在一次行軍

and we were like around 400.

因為沒有食物，我必須吃下同伴的屍體果腹

And only 16 people survived that journey.

一開始我們的隊伍有400人

So I hope you're going to hear this.

行軍最後，只剩下16人還活著

My dreams are like torment.

我希望，你們能聽見我的聲音

My every moment.

我在夢中反覆煎熬

Voices in my brain, of friends that was slain.

每一刻

Friends like Lual who died by my side,

腦中都傳來死去朋友的聲音

of starvation.

他們就像Lual這樣，再也無法承受飢餓

In the burning jungle, and the desert plain.

死在我身旁

Next was I, but Jesus heard my cry.

在烈火焚林，也在廣漠荒原

As I was tempted to eat the rotten flesh

下一個應該就輪到我，但耶穌聽見了我的哭喊

of my comrade,

就當我要吃下同伴的

he gave me comfort.

腐爛身軀時

We used to raid villages,

祂給我慰藉

stealing chickens, goats and sheeps,

我們曾掠奪村莊

anything we could eat.

偷走雞隻和羊群

I knew it was rude, but we needed food.

偷走所有能吃的東西

And therefore I was forced to sin,

我明白這很粗蠻，但我們需要食物

forced to sin to make a living,

所以我不得不犯罪

forced to sin to make a living.

為了生存，我被迫去犯罪

Sometimes you gotta lose to win.

為了生存，我被迫去犯罪

Never give up. Never give in.

有時候，你必須有失，才能有得

Left home at the age of seven.

別放棄，別投降

One year later, live with an AK-47 by my side.

七歲離家

Slept with one eye open wide.

一年後，身邊多了把AK-47步槍

Run, duck, play dead and hide.

睡覺還得睜著一隻眼

I've seen my people die like flies.

奔跑、閃避、裝死、躲藏

But I've never seen a dead body,

同伴們彷彿螻蟻般一個個死去

at least one that I've killed.

但我從沒見過任何一具屍體

But still as I wonder, I won't go under.

至少沒見過因我而死的屍體

Guns barking like lightning and thunder.

但每當我徘徊，仍不認輸

As a child so young and tender,

四處都是槍林彈雨

Words I can't forget I still remember.

當時還年幼脆弱的我

I saw sergeant command raising his hand,

無法忘卻那個人說的話

no retreat, no surrender.

我看見那個指揮官高舉雙手喊

I carry the banner of the trauma.

「不撤退，不投降」

War child, child without a mama,

我遍體鱗傷

still fighting in the saga.

戰地兒童，沒有母親的孩子

Yet as I wage this new war I'm not alone in this drama.

仍上演著拚鬥的冒險故事

No sit or stop, as I reach for the top

然而在這場嶄新的戰役中，我並不孤單

I'm fully dedicated like a patriotic cop.

不到終點決不休息

I'm on a fight, day and night.

像個愛國的警察般全力以赴

Sometime I do wrong in order to make things right.

不分日夜地奮鬥

It's like I'm living a dream.

有時犯錯，是為了成就對的事

First time I'm feeling like a human being.

彷彿一直以來，我都活在夢中

Ah! The children of Darfur.

直到現在，才頭一次感覺自己像個人

Your empty bellies on the telly and now it's you

阿！達佛的孩子

that I'm fighting for.

電視中你飢餓的肚皮

Left home.

正是我奮鬥的原因

Don't even know the day I'll ever return.

離開家園

My country is war-torn.

不曉得何時才能回家

Music I used to hear was bombs and fire of guns.

我的家園被戰爭摧毀

So many people die that I don't even cry no more.

陪伴我的音樂，是隆隆作響的炸彈和槍聲

Ask God question, what am I here for.

太多人死亡，我甚至再也流不出淚

And why are my people poor.

請問蒼天，我的存在有意義嗎

And why, why when the rest of the children were learning how to read and write,

為什麼我們如此窮困

I was learning how to fight.

為什麼當其他孩子在上學時

I ate snails, vultures, rabbits,

我卻學習如何打仗

snakes, and anything that had life.

我吃過蝸牛、禿鷹、兔子、蛇

I was ready to eat.

任何有生命的東西

I know it's a shame. But who is to be blamed?

我都吃過

That's my story shared in the form of a lesson.

我知道很丟臉，但我能怪誰？

(Applause)

這就是我的故事

Thank you.

(鼓掌)

(Applause)

謝謝

What energized me and kept me going is the music I do.

(鼓掌)

I never saw anybody

我的音樂是支持我繼續的力量

to tell my story to them

沒人能替我

so they could advise me or do therapy.

向大眾訴說我的故事

So the music had been my therapy for me.

找人來輔導我、安慰我

It's been where I actually see heaven,

所以音樂成了我療傷的藥方

where I can be happy,

在音樂裡，我看見天堂

where I can be a child again, in dances, through music.

在那裡，我能感受快樂

So one thing I know about music:

我能找回童真，自在跳舞

music is the only thing that has power

我知道

to enter your cell system,

世上只有音樂能有力量

your mind, your heart,

穿越你的肌膚

influence your soul and your spirit,

你的意志、你的心靈

and can even influence the way you live

影響你的靈魂

without even you knowing.

並且在不知不覺中

Music is the only thing that can

影響你的生活方式

make you want to wake up your bed

只有音樂，才能讓你

and shake your leg,

早上自然地從床上醒來

without even wanting to do it.

不假思索地

And so the power music has

踢踢雙腳

I normally compare to the power love

我常拿音樂的力量

when love doesn't see a color.

和愛的力量相提並論

You know, if you fall in love with a frog, that's it.

愛是不分種族膚色的

One testimony about how I find music

就像你愛上了青蛙，也就只能愛上了

is powerful is when

關於我發現音樂強大力量

I was still a soldier back then.

的另一則故事

I hated the people in the north.

是發生在我還是童兵的時候

But I don't know why I don't hate their music.

當時我痛恨北方的人

So we party and dance to their music.

但我就是不恨他們的音樂

And one thing that shocked me is one day

我們總能隨他們的音樂起舞狂歡

they brought an Arab musician

最讓我吃驚的是

to come and entertain the soldiers.

有天，一個阿拉伯音樂家

And I almost broke my leg dancing to his music.

來營裡為士兵們表演

But I had this question.

那次我跳舞跳到腳都快斷了

So now I'm doing music so I know what the power of music is.

所以我有了個疑問

So what's happening here?

我現在成了音樂人，也懂得了音樂的力量

I've been in a painful journey.

從以前的我到現在，這中間發生了什麼事？

Today is day number 233

最近我正在進行一項痛苦的修煉

in which I only eat dinner.

這段時間我只吃晚餐

I don't eat breakfast. No lunch.

到今天是第233天

And I've done a campaign called

沒有早餐、沒有午餐

Lose to Win.

我發起一個運動叫做

Where I'm losing so that I could win

「先有失，才有得」

the battle that I'm fighting now.

像我現在做的事

So my breakfast, my lunch,

我放棄了一些東西來贏得勝利

I donate it to a charity that I founded

我的早餐、午餐

because we want to build a school in Sudan.

都捐給我成立的慈善機構

And I'm doing this because also

因為我想為蘇丹的孩子蓋間學校

it's a normal thing in my home, people eat one meal a day.

另一方面，我這麼做也是因為

Here I am in the West. I choose not to.

在我的國家，一天吃一餐是很正常的

So in my village now, kids there,

現在我到了西方國家，我仍選擇只吃一餐

they normally listen to BBC, or any radio,

在我家鄉的孩子們

and they are waiting to know,

會聽著BBC或其他廣播

the day Emmanuel will eat his breakfast

等著想知道

it means he got the money to build our school.

何時Emmanuel會重新開始吃早餐

And so I made a commitment. I say,

因為，那就表示有錢蓋學校了

"I'm gonna not eat my breakfast."

所以我做了承諾，我說

I thought I was famous enough that I would raise the money within one month,

「我決定不要吃早餐」

but I've been humbled.

我以為依照我的名氣，一個月內應該就能達成目標

(Laughter)

後來發現是我想太多了

So it's taken me 232 days.

(笑聲)

And I said, "No stop until we get it."

所以我花了232天

And like it's been done on Facebook, MySpace.

而我還是說，「未達目的決不放棄」

The people are giving three dollars.

在Facebook和Myspace都有人響應我的行動

The lowest amount we ever got was 20 cents.

有人捐出三塊美金

Somebody donated 20 cents online.

我們也曾獲得最低的捐贈，美金20分

I don't know how they did it.

對方透過網路捐了美金20分

(Laughter)

我真不曉得他們怎麼做到的

But that moved me.

(笑聲)

And so, the importance of education to me

但他們的善心感動了我

is what I'm willing to die for.

對我而言，教育

I'm willing to die for this,

是值得用生命換取的

because I know what it can do to my people.

我願意誓死奉獻

Education enlighten your brain,

因為我知道這能為我的族人做什麼

give you so many chances,

教育啟發心智

and you're able to survive.

賦予我們選擇的權利

As a nation we have been crippled.

讓我們有生存的機會

For so many years we have fed on aid.

那是個羸弱不堪的國度

You see a 20-years-old, 30-years-old

多年來只能靠援助維生

families in a refugee camps.

你可以看到2、30歲的人

They only get the food that drops from the sky, from the U.N.

與家人同住在難民營

So these people,

他們只能得到聯合國空投下來的食物

you're killing a whole generation if you just give them aid.

這些人

If anybody want to help us

如果只給予他們救濟物資的話，就形同扼殺了整個世代

this is what we need.

如果有任何人想幫助我們

Give us tools. Give the farmers tools.

請先了解我們的需要

It's rain. Africa is fertile. They can grow the crops.

請給我們工具，給我們農具

(Applause)

非洲有雨水、有沃土，人們是可以耕作的

Invest in education.

(掌聲)

Education so that we have strong institution

請投資教育吧

that can create a revolution to change everything.

投資教育，我們才能有健全的組織

Because we have all those old men

足以發起革新，改變原有的一切

that are creating wars in Africa. They will die soon.

那些在非洲製造戰爭的老頭們

But if you invest in education

垂垂老矣，很快就會死了

then we'll be able to change Africa.

如果你們投資教育

That's what I'm asking.

我們就能改造非洲

(Applause)

這就是我所呼籲的

So in order to do that,

(掌聲)

I founded a charter called Gua Africa,

為了這個目標

where we put kids in school.

我創立了Gua Africa機構

And now we have a couple in university.

安置孩子上學

We have like 40 kids, ex-child soldiers

而現在幾個孩子已上了大學

mixed with anybody that we feel like we want to support.

我們有40幾個孩子，他們有些曾是童兵

And I said "I'm going to put it in practice."

還有一些我們認為同樣需要支援的孩子

And with the people that are going to follow me and help me do things.

我說，我們要付諸實踐

That's what I want to do to change,

和那些願意跟隨我、幫助我的人

to make a difference in the world.

我們想要做出改變

Well now, my time is going,

創造不同的世界

so I want to sing a song.

現在，時間不多了