When I look back at my 20s, I think I've had some great experiences.

回顧我的 20 多歲，我覺得我有過很多美好的經歷。

I had good times and I went on so many adventures, but if I'm being honest, I also spent a lot of time worrying and trying to check off boxes, seeing my life as like one big to-do list.

我有過美好的時光，也經歷過許多冒險，但老實說，我也花了很多時間去擔心，試圖勾掉一些框框，把我的生活看成一個大的待辦事項清單。

When I was a teenager, I thought that in my 20s, I have to check off milestones, like be in a relationship, get married, buy a house, have kids, and have everything figured out.

當我還是個青少年時，我認為在 20 多歲時，我必須完成一些里程碑式的任務，比如談戀愛、結婚、買房子、生孩子，一切都要想好。

Well, now coming from a woman who is turning 30 soon, I'm not in a relationship, I'm not married, I don't have a house, I don't have kids.

現在，我是一個即將年滿 30 歲的女人，我沒有戀愛，沒有結婚，沒有房子，也沒有孩子。

Honestly, I don't even know if I want to have kids.

老實說，我都不知道自己是否想要孩子。

I still feel like a kid myself, and I'm still trying to figure things out, just like I did back when I was 20.

我仍然覺得自己還是個孩子，我仍然在試圖弄明白一些事情，就像我 20 歲時一樣。

You know, years ago, I had this idea of what my life would look like.

要知道，多年前，我曾設想過我的生活會是什麼樣子。

There was a path I thought I would follow, but then unexpected things happened, and I realized that nothing is certain.

我曾以為我會沿著一條路走下去，但後來發生了意想不到的事情，我意識到沒有什麼是確定的。

And from one day to another, everything can change.

從一天到另一天，一切都可能發生變化。

COVID-19, the disease that defined our lives in 2020.

COVID-19，一種決定我們 2020 年生活的疾病。

Chancellor Merkel announced the plan after talks with state leaders continued well into the night.

默克爾總理在與各州領導人會談至深夜後宣佈了這一計劃。

What happens when a virus hits the world, when everything turns upside down, and when you feel like locked away, not just physically, but also mentally, right in the middle of your 20s, when you have big dreams, plans, and all these expectations?

當病毒侵襲世界，當一切都變得天翻地覆，當你感覺自己被鎖起來，不僅是身體上的，還有精神上的，就在你 20 多歲的時候，當你有遠大的夢想、計劃和所有這些期望的時候，會發生什麼呢？

Well, it's hard.

嗯，很難。

And I, during that time, I felt like I'm losing control.

在那段時間裡，我感覺自己失去了控制。

But being locked away also gave me space, a lot of space to think about my life and to reflect on it.

但被關起來也給了我空間，給了我很大的空間去思考和檢討我的生活。

And I realized that there is no timeline for anything, and there is also no right path to follow.

我意識到，任何事情都沒有時間表，也沒有正確的道路可走。

COVID showed me that we can't control everything, and that life is unpredictable.

COVID 告訴我，我們無法控制一切，生活是不可預測的。

We have to let go of this idea that we have to have everything figured out by a certain age.

我們必須摒棄這種想法，即我們必須在某個年齡段之前把所有事情都想清楚。

It's just not possible.

這是不可能的。

And you know what?

你知道嗎？

That is okay.

沒關係。

For most of my 20s, I thought that if I just looked a certain way, if I had the perfect body, flawless skin, and beautiful long hair, I would finally feel beautiful.

在我 20 多歲的大部分時間裡，我一直以為，只要我長得像某種樣子，只要我有完美的身材、無暇的皮膚和漂亮的長髮，我就會覺得自己終於變美了。

But the truth is, I almost never felt beautiful, even when I achieved everything I thought I wanted.

但事實是，我幾乎從未感覺到自己是美麗的，即使我實現了我認為自己想要的一切。

I've wasted so much time chasing someone else's idea of beauty, and I was constantly comparing myself and my appearance to unrealistic standards.

我浪費了太多時間去追逐別人心目中的美，我總是用不切實際的標準來比較自己和自己的外表。

Trying so hard to look like someone else and trying to change made me forget who I am and how beautiful I am in my own unique way.

拼命想讓自己看起來像別人，試圖改變自己，讓我忘記了自己是誰，忘記了自己獨特的美麗。

Every single time when I open this app, when I open Instagram, and when I see those pretty pictures, those beautiful bodies, those flawless women, I feel bad.

每次我打開這個軟件，打開 Instagram，看到那些漂亮的照片，那些美麗的身材，那些完美無瑕的女性，我都會感覺很糟糕。

And I feel ugly.

我覺得自己很醜。

I feel like I'm not beautiful because I don't look like those women.

我覺得我不漂亮，因為我長得不像那些女人。

And it's so weird because I already know before opening the app, I already know if I end up scrolling here now, then I feel bad about myself.

這太奇怪了，因為我在打開應用程序之前就已經知道，如果我現在滾動到這裡，我就會覺得自己很糟糕。

So why am I still doing it?

那我為什麼還要這麼做呢？

And why am I comparing myself or my body to someone from the other side of the world, like a person that I don't even know?

我為什麼要把自己或自己的身體與世界另一端的人相比較，就像一個我根本不認識的人？

And deep inside, I know they might have photoshopped their photos or they made this photo in the perfect light, in the perfect moment.

在我的內心深處，我知道他們可能對照片進行了PS處理，或者他們是在完美的光線、完美的時刻拍下了這張照片。

So what is wrong with me that I keep doing that and that I keep comparing myself to that?

那麼，我到底是哪裡出了問題，才會一直這樣做，才會一直拿自己和別人比較？

I don't know.

我不知道。

But I think it's just important to keep reminding ourselves that first of all, this is not real.

但我認為，重要的是要不斷提醒自己，首先，這不是真的。

What we see on this phone, on the screen, most of the time, it's not real.

我們在手機螢幕上看到的，大多數時候都不是真的。

And then I also want to remind myself that beauty or feeling beautiful, we always think in terms of beauty, it's just the way we look.

然後，我還想提醒自己，美或感覺美，我們總是從美的角度去思考，這只是我們的外表。

But when was the last time I felt truly beautiful?

但我上一次真正感到美麗是什麼時候？

I'm just thinking right now.

我現在就在想

And there was a really special moment a couple of days ago when I felt really, really beautiful.

幾天前，有一個非常特別的時刻，我覺得自己真的非常非常漂亮。

And it was during a really nice, honest, real and unfiltered conversation.

那是在一次非常愉快、坦誠、真實和未經過濾的談話中。

Like I looked someone into the eyes and he looked into my eyes and we just talked.

就像我看著別人的眼睛，他也看著我的眼睛，我們就這樣聊了起來。

But really honest and really raw.

但真的很誠實，很原始。

And I was just myself.

而我只是我自己。

And I think he was himself as well.

我覺得他也是他自己。

And it was so beautiful.

它是如此美麗。

And I felt beautiful because I could be myself.

我覺得自己很美，因為我可以做我自己。

And I felt so safe and so beautiful in that special moment.

在那個特殊的時刻，我感到如此安全，如此美麗。

Or just being surrounded by the right people where I can truly be myself.

或者只是被合適的人圍繞著，在那裡我可以真正做我自己。

That's when I feel beautiful.

那是我感到美麗的時候。

Truly beautiful.

真是美不勝收。

Let's talk about FOMO.

讓我們來談談 FOMO。

Wow, everyone is so beautiful.

哇，每個人都這麼漂亮。

And everyone has the best time of their lives.

每個人都度過了一生中最美好的時光。

Always.

總是這樣

Except me.

除了我

Too many times I compared my body to others, but not just my body, but also my whole entire life.

我曾多次將自己的身體與他人進行比較，但不僅僅是我的身體，還有我的整個人生。

It's your 20s, so we should go out, we should party, we should go on adventures and travel the world.

你們才 20 多歲，應該出去走走，開開派對，去冒險，環遊世界。

Always.

總是這樣

Right?

對不對？

Well, my reality was just so different.

然而，我的現實卻與此大相徑庭。

I mean, yes, there had been adventures, there had been parties, there had been parties, and exciting things.

我的意思是，是的，有過冒險，有過聚會，有過派對，有過令人興奮的事情。

But more often, I had days when I had been at home, alone, doing absolutely nothing.

但更多的時候，我都是一個人呆在家裡，什麼也不做。

And it was in those moments or on those days when I felt like I'm a loser and I was missing out.

正是在那些時刻或那些日子裡，我覺得自己是個失敗者，我錯過了很多。

Too many times I was comparing my behind the scenes to everyone else's highlight reel.

很多時候，我都在拿自己的幕後花絮和別人的精彩鏡頭作比較。

And the truth is, I wasn't missing out.

事實上，我並沒有錯過。

I was just living life differently, in my own way and at my own pace.

我只是以自己的方式和節奏，過著與眾不同的生活。

Something that really helped me, especially when I felt really insecure, when I struggled with self-doubt, when I simply just felt not good enough, was talking to someone, talking to friends, talking to my parents.

對我真正有幫助的事情，尤其是當我感到非常不安全，當我在自我懷疑中掙扎，當我只是覺得自己不夠好的時候，就是找人傾訴，找朋友傾訴，找父母傾訴。

And when I felt like they don't really understand my problem or they can't really help me, then I talked to a therapist.

當我覺得他們並不真正瞭解我的問題，或者他們並不能真正幫助我時，我就去找治療師。

And I highly, highly recommend that.

我強烈推薦你這樣做。

Like, in your 20s, if you struggle with something, go to therapy.

比如，在你 20 多歲的時候，如果你在某件事情上掙扎，就去接受治療。

It's okay.

沒關係。

And it doesn't mean that you're crazy.

這並不意味著你瘋了。

Not at all.

完全沒有。

It's just, you're growing as a person by talking to someone about your feelings or about things that happened in the past.

只是，通過向別人傾訴自己的感受或過去發生的事情，你的人格在不斷成長。

I've realized that everyone has some sort of childhood trauma or some form of inner child work to do.

我意識到，每個人都有某種童年創傷或某種形式的內在兒童工作要做。

And the sooner you start, the better, I think.

我認為，越早開始越好。

So there's absolutely nothing wrong by talking to a therapist.

是以，與治療師交談絕對沒有錯。

And I highly recommend it.

我強烈推薦。

To me, it really helped me to find more peace within myself and with a lot of thoughts that are going on in my head.

對我來說，它真的幫我找到了更多內心的平靜，也幫我解決了腦子裡的很多想法。

Also something I felt and thought very often was that no matter what I do or no matter how much I do or who I am, it's just not enough.

此外，我經常感到和想到的是，無論我做什麼，無論我做多少，無論我是誰，都是不夠的。

In all areas of life, from my career goals to my fitness goals, I constantly felt like I have to have or I have to do more.

在生活的各個領域，從我的職業目標到我的健身目標，我總是覺得我必須擁有或必須做得更多。

I think there's nothing wrong with always setting new goals and constantly trying to grow as a person.

我認為，不斷設定新目標，不斷努力成長為一個人，這並沒有錯。

But I wish I would have enjoyed this whole process a tiny little bit more and be more present and be proud of myself at one point.

但我希望自己能更多地享受整個過程，更有存在感，並一度為自己感到驕傲。

Because no matter what I achieved, I never took the time to be proud of it.

因為無論我取得了什麼成就，我都從未花時間為此感到驕傲。

And instead I kept running and I kept chasing and I always kept thinking of what's next.

相反，我一直在跑，一直在追，一直在想下一步該怎麼走。

My advice for people in their 20s.

我給 20 多歲年輕人的建議

First of all, yes, there are so many things I did in my 20s that I regret.

首先，是的，我在 20 多歲時做過很多讓我後悔的事情。

But at the same time, I don't.

但同時，我也不知道。

Like all these things and all these mistakes that I made, they made me wiser, they made me learn something and they made me reflect about my life and about myself.

就像我犯過的所有這些事情和錯誤一樣，它們讓我變得更加聰明，讓我學到了一些東西，讓我對生活和自己進行了反思。

So please make mistakes and don't be afraid to make them.

所以，請犯錯，不要害怕犯錯。

Keep trying, keep failing and falling.

不斷嘗試，不斷失敗，不斷跌倒。

It's all okay as long as you always stand back up again and as long as you learn from them.

只要你能重新站起來，只要你能從中吸取教訓，這一切都沒有問題。

I also want everyone watching, no matter if you're in your 20s or not, I just want you to be a bit more present again.

我也希望每一位觀眾，無論你是否在 20 多歲，我只希望你能再多一點存在感。

There is an offline world as well that we often forget about.

還有一個我們經常忘記的線下世界。

But like this world, this offline world and everything around us, it's just so beautiful.

但就像這個世界，這個線下世界和我們周圍的一切，都是如此美麗。

When was the last time you just had been outside and listened to the sounds of nature or lived truly in the moment without expecting something or chasing something?

你上一次走出戶外，聆聽大自然的聲音，或者不期待、不追逐什麼，真正活在當下是什麼時候？

You only live once.

生命只有一次。

And this moment right now, it will never ever happen again.

而此時此刻，這一切將永遠不會再發生。

So please be more present, embrace it and try to make the most out of it.

是以，請更多地關注它，擁抱它，並努力充分利用它。

Last but not least, at the end of this video, I want to tell you to please be yourself.

最後，在本視頻的最後，我想告訴大家，請做你自己。

And I know that's hard, especially in your 20s and it's easier said than done.

我知道這很難，尤其是在你 20 多歲的時候，說起來容易做起來難。

But in a world where everyone tries to be the same or look the same, just be yourself because that is your superpower.

但在這個世界上，每個人都試圖成為一樣的人，或者看起來是一樣的，做你自己就好，因為這是你的超能力。

That is what makes you beautiful.

這就是你的美麗之處。

That is what makes you powerful and unstoppable.

這就是你的力量所在，勢不可擋。

Please be yourself and also let everyone around you, let them be themselves.

請做你自己，也讓你身邊的每一個人，做他們自己。

Also your 20s guys, like it's not over after your 20s.

還有你們 20 多歲的時候，就像過了 20 多歲還沒有結束一樣。

I'm turning 30 soon and I am really scared.

我馬上就要 30 歲了，我真的很害怕。

I'm really scared, but I just try to also see the positive in it, because the older I get, the more I can learn and the more I can grow and the more I can share with you.

我真的很害怕，但我只是努力從中看到積極的一面，因為我年紀越大，能學到的就越多，能成長的就越多，能與你們分享的也就越多。

I hope you enjoyed this video and can't wait to talk to you soon.

希望您喜歡這段視頻，並迫不及待地想盡快與您聯繫。

Bye.

再見。