My name is Billie Eilish.

我叫比莉-艾莉什。

Billie Eilish.

比莉-艾莉什

Billie Eilish.

比莉-艾莉什

Billie Eilish.

比莉-艾莉什

Billie Eilish.

比莉-艾莉什

Billie Eilish.

比莉-艾莉什

I'm Billie Eilish.

我是比莉-艾莉什

I'm looking at all the frozen years past.

我看著過去所有冰凍的歲月。

Love you all.

愛你們

I'm Billie Eilish.

我是比莉-艾莉什

I think it's October 18th.

我想是 10 月 18 日。

It's October 18th.

現在是 10 月 18 日。

October 18th.

10 月 18 日

I'm 15.

我才15歲

16.

16.

17.

17.

18.

18.

19.

19.

20.

20.

21.

21.

I'm 22.

我 22 歲。

This is the first year in my life that I keep forgetting how old I am.

今年是我有生以來第一次忘記自己的年齡。

257,000.

257,000.

6.3 million.

630 萬美元。

40.7.

40.7.

67.5.

67.5.

94.1 million followers.

9410萬粉絲

106.

106.

About 110.

關於 110.

120 million.

1.2 億。

Another year.

又是一年。

Seven years.

七年了

This is the eighth video, right?

這是第八個視頻，對嗎？

But it was seven years ago today that we started this.

但七年前的今天，我們開始了這項工作。

We didn't put out a video last year.

我們去年沒有推出視頻。

It's true.

這是真的。

A big, big year.

重要的一年

Just the whole, the whole Barbie thing.

就是整個，整個芭比娃娃的事情。

Swarm.

蜂群。

Tour.

遊覽。

I finally played Brazil.

我終於玩了巴西。

Labyrinth.

迷宮

Yep, live at the O2.

是的，在 O2 現場。

Yeah, Coachella.

是啊，科切拉

Bad guy.

壞人

Went diamond.

鑽石

I'm back on my bullshit.

我又開始胡扯了。

I want to do more.

我想做得更多。

What does that mean, I want to do more?

我想做得更多是什麼意思？

Wow, I was like yelling.

哇，我當時就想大喊大叫。

I've spent a lot of time in the last, like, this summer looking at videos and photos from, like, this month.

去年夏天，我花了很多時間看這個月的視頻和照片。

Since then, so much has happened.

從那時起，發生了很多事情。

It's nonsense.

這是無稽之談。

I have the most monthly listeners right on Spotify in the entire world.

我在 Spotify 上擁有全世界最多的月聽眾。

So I surpassed 100 million monthly listeners.

是以，我的月聽眾人數突破了 1 億。

And then now I am the most streamed artist in the world on Spotify.

現在，我是 Spotify 上全球播放次數最多的藝人。

I released my album.

我發行了我的專輯。

Went on tour again.

又去巡演了

I made so many new friends.

我認識了很多新朋友。

Adopted another dog.

又領養了一隻狗

It's been a friendship-filled year.

這是充滿友誼的一年。

I and Phineas won an Oscar for, what was I made for?

我和菲尼亞斯都獲得了奧斯卡獎，那我是為什麼獲獎的？

I can't even really describe how amazing that was.

我甚至無法形容那有多麼神奇。

And then it was like we were the youngest people in history to win two or something crazy.

然後就好像我們是歷史上最年輕的贏了兩次的人，或者其他什麼瘋狂的事情。

Ooh, did I predict it?

哦，我預測到了嗎？

Am I gonna win the Oscar?

我會贏得奧斯卡獎嗎？

I don't know.

我不知道。

We're manifesting, but we're also not gonna be disappointed and angry if I don't.

我們在體現，但如果我沒有體現，我們也不會失望和生氣。

And I do think, objectively, it is one of the best songs I've ever made.

客觀地說，我確實認為這是我創作過的最好的歌曲之一。

I don't, I think it's crazy that we would win again.

我不這麼認為，我覺得我們再贏一次太瘋狂了。

Again.

再來一次

Yeah, I kind of can't believe that happened again.

是啊，我有點不敢相信又發生了這種事。

I feel proud of it and I'm proud to have made it.

我為它感到驕傲，也為自己能做到這一點而自豪。

Proud that it is of me.

我為自己感到驕傲。

I want to rescue some horses.

我想拯救一些馬。

Maybe skydive.

也許可以跳傘

Like a bungee jump off a cliff or something.

比如從懸崖上蹦極跳下來什麼的。

I really want to do stuff like that.

我真的很想做這樣的事情。

Things that I could die because of.

我可能是以而死的事情

I want to adventure so bad.

我太想冒險了。

I do want to skydive.

我確實想跳傘。

Haven't done that yet.

還沒做過。

Be doing racing.

參加比賽

Be doing stunt driving.

要做特技駕駛。

I definitely want some more piercings.

我肯定還想再穿幾個洞。

I want some more tattoos.

我想要更多的紋身。

Another dog.

另一隻狗

Be hanging out with your family.

和你的家人在一起

Be making new friends.

結交新朋友

Be having new friends.

有新朋友

Be having good...

要有良好的...

...sex.

...性

Got there.

到了

I've done nothing but make friends all year and...

我這一年除了交朋友什麼都沒做，...

...gotten so close with people that I wasn't with before and...

......和以前不在一起的人變得如此親密，......

...became friends with people I used to be friends with again and...

......與我過去的朋友再次成為朋友，......

...just like...

......就像...

It's just been a year filled with friendship which honestly...

老實說，這是充滿友誼的一年。

...even though I was saying a lot of things that I want to do...

......儘管我說了很多我想做的事情......

...that was the real...

......這才是真正的...

...that was like the thing that I wanted to do.

......那就是我想做的事。

And I really did it and it was awesome.

我真的做到了，而且非常棒。

And yes, I've had a lot of good sex.

是的，我有過很多美好的性生活。

So, you're welcome, Billy.

不客氣 比利

I want you to have fixed the little chip.

我希望你能修好那塊小芯片。

You can see it.

你可以看到它。

2018.

2018.

Did it to me.

我也是

And when I'm smiling, my tooth is so ugly.

當我笑的時候，我的牙齒是那麼難看。

Whiten those suckers.

美白它們

I'll let have you know, Miss Red Hair, that I chipped another tooth.

我會讓你知道的，紅髮小姐，我又掉了一顆牙。

So not only did I not fix the other chip, but I also chipped another one.

是以，我不僅沒有修好另一個缺口，還弄壞了另一個缺口。

So now I have a chip here and a chip here.

現在我這裡有一塊芯片，這裡有一塊芯片。

I also remember really wanting me at that time to fix this little gap as well.

我還記得，當時我也非常希望我能夠彌補這個小小的缺陷。

And...

還有

I'm in the process.

我正在處理中。

Okay.

好的

God.

上帝啊

Hopefully, keep doing what you're doing because I hope that what you're doing is...

希望你們能繼續做下去，因為我希望你們所做的是......

...good.

......很好。

Don't do that thing again where you...

不要再做那種你...

...just do what somebody else wants to do.

......只是做別人想做的事。

We're not going to let somebody...

我們不會讓別人...

...take away my sparkle, as they say.

......就像他們說的那樣，奪走了我的光芒。

Solid advice.

可靠的建議

And I haven't done that.

而我還沒有做到這一點。

That really has stuck in my head.

這句話深深地印在我的腦海裡。

And I think that I used to pretend like I was doing that.

我想，我曾經假裝自己在這樣做。

But I think, since then, I really have been doing that.

但我想，從那時起，我真的一直在這樣做。

And I don't...

我不...

I'm really...

我真的...

I really trust myself.

我真的相信自己。

And I think, like, especially that 2022 girl.

我想，尤其是那個 2022 年的女孩。

I don't think, like, I trusted her.

我覺得我不信任她

So I really trust myself now.

所以，我現在真的很相信自己。

And I'm not going to let any of that stuff happen again.

我不會讓這樣的事情再次發生。

And it hasn't happened again.

這種情況再也沒有發生過。

And I've been very cautious about that.

我對此一直非常謹慎。

And it's always scary when you, you know, fall in love.

當你墜入愛河時，總是會感到害怕。

Or you're, you know, seeing someone.

或者你，你知道，在和某人約會。

Or you like someone.

或者你喜歡某個人。

Or whatever it is.

或者不管是什麼。

And it's hard to know what the hell is going on.

很難知道到底發生了什麼。

Because you're kind of blinded by this, like, curtain of, like, you know, lust.

因為你被這種，就像，你知道的，慾望的帷幕矇蔽了雙眼。

And love and admiration.

還有愛和欽佩。

So I was very cautious.

所以我非常謹慎。

And have been cautious.

而且一直很謹慎。

I'm currently cautious.

我目前很謹慎。

And I've been really a good girl.

我真的是個好女孩。

So, not disappointing you.

所以，沒有讓你失望。

I promise.

我保證

Brockhampton.

布羅克漢普頓

Tierra Whack.

Tierra Whack.

Techno.

技術

Arlo Parks.

阿羅-帕克斯

The Doe.

無名氏

Cake.

蛋糕

The Cardigans.

The Cardigans.

Dora.

朵拉

You Know Who.

你知道是誰

And then also...

然後還...

Me.

我

Deftones.

Deftones。

A lot of Deftones.

很多 Deftones

Mazzy Star.

馬茲星

This album called Sunburn by Dominic Fike.

這張專輯名叫《Sunburn》，作者是多米尼克-費克（Dominic Fike）。

Honestly, I've been listening to a lot of Lady Gaga.

老實說，我聽了很多 Lady Gaga 的歌。

Like, old Lady Gaga.

比如，老 Lady Gaga。

It's so good.

太好吃了

Alejandro.

亞歷杭德羅

And Poker Face.

還有撲克臉

And G.E.Y.

和 G.E.Y.

And Born This Way.

天生如此

Fruitvale Station.

水果谷車站

I Origins.

I 起源。

Ferris Bueller's Day Off is a solid choice.

布勒的一天》（Ferris Bueller's Day Off）是個不錯的選擇。

Sicario.

西卡里奧

That shit is fire.

這玩意兒真火。

Fruitvale Station.

水果谷車站

That movie's fucking fire, though.

不過，那部電影真他媽火。

It's a great movie.

這是一部偉大的電影。

But Secretary.

但祕書

I feel really good about it.

我感覺非常好。

I think we're, like, 85% done.

我想我們已經完成了85%。

Maybe 90.

也許是90

It's very genuinely, like, what I wanted to make, I think.

我想，這就是我想要做的東西。

It's true.

這是真的。

Like, it was just such a drag.

就像，它只是這樣的拖累。

It was so punishing.

這太有懲罰性了。

But I feel like it is the best thing that I've—

但我覺得這是我做過的最棒的事情。

Phineas and I have ever made.

菲尼亞斯和我做過的

And I'm so endlessly proud of it.

我為此感到無比自豪。

Like, you don't even know.

就像，你甚至不知道。

I used to have this feeling with my music.

我以前的音樂也有這種感覺。

Like, I liked it, but I was kind of embarrassed for people that I thought were cool to listen to it.

比如，我喜歡它，但對於那些我認為很酷的人來說，聽它有點尷尬。

Like, anytime somebody that I thought was really cool said they listened to my song,

比如，只要我覺得很酷的人說他們聽了我的歌、

I'd get all embarrassed and nervous and kind of frustrated and annoyed, honestly.

說實話，我會感到尷尬、緊張、沮喪和惱火。

I'd be like, no, don't listen to that.

我會說，不，別聽他的。

Like, that's private.

比如，那是隱私。

And I think I wasn't as proud of it.

我覺得我並沒有那麼驕傲。

And I think that now, in my life and where I am in my career,

我認為，在我現在的生活和職業生涯中、

I really stand for my music.

我真的很喜歡我的音樂。

Like, I feel really proud of it.

我為此感到非常自豪。

There's this one song called Lunch that I think people might like a lot.

有一首歌叫《午餐》，我覺得大家可能會很喜歡。

There's a song called Birds of a Feather.

有一首歌叫《群鳥》。

Damn, I'm giving you titles.

媽的，我給你起了個頭銜。

Whoa.

哇哦

My prediction then, that I don't know why I didn't even say, but it was what I was thinking then, was I thought Lunch would be the hit, but I also remember being like, but watch, Birds of a Feather is going to end up being the real hit.

我當時的預測是，我認為《午餐》會大受歡迎，但我也記得自己當時的想法是，但看著吧，《百鳥朝鳳》最終會成為真正的大熱門。

Lunch was, like, big when this album came out.

這張專輯面世時，午餐很受歡迎。

And then, Birds...

然後，鳥兒們...

Birds is number one.

鳥類是第一位的。

Lowest point of the year was probably in January.

今年的最低點可能是在一月份。

I had a meeting with, like, my managers and stuff.

我和我的經理們開了個會。

They were showing me the schedule for the whole year.

他們向我展示了全年的日程安排。

And I sat there and was totally silent and totally still and just tears, like, just streamed down my face.

我坐在那裡，一言不發，一動不動，眼淚嘩嘩地流了下來。

That was a horrible, horrible day.

那真是可怕、可怕的一天。

Gosh.

天哪

I mean, you know, I was, like, had just turned 17 and life was seeming very daunting and ended up being even more intense than I ever cried about.

我的意思是，你知道，我當時剛滿 17 歲，生活看起來非常艱辛，最後甚至比我哭過的還要激烈。

If I had really known how it would all go,

如果我真的知道一切會如何發展、

I would have been bawling my eyes out for days, but also I would have been excited at the same time.

如果是我，我會嚎啕大哭好幾天，但同時也會很興奮。

The reason I was crying in that story is because I was looking at my touring schedule and it was, like, you know, it's horrifying to see your life planned out like that two years in advance.

我在故事裡哭的原因是，我看著我的巡演日程表，就像，你知道，提前兩年就把你的生活計劃得這麼周密，實在是太可怕了。

It's, like, especially for, like, a little girl,

特別是對小女孩來說、

I wish that I hadn't had to deal with that, but also, like, my life's fucking awesome and I'm really lucky at the same time.

我希望自己不用面對這些，但同時，我的生活真他媽棒，我真的很幸運。

Touring used to be something that was extremely unpleasant and I would dread it and I would only dread it.

巡迴演出曾經是一件非常不愉快的事情，我會害怕它，而且只會害怕它。

And the only reason I, you know, did it at all was because I love performing and I always have.

我之所以這麼做，是因為我喜歡錶演，而且一直都喜歡。

And even when I dreaded those tours and, you know, hated the whole process,

即使我害怕那些旅行，你知道，我討厭整個過程、

I loved performing at the end of the day.

我喜歡在一天結束時進行表演。

I had this moment, like, a year ago or two, a year ago, I think, where I was kind of like, touring doesn't have to be miserable and I don't have to just sit through it and take it.

一年前或兩年前，我有過這樣的想法：巡演不一定要很悲慘，我也不一定要坐著忍受。

I can make it fun.

我能讓它變得有趣。

I mean, I'm the fucking boss, for God's sake.

我的意思是，我是他媽的老闆，看在上帝的份上。

And I sat down with my touring team and I was like, let's figure out all the ways to make this fun because this is my job and it's my life and I want to keep doing it and I don't want to, you know, be so tortured by it that I end up never doing it again because I'm resentful of, you know.

我和我的巡演團隊坐下來，我想，讓我們一起想辦法讓這一切變得有趣，因為這是我的工作，這是我的生活，我想繼續做下去，我不想，你知道的，被它折磨得死去活來，以至於最後再也不做了，因為我怨恨，你知道的。

And so I've created a, you know, surrounding that is just, like, joyous and filled with laughter and love.

是以，我創造了一個，你知道的，充滿歡樂、笑聲和愛的環境。

And for the first time in my life, once again, the words are coming out of my mouth that are,

這是我有生以來第一次從嘴裡說出這樣的話、

I wish this tour would never end.

我希望這次巡演永遠不要結束。

Ugh.

唉。

I do have a concert tonight, yeah, and I had one last night and the night before that and tomorrow I'm on SNL.

今晚我確實有一場演唱會，是的，昨晚和前晚也有一場，明天我還要上 SNL。

Three show nights in a row is, like, a lot, but it's okay.

一連三個演出之夜實在是太多了，不過沒關係。

It was at the Crocodile in Seattle and it was, like, 500, I think.

那是在西雅圖的鱷魚酒吧，大概有 500 人吧。

Was that me saying that was my biggest show?

是我說那是我最重要的演出嗎？

Wow.

哇

It's impossible to try to, you know, take in and acknowledge even.

這是不可能的，你知道，甚至無法接受和承認。

I mean, it's so, I can't really think about it too much because it'll make me cry and then it'll also give me an existential crisis, but I can't believe the way my life has gone and where it is now.

我的意思是，我真的不能想太多，因為這會讓我哭泣，然後也會給我帶來生存危機，但我無法相信我的生活已經發生了什麼變化，以及它現在在哪裡。

I mean, it's just, like, the craziest fucking thing in the world.

我是說，這簡直是世界上最瘋狂的事了

No one.

沒有人

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