Like, what does it actually feel like?

比如，實際感覺如何？

Well, it's not always the same.

其實，情況並不總是一樣的。

I have good days, bad days, and on my good days, I can, you know, almost pass for a normal person.

我有好的時候，也有壞的時候，在我好的時候，你知道，我幾乎可以冒充一個正常人。

But on my bad days, I feel like I can't find myself.

但在我糟糕的日子裡，我感覺找不到自己。

I've always been so defined by my intellect, my language, my articulation, and now sometimes I can see the words hanging in front of me and I can't reach them and I don't know who I am and I don't know what I'm going to lose next.

我總是被自己的智力、語言、表達能力所定義，而現在，有時我可以看到文字懸掛在我面前，我卻無法觸及它們，我不知道我是誰，我不知道接下來我會失去什麼。

Sounds horrible.

聽起來真可怕

Thanks for asking.

謝謝您的關心。